7 years later

It has been 7 years since Christian was declared cancer-free. A lot has happened the last 7 years. Some good, some bad.

Luke was killed by Leila William's when she was attempting to kill me 3 years ago. He literally jumped in front of the bullet meant for me. He still protected me all the way to the end of his life. His death was extremely hard on all of us. I held him as he took his last breath after telling me he loves me while we were waiting on an ambulance to come. Leila was sent to prison for life for the murder of my husband as well as her sabotage of Charlie Tango and kidnapping. I miss Luke so much. He was the love of my life and I wish he could've seen how fabulous our children have become. He gave me nearly 10 of the best years of my life.

Heather and Holly are now 21. They have been great. They graduated high school 3 years ago, with honors. They were both valedictorian. They were accepted into Harvard but after Luke was killed, they wanted to come home to be near me and we built them their own house on our property and they are now attending WSU. They are really excelling. They both want to be doctors. After they graduate from WSU, they are going off to med school in New York. I will miss them but I'm happy that they are able to get back out there and become the strong independent women I know they are. They liked to call me and Luke Mom and Dad because the other kids did and we figured it would be better that way. We were blessed to have taken in and saved 2 incredible teenagers and were able to help them excel in life.

Kirsten is now 14. She is such a beautiful young lady. She and all the other kids are on the A honor roll in school and I'm extremely proud of them. Kirsten has started rebelling against me in the last couple of years. She evades security and she sneaks out of the house in the middle of the night sometimes to go meet with her friends and drink alcohol. My therapist says it may be because of losing her Dad at 11. I took her with me to the therapist and when asked why she does these things, she says, "Because I miss my Dad and I learned recently that he isn't my biological father." She looks at me And breaks down in a frenzy of tears. "I know Christian is my biological father but Dad will always be MY Dad." This breaks my heart for her. She was set up with her own therapist and she is beginning to do much better. She even started playing piano again and she joined a couple of clubs at school.

Jesse and James are now 12 and they're amazing as well. They are both looking forward to playing football in high school. This slightly terrifies me because of all the possible injuries they could easily get while playing football but I want them to be who they are meant to be so I've relented because they are so excited about it.

Piper is 11 and she has been classified as a genius. I believe all of my kids are geniuses but the school said she is a genius. She is taking a couple of courses with 14 year olds. She is making straight A's in all of her classes. She had a bright future ahead of her and I look forward to seeing what she does in her life.

Nevaeh is 10. She excels in school and she loves to sing and has a beautiful voice. She sings solos in every school concert that they have. Sometimes whenever her sister plays piano, she sings along with her.

Peyton is now 9. He is the comedian of the family. He is always telling us jokes and playing harmless pranks on us. He excels at school as well and is learning to play the guitar and he is very talented.

The year before Luke died, he had his vasectomy reversed and I got my IUD out and we were trying for another baby since the kids were all getting older.

I was pregnant whenever he took that bullet for me. He was protecting us both. The pregnancy made me even more emotional than a woman that wasn't pregnant would be after losing their husband.

2 years ago, we welcomed Lucas Michael Sawyer Junior and he looks just like a mini Luke.

The older kids are a great help with Luke Jr. The nannies are still with us but mostly as family now that the kids are older.

I spend a lot more time with my kids now than I did before they lost their father. I'd felt bad about not spending more time with them with Luke.

The Greys come and check on me regularly and help me with the kids. Even Christian. They invite us to family dinners and we go whenever we're not busy with something else.

Christian and I bonded over me helping him through his cancer. He and I became great friends. He spends more time helping me than the rest of his family because, as he said, he owes me one. In the last 3 years, my feelings for him have come back stronger than before. I refused to acknowledge these feelings for the past year. I can't fight the feelings anymore so I've decided, after talking to my kids about it, that I should go for it.

Luke would want me to move on and it HAS been 3 years. The kids are okay with me possibly dating Christian. The only person involved in this that doesn't know about this yet is Christian.

Daddy and Ella have moved back to Montesano and come to visit every couple weeks for the weekend.

They still use the guest house whenever they are in town. It will always be their other home.

Today I am going to have another IUD put in because I don't need anymore babies and I want Christian.

After having my IUD put in, my security takes me to Grey House so I can finally express my feelings to Christian. I hope he reciprocates. I can't handle rejection.

I get to Grey House and go in and security stops me. It has been a while since I came here and I'd never saw this guy before so I excuse his behavior. "I'm Anastasia Sawyer and I'm here to see Mr. Grey. Call up and I assure you that they will want you to let me through."

He gets on his phone and makes a call. He hangs up and looks at me. "I'm so sorry Mrs. Sawyer. Go on through." And he hands me a badge and I go to the elevator.

The elevator opens on the 20th floor and I'm nervous about this.

I am greeted by Andrea. "Mrs. Sawyer. Mr. Grey will see you now."

"Thank you Andrea." I walk through the office doors and he is standing there waiting for me to come in. I run into his arms and hug him tightly.

"What brings you here today, Mrs. Sawyer? Would you like to have lunch with me?"

"I would love that Mr. Grey." I stand on my tippy toes and give him a sweet kiss and I walk over to the couch and have a seat where we used to eat lunch often.

He is just standing there shocked. He has worked out a lot after his bout with cancer and his muscle tone is even more defined than before.

"Is something wrong Mr. Grey?"

"Um, no. I'll have Andrea get our meals."

He shakes it off and gets on his phone and calls Andrea to order our meals. He comes and sits back down beside me, so close that I can feel his body heat.

"Care to tell me what that kiss was about Ana?"

I smile at his beautiful confused face. I cup his face in my hands and kiss him softly again. "I've fallen back in love with you Christian."

His lips crash back into mine and he gives me a passionate kiss. "I never fell out of love with you Ana. My feelings for you became stronger whenever you helped me through my cancer. I respect you and I respected Luke so I happily stayed your friend and even after you lost him, I've kept a respectable distance because no matter my feelings, I never would've tried anything because you needed a friend and I owed you for helping me so I happily helped you through the tragic loss of your husband."

I smile brightly. "I've been feeling these feelings the past year but I refused to acknowledge them because I felt like I'd be betraying Luke but my kids helped push me to you again. I love you Christian Grey."

"I love you too baby."

"Would you like to be my boyfriend Mr. Grey?"

He smiles, "it would be my pleasure."

He gives me another passionate kiss. We only break apart when there is a knock at the door. He gets up to go get our meals. I can't help the huge grin that won't leave my face.

He brings the food and comes and sits down beside me with a grin stuck to his face as well.

We eat our lunch with casual conversation and moderate flirtation.

After we eat, I ask, "I'd like to come to your place tonight. I need you."

His grin widens. "I love that plan baby. I get off around 4 today and I will meet you there. I will have Gail make us dinner."

"I will see you around 4 then. I have to go now because parent teacher conferences are today."

"Okay baby. I will see you then." I give him another sweet kiss, which is quickly deepened. I break the kiss.

"I really have to go Christian. I love you."

"I love you too Ana."

He walks me to the elevator and I head to the conferences and then home to bathe and get dressed up for my impending date with my ex husband. I take off my wedding and engagement rings and kiss them before putting them into my safe. "I love you forever Luke. I hope I'm doing the right thing."

Just then, I see the clouds part outside and there is a rainbow. He is giving me a sign that it is okay.

At 4, I head to Escala and let my family know that I will be out tonight but to call if they need anything.

Whenever I arrive, I go straight to the penthouse and walk in to find the most romantic setting I could ever imagined. I find Christian in a form fitting tux and my mouth practically waters. I want this man badly.

He comes up to me and takes my hand and runs his lips across my knuckles. I am swooning. I give him a sweet kiss. "dinner is ready."

I smile. We eat dinner together and share a moderate amount of flirtation throughout.

After dinner, we sit on the couch and drink some wine and talk. I put my wine glass down and I take his and put it down. I kiss him passionately. "I need you to make love to me Christian." I whisper against his lips.

His lips crash back into mine and he scoops me up and carries me to his bed. We strip each other slowly and take our time and he makes love to me so delicately and gives me many orgasms in the process. This is the best sex that him and I have ever had. I feel more connected with him this time.

As we lay there sated, I ask him a question I never thought I'd ask. "Christian, do you want to get married? Just go to the Justice of the Peace and get married privately this time."

He looks shocked but elated. "I would remarry you in a heartbeat. Let's do it." I smile at his handsome face and kiss him passionately again.

We make love again throughout the night.

The next day we get dressed and go to the courthouse and get married rather quickly.

After we are married, we decide to wait until Sunday to share it with our family.

At Sunday dinner, we make the announcement and everyone in the family is happy for us. They insist on a holding a wedding for us soon and we agree to it.

My kids are ecstatic to have Christian in our family.

This is our happily ever after following the tragic loss of the love of my life.

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I am working on an alternate ending that I think my dissatisfied readers will like better.stay tuned.