Edward's POV
My Bella looks so beautiful tonight. We've danced and laughed and I held her close to me. Unfortunately, Alice stopped by to inform me that Emmett had too much to drink and Bella got called to his side. I was going to look for her but Alice offered to go instead. I tried to argue with her that we could both go, but she said all of us leaving the party at one time would be a bad thing, and completely improper. So, I stayed. I had planned on going up after a moment but Dad got my attention so now I'm stuck down here Bella-less.
"Edward want to dance?" A voice from my past asks gently.
"Sure." I say politely and Gemma and I take the floor.
What can I say about Gemma? Once upon a time I thought she was my perfect match, then I found out she was more interested in herself than anything else. Everything was about making her happy, not making anyone else happy. Gemma was a footnote in my life. Bella is the main headline.
God my Bella.
I dream of her at night. In those dreams we make love and it's perfect. I don't hurt her, I don't mess up. The reality of it is, I'm going to hurt her, and it probably won't be perfect. I want our first time to at least start perfect. Not a groping session that gets out of hand. I have these dreams of a hotel room filled with white and red roses and tons of candle light. I already have it booked for Valentine's Day weekend. Until then my poor left hand is getting a killer workout.
"How have you been?" Gemma asks softly.
"Fine, yourself?" I inquire politely, my eyes keep drifting to the stairs.
"Good. I've been dating a wonderful guy named Alec. And I couldn't be happier with him." She gives a true happy smile not one of he phony society smiles.
"I'm happy for you. You met my Bella in the receiving line." I give a smile thinking of my love.
"Your Bella?" Gemma grins.
"She's everything." I grin widely.
"I'm glad Edward, really I am. Though we weren't right for each other, I've only ever wanted what was best for both of us." She sighs. "We could have be been content with one another, but I'm so happy with Alec."
"Bella is more than I ever could have hoped for." I say honestly of my love.
"Where is she? Shouldn't you be dancing with her?" Gem jokes.
"She is busy putting her drunk cousin to bed. And Alice didn't think it would look good for all of us to leave the party to handle him. She went instead, and for some reason I let her." I groan.
"Ahh the Napoleon of parties. How is the mini dictator?" I laugh.
"She's wildly in love with this blond-haired boy who is on some weird emo trip lately and my always happy sister is pissy because of it. We've all just been letting her have her own way lately to keep her happy because of him."
"Thanks to your Grandmother overly spoiling her, little Alice isn't used to no or disappointment."
"She has grown up a lot since we moved to Forks. She still isn't used to having to drive three hours for a mall, or a Nordstrom's." Gem laughs, knowing Alice well.
"If you want to go up there Edward, these old drunk people won't even notice." I nod.
"I think I will. It's been nice Gem, I'm glad you're happy now."
"I'm glad you are too." She grins.
"10, 9, 8, 7," The countdown started and I'm Gemma leans in a smiles.
"You should probably wait till midnight at this point, or you'll end up getting kissed by some drunk old guy as you pass by. It's happened before." I have to hide a laugh thinking of the year Monty Rutherford laid one on me. He was loaded and I was walking by, it was gross at the time, a funny memory now.
"6, 5, 4, 3, 2"
"1." She whispers and lightly pecks her lips to mine in a friendly sort of goodbye, nice to know you, we'll always have Paris type way. It was short and completely bland. And now I need to go find Bella and kiss her. Maybe we can ring in New Years on CST and PST together.
"Edward?" Bella calls my name with an edge to her voice.
"Bella?" I'm completely shocked to see her, I thought she was upstairs. Oh God what if she thinks I'm cheating. I need to explain.
"Bella not here." Esme somehow materializes behind her and takes us out of the room. I just hope my love will listen to me.
"Bella baby I swear it's not what it looked like. It was just two friends and a New Year's kiss. That's it. I'd kiss Rose or Alice the same way."
"Uh huh." She pouts so cutely. It's taking all I have to stop myself pulling her in my arms and kissing that fucking hot pout.
"Bella, I swear it hasn't been like that with Gemma in over a year." I start to explain.
"Edward?" She asks and I notice Esme has discreetly left us to it.
"Bella oh God this isn't a conversation I wanted to have tonight."
"Edward how can we be anything if we don't have honesty. You know my dating record, let's see there is you, and umm you. Why do we never talk about yours? I mean I know it has been implied that you were a man whore, but seriously give me a number Edward, how many Images Kendoll Barnes and Nobles do I need to worry about?" Oh God her little nickname for Gemma is adorable, just like she is. I sit down in the wing back floral chair terrified I've ruined this, ruined us. I need to explain.
"I don't think I can be classified as a man whore, even if I may have given people that image. Most of it was self-protection. When I came to Forks I was still hurting from my break up with Gemma. She was my first girlfriend, my first…" I trailed off. Shit. I probably said to much there.
"Go on." She says simply. It encourages me that she hasn't hit me with a blunt object yet so I continue.
"A year ago right after my Grandmother died Gemma and I had a falling out, she found out that I had inherited this house and my Grandmother's home on the hill and she wanted me to move to Boston. Permanently living away from my family so we could be together all the time. You see since birth our grandparents believed us to be a perfect match and Gem and I just gravitated towards each other because of the many commonalities of our backgrounds."
"Ok." That's all she says when I look up to see her reaction.
" Along the way I thought I had was in love with her. However, Dad had Alice and I in Chicago with him and Gemma and I didn't get to see each other but on weekends and vacations. She was tired of waiting for us to be together. The plan had been to go to the same university and then get married out of college." He shakes his head. "However, we had a huge fight and of course you know about my wild times with Bree, even though I was faithful to Gemma she didn't understand my rebellious stage.
"Uh huh." She says sarcastically. I continue.
"We ended it about three weeks after Grandmother passed away. Not long after that Dad and Esme hooked up and then we moved to Forks. There I saw this beautiful brunette on the sofa in my new step mother's living room and she made me want to love again. Even though I fought it, as at the time I thought she was selfish and cold. Then I got to know her. You see I believed you were the reason I was dragged to Forks, why I had to live in a tiny house in the middle of nowhere. I wanted to hate you. So, I picked two slutty blonds to mess around with. Though I can honestly say mess around is all we did, I never had actually intercourse with either of them." And is that supposed to make me feel better?
"Ok." She mumbles. Fuck I think I said to much again.
"I couldn't fight being with you though, you drew me in like a magnet to metal and I needed you. I smile and she gives me a half grin and I'm encouraged that maybe I can still save this, maybe she can find a way to love me still. "The actual number of girls I've gone all the way with is one Bella, just Gemma. I may have made it seem like more to everyone, but it wasn't."
"And you kissed her why?" She asks me softly.
"We had been talking, catching up and midnight hit and we had a peck, just two old friends. Nothing more Bella."
"We'll talk about this more in the morning Edward I need to sleep on it or I'm going to hit you upside the head with my shoe." She blurts out. I'm startled and step back out of her way. She moves by me faster than I think is capable in those killer shoes.
It takes me a moment but I jump to action and sprint up the stairs after her. She's not in our room. Damn, that's a bad sign. After looking in a couple of the guest rooms I almost give up, but I felt her near. I slip into Alice's room and there she is curled up on the bed.
"Bella can't you please talk? I mean even yell at me? If I've lost you I don't know how I'll go on. Bella baby, you are all that matters." She sniffs. "I love you Bella, from your sarcastic witty personality, to your adorable klutzy way. I've never really known what it's like to be truly in love until I met you." She turns angry brown eyes on me.
"If that's true why did you sleep with her, but you won't with me?" She demands.
"Bella, when I make love to you, I want it to be as close to perfect as it can be." I pause. "There is a lovely suite booked at the Seattle Four Seasons hotel for us the weekend of Valentine's. I have tickets for us to go see Romeo and Juliet live at the Paramount Theater. And reservations at Amore's for dinner. I planned on wining and dining you, and then making love to you for the first time that night."
BPOV
He looks so sad and so damned sincere. And he totally was going above and beyond for Valentine's day. Is it sad that the thing I wanted most out of that was him making love to me? My girlie bits say that it isn't sad, just look at him.
"Edward you know I would have been happy…" He cuts me off.
"Bella our first time is not going to be in the house with our family, where they can hear you screaming my name. Nor was it going to be at the run down no tell motel in Forks. Bella baby, our first time will only happen once, and since I plan on a lifetime with you, I don't want you to look at me when were in our sixties and tell me I fucked it up."
Swoon! He wants me forever. My internal happy dance is going full on eighties cabbage patch.
"Bella you're it for me. I know we are young, but I love you. The thought of being without you make me feel ill. When I dream it's of you."
Screw this angry girlfriend crap, I could play games like a little baby. I could pout like a spoiled brat. Or I can kiss the living shit out of him, till he can't remember anyone else's lips but my own. I chose the latter.
I reach up grab his beautiful head and pull him to me. I press my lips to his and he response automatically. Kissing, sucking on each other's tongues, he gently presses me back into the bed and runs his hand down the front of my dress where the v-neck is. He grins wickedly into my mouth.
"I've wanted to do this all night, since I saw you in this sinful dress." He lowers his head and begins to kiss the insides of my breast. Holy fuck.
"Oh Edward." I moan. My panties are becoming victims to his talented mouth playing on my skin. He's pushed the material out of his way and also has started moving another hand slowly up my thigh. Coherent thought is gone. All there is, is this ache in my girlie bits and Edward. I grind my crotch into him, knowing the relief it can bring. He moans my name. That's right bitch he said Bella.
"What the hell are you two horny fuckers doing in my bed?" Alice is standing at the end of the bed, the lights are all on, shit when did that happen?
She looks like she is going to kill us both.
"Umm, yea…well?" I stutter in question; Edward is busy laughing into my cleavage the fucker.
"Get your asses out of here. I swear you are worse than Emmett and Rose." Edward pops up and tosses me over his shoulder taking me back to our room.
There he kisses me into oblivion, dry humps me into happy and makes me promise I'll let him woo me the right way. So, Valentine's Day will be de-v day for me.
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We arrived back in Forks about two hours ago, and we've been waiting on Jasper to come over ever since. Alice has been pacing, and pacing, and pacing. Trust me I'm getting tennis neck from watching her. It's like that old ass video game Charlie has in the attic I played with once, Pong. Back and forth, back and forth. Over and over again. Edward has kept busy sucking on my neck. So, Thursday for school I'll have a new hickey to show off. I'm so bad ass.
Ah and there he is. Jasper walks in, his eyes not meeting anyone's and he looks well un-Jasperish. There is no carefree happy smile, no twinkle in his eyes.
"Can we talk?" He asks Alice who nods.
They step out and into the kitchen. Emmett is moaning that he's going to miss the floor show, Rose smacks him upside the head.
"Why is Jasper so emo lately?" I bitch.
"Emo, seriously?" Edward laughs. "I thought the same thing about him the other night." I giggle.
"Trust me bro we all have." Em says and Rose nods.
"Yea he's off. My twin senses are off with him lately too. When I'm around him I just want to throw things." I hide a giggle.
"You son of a bitch!" We hear Alice yell. Ut oh. We can't hear Jasper's side but Alice comes back with. "Fuck you! I've been worried shitless about your ass! How can you say you love me one week and dump me the next you prick?!" Umm. Edward pops up from under me and runs to the kitchen.
"Damn." Emmett mutters and I agree.
Next thing we hear crashing around the kitchen and we all take off. Alice is sitting at the table sobbing, Edward and Jasper are in a fist fight.
Actually, Edward has Jasper in a head lock pulling him towards the sink. Oh my God. He turned on the sink and shoved Jasper's head under the flow of water.
"Emmett." I say calmly and my cousin knows what to do. He runs over and breaks up the inept fighting duo. Clearly, they will never make it as street fighters.
"Ok what the hell is going on?" Rose demands.
"Jasper broke up with me." Alice sobs and I run to her side and pull her into a hug.
"Jasper why did you break up with Alice?" Rose demands of him. Shit she is in a demanding mood. I have visions of her and Emmett playing BDSM games. Eww.
"That's my business Rosalie." He says coolly.
"I..sob…had… sob." She pauses and hugs me. My sweet little Alice. I glare at Jasper. "Edward." Alice says and Edward comes over and gets on her other side.
"When I came in, Alice was asking Jasper if this was because of her pregnancy scare. He didn't deny it." Edward says looking at Jasper as if he might in fact kill him.
"Jasper!" Rosalie yells.
"Like I said Rose, it's my business." He shakes his head and Emmett slugs him.
"Asshole, if your dumping her because of some stupid shit like that. When your pecker would have been just as guilty as her vag, I have no respect for you." Emmett says with hostility.
"It's one of the reasons, the other is she isn't who I thought she was when we started dating. She has acted like a spoiled rotten brat since right before Christmas, and that's not the girl I started dating. Nor is it one I wish to date."
"Fine Jasper go." Alice spats at him. "But you should know, the pregnancy scare? It wasn't a fucking scare, I found out right before we flew home from Maine." She tells him and walks to the door. "I thought I told you to go." She says cruelly.
"I'm so fucking out of here, you're lying Alice." He yells and walks out the door.
"Great, just fucking great." Rose says and I nod my head in agreement. Just fucking great.