More drama ahead...
Aunt Esme made tea and we sat in her cute sitting room. It was stylish and feminine; it was perfectly Esme. I was scared shitless by the gleam in my Aunt's eyes. It was knowing and humorous all at once. She seemed to be deciding what to say and I couldn't stop biting my bottom lip nervously and praying Edward would come save me from this.
"Bella," She started in a very comforting sweet voice, "when you were 12, we had that talk about boys and girls being different and how you were becoming a woman. I know you probably thought that was the only talk about sex you'd get. That was just the first half." She sighed.
"Aunt Esme we really don't have to talk about this." I begged.
"Bella we really do." She was dead set she had that firm Mom voice going. "Did you know when I was your age Carlisle and I were already madly in love and making love?"
"No." I whispered wanting to yell TMI at her.
"Bella I'm not going to judge; I'm not going to say you can't or should have sex. I will tell you this. Sex is beautiful when it is between 2 people who are in love. Yes, people enjoy it when they are just hooking up," OMG my aunt just said hooking up! "Your first time should be the most special, and I'd be a hypocrite to say wait till your wedding night sweetie. If Edward is who you decide to give your virginity to, and the way the 2 of you look at one another I'm going to go with more than likely yes, he is a wonderful young man. However, he has a lot more experience than you do dear." Great Esme thanks for the reminder, and by the way if my face gets any redder will it explode?
"Aunt Esme umm do we really need to do this?"
"Yes." She sighed again and took a sip of her tea. "There are pluses to Edward being more experienced, he'll know what he's doing so therefore you'll get more pleasure," OH God take me NOW! "and generally, guys with more experience can last longer during sex." WHY ME LORD?!
"AUNT ESME!"
"Bella please calm down." She gave a small laugh. "I want you to remember though 2 important things, 1) Be open and honest with your partner during intercourse and 2) Be safe." Fuck me really, I just want to find a 6-foot-deep hole and crawl in. "And Bella don't second guess yourself and worry that you don't live up to the ones before you, it will cause you nothing but grief. Trust me I went through that thinking I'd never compare to the girl before me. But I found out there was no comparison because with love, the others fade away." She smiled gently and patted my knee.
"Umm ok." Great now I am thinking about the others before me.
"Bella do you have any questions at all about any of this? The mechanics, feelings, anything?"
"Not right now." I turned suddenly at the knock on the door. Oh, fuck Carlisle is here and damned if Edward isn't right behind him. Save me Edward!
"Dear are you ready for us?" Carlisle questioned his wife.
"Yes, please join us." Carlisle took the wing back chair next to Esme and Edward joined me on the pretty love seat.
"Run for your life." I whispered to him and he smirked and offered me some chocolate covered peanuts.
"Ok kids I think the time has come for us to have a talk. I've been putting it off but as an adult and a doctor and your father/step-uncle I know I need to step up to my duty and have this talk." Poor Carlisle he looked like he was going to go as red as me. Aww Edward just took my hand in his and started rubbing comforting circles on the back of it. Sigh.
"Ok Dad let's just get this over with." Edward told him in a firm voice.
"Ok." He looked between us then at our hands and gave a little smile. "Both of you are almost adults and your both highly intelligent and most of the time very responsible. Nevertheless, you both reside under the same roof and that makes this a bit more complicated." Oh shit.
"Are you saying that I need to move back to Charlie's?" I asked in a small voice.
"No Bella." Carlisle answered.
At that same time Edward and Esme yelled "NO!"
"Bella this is your home. No matter what. I trust you both. Jasper and Rose are here more nights than they are home so don't think if you two do get involved we'd try to keep you apart." Carlisle sighed and tinged a little pink.
"Bella what my lovely husband is trying to explain is, you live in the same house and if you fight or break up it will affect the whole house hold. We just want you to know that unless it is something severe, we will not take sides, nor will we get in the middle of it. We are going to treat you like mature responsible young adults."
"Can I say something?" Edward finally butts in.
"Of course, son."
"Did Alice or Emmett have to sit through this talk with their significant others?" Yep that's my man.
"No." Carlisle acknowledges.
"Then Bella and I assure you that we will take all of this advice into account should we ever need it, and should the time ever come we will be safe because I'm sure a safety lecture is coming. In the mean time until Alice and Emmett are subjected to this Bella and I can assure you both we are not at that stage nor do we need to be singled out." He told them firmly.
"Edward we are not singling you out. Your situation is far different than Alice and Emmett's." Esme spoke up. "You live in the same house and Bella is a virgin." Oh just go ahead and kill me now I swear.
"Yes, and we are both very aware of these things." I love you Edward my knight with sex hair. "Is there any other humiliation you wish to put us through? Because I'm not sure that shade of purple Bella's face has become is healthy."
"Bella your aunt and I have discussed this and we wanted to know if you'd feel comfortable going on the pill?" Seriously did he just ask me that?
"I'm umm, kinda, already on the pill." I stammered.
"WHAT?!" Shit Esme calm down.
"Yea my umm female cycle wasn't regular and umm Dr. Barnes put me on the pill 5 months ago. Charlie's insurance covers it."
"And you didn't feel the need to tell me?" Esme asked hurt.
"I didn't want you to think I was on it for umm sexual purposes." I whispered.
"Bella, you should have told me dear. If it's medical I need to know." She informed me still looking hurt.
"I'm sorry."
"It's fine just bring the prescription down later so I can add it to your list of meds and allergies." I got up and went over and hugged my aunt.
"I love you aunt Esme I'm sorry I hurt your feelings." She hugged me back tighter.
"It's fine baby girl."
Carlisle cleared his throat drawing our attention to him.
"Ok enough of this lets all go relax and enjoy what is left of the day." He informed us and Esme and I giggled at the same time. We had both agreed before, and this just reinforced that emotion and crying makes our men uncomfortable, mainly because they want us happy all the time.
Edward grabbed my hand and brought me to the kitchen. "Are you ok?" He asked his green eyes burning into me again.
"Yea just embarrassed and emotionally whipped." He hugged me to him my chest pushed against his chest.
"It'll be ok baby. Wanna go watch a movie or something?" He whispered into my ear and shivers run up and down my spine.
"We have that lab report due tomorrow." I sighed into his chest.
"Shit let's go to my room type that crap up and then watch a movie. We deserve some peace and relaxation after that." He points back towards Aunt Esme's sitting room and I can't help but giggle at the grossed out look on his face.
"Yep. What do you want to watch?"
"Hmm, you pick tonight." He smiled.
"Aren't you afraid I'll put on some chick flick?"
"Nah I can deal with those as long as it's not A Walk to Remember or The Notebook you know it's not manly to cry." Poor Edward he did cry when we watched them.
"Deal!" I pulled out of his arms and walked to the door way, "Race ya?" And took off up the stairs.
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November 22nd ,2 days before Thanksgiving,
Standing outside of FHS, I was leaning against Edward's Volvo his arm lightly wrapped around me as he talked to Tyler about the Trig homework. Thank God today was over and we had the rest of the week off classes.
Not much had changed since the day of my/our first kiss. Edward and I still hung out all the time, he was still affectionate, every so often he'd give me a peck on the lips. Other than that nada, zip, zilch, zero.
I mean he basically got the ok to have sex with me from the damn parental figures of the house and he hasn't even tried another ass grab yet. I was starting to wonder if there is something wrong with me? Was I a bad kisser? Did he not want to have sex with me? Were we boyfriend/girlfriend? Would we ever get out of this weird limbo we live in? And did I have the nerve to talk to him about it?
I had decided I needed to confront Edward. Get answers about what we were and why he played hot and cold with me. I had come to that decision 2 weeks ago. So, yea I'm really fucking brave since I have yet to broach the topic with him. To be honest I was scared I felt more than he did. That I would push him away with my confrontation. And I'd rather live in limbo with him close to me, than without him. I know pathetic, but this is still new to me.
After his talk with Tyler we sped home to start our Tuesday evening. Aunt Esme made enchiladas and Spanish rice for dinner. Yum. Emmett and Rose took off for his room after eating, Edward had a theory food made Em horny, I countered that air made Em horny, we decided I was right.
Alice and Jasper went out on date night to see some movie playing in Port Angeles. Edward didn't want to theorize what made Jasper horny. His only comment was to growl and threaten Jasper's manhood. I laughed and tried to assure Edward that Alice was in fact the leader in that relationship. Jasper just followed her everywhere. He then called Jazz a stalker. I hit him with a pillow and called him a sexist. He just shrugged his shoulders and gave that sexy smirk.
We settled in for our Tuesday night ritual. Me watching NCIS, Edward picking on my Tony obsession, but watching it with me. Tonight, we were curled up in my bed as the drama unfolded in front of us. He was playing with my hair, twisting the long brown strands around his fingers.
"What do you wanna watch now?" I asked him.
"Family Guy?" I agreed and he popped in a season 3 dvd.
"Stewie is so our baby." I giggled as we watched the show.
"Yep he has my genius and your need for world domination." He laughingly tells me and I playfully smack him.
He rolled over me and began tickling the crap out of me. "Beg for mercy Bella baby." As I shrieked and fought back. Trying to get to that spot on his lower back that made him gumby with laughter. His wee cute ticklish spot I rarely got a hold of.
"Never." I breathed out.
"You will my beauty." He laughed like a villain in one of those old cheesy movies.
"Noooooo," laughing, "you… can't... make…me!" I stuttered out.
"Hmm I think I can." He whispered in my ear stopping the tickling. It turned into a slow caress up my rib cage. His hands firm yet gentle.
His lips descending on mine. I pulled his top lip into my mouth as he pulled my bottom lip into his, sucking and licking. It was erotic as hell. I ran my hands up the back of his t-shirt so I could feel him, his hands slowly began unbuttoning my top, his lips owning mine in a seductive game. I moaned into his mouth.
"Bella." He whispered as me moved his mouth to my jaw, then my eye lids, my forehead. He kissed them all gently as if he was worshipping them.
My hands clinched in his hair, where a fleeting though about wanting to have them surgically attached there crossed my mind. At least until I got his t-shirt off him and my hands wanted to be attached to his rock-hard abs and chest. Kissing his chest gently, I felt my top being pushed back and blushed a little.
"Beautiful baby, you're so fucking beautiful." Edward groaned as he cupped my breast through my bra. I kissed the underside of his jaw and boldly reached down and squeezed his firm ass. His moan made another round of liquid ruin my panties completely. His tongue on my nipple that he had expertly gotten out of my bra made me rub my legs together. I needed some kind of friction to stop that ache.
"Edward!" I yelped when he got my bra completely off and had taken my nipple into his mouth to suck. I ran my hands up and down his back.
Kissing the side of his neck where it was bent over at my chest. He didn't seem to want to leave my breast.
"Bella baby you are fucking perfect." He groaned going for the other breast. "Wouldn't want it to feel left out." He joked and I giggled. God, I love him.
"Edward…" Suddenly Edward was ripped from my arms. My arms lifted quickly to grab for him, then to instinctively cover my chest. Because there at the end of my bed stood one fucking irritable grizzly.
"What the fuck is going on here?!" Emmett demanded holding Edward up against my bedroom wall. "I warned you!" With that he swung at Edward's face, I screamed and lunged to stop Emmett and the world went black.
Damn we really needed to learn to lock the door.