Today was an okay day. Well, not at first when Troy squeezed the life out of him. But Jessie and his gang didn't came for him, thanks to their football tournament. So after school, Ryan just went straight to the mall where he works at the bookstore, change to his uniform and work without feeling too worn out of not being bullied. God, how messed up his life is, feeling relieved to not get his ass kick.

After his shift had finished, Ryan walk back home and as usual, the Bolton is having their dinner. Gloomily. Coping with the death of a loved one is not an easy task. He went to his shared room after greeting them.

Nothing much is different. Troy ignoring him, Ryan doing his work, yada yada yada. But Ryan did notice that Troy's being a bit... soft. That's not really the best term to put in, but he can definitely tell that the tense is not as hard. Somehow Troy seemed more relax, less angry than usual. But whatever it is, Ryan is grateful for it.

When the light is out, Ryan as usual, just stare at the ceiling, don't even bother to try to sleep. It never works. So he just lay there on the hardwood floor. Usually he'll remember all the bad things happened in the past, like Sharpay and him being abused by Vance, all the hit he took, how scared Sharpay was. But today was pretty damn good for him, so all he can think of is the best things happened in his life before, which is not much, but he really cherish.

Its the small things. Like, how Sharpay loved it when its the summer and almost the start of school's new semester and she would be all excited to buy new school supplies. And how she always loved it when Miss Darbus announced about school play. All those rehearsals they did together. Even being yelled at by Sharpay is a happy memory for him. Its better to be yelled at than not being able to talk with her... forever.

And just like a storm hitting a city, Ryan cried remembering all those memories. He can never create more memories with her, and he hates it. No more new memories together. And Sharpay IS the memory.

Ryan squeezed his mouth shut his both his hand, biting back his sob.

Troy, on the other hand, was not asleep yet. And he was silently watching Ryan battling with his thoughts, which leads to his waterworks right now.

After knowing the truth about Gabriella's mental disease, all he can think of is Ryan's fate and how the hell did he cope with everything. It hits him hard that Ryan has been dealing with everything, from Gabriella's framing him, and their harsh treatment, the society at school, and his mother, Lucille's death which even HE knows was not Ryan's fault (although it feels good to blame it on Ryan), and Ryan eating the guilt of being the cause of her death. Goddamnit.

Troy just discreetly watching the blonde, alarmed when Ryan suddenly gets up from the floor and reach for his jacket, leaving the room soon after. Drowning in curiosity, Troy quickly got out of his bed, reaching his own jacket and follows Ryan before he gets too far to.. wherever he's going.

It is a very windy night and is chilling Troy to the core. But that doesn't seem to bother Ryan, or maybe it is but Troy can't tell because as shocking as it is, Ryan us moving too fast forward. At some point he might be actually running.

He keeps a very safe distance behind Ryan, avoids making too much noise while walking, not wanting to caught him off guard. But, Troy still has no idea where they're heading, not to forget it is dark.

And then Troy saw the sign.

Fairview Memorial Park

Oh. Ryan wants to visit Sharpay. Or his dad, Vance. Maybe both. Or his mother, Derby. Or probably HIS mother, Lucille.

But so many questions hit him at that time. Why now? Why can't he wait tomorrow? Why does he wants to visit them? What does he gets from this?

He saw the blonde stopped before entering, taking a few heavy breaths. Probably tired from the running. And Ryan's not the healthiest guy alive.

Troy hides behind a tree, before starts walking again along the path to who's grave he's visiting.

Ryan stops in front of a grave and kneel down, one hand on the tomb. Troy's still keeping a distance but he can hear everything clearly. And he can see from the dim light, whose grave was it.

Sharpay Riley Evans

November 23, 1990 - September 14, 2007

Beloved Daughter, Twin Sister, Friend.

Ryan let out a very painful sob Troy has ever heard came out from a human being that it actually makes Ryan gasps for air. He was crying his heart out, muttering something incoherent under his barely catchable breaths.

Troy's heart shattered to see him in such condition, what he's going through is too much for anyone too handle that it makes him tear up a little.

Ryan's still crying, less sobbing but he can form his words properly, enough to make Troy's jaw dropped.

"I'm so sorry Shar.. I-I failed you. I didn't keep my promise. I let dad laid his hands on you that he took your life away. It should've been me. It was m-my fault. I killed mom. I turned dad to be an abusive parent. He was right all along to beat me my whole goddamn life. But never you. And its you suffer the end, and its because of me. I'm... I'm really sorry, Sharpay"

Troy freezes for a moment. They were abuse? By Vance? Since their mom's death?! And Sharpay's dead because of Vance?!

At that time he decided to make Ryan notices that he's right there. There's no point of hiding. He wants to know the truth.

"Ryan..." he started, very softly that the blonde may or may not hear. But the memorial park is really, really quiet its impossible to not hear him.

Ryan jumped from the sudden interaction. He slowly turns his head around and shock to see its Troy. And even more shock when he washes down the fact that its Troy.

"T-Troy?" he replied, confused. "What are you-"

"I followed you" Troy abruptly cut him off, eager to ask. "Is it true? You guys were abused?"

It took Ryan a moment before nodding his head, looking extremely exhausted, hurt, and depressed, with his eyes bright red from crying, his face is really pale that it scares Troy a bit.

"It doesn't matter now. He's gone. They're both gone. Everything is falling into places where I have no right to be at in the first place. Somehow I did, I screwed up, I took lives. I failed my twin sister, the only people who actually loved me. Nothing matters now."

Troy feels like someone put a band-aid on his heart and rip it out so fast that it hurts him so badly. He never knew that the Evans twins faced such thing before. And what happened after Sharpay and Vance's death to Ryan.

All his bad thoughts about then. How he treated Ryan before. How everyone at school is picking out at him. How Ryan is facing so many hardships in life and not once he ever gave up. His eyes swelled up with tears, his heart broke for Ryan.

He kneels down in front of the smaller guy, slumped. He put both his hand on Ryan's shoulder, looking directly into the dead blue eyes.

"I'm here for you"

A/N : So very sorry for the delay. Took me long enough to update (let me do the math, 19 months hahah). Also, I realized I made too much grammar mistakes before, considering English is not my first language and I was still new to lear this language, I deeply apologize. Thank you reading this!