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CPOV

Tonight seems to be the perfect time to talk about my past. I want a relationship with Anastasia. So telling her the truth, About my past, will hopefully not scare her off. The sooner I get this all out in the open, the sooner we can get past all of this, then I can ask her to be my girlfriend.

Exiting from elevator, I see Taylor waiting for me in the foyer . He doesn't appear to be happy with me right now. I am sure it is because I didn''t bring him with us tonight. He always beside me wherever I go, but tonight I just wanted to drive Ana. I didn't want overwhelmed her with security problems when she with me. But if she become my girlfriend I will tell her the importance have CPO.

"Hey Taylor everything okay? Is there anything I need to know?"

"No Sir, everything perfect right now. Mrs Lincoln try to call you many times this evening she said, but you did not answer your cell phone.So she called house line. She was quite unhappy because you were not home."

"Thank you Taylor, for everything you do for me, since the beginning of your employment with me. You have seen me at my best, and my worst but you always have my back. I don't' think I have ever told you that I do appreciate the job you do for me." I say sincerely.

I'm pretty sure this is the first time my head security speechless.

"You are welcome Sir. That's my job to keep you safe" He still keep his face stoic but I know he curious want to ask what happen with my sudden outburst.

After talking with Taylor for a few more moments, I go to my room and change my clothes with something comfortable. I choose my sweatpants with white tee shirts and head on down to Anastasia place.

Before heading on down I walk into Taylor office. I inform him, that i am going down to friend's apartment, which is on the 21st floor. He can back to his apartment he share with Gail in other wings of my penthouse.

"Taylor , you can take the rest of the off night off. I am just going down to friend apartment, then back up here. If I need your help I will call you but I don't think I will. So good night Taylor."

"Good night Sir" he mumbled, looking quite shocked.

I already in the elevator and heading down to Anastasia's floor I have prepared my heart with any decision that she will make. I pray that she gives me a chance. And gets to know the real me.

In front Ana door I press the bell which from intercom she ask if I'm Christian. When she I'm the one who press the bell she open the door for me.

My jaw drop to the floor when I see what she wearing right now.

She wear tank top and sleep shorts, she has on a matching robe. But it is untie. Her body so deliciously sexy. Shit my dick is hard and it's so uncomfortable, I think to myself, down boy it's not the time to wake up.

"Come in Christian, Kate texted me back, she will be very late. back little and Josh has to fly to England. So just us alone right now. " Ana tell me when we are in her living room. Who is Josh??

" Who is Josh?? " I ask Ana.

"Oh Josh is are our other roommate. He is Kate cousin and the owner of this apartment. He also one of pilot in GA."

What the fuck! She has a man for a roommate?? Why didn't she tell me. My dominant side is not happy!

You need to calm down I tell myself. Anastasia is not your sub, she doesn't answer to you. You need to get your temper under control.

"Hey, calm down Christian!!!" She says, laying her hand on my arm.

"Josh is safe okay, he is like a brother to me, and he also taken. So you don't need to worry about us living together. "

How does she know what I'm thinking right now? She never fails to surprised me with her intuition about me.

"Who say I worry about him?? " I look away so she can't see my eyes. I can see her smirking at me out of the corner of my eye, she know I'm lying.

"Really…. Mr Grey??" She walks over and motions for me on the sofa.

"What you think you can see in my brain right now Ms Lambert?? Care to explain it to me!! " I wink at her which she give me beaming smile.

"Let see after I told you about Josh, who is our roommate and male….

you become silent and the look on your face I saw some anger on it. But you try to calm it down because you know I'm not your pet who you can dictate to. " Listening to her, I can't believe it how she can read my mind clearly. She makes me really speechless.

"Christian, I know you are interested in me and want to know me better. I also want to know you better so now we need to talk and be honest to each other. Do you remember what I said before? I will listen to you without judging you. You need to trust me Christian. Tell what you want to share with me. I'm not going to push you, or demand answers, but don't lie to me. Can you do that? " She asks so sincerely.

I nodding my head cause my throat feel dry and I am getting nervous.

Ana hold my hand and give reassuring smile if everything will be okay.

"Baby, I need to warn you, although my past is not pleasant. To be honest you say that you will listen. I hope that you will. But I am not sure that you knowing the truth about me will not change your mind.

I didn't grow as many have. My past is dark and filled with pain." I tell her looking into her eyes, so she can see the truth of what I am saying.

Ana moves closer to me, and giving me a hug and whispering that it will be alright. I flinch when she does it. She senses that and moves her hands from my back to my shoulders.

"I am sorry if my touched upset you. I wasn't trying to."

Is that one of the reasons you choose BDSM lifestyle? Your aversion to being touched?"

I wrap my arms around Anastasia and pull her closer, hugging her to my chest. Where no one has touched before.

I nodding my head can't say anything. I wait the pain come, but it does not Ana continues to hug me and whispering soothing words in my ear. For the first time in my life its does not hurt for someone touch me. For Anastasia to touch me. I hug her closer putting my face in her crook neck. Her hair smell like heaven and her skin so soft to my lips.

"Come," leaning back and holding out her hand. "We can talk in my room. We are just talking!! So clear your dirty thoughts boy." She playfully change the subject.

"Why Ms Lambert?? Are you say we can't do the deed on first date?? "

"Uh uh uh. No Mr Grey, not today." she giggles lightly " Today is our time for learning about each other and find the best way to navigate our future together. Doing the deed, as you call it, will take more than one dinner!" she smiles shyly… I take her small hand in mine. Knowing that I will let her lead me wherever she wants to go.

As we walk to her second floor room, I notice the tattoo on her shoulder. It's read "I'm enough the way I am". I'm have always been against body art on my subs. But after seeing Ana's tattoo it's has change my mind. It is a simple tattoo quote but I know that there has to be more to the meaning. I touch her tattoo, it make her jump a little in surprise . She relaxes knowing it just my hand.

"Your tattoo is beautiful baby." I tell her honestly.

"Thank you Christian. I got this tattoo when I turn 18 years old and it's not the only tattoo I have." She say with a wink and a smirk on her face. open Entering into her room, I see so much of her in her personal space. Her room is beautifully decorated. The colors of the wall are blue sky, she has some pictures of beaches and some pictures of her with family and friends.

"Sit wherever you want. I will turn on the music, do you need something before we start the conversation." She asks, still holding my hand, as I set on a little loveseat in her room.. It's a soft cream color, a small blanket thrown over on end, a small table with a lamp and several books stand next to the end. I set down and pull her down beside me..

"No, I just want to start now before I lose the courage to tell you my past. I hope that after you hear it you are not disgusted with me. " taking deep breath before I begin.

"Of course Christian,I not going anywhere, okay?? " I nodding my head to her.

Taking a breath, I began to talk about my life before being adopted. About my mother who was an addict and prostitute, about a pimp who tortured me to made me his ashtray. Ana held my hand as long as I told her my story. When she saw me trembling, she wrapped her arms around my shoulders me and stroked my hair while whispering "Nobody will hurt you again, I won't let them!!! You are safe now."

I continued telling the story. My teenage years. Starting with the fighting, to being expelled from school. My parents not know what to do. When my story gets to Elena, I think she can understand while my story continues but she sets quietly letting me purge this until I am finished.Looking up her into her bewitching eyes, I see they are red from crying. . She closes her eyes, and takes a calming breath. I see her inhale and then exhale a couple of times.

"Do you not know what the devil woman is doing is wrong? And you were not a broken teenager!!! You were just lost, nobody was there to lead you to the right path. She abused you!! Feeding the belief that you were unworthy! She was your mothers best friend. And she used it to abused and manipulate you Christian. She is a pedophile. She is the worst kind of parasite!!"

What Ana said was true and I only realized it this year after my psychiatrist said it over and over.

"I am was a monster Anastasia,... I am a vile monster… this is the only way I know." I whisper letting the tears in my eyes fall.

"Christian listen to me! You're not a monster! No matter what the devil woman said. You're just a plain teenager who's lost his way and she's tricking you into believing that no one loves you for who you are. You are a good man Christian Trevelyan Grey. You are a wonderful man! She takes her thumbs wiping away my tears.

"You don't need a submissive, unless it something that you enjoy. Nothing this woman ever told you is true. She lied to you to get her own evil way. You are a wonder man Christian, I will stand with you and help you erased all the bad memories We can start making new memories and cherish our time together. I won't let you go through this alone. As long as you want me, I will be right beside you." I don't know when she move and knelt in front of me. I take her in my arms and give her a crushing hug. I lay my head on her shoulder and her face is laying against my chest...I smell her hair and take a deep cleansing breath. Her hair smell of apple and flowers combinations it's so fresh and comforting.

"Oh Ana, who are you really? Even after listening to my story, you never swayed. How are you not disgusted with me? My submissives look like my despicable mother. I took my revenge on her by beating them with a belt or cane . How can you not want me stay away from you?? Shout at me that I'm a monster?" I stroked her beautiful face, her skin smooth her eyes red rimmed. Filled with tears. Both of have tears falling down our cheeks.

"Please don't pity me Ana! I don't want feel like a helpless again. "

"No Christian, And I don't pity you, but my heart is sad and hurt for a 4-year-old boy who never felt affection and love from his mother, but instead he being tortured. And for teen who are exploited by their innocence to believe that they are not worthy of being loved."

" I hope that I never run into your pedophile, trust me Christian I'll kill her with my bare hand if I meet her! So don't forget to remind me when I get close to that devil Christian! " Ana voice full of hatred and I knew she tell is telling the truth in her desire to kill Elena.

"Thank you for listening to my story Ana. Are you really ok with my dark past? It's not something I proud, Ana but I can't hide it from you if I want have more with you. If you think that I am not worth of your time I will gone from your sight Ana. " That's it my biggest fear. That Anastasia will no longer want anything to do with me.

"Look at me Christian!!" Ana titling my head to look into her eyes.

" I will never turn my back on you. You could not control what happened to you as a child. Or what happened when you were a teenager. Those terrible events helped shape you into the man you now are. But know this, I feel bad for the little boy you were, and I feel bad for the teenager who was manipulated. I know the reason why you become a dominant. It's was the only way you felt comfortable having sex. It restricted anyone from touching you. With your sub's all looking like you mother, I think that has Elena written all over it. But it is something we can talk about at another time." I nod in agreement with her.

"What are you thinking right now ? I can see you still have something on your mind. Please say it Christin, let's get this all out in the open! "

Take my breath I ask her loudly.

"Anastasia, I told you about my past. You know more about me, and my life than anyone. Because I have been drawn to you from the first time we meet. But I still don't know if you would consider having a relationship with me."

"Oh Christian! I have always heard about what kind of confidence you have business world and how you intimidate people in your office. But you are afraid to ask me be your girlfriend??" Ana look at me bewildered.I just stare at her. I am in unfamiliar territory. I have never been in a relationship. This is all new to me.

Watching Ana I could hear her mumbling under her breath, shaking her head. Something about me being stupid, stubborn male, that couldn't see the forest for the trees.

I look up from the floor and see her standing she is in front of me. She reaches out with the most gentle touch, cupping my face. Looking deep into my eyes.

"Mr Christian Grey, I don't know anything about relationships. I am like you in this...but" I nodding and wait until she speak again.

"... since I bumped you in the elevator, you are always in the forefront of my mind. Dreams, work, errands, your alway my first thought of the day. My last thought before I fall asleep. So I have to ask you, would you be my boyfriend?? " She taken me by surprise with her question. I try to talk but I cannot make a sound… I finally squeak out "Anastasia…. Ana… I… "

"What is it Christian?? "

"You really want to be with me? After everything I told you? You still want to be with me??"

"Of course Christian. That changed nothing as far as I am concerned. You're still you." She scoff at me. " You're still the man that has captured my mind and my heart. Now answer me!!! Will you be my boyfriend?? "

I stand up and looking down into her lovely face, I stare into her beautiful eyes. Wrapping my arms around her waist and pull her into a bone crushing hug. "Yes Ana.. Fuck… Yes Yes. I want be your boyfriend. Thank you baby for the chance to be a part of your life. I can't promise if I will be perfect boyfriend for you but I will try my best to be boyfriend you can proud for. " I kiss her temple, her cheek, her neck, while still hugging her.

"I just want you to be yourself and I hope we are always honest with each other. Let us work on making good memories... Okay??! "

I could only nod in agreement. I feel so very lucky to meet a woman like her. She is truly amazing. My heart's to myself, I promise I will not waste this opportunity.

We hug for a minute, I don't even realise that Ana is rubbing my back, until I feel her hand rest on my ass.. Her caress did not cause pain but instead calmed me down. In no time I saw that it was midnight. Ana repeatedly yawned when we continued talk. I knew she needed to get to bed.

"You look so tired baby. Let's get you tucked in, I'll wait you until close your eyes and I'll head home. " I caress her beautiful face and kiss her forehead.

"Don't go home Christian, stay with me, please... You can sleep here, I think my bed is wide for both of us." She show me the empty place besides her. But how I can sleep beside her when I have nightmare??

Ana saw my doubts, she crawled towards me and sat on my lap. Leaning her head on my shoulder she asked.

"What happened Christian?? What are thinking right now? I just asked you you can sleep beside me, not to have sex with me. " She try to joke lighten my sullen mood.I chuckle at her words.

"Trust me baby when you ready to have sex with me, I'll make it special for you . What you said to me just now startled me. I have never slept with anyone due to my nightmares. I have them every night. I get violent, I am afraid I would hurt you." She sigh after listening to my reason. as Ana held my hand, and lightly kissed my cheek and whispering if everything will be okay.

"Christian look at my windows , look at the hanging in the center." I look to the direction Ana's window. In the center had somethings hanging around. It's look like net with feathers with blue, green and violet colours. I don't know what is that.

"What is that baby? What does that have to does it with my nightmares? "

"It's 'dreamcatchers' Christian. As the first rays of the morning light hit the dreamcatcher, the bad dreams that are caught inside will disappear. Don't worry, let's just try and get some sleep. "

"Promise me baby when I get my nightmare don't try to wake me up because I become aggressive when it happens. I don't want to hurt you okay baby?"

"Don't worry Christian, I promise not to touch you if you have a nightmare. "

I send a quick text to Taylor and let him know that I am staying at Anastasia's for the night. Sliding off my sweat pants and tee shirt, just wearing my boxers, I crawl in bed, and lay down beside Ana. I lean over and give her several small kisses, thanking her again for listening and not running. I lay back down with her hand clasp in mine resting on my bare chest.

ANA POV

I say a small pray for this beautiful man. Don't worry Christian, you will never be alone again. I will take care of you and protect you from that evil woman. You're not alone anymore, I'm here with you.

God gave me the strength to stand firm beside this beautiful broken man.

"Good night my sweet Christian. Sweet dreams baby. "

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