All my works are self-beta, so any and all mistakes were foolishly made by me. I do not own any CM characters. If I did, there would be quite a few changes in the show. I do not profit from this story. If I did, I'd upload a lot more and a lot sooner, don't you think?
Author's Note: All Right! My first Criminal Minds Fanfiction! This is also the first Fanfiction I've done on eating disorders. This is going to be different from any FF I've done before, so please read the A/N at the bottom once you've finished the chapter. And without further ado, we're off!
He looked in the mirror in disgust. He was so hideous. He could hardly stand to look at himself. Why did he have to be so fat? Why couldn't he be like Morgan or Hotch or even Rossi? They are what he should look like. Attractive. Well-built. Strong. Fit.
He sighed in frustration. He would never amount to them. But the least he could do is make himself at least a little less bothersome to look at. He worked with such attractive people every day; they didn't deserve to have to settle with his ugliness. But they were stuck with him. He felt so sorry for them. He wished he could do more to make himself more tolerable, but this was all he could offer. So with another sigh, he leaned over the toilet and closed his eyes as he shoved two fingers down his throat.
At first, nothing came up. He didn't have anything in his stomach to come up. But he felt so fat; surely something was there. He tried again and then again. Finally, a small amount of bile came up just as he was beginning to feel light-headed. He paused for a brief moment when he noticed the blood that was swirling around in the toilet. He then shrugged, and, with a tremendous amount of effort, he stood up and flushed away the evidence of his purging. He then cleaned himself up in a manner that seemed routine to him now and began to dress for work.
It hadn't always been like this. He hadn't always been aware of just how atrocious he was. It all began two months ago, during the holiday season. That's when everything changed. That's when he realized the truth about himself. And that's when he decided to change it…
A/N: This FF will be different than anything I've done before in that it will be YOUR Fanfic. What happens from now on in the story will be based on what you, the readers, want to happen. So if you would like to see something specific happen in the next chapter of later on in the story, just leave a review and I will try to include it. BUT this story will ONLY progress IF I receive feedback. So leave suggestions either via review or PM. Once I'm given a good idea, I'll try to have the next chapter up ASAP. This is my first time writing a FF based on readers' suggestions, so I really hope that it goes well!