Hey everyone! Name's Starlight. This is my first fanfic on this site. I hope you will like it. Also I'd like to say that if I offend soemone with religious incorrectness or soemthing like that, I am very sorry. It is NOT my intention to offend anyone and I hope everyone will enjoy it.
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God, what is God? Is it a person, somewhere up above everything else, watching over us all? Is it an entity that simply cannot have a face, or have any face it wishes at the moment? Throughout history there were hundreds, even thousands of interpretations of that single being. Sometimes there were multiple gods, but one God above them all.

However… I saw face of so called God. One that so many Earthlings worship, who destroyed so many things and so many lives. In his name, thousands were killed, tortured and burned alive. One might say that it wasn't his will, but humans misusing his name. But if so, then why didn't he do something to stop them.

I guess… that is why I am now here. Fallen from grace, helpless, abandoned. Only because he simply didn't do anything. I saw his face… and saw only emptiness, carelessness, even to his own children.

Come and I will tell you story of my life. How I fell and rose once again.

Come and hear story… of how I killed the God.

My story begins several years back, when I was just a small child, just 5 or 6 years old, surviving on streets. I was nobody, not even bearing a name. Living in backstreets of Eraklyon Capital, I did what I could to live another day. Sometimes… it meant even stealing from others. I was different than everyone else. I was no human, I knew that much. On my back were wings, bird-like, but were full of dust, torn and ugly. Although normally capable of carrying me where I wanted, they were damaged so much… it hurt when I spread them. It frightens people, keeps them away from me. They do not want me.

But one day… she came. It was truly rainy night. It was cold and I didn't have any shelter. I tried to hide beneath great tree and while it was shielding me for a while, rain found its way through eventually. Wings on my back, grey and dusty, were soaked in the water. They were heavy, cold. I was bruised, cut, bleeding… sick. Fever disallowed me to move further. My insides were on fire. I already felt grip of death on my shoulders. I closed my eyes, ready to let it take me.

But when I opened them, I was in warm bed, hearing kind humming of a lullaby. It was calming me to no end. Was I dead? No… I was safe.

That night… Queen Bloom took me into her palace, cared for my wounds, cured me with her magical powers. She took me under her beautiful fairy wings.

That day when I woke up, she took me into bathroom and bathed with me. She was gentle, her skin soft and pleasant. Meanwhile I was so dirty.

We were in a really big bath, it was pretty much a shallow pool with really warm water, continuously flowing from one side and getting out the other. I was kneeling before her while she was cleaning my back. I was so embarrassed. Water was getting dirty because of all the dust I carried.

"Does it hurt?" She asked. I shook my head. She was smiling "Don't be afraid to tell me, OK?"

It did hurt. It was burning quite a lot actually. My skin was bruised and cut, dusty and muddy so much that it pretty much grew into it. She was scrubbing me very gently, but simply removing that dusty layer hurt. Let alone having a shampoo get into that.
But still… it was really pleasant. I liked it. It was actually… first time anyone ever cared for me.

Her hands were so gentle, her skin so smooth and soft… she was truly a heavenly being.

At one moment, she tried to move my wing to clean my skin under it. Sudden pain upon her touch made me wince. She immediately stopped "Sorry. Can you spread your wings?"

I tried to move them, but… I suddenly felt such a pain. It hurt like nothing before. Shampoo got into the feathers and touched my scarred skin. It really hurt, but I managed to spread them.

"Oh God…" It must've been a horrible sight. My wings were so torn, so dusty I didn't even remember their original appearance.

"Don't look. They are ugly." I said, sadly looking down on my reflection in the water.

She put a hand on my head, patting me "Don't worry, we'll make them pretty again." She began scrubbing my back again, so gently and so very carefully not to cause me any pain.

I couldn't help but ask "Why?"

"Why what?"

"Why are you doing this? I am nobody. Why do you care for me?"

She gently reached around me and hugged me "Because it's the right thing to do."

I turned my head to look at her "I cannot just turn a blind eye to such suffering."

She was truly kind. Queen Bloom was rather new to the ruling. Everyone knew she was the kindest person among nobles, but I've never got a chance to experience it for myself. She was really great and gentle. Despite being fairly young, just in her late twenties, she was really wise and people loved her. She was mother of 2, but her figure was just gorgeous. She was slim, but well grown on several places. Her hair were unbelievably long and crimson red, just like flames she controlled.

Even as I was kneeling there, her hair were enveloping me as slow current carried them.

Her skin was white, almost pale soft and smooth. She was a beauty incarnate.

"Mom?" I looked up into the hallway. There stood little blonde girl, wrapped in a towel. She was about my age, maybe a little older "Can I join?"

"Of course." Queen said.

Girl, princess of Eraklyon, no doubt. She must be Princess Alessa, second heir of throne. I have never seen her in person, but heard she was just as kind and loving as her mother. She rushed into the bath, tossing away her towel. Water splashed on both of us as she did so.

I actually caught myself giggling as I moved my arms and instinctively, my wings to shield me from it. As I moved them away, pretty much spread them, I was met with amazed face of princess "Wow… you really do have such great wings. Can you really fly with them?"

I was blushing. It was the first time somebody liked them. I looked down in embarrassment. Queen giggled "Come now Alessa, how about you help me clean them."

"On it!" she rushed to my side, but before that, she stopped and gave me big smile and extended her hand "Oh, hi I'm Alessa. Nice to meet you."

I hesitantly took her hand "It… it's nice to meet you too."

"And what is your name?" she asked eagerly. I remained silent. After all… I didn't have any "You… don't know?"

"I… I never had one."

"That's terrible." she said right before beaming with another smile "Then we need to give you one. How about… Starsha?"

"That's a nice name." Bloom admitted with a nice giggle "I think it suits you."

"Then Starsha it is!" Alessa moved to my wings and immediately began cleaning them. Feather by feather, they both were cleaning them from dust and blood. Since they were really big, each twice as long as I am high, it took some time for two of them to cover them in soap.

After they were done, queen said "There, now lie down in the water."

I did as she asked me to and lied backwards, into the warm waters. I will admit, it sting a little, but I already felt they were getting lighter as dragon knows how much dirt flowed away in flow of this warm water.

"Woooow." I heard from princess Alessa. That was when I realized how I must've looked. I lied down, my hands and wings spread, all but my face under water. My legs were crossed, so I looked like crossed Jesus with wings. I looked right to see my wing and was amazed to see all the dust, dirt and filth being washed away together with the soap, leaving only bright white of my feathers. It's been so long since I saw them like this.

I noticed one of my feathers detached and was floating on water surface, slowly being carried by current. Alessa grabbed it and held it before her "So pretty."

"Told you we'd make them beautiful again." Queen kneeled down beside me "What feathers are missing will grow back and they will be as good as new." She was touching my left wing, as if caressing it.

"Can I keep it?" Alessa asked, holding the feather. I nodded. They both just helped me, cleaned me and reminded me just how pretty my wings once were "Yay! Mom, do you think I can put it on my hat?" She held it on her head, pretending there is a hat.

"I think it'd look lovely." Queen giggled.

"What now?" I asked, catching their attention "Thank you for cleaning me, for helping me… but what is going to happen now?"

"You'll stay with us, dah." Alessa said kneeling next to me again "Come on, we'll have so much fun."

"But…" I was about to object, that I am only a lowly peasant without any penny. How can I stay with royal family?

"No buts…" Queen gave me such a warm smile I couldn't resist but stay in awe "You can stay here as our guest. I think you two will be great friends."

"Yay!" Alessa cheered, grabbed my hand, pulled me up and wanted to drag me out of there "Come on, I will show you my…"

"Alessa." Queen interrupted her "We need to finish bathing first."

"Oh, silly me." she said, jumping back into the water.

I must admit… it felt really nice. These two were really nice to me, helping me. Staying here and being a good guest and friend… was the least I could do.

Later, when we left the bath, we were drying ourselves. However, as you can imagine, drying wings really isn't easy. Feathers like to suck and keep water, so they were really heavy. Queen and Alessa helped me to get there, sit down on bench and while I was drying my hair and rest of my body, queen stood behind me and used her fire magic to dry my wings. It wasn't actual fire, but warmth that made water evaporate.

"How did you dry them before?" Alessa asked, seeing that I really needed help with this.

"It wasn't easy." I said "When they got soaked, I had to lie down on some field and let sun dry them."

"How long did it take?" Queen asked curiously.

"Few hours." I moved my wings a little, feeling that they were dry and for the first time… fluffy. They were clean and although missing feathers on several places were kinda destroying their otherwise pretty look, it was only a matter of time before they grow back and I will be able to fly.

"Wow… so long?" she exclaimed "You could warm them by the fire."

"Alessa, honey… feathers burn very easily." Queen said, stepping aside "There, feeling better?"

I nodded, giving her a nice sincere smile "Great. Then let's dress up and go get something to eat."

Now… here came the hard part. Getting dressed was a chore for someone like me. My wings were pretty big and sturdy, so getting clothes over them was a problem. However, there was a way. I made holes on my shirt, sort of cutting the back into three parts. I put it over the wings and then used a clipper at the bottom to get those parts together again.

Now this time, however… I got something special. Queen gave me a beautiful dress that was magical. As soon as I tried to measure it to my body, it split into thousands of tiny threads. Silver dress enveloped me and in an instant, restored its form with my wings comfortably sticking out through perfectly fitting holes. It was truly magnificent one-piece, silver, almost mirror-like. It reached down to my knees, had no sleeves and was really pleasant on touch. Perfect for my now red and burning skin.

I was in awe. Not just did they take care of my wounds and cured my fever, bathed me and cleaned my wings… they also gave me new beautiful clothes. Ones that was really easy to put on with my wings. I also got new fitting shoes. I really felt like princess herself. But what did I do to deserve this all? There must be something behind it all. Nobody is this kind just like that.