I wake up in the morning wrapped tight in a Luke Sawyer burrito. I squirm and turn myself around and I kiss his lips and lightly run my fingers over the stubble on his jaw.

I reach up and kiss his forehead, nose and lips again and then I roll out of bed and go take a shower and change into some comfortable clothes.

I give my husband's sleeping form another kiss and wander out to see if my kids are up yet.

I find them in the dining room with Ella, Susan and Heather and I smile and walk around the table giving all my kids a kiss on their little heads. "We made your favorite for breakfast Ana." Ella says.

I smile brightly as I know that she is talking about pancakes and bacon. "Thank you ladies. Can you put a plate for me and Luke in the warmer and I will go wake him up?"

"Of course, Ana."

I kiss my kids again and walk back up the stairs to wake up my delicious husband.

I give him his favorite wake up call and he doesn't disappoint. "Mmm.. my favorite way to wake up wife."

I kiss him sweetly. "breakfast is ready Mr. Sawyer."

"I love you Mrs. Sawyer."

"Mmm.. I love you too baby. Let's get up."

I slide off of him and stand up and get dressed in what I was wearing before I seduced my husband. He gets up and puts comfortable clothes as well. Today, we are both off work and we're spending time with our amazing children.

After we are dressed, we go down and have breakfast with the kids, who are basically all done eating.

We spend the day out in the meadow taking turns chasing around the bigger kids while the other one of us tends to the littlest ones.

I'm taking my turn on the picnic blanket when my phone rings.

"Ana Sawyer."

"Mrs. Sawyer, this is Detective Clark. Do you have a moment?"

"Yes. What's going on?"

"Rodriguez is fighting his charges so we're going to trial and I need you to testify."

I sigh. Stay calm Ana. "okay, when?"

"Next Friday."

"I will be there. Just email me the time and details."

"Will do. See you next Friday."

I hang up and lay back on the blanket next to my youngest son and look up at the clouds in the sky in an attempt to soothe myself. "it's always something Peyton."

He giggles and I give him a kiss. My husband approaches and can immediately tell that I'm distressed. "what's wrong baby?"

I sigh and look into his eyes. "now I have to testify against Jose." I grimace.

"I'm sorry baby. I will be with you myself no matter what."

"Thank you. You're really the best Luke. Someday I will convince you of that."

He smiles and lays down on the blanket with me and gives Peyton a kiss on the head and then softly kisses me on the lips.

"Where's the kids?" I ask when I notice they aren't in the meadow anymore.

"Susan and Heather took them inside."

He lays on his back like me and takes my hand and he looks up at the clouds with me.

We lay there a little while when I notice Peyton fell asleep next to me. "we should take him to bed."

"I will," he suggests. He gives me another sweet kiss and stands up and carefully picks up Peyton and takes him inside. I get up myself and take the blanket with me and put it back away.

After the kids go to bed, my husband and I go to bed as well.

3 weeks later

It has been 2 weeks since I had to testify against Jose. He was found guilty of several charges, including kidnapping.

He was only sentenced to 4 years in prison but he is eligible for parole in 2 years. This is discouraging, but at least he is out of our lives for 2 years. Maybe we can get lucky and have a relatively calm life in the meantime.

Today I'm headed in for my weekly lunch with Christian. I arrive at the 20th floor and I'm greeted by Andrea. "Mrs. Sawyer. Mr. Grey must not have contacted you. He had to go to Portland last minute so he isn't available for lunch today."

I nod. "thank you Andrea." I turn around and get back on the elevator with Prescott and head back to SPI. When I arrive back at the office I approach my handsome husband and give him a sweet kiss. "My lunch was canceled. Want to have lunch with me Mr. Sawyer?"

"Of course."

"Meet me in my office after you get someone to cover for you."

"Okay Mrs. Sawyer."

I smile and give him another sweet kiss.

I walk into my office and take off my panties and put them in my purse and call and order our food. My husband enters the room as I'm finishing up my call. "lock the door. We have about 20 minutes until lunch gets here and Mama wants dessert first."

He smiles his panty dropping smile and turns and locks the door and saunters over to me. He lays me down and fucks me hard and fast until we both climax spectacularly.

"Fuck Luke. You never cease to amaze me."

"I do what I can baby. Anything for my fabulous wife."

He gives me a sweet kiss as he pulls out and we lay in a post coital embrace until we come down from our highs. "We better get up and get dressed before our meal arrives." I giggle.

He stands up and offers me his hand so I can get up as well. We situate ourselves just in time for our food to arrive.

After lunch, Luke goes back to his station and I read through manuscripts the rest of the day.

The next day, I'm at work when my phone rings. Kate.

"Ana Sawyer."

"Ana, you're friends with Christian, right?"

"Yes. What's going on?"

"His helicopter went down on his way back from Portland. He is missing. There is no way to know if he survived until they find the helicopter."

I gasp. "oh my God."

"It's on the news."

"I will go watch now."

"I thought you would like to know. I will keep you updated. Let Ella know."

"Thanks Kate. I will go talk to her."

I hang up and start crying. No matter what happens, I will always have love for Christian. He was my first everything. I decide to leave work and go home so I can tell Ella and we can watch the news together.

I leave my office and stop by Hannah. "I'm going out the rest of the day. Contact me only for emergencies."

"Okay Ana."

I nod and walk to my husband. "I'm going home the rest of the day. I will talk to you about why later."

"Okay baby. You want me to come with you? You are obviously upset about something."

I think about this for a moment. "Yes. Please. Find someone to cover you and we can go."

We decide to leave Prescott in his place and we head home. On the way, I explain the situation to him and he seems genuinely concerned as well. He knows I still have love for Christian.

When we arrive home, Ella is in the kitchen baking a cake. "Ella, I need to talk to you."

She pulls her cake out of the oven and sets it on the counter. "of course dear."

She seems so happy and I'm about to ruin her day. I guide her to my office so that my kids don't overhear what I have to say. We sit on the couch. "Christian's helicopter went down on the way back from Portland. He is currently missing."

She gasps and starts crying and I wrap my arms around her and I start crying as well. "I haven't had enough time with him Ana. He has to be okay."

"I know. Let's go watch the news so we can get updates."

She just nods and I take her hand and walk her to the family room and Luke comes and sits on the other side of me and holds onto one hand and I hold Ella's with the other hand.

The next 4 weeks are a blur of working, Ella and I comforting each other, my husband comforting us as well, and watching the news a few hours a day. They found his helicopter but it had burned to a crisp and they are trying to identify the bodies found inside. Christian was traveling with Ros and 2 other men back to Seattle. They are trying to identify the bodies. None turn out to be Christian's, which is a relief, but where is Christian?

On day 30 of Christian being missing, they officially call off the search and Christian Grey is presumed dead. Ella and I hold each other and my Dad comforts her as well. I just pray that Christian is alive out there. This is extremely hard for Ella for obvious reasons.

In the following weeks, the Greys have a funeral for Christian, complete with an empty casket. There is a will reading that I was invited to for some reason.

Turns out Christian still had me in his will for some reason. He left money to his family, including Ella, which means that he had updated his will but he never took me out. He left money for various charities. He left me everything else. What the fuck? I stand up and practically run out of the office and Luke follows me and I get into the back of the SUV and he slides in beside me.

"You okay?"

"No. Son of a bitch left me everything aside from the money that he left his family. Why would he do that? I never gave even half a shit about his fucking money. I want to go home. Can you take me home and Daddy can come back to get Ella?"

He kisses me softly. "Anything for you Ana."

We go home and I go to my room and cry it out and take a long bath in an attempt to calm down and I get dressed in comfortable clothes and go down and rejoin my family and we spend the rest of the day with our children.