The loops were really wearing Seokjin out. There really was nothing he could do to save them. Temptation was at its highest.
If you ever asked Seokjin if he would've done this years ago, he would say no. His friends all had busy home lives, and he always felt so much more privileged then them. They never knew about the power his father held, and probably never will.
If he ever got out of the loops, he would not believe it. As days pass, he wouldn't remember the first timeline. He'd rather not, but it'd be nice to see how much he grew. No longer was there a college sophomore afraid he couldn't get pass his father, but a man who was secure with loving his friends and himself.
He knows that there will be insecurities, but he could get passed that. He survived another day after all, and he has the willpower to do this.
But for him, romance will remain a struggle. His family still has authority from him, and he can't exactly stay long in Korea. He will try to keep contact as long as he can. And he would love to stay, but he can't rebel now. At least from his father's perspective.But for now, he has his friends. He hopes they will stay.
At night, he examines himself. What do people see of him? Will his father's chains on him break for once in his life? And will he ever truly know his actions? Should he trust himself? The moon is comfort, as it is a constant among all his raging thoughts.
Anything might happen wrong in a singular moment, but he will give himself up if he sees his friends suffer.
He wished there was someone to guide him on how time loops worked. But there was nothing he could do. It is all in the past now. Time is flowing, and even if he dissociates from the time, it is going.
The cat from long ago intrigued him. 5 young boys have gotten missing a month or so ago, and he admits he thinks the cat was behind it.
He was sure they were stressed. Seokjin saw that there was a harder problems to face. Both in society and in schoolkids today. The pressure for being a teacher struck him. If only he grabbed an opportunity to teach. But no, he was forced to be a doctor. He wanted to be an inspiration for someone, like an actor or an idol. The industry is tough, however. He knows those kids will think the world is against them.
There is a lot of things he could say while being in these loops. But all he has to say was to not fight with yourself.