I wake up in the morning feeling like shit. Ugh. The tequila was a bad choice. "Luke?"

I roll over to find the bed empty. I pick up my phone off the bedside table. I dial Luke's number.

"Ana?"

"Yes. Mind helping me with a hangover cure and pump and dump?"

"I'll be right there love."

I hang up and a few minutes later, my husband arrives with the pump and orange juice and advil.

I take the advil and start to pump and I notice he looks deep in thought.

"What's bothering you baby?"

"The kiss Ana. You said it meant nothing but why would drunk you kiss Christian to begin with?"

I sigh. Why did I? "I think… the woman was so obsessed with him that she came after me and wanted me dead or out of the way. I think I was concerned for him? I wanted to show him that he is worthy of affection and love from someone who isn't a psychopath? I don't feel like this is coming out right…. It was more of an encouraging peck to let him know that people do care? The point is, Luke, I love YOU more than anyone with the exception of the kids. Our love is strong and will not falter. Yours and mine Luke."

I take the pump and put it to the side.

"I do love him but like I told him, I love YOU more and I'm in love with YOU. I said that right after I kissed him. I wanted to tell him that he deserves love but I was drunk and I passed out. I only kissed him like this." I take his face in my hands and gently kiss him like I did Christian. "See, that's it."

"Okay baby. I believe you. I was just scared. I can't lose you baby."

I put my hands on his cheeks and look into his eyes. I crawl into his lap and sit astride him. "You won't lose me Luke. Ever." I kiss him softly but quickly deepen it while stripping his shirt off of him. I somehow maneuver his sweatpants just enough to free his erection.

I lift myself just enough to align him with my core and impale myself with his member and gasp. "Home." He smiles and kisses me deeply. I swirl my hips and he moans into my mouth. He lifts me and turns us around and flops me onto the bed and begins to move slowly never breaking contact. I feel myself getting close.

"I love you Mrs. Sawyer." He says causing me to detonate around him which drags him over the edge with me. "Oh Ana."

"Luke, I love you too. That was amazing. As always."

We hold each other a little while longer while our breathing returns to normal. "As much as I want to stay inside you. We have children waiting for us so we should shower and go spend time with our kids."

"Mmm.. I like the idea of showering with you so let's go."

We get up and go and have a shower along with a good shower fuck.

6 Weeks later

Christian's POV

It's been 6 weeks since the Gala and the kiss and I haven't seen Ana once since. I'm guessing she is purposely ignoring me. I need to confront her to find out what that was all about. Since she won't see me, I'm going to have to run into her accidentally. Taylor wouldn't allow it so I'm telling him I'm going out alone to see Flynn but I'm really going to meet up with Ana, even though she doesn't know it yet.

I find her clothes shopping at Neiman Marcus. I walk up behind her and put my hands on her shoulders and she shoots her head back and hits me in the nose with it, "Fuck!" I said as I back up and put my hand up to my nose and realize there is blood running out of my nose. I should've remembered not to sneak up on her.

She turns around, "Christian, oh God, I'm so sorry. You should know better than to sneak up on me."

"It's been a while. I forgot that detail. Your head is like a brick wall. Fuck, Ana."

"Let me see it." I take my hand off my nose and she inspects it. "It looks like it's okay but you may want your Mom to check it out."

She walks up to the counter and comes back with napkins. "hold this on it. We will go get you some ice. I'm really sorry. I've been freshening up on self defense. You touched me and I wasn't expecting it and I had flashbacks and instinct kicked in. Word of advice, never sneak up behind a woman that has been attacked."

"Duly noted." We walk across the street to a small restaurant and she asks for an ice pack and hands it to me.

"We may as well stay for lunch. What are you doing here anyways. I know you didn't accidentally show up at Neiman's."

"I needed to talk to you Ana. You've been avoiding me."

She looks down at her hands. "The kiss should've never happened Christian. I think I was, in my drunken state, trying to convince you that people who don't try to kill your girlfriend can care about you. I don't know. I do know that I love my husband and he is who I want and who I will spend my life with."

"You said you loved me Ana."

"And I do… in a way… You were my first everything Christian. You don't survive what we did together just to not feel the love anymore. I don't love you like I once did. I love Luke… with all my heart. I'm madly in love with him. We have 5 children together. You abandoned me when I needed you 5 years ago Christian. Not just that, you abandoned me pregnant. You abandoned Kirsten too. YOU did that. You threw us away and Luke has been with me ever since picking up the pieces of what you shattered. He put me back together and I'm stronger and better than I was before. You and I only had months together. It was a fantastic love affair but it ended horribly because of you. I would never destroy my family for someone who could hurt me like that so easily. But the point is, HE is the love of my life. You deserve love Christian but I swear if you choose it with Leila fucking Williams, you will never be in my life again in ANY way!"

I hang my head in defeat. I'm not getting anywhere with her. I destroyed us. I destroyed her but Luke was there to repair what I broke. "So why have you been avoiding me?"

"Respect for my husband… Let me ask you something. If the roles were reversed and you were in Luke's position and vice versa, how would YOU feel?"

I think about this for a moment. "I would've probably kicked you out and washed my hands of you."

"He isn't quick to overreact like you. You act and think later. Same as you did when you found out I was pregnant. He, on the other hand, gave me a chance to explain my side before reacting. He heard me out, actually listened and forgave my actions immediately. HE loves me THAT much. I offered to stay away from you out of respect. He didn't question anything or insist. He just accepted it. If he saw me here with you, he wouldn't panic or get pissed whereas you would've thrown accusations at me. Am I right?"

I nod.

"You didn't even think about me again after you kicked me out until I showed up at Escala with Luke right?"

I nod.

"And then when you found out I'd married again you became obsessed, right?"

"I wouldn't say obsessed… okay yes."

She puts her hand on mine and looks into my eyes.

"You only want me because you can't have me Christian. You should get rid of the portraits in your office and move on. You deserve to find happiness."

"But…" she cuts me off.

"But nothing Christian. See Flynn or someone else because he doesn't seem to be helping much. Get past your feelings about me. Everyone knows you love me. I love you too. But we're in the past. We had a great love affair for as long as we lasted. I waited for almost 2 years before I moved on. Honestly during the first year, I'd hoped you would come around and come looking for me apologizing. Luke even knew that. Luke held my hand as I brought Kirsten into the world, yet I held out hope for…" she signals her hand between us, "us.. You just went back to… your old ways and pretended I didn't exist. You proved with me that YOU are capable of so much more. Find you a nice girl that challenges you like I did. Allow yourself to be happy."

I nod my head dejected. "I will try. Can you help me though. I don't want to end up with someone who only wants me for who I am. I want someone who doesn't give a shit about the money or the power like you."

"Honey, you will never find someone like me." I laugh. "Seriously though, I will help you in your search. In fact, I have someone in mind. I'm a pretty good matchmaker if I do say so myself. Look at Dad and Ella."

I chuckle. "I don't know how to thank you."

"Just give love a chance. That's all I ask. Let's order something to eat. I'm still starving."

"We can't have that."

"One more thing. Sell me the portraits of me. You don't need to keep that shit around to stare at. It's creepy."

I nod. "You can just have them."

We order our food and eat and have casual small talk catching up on what we've missed since we last spoke.

When we finish eating, she goes back to her shopping and I go back to Escala. She really opened my eyes but I can't give up just yet. I will go on her dates but I can't just move on until I've exhausted all possible ways I might be able to use to get her back.

Ana's POV

I finally got the chance to express how I truly feel to Christian. I feel like he accepted it pretty well. Hopefully he gets the point now.

As I arrive home, I find my husband and the nannies in the back yard with the kids.

I walk up behind my husband and put my arms around his waist. He turns around and picks me up. "Hello love. I've missed you."

"Mmm. I've missed you too baby. I may have beat up Christian today."

He looks at me confused. "huh?"

"He snuck up behind me and I headbutted him in his nose. It's possibly broken. By the time I left him he was getting black eyes."

He chuckles. "That'll teach him. Where was he?"

"He showed up when I was at Neiman's. He wanted to talk about things. After I beat him up I decided to give him answers. I'll tell you about that later. Long story short though, I talked him into selling me the portraits of me he keeps in his office and he agreed to go on a date if I set it up. Where's Dad and Ella?"

"They went to take a 'nap'." He winks at me.

"Now I know too much. Anyways, do you have a few minutes? I have some business that requires your attention." He smiles.

"I may need more than a few minutes but Yes, I can help."

I go to lead him back into the house when I'm stopped by Kirsten. "Mom, you have to watch me do cartwheels. My friends at school taught me."

I look up at my husband and shrug. "show me baby girl."

We spend the next several hours running around the meadow after our amazing children. Dad and Ella join is after a little while.

"Dad, you gonna make an honest woman out of her or what? I need a new step mommy since my Mommy is habitually absent."

"I was actually going to ask her to marry me but I didn't know how."

"Leave it to me Dad. I got your back. You have the ring?"

"Yes. What do you have in mind?"

"8 of us, you, Ella, me, Luke, Jason, Gail, Christian, and my friend Michelle. I'm trying to set Christian up with her. We go out on the Grace, Christian's catamaran and you propose out in the middle of Puget sound with us all around."

"That sounds wonderful. You sound like you've been planning this a while."

I laugh. "Daddy, I've been trying to plan your next wedding since I was 15."

He chuckles and hugs me. "You're the best daughter a man could ask for Annie."

"And you're the best Daddy. Oh Daddy. I used a self defense technique today." He looks at me concerned. "No, Christian snuck up on me. I headbutted him with the back of my head. I fucked his nose up. I feel bad but proud at the same time. He should reconsider sneaking up on women like that. Especially.. he just should watch himself."

"Agreed. Well done Annie."

"You taught me well."

I kiss his cheek. "I better go tend to my husband."

"Okay baby. Make those plans." I smile and wink.

I approach my husband and he is sitting on a lounger so I just sit on his lap. "We need to sneak off before we get caught again."

I give him a deep kiss and he picks me up and walks us up to our room.

As soon as we're in the room, he picks me up and wraps my legs around his waist and pushes us up against the door. He reaches up my skirt and rips off my panties and plunges into me before I even realize he took his pants down. He fucks me hard and fast until we both cum hard wrapped in each other. "I love you Mrs. Sawyer."

"And I love you Mr. Sawyer."

After catching our breath, he pulls out and lets me down. "Fuck, I have to play matchmaker and engagement planner now. I almost forgot."

"Whose engagement?"

I look up at him and smile, "Daddy!"

"So is Ella divorced?"

"Yes, when someone is in jail indefinitely, apparently, it's pretty easy to file for and get a divorce rather easily."

"Hmm.. what's the plan?"

"I was thinking the Grace but Christian would have to be on board considering it's his."

"Well plan it baby. I will be downstairs." He kisses me deeply. "Best. Wife. Ever."

I smile and pick up my phone to call Christian.

"Grey" I can be formal too.

"Yes, this is Anastasia Sawyer. I was wondering if I could gain access to your catamaran for my father and his potential new fiance?"

"Yes Mrs. Sawyer. That can be arranged. Who all would be on board for this? And how soon? I need to prepare my staff."

"As soon as possible. You, and your blind date, me and my husband and Daddy and Ella. Maybe Jason and Gail."

"Do I have to have a blind date? I'm just not quite ready yet."

"It's a group setting. Give her a chance. I'm not asking you to marry her."

"Fine. We can be prepared for tomorrow morning."

"Excellent. I'll see you then."

"Later, Ana."

"Later."

I hang up and call Michelle. She is 26 years old with red hair and green eyes and is an editor at Sawyer. She just moved to Seattle from Chicago 6 months ago when we recruited her.

"Hello?"

"Michelle? It'a Ana Sawyer. I have a favor to ask."

"Sure Ana. What is it?"

"I was wondering if you'd be interested in a blind date with a handsome stranger?"

"Ana…"

"No, listen. It's a day out on a boat with me and my husband and Jason and Gail and Daddy and his potential fiance and my friend and you if you want to. You don't have to do anything other than hang out with us."

"Okay, for you Ana."

"Excellent. I'll come get you in the morning."

"See you then."

I hang up cheerful that I've accomplished my goal. Now let the fun begin.

I find my husband and kiss him and let him know I accomplished my goal.

The rest of the day we spent with the family. Jason and Gail came over as well.

The next morning after a night of hot sex with my husband, we get ready for our adventure.

We pick up Michelle and meet everyone else at the Grace.

When we arrive at the Grace, I introduce Michelle to everyone and then we come to Christian Grey, this is Michelle Sommers. She is an editor at Sawyer Publishing. Michelle, this is…"

"Christian Grey." She puts her hand out for him to shake. "I did a essay about your work in college. I'm fascinated by your work. It's an honor to meet you."

"Likewise." He says.

"Welcome to your blind date. Get to know each other." I smile at them and Michelle follows me and pulls me into the cabin of the boat. Oh the memories I have in here.

"Weren't you married to him Ana? Are you sure this is okay? And what's wrong with his face?"

I take her hands, "if it wasn't okay, would I have set it up? And his face.. I kinda headbutted him when he snuck up on me yesterday" she laughs.

"Fair enough. I'm going to hang out with my handsome date." She walks off leaving me and I just sit on the bed a little bit, confused by my feelings. Am I okay with this?

I shake off my thoughts and rejoin the rest of the party."

"Ana, where did you go?" My husband asks as I emerge from the cabin.

"Oh, I talked to Michelle and just sat down for a little while. I just needed a moment. Did miss it?"

"Do you think he would let you miss it? Come." He takes my hand and leads me to the front of the boat where everyone is standing. When Daddy sees me he nods. And clears his throat as he gets down on his knee.

Ella notices what' happening and puts her hand over her mouth and starts crying. "Ella, the time I've known you has been the best of my life along with the times I've had with my lovely daughter. Now I get you both together and it is great. Will you marry me so I don't have to know another day without you?"

I know I'm crying too now. My husband pulls me into his chest.

Finally she answers, "YES Ray!!!"

I'm cheering and jumping up and down and hug and kiss my husband. Daddy takes out the ring and puts it on her finger. Then he stands up and hugs and kisses her spinning her around. Much like Christian did with me when we got engaged. Why is my mind wandering to that? I glance to Christian who is standing between Michelle and Jason but his attention is mostly on Jason. I shake my head.

I see Dad approach me and I run into his arms. "Daddy, I'm so happy for you."

"It's all thanks to you kiddo. Thank you for planning this."

"Anything for my hero Daddy." He hugs me tighter."

"I love you Annie."

"I love you Daddy."

He let's me go and I go back to my husband. "I'm going for a swim."

"I'll join you."

I strip off my clothes leaving me in my bikini. My husband has his swim trunks under his clothes so he just pulls off his other clothes and I dive in and he follows. When we come to the surface, we notice everyone is staring. "Come on people. It's time to swim unless you're scared."

"Um, Annie. You forgot to tell us about the swimsuit and your top is over there." My Dad says pointing to my top floating about 10 feet away from me. I look at Luke who is just coming up and swim over. This is humiliating.

Luke sees my struggle and swims over to me to help me with my top as everyone turns around to give me some degree of modesty. All the sudden Luke starts laughing. "Not funny." I say as I straddle his waist. "Don't make me have to take your trunks." He finishes tying my top back on and kisses me deeply.

"I want to take them off but not here."

I giggle. "You're scared."

"Not of losing my trunks. Scared that everyone will see my wife in the throes of passion. That's mine to see."

"Valid point. Come." I swim back to the boat and he follows me. We climb out of the water back on board. As I'm getting back on board everyone is smiling. "We will be right back." I grab my clothes and Luke's and we go into the cabin and he throws me up against the door and pulls on the strings on the side of my bottoms and takes down his trunks and lifts me up and buries himself in me and I moan but he catches it with his mouth.

"Quiet baby. This has to be quick." I nod. He thrusts in and out of me hard and fast. "cum." And I cum gloriously sending him over the edge. "fuck Ana." He says letting me down.

"Fuckkk.. I love you Luke Sawyer."

"I'm going to go out and you can clean up and come after." He says as he pulls on his shorts and shirt and kisses me again. "I love you too."

I plop down on the bed after putting my clothes on and I must have fallen asleep. I'm awoken to Christian. "Ana." He says from across the room.

I look up. "yeah?"

"We're about to dock. I thought you might want to know."

"I don't know why but memories keep flooding back today. It kinda hurts."

He comes and sits down beside me and gives me a hug. "hey. It's okay. Like you said yesterday. We can hold onto our memories."

I start crying. "I don't know why I feel this way. It's so confusing."

"I understand Ana. We should get on deck before everyone thinks I'm doing something inappropriate." I laugh and back away.

"I'll be up shortly." He nods and leaves.

I come back out on deck and I'm approached by my husband. "sorry baby. I fell asleep. Did you get our swim suits?"

"I did. I knew you'd fallen asleep when you didn't emerge immediately."

I giggle. "you know me well." I kiss him.

When we finally dock, my husband helps me off and everyone else exits as well. "Michelle, we can take you home." I say quickly, secretly hoping she takes my offer.

"I have business that requires my attention anyways." Christian says as he shakes her hand.

Michelle nods and follows us. We drive Michelle home and I walk to The house with her. I have to know how that went. "so? What happened and what do you think?"

"He talked to me a little bit but just casually. He wouldn't get too close and he watched you most of the time. He's still in love with you Ana."

I shake my head. "I'm so sorry. He said he would try."

"Try what?"

"To move on."

"There's no way that will be with me unless he is truly over you which clearly he isn't yet."

I nod and hug her. "I'll see you at work."

"By the way, Ana?"

"Yes?"

"For someone with 5 kids, you still have a rockin body. No wonder you keep ending up pregnant."

I laugh. "thanks. But no more for me. I made my husband get fixed."

"You know those don't always take, right? My ex-husband had one and now he has another kid with his mistress." I snap my head back.

"No way. Ugh. His better work. We better get home to the kids."

She chuckles. "see you at work Monday."

I don't find this funny at all. I go back to the car and don't talk to my husband the whole way home. Not because I'm mad at him but what if I get pregnant again? I'm freaking out. Should I get fixed to? Go on birth control? Yes. Definitely. I'm going to the doctor Monday.

When we get home, I get out of the car and run into the house like the car is on fire and grab Nevaeh in an attempt to avoid unnecessary conversation.

While I'm feeding her he comes and sits down next to me on the couch. "Mind telling me why you're freaking out Ana?"

I take a minute contemplating whether or not to just say it. "she told me how vasectomies don't always take and I'm kinda freaked out by it. Another in 5 years, I cam handle but now? We have 5 kids under 5."

"If it happens, it happens" he says and I snap my head up at him.

"I'm not having this conversation until I put the baby down. I have a feeling colorful words will be emerging from my mouth."

I finish feeding Nevaeh and bring her to Susan and tell my husband to meet me in my office.

I sit at my desk and invite Luke to sit in the chair opposite the desk.

"Now please, plead your case Luke. We have 5 kids under 5.. a 4 year old, 2 2 year olds a 1 year old and a baby that's only 3 months. Please explain to me why we would possibly want more right now."

"Baby, I'm not saying I want more per se but if it happened I wouldn't object."

"Nor would I but let's be reasonable. I'm going to get an IUD Monday. I would be okay if by some chance I'm already pregnant but beyond that, we're putting a pin in it until we at least have a couple over 5.."

"That's fine. I accept your proposal."

I laugh. "I don't need you to accept it Luke. It was gonna happen regardless. Look, I love you and I love our babies but pause the baby making super sperm for a couple years. You think you can handle that? You seem to have an overwhelming urge to keep me impregnated. Am I right?"

He looks down but remains silent.

I sigh, "Luke?!"

"I backed out of the vasectomy but I didn't know how to tell you."

"Are you fucking kidding me right now?"

"No."

I laugh. "You're sleeping in the guest room until I say otherwise. Please just leave me alone now."

"Ana, I love you and I'm sorry."

"I love you too Luke but I need a little time to register this."

He nods and walks out of the room looking dejected. I cannot believe this shit. I guess I better get a damn pregnancy test.

I take Prescott with me and drive the R8 to the pharmacy and get a pregnancy test.

When I return home I avoid my husband and go straight to our room. I go to the bathroom and take the test out of the box praying to God that my baby maker gets a vacation.

I take the test and leave it on the counter and go to shower.

When I come out I do my usual routine and get dressed and go back to the bathroom to find the word pregnant on the screen.

Ugh! I'm happy and pissed at the same time. I'm going to kick my husband's ass. I leave the test on the counter and don't even bother saying anything to him. I go down and kiss all my kids goodnight and ignore my husband.

I walk back to my room and I lay down and fall asleep.

Luke's POV

I knew I should've just had the vasectomy. Now I'm in the doghouse for God knows how long. She came down and kissed the kids goodnight and just ignored me. She never ignores me.

I decide to go up for a shower after I know she is asleep.

I go into the room and see her sleeping peacefully and kiss her temple and go into the bathroom and shower. As I'm shaving I notice a pregnancy test on the counter and upon closer inspection I see that it says pregnant. She is pregnant and didn't want to tell me. She is really mad.

I contemplate confronting her but realize at this point, it is probably a terrible idea. Instead I just go to bed.

I'm awoken in the middle of the night to my wife screaming. I run into the bedroom and find her still asleep. I grab her shoulders, "Ana, it's Luke, wake up!"

Her eyes flutter open, "Luke?" she wraps her arms around me. "Don't leave me."

"I'm not going anywhere baby."

"Good, because I'm pregnant. I'm so fucking pissed off at you though Luke so don't mistake me wanting you to sleep beside me for me being okay with your actions now."

"Understood."

"Now take your clothes off and hold me."

I nod and do as she asks and we fall asleep in each other's arms.