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"Okay I guess I will see you at the warehouse at 8 o'clock tonight." Rock says.
Brittany gives a simple nod and watches as Rock leaves. She knows there's a confrontation coming with Santana and she dreads it but it needs to be done. She turns to find Santana standing and watching her in a state of disbelief. Santana can't believe that Brittany is going back to the Pits after she promised her that she wouldn't.
"What do you mean that you're going back to the Pits Brittany? You promised me that you wouldn't go back to that place." Santana says reminding her.
" I know San and I'm not going back there that's just what I told him to throw him off my tracks for a while." Brittany replies.
"Wait that doesn't make any sense why would you need to..." Then recognition dawns on Santana.
"It won't be forever." Brittany tries to defuse the shit storm coming her way.
"Spare me the bullshit Brittany you're going on the run again!" Santana accuses angrily.
"I can't go back to the Pits and I can't stay here and put you in danger. What else am I suppose to do?" Brittany shoots back.
"Oh you know you can stay here and fight and stop running like a coward." Santana says angrily.
"If I'm a coward for wanting to protect you then i'll be that. They are going to come at me in numbers Santana and I can't risk you or any of your friends dying because of me." Brittany says evenly trying to keep her anger down but it's getting kind of hard.
"Fine then I'm coming with you." Santana says stubbornly.
"I would love for you to come with me but I can't ask you do that." Brittany says.
"You're not asking me, I'm doing this at my own free will." Santana replies.
"Yeah but you're not thinking clearly you have a life here with family, friends, and a business. You can't just abandon those things for me and I don't want you to." Brittany tries to reason.
"Why are you acting like all of this is nothing... like I'm nothing?" Santana questions.
"Santana don't you know that this whole thing is killing me? I'm trying to do the right thing here and free you so you can get on with your life without me."
"I am not some fucking caged bird that you decided to free one day! I am a person Brittany who have real feelings and I know that's foreign to you but it's everything to me!"
Santana knew she just crossed the line when she saw the expression of hurt across Brittany's face but she was too hurt herself to care.
"That was low and I do have feelings Santana, they might not show like others but they are there. I could have left at anytime and I probably should have but I stayed." Brittany says.
"Why did you stay?" Santana snaps back.
"Isn't obvious by now that I stayed for you. It was so selfish of me coming with you knowing what kind of danger that I was in and for that I'm truly sorry. When I heard you rambling on that night about going to jail you intrigued me and I let my curiosity get the best of me. I should have never dragged you into this but I don't regret our time together." Brittany tries to apologize.
"So you just basically lied to to my face making half-assed promises knowing damn well you couldn't keep them. I'm just some kind of thing that you were curious about and you took it upon yourself to test me out to see what a human is all a out. Is that it?" Santana is enraged at the thought of being used.
"First of all lower your tone of voice there are others inside." Brittany warns.
"Don't you dare tell me-
"Santana." Brittany cuts her off in a deadly tone.
Santana lets out as sigh of frustration and runs her hands through her hair and Brittany takes a deep breath before continuing.
"If I would have ran into any other person that night I would have walked away or worse killed them. Santana when I say that you intrigued me I don't mean it as me thinking you're some kind of expirement. You just seem so scared when you thought you killed me and for some reason I care enough to not want you living with that on your conscience for the rest of your life. At the time I didn't know you would end up being the most important thing in my life. Hell I'll die for you Santana if it came down to that. Breaking this promise means keeping you safe and to me that trumps everything else. You keep going on and on about a promise that I made and ignoring that I'm trying to protect you here." Brittany explains.
"Brittany I do get all of that but shouldn't I get a say so in this. It's my life so I should get a choice and I'm a big girl I can take care of myself." Santana argues.
Brittany scoffs at this. "Santana you're reckless and you have put yourself in so many situations that could have turned out bad for you. You're a loose cannon and the level of danger is so beyond anything you could ever imagine but you just can't comprehend that."
"Well excuse me for caring about you and wanting to make sure you stay in one piece. As far as loose cannon I do recall you going all rambo on Quinn and that guy at the bar." Santana replies back.
"Ugh! I'm not trying to play the fucking blame game here!" Brittany yells and runs her fingers through her hair angrily and starts pacing back and forth. She eventually lets out a deep sigh.
"I have to go San. I don't know where I'm going or how long I will be gone. All I know is that without me here you will be safe." Brittany says softly.
"I can't just forget all of this Brittany. How am I suppose to live knowing that you're out there somewhere and I'm not with you? Since I met you it's the happiest I've been in a long time and asking me to forget about you and carry on is nearly impossible. I love you Brittany." Santana says eyes full of tears.
Brittany's heart races at Santana's confession. She walks up to the brunette, grabs her hand and places it over her heart.
"You feel that? My heart always beats super hard when I'm around you. Sometimes I have to go in another room or take some deep breaths just so that I can get control over it. I never felt anything like this before and its the scariest, yet greatest thing in the world. Santana you are the smartest, funniest, most stubborn and beautiful being I have ever encountered. Even though I regret putting you in this situation I don't regret running out in front of your car that night." Brittany chokes up and takes a deep breath.
"San I'm so lucky to have met you, you taught me so much about myself that I never knew I possessed. I will remember you for as long as I live and even though it may not be right now, I hope one day you will be able to think about me without it hurting. I hope you smile at the great things we have shared and most importantly I hope realize that what I'm doing is for the best." Brittany finishes then hugs Santana tightly.
Brittany can feel Santana's whole body shake as sobs wrack her body. She is trying to be strong and keep telling herself that by doing this she will be keeping Santana safe.
Santana abruptly steps back out of Brittany's embrace and wipes tears from her eyes.
"So I guess this goodbye." Santana says coldly.
Brittany is kind of taken back by the sudden change of attitude but Santana has the right to be this way.
"Uh yeah I guess so." Brittany responds
"Okay." Santana turns and walks back over to the door but before she could turn the knob she hears Brittany call out to her.
"Hey San?"
"Yeah Britt?"
"If this whole thing ever gets resolved maybe I can..."
Santana doesn't even look back as she shakes her head at what Brittany is suggesting. She doesn't want to give herself false hope so says the only thing that can protect her heart.
"Don't come back." Santana says cutting her off and walks into the house closing the door behind her.
Quinn POV
I see Santana angrily storm in the house and head straight up the stairs. We all just watch in confusion wondering what's going on. I know her and B went outside to talked to Brittany's brother, but from the looks of it things it didn't go so well. I see puck motion to get up but I stop him because I'm the only one who knows the most about the relationship between these two.
I make my way upstairs and head to Santana's room and see that the door is closed. I go to turn the door knob but it's locked as well.
"Santana are you okay?" I call out.
"Go away Quinn I'm fine." I hear Santana respond and it sounds like she is crying but her voice is kind of muffled by the door.
"You're not fine open up." I try once again.
"I just want to be left alone." Santana replies.
"Okay but if you need me you know that I'm always here for you." I say but get no response.
I wonder what caused this and I know the only person that can tell me is Brittany. I march back down stairs and head towards the door to get some answers for myself. I swing the door open and find Brittany sitting down on the steps with her face in her hands.
"B what the fuck did you do to Santana! I swear if you... oh." I stop mid rant when I look down and see Brittany's face.
Obviously she's in just as much as pain as Santana if not more. Her eyes are blood shot red and I can tell that Brittany has been crying. She looks totally distraught which is unusual for her. I close the door behind me then walk over and take a seat beside her.
"Is everything okay? I know I came out here guns blazing but Santana just came back in looking so devastated and I just sort of jumped to conclusions. I'm sorry for that but from the looks of things she isn't the only one hurting. So what's going on?" I ask in concern.
"It's my fault Q." Brittany replies sadly then leans her head on my shoulder.
I hug her tightly then I release her because I think I might have a general idea why it could be Brittany's fault.
"She found out that you aren't normal didn't she?" I ask.
"W-what?" Brittany asks me in shock.
"I know you're not like a normal person or whatever and I'm cool with that." I reassure her.
"How do you know that?" She asks me in shock.
"B you're not exactly subtle and I've spent a lot of time with you and I kind of figured it out."
After she still had the look of shock on her face so I decided to elaborate more.
"Well for one when you went all she hulk on me and tossed me in the air like I was a little baby. I know some people are strong but you are like a buck twenty soak and wet. There is no way you should be able to lift me with ease like that. I also saw the incident at the club and you moved with such speed and strength it was shocking.
Finally at our last cooking session you were day dreaming while cutting up the carrots and cut your finger. I helped you clean the cut and bandage it. The next day when we all had dinner I noticed that the cut was completely gone. I planned on asking you how your finger was but you were too busy getting fed by Santana. So I just put all of that together and I knew there was something off about you, I just didn't know what." I finish explaining.
"So much for me being discreet." Brittany says.
"Yeah so you mind telling me what's going on?" I ask.
"Well Q you are right. I'm not normal. I'm a super human who just so happen to literally run into Santana."
Brittany goes on to explain everything that has been happening. I had no idea that all of this was going on and it made me feel sad for both Santana and her.
"... and now they have tracked me down and they are coming after me. I have to leave though because I don't want Santana to be caught in the middle of it. I'm just trying to protect her but I think she hates me now." Brittany finishes off sadly.
"B you have to look where she is coming from. She knew that you could bring danger into her life but she still took a chance on you. You shouldn't have promised her that you would stay, it just gave her a bunch of false hope. You should have been upfront with her and let her know that this wasn't a permanent thing." I explain.
"I wasn't trying to lead her on." Brittany mumbles sadly.
"I know that your intentions are good B but you're in no position to make promises like that."
"You're right Q, I really fucked up didn't I?" Brittany asks me.
"Truthfully I commend you for putting her own well being before your own happiness. As her best friend I want to kick your ass for breaking her heart but I also want to thank you for not putting her in harms way." I say genuinely.
"Do you think San will hate me forever?"
"She doesn't hate you B. She's definitely hurt but she doesn't hate you." I reply and give her a small smile.
I hear her sigh then she stands and hold her hand out for mine. She helps me stand then pulls me into a hug.
"I'm going to miss you Q." I hear her say.
"I'll miss you too and stay safe ok." I feel her nod against my shoulder.
Brittany steps back out of my embrace and we both wipe away tears that we didn't realize were coming down our faces.
"Take care of my girl for me." Brittany tells me.
"She's not your girl anymore." I remind her.
"She will always be my girl." Brittany says with so much conviction that it surprises me.
I watch as she walks down the steps with her head held high and disappear into the night.
Brittany POV
It seems like I have been walking for hours and the sun is starting to set. I have no idea where I am and I have never felt more lonely in my entire life. I wonder how Santana is doing... ugh no Brittany you can't think about that anymore. You have to keep your mind focused and alert. I wish it was easier said than done because all I keep thinking about is Santana's sad eyes and I feel a pang in my heart.
First it was Ariel and now Santana has somehow crawled her way under my skin and into my heart. Santana said that she loved me and even though I never loved anybody before, I think I love her too. I just wish we could have met under different circumstances and things could have been different. I wouldn't be so defected and Santana could stay the same because she is perfect.
I don't know who I'm kidding thinking that I could find some sort of happiness in life. I should have know from past experiences that being happy just isn't in the cards for me. All good things really do come to an end I guess. I just wish things could have ended better I mean she told me to never come back and I deserve it but that doesn't make it hurt any less. I just have to keep telling myself that this is all for the best.
I still haven't quite processed that my mother is the one who is behind this whole thing. Let's face it that bitch is straight up cray cray. Who abandons their child only to kidnap them and turn them into a killing machine. I've seen and heard a lot of crazy things but that definitely trumps them all. A part of me wants some answers but I can't bring myself to give her that kind of satisfaction.
A noise coming from the left of me brings me out of my thoughts. My body goes on full alert because I think I have been found. I did the best thing that I could do and that's run. I think I've been found and the noise sounds like it's getting closer. Fuck I'm totally screwed there is no way I can get away if it's more than one of them. I turn my head to look behind me quickly and when I face forward again its like running into a brick wall.
Whoever I ran into must be solid steel because I go flying back and land hard on my ass with a thud.
"Blue get up!"
I look up to see Rock standing over me menacingly.
"We don't have time for this get up and let's go now." Rock yells at me urgently.
I stand to my feet and dust myself off.
"I'm not going back to the Pits so you can forget it!" I yell.
"You idiot why didn't you meet me at the warehouse?" He says harshly.
"Maybe you're the idiot because I keep telling you that I'm not going back!" I shoot back.
Yeah take that asshole if he wants to take me back he will have to kill me first I think to myself.
"No Blue you should have met me that way I could have told the Boss that I captured you, but when you didn't show up she told the minions to proceed." Rock explains.
"So I'll be long gone before they can even get close to me." I reply confidently.
"No Blue you're not understanding me, they tracked you to Santana's house."
"So I'm not there anymore so what's the big deal?" I ask.
"They don't know you're not there." Rock replies.
"Shit!"
I give it no second thought and I run like I never have before praying that Santana will be okay when I get there.
Santana POV
Everybody has come and gone except Quinn who is still here but I'm currently trying to get rid of her. I locked myself up in my room for four hours straight bawling my eyes out.
I figured everyone would catch the hint that I wanted to be left alone but obviously Quinn didn't get the memo. My eyes are blood shot red from all the crying and my hair is a complete mess and I don't care I just want Brittany.
In the back of my mind I knew that this whole situation with Brittany wasn't a permanent thing but I ignored it and went with my stupid heart. For the first time ever I feel like I have no control over my emotions or actions. She was right when she said that I was reckless but I just couldn't sit back and do nothing to help her. I'm most angry with her because I feel like she took my choice away. Even though I do have so much going on for me here she didn't even give me the choice of deciding what I wanted to do. I think a part of her was scared because she knew that I would give this all up just to be with her.
As much as I want to hate her I simply can't and I won't place all the blame on her either. I'm the one who insisted on helping her out and she warned me several times but I didn't listen. I know she thinks that I'm mad at her because she broke a promise and partly I am but I'm more mad at myself. I knew we had things that we needed to discuss but we kept avoiding them. This whole situation is just fucked up.
"Santana!"
"Huh? What?"
"I have been calling your name for like a minute now." Quinn says.
"Yeah sorry I'm just kind of out of it right now." I reply.
"How you holding up?" Quinn asks me and I can see the concern written all over her face.
"I'm honestly so numb Q and when I don't feel numb, the pain is unbearable. I keep thinking this is all just a dream and I when wake up tomorrow she will be cuddled up next to me. Is she really gone?" I ask barely containing my tears.
"Yeah sweetie she is gone, I'm so sorry."
I feel Quinn's arms wrap around me and hug me tightly. I thought I had cried all my tears out but apparently I found some more from somewhere. Everything hurt sand all I wanted is Brittany.
"I-I told h-her not to come back! W-what if s-she wants to c-come back? " I cry even harder realizing how stupid that it was for me to tell her not to come back.
"San I think she knows that you didn't mean it. I talked to her.
"What did she say?" I ask eagerly.
"She thought you hated her-
"That's not true!" I argue cutting Quinn off.
"She knows that now after I explained to her that you didn't. She's just as distraught as you are but she feels like she did the right thing. She really does care about you and wants me to take care of her girl for her." Quinn finishes.
I just nod my head and take in everything Quinn has said.
"I'll always be her girl." I mumble out as I feel my eyelids getting heavy.
"It's funny because she said the same thing."
When Quinn tells me this a huge smile spreads across my face.
"Are you going to be okay here by yourself?" Quinn asks me.
"I'll make it Q, I'm just going to call it a night." I say.
"You sure cause you can always come and stay with Rachel and I tonight."
"No I'll be fine but thanks for everything. You're the greatest best friend a girl could have." I tell her.
"You're more than welcome and I know you would do the same for me. I'm going to head out now but you call me if you need me okay. No matter what the time is." Quinn says.
"I promise."
Quinn gives me a kiss on the forehead then leaves.
I settle down in my bed hoping I will be able to sleep tonight. Brittany was like my body pillow and I had gotten use to sleeping on her. I need to accept that she is not coming back but I guess it wouldn't hurt if I slept in her shirt tonight.
I get up out of bed and go over to her drawer and pull out a pair of her boxers. After I slide those on I go over to the clothes hamper and take out the shirt that she pulled off this morning. It has a picture of a cat and the words "I love pussy" on it. Of course when she bought it she had no idea what it meant so it made it that much funnier.
I feel a fresh wave of tears coming to my eyes as I slip on the shirt. I lift up the shirt inhaling her scent and I'm pleased that it stills smell like her. I put the shirt back down with a sad sigh, at least I will have some remembrance of her. I start walking back to the bed when I hear a thud down stairs.
Quinn must have forgotten something I think. As I make my way down the hallway to the stairs I hear a bunch of stuff being banged around.
"Quinn what the hell are you doing down there?" I call out while making my way down stairs.
I get no response but the noise continues and that's super strange. Oh my god it's Brittany, I just know it is. My heart starts beating super hard by time I reach the bottom of the stairs. I continue on to the living room hoping that I will find Brittany there.
"Brittany is that you?" I ask as I walk towards the living.
"I'm not Brittany." I hear a deep voice say.
I feel a hand cover my mouth and Brittany is my last thought before everything went black.
Brittany POV
My lungs are burning from exhaustion but I can't stop. I just have to make it in time before they get to Santana. My mind is going crazy thinking about all the possible things that could happen to her. I finally see her house come into view and the porch light is still on. I run as fast as my legs can carry and when I finally reached the porch steps I jump over all of them. I land not so gracefully but that doesn't matter at this point.
I take a deep breath and turn the door knob, and it's open my body goes on full alert because there is no way Santana would leave her door open like this. I open the door wide and all the lights are still on. Maybe Santana hasn't went to bed yet, yeah that's got to be it.
"Santana!" I yell out but get no response.
I run to the living room, the kitchen, and then upstairs checking every room, closet, nook and cranny. Santana is no where to be found and realization hits me as walk back down the stairs. I see Rock walk in the door out of breath and I completely forgot that he was even behind me.
"Where is she Rock? I demand.
"Here." He holds a cell phone out for me to take.
"I don't want a phone I want Santana!" I yell enraged.
"It's your mother." Rock tells me.
I let out a growl and snatch the phone from Rock.
"Where is she?" I scream into the phone.
"That's no way to speak to your mother."
I freeze when I hear the feminine voice.
"Tell me where she is." I demand.
"Oh you're little friend is fine don't worry, she is safe and sound as long as you cooperate."
"What do you need me to do?" I ask impatiently.
"You come here in exchange for her." I hear her say.
"Fine. I'll do it but listen up bitch if you hurt her I will kill you!" I yell then throw the phone into the wall shattering it to pieces.
They took Santana and I let it happen. My chest starts to get tight and my throat feels like it's closing up. My vision starts to blur and I feel my body dropping to the ground but Rock catches me by the shoulders.
I can hear him instruct me to take deep calming breaths and something about me having a panic attack. I do as he tells me and eventually my breathing returns to normal.
"Brittany this is not the time to fall apart okay. Now let's go get your girl." Rock says then helps me to my feet.
"You're right let's go get my girl."
I send up a silent praying hoping that Santana is okay. I said that I would never go back to that place but they leave me no choice. I will get Santana back even if I have to kill my own mother to do so.
Don't hate meeeee! lol this chapter was super angsty sorry. A lot of you guessed right about Santana being taken. Up next we are going Pits and Brittany will be reeking havoc. Also Brittany's encounter with her terrible mother. Thank you for reading :)