Chapter 14
Revelation

.:Nya:.

Hunger was such a funny little thing. Nya -of course- had experienced it many times while she was on the run. Her stomach was currently snarling, and from it came the not-so-subtle undertone of pain. It came in waves and it seemed as though her stomach was slowly digesting itself. It was a slow pain, eating away at her and leaving her feeling drained and empty. Nya wanted to clutch at it, pull it in a way as an attempt to silence it and to end the sensation but now was not the time to do so.

Nya panted as she swiftly dodged the metal of Lloyd's sword, her own had been disarmed a few seconds ago.

It was dinner time but Lloyd insisted that the two of them kept training considering the tournament was only four days away and this would be the only time the training dojo would be empty before it would become full with students wanting to cram in last training sessions. But, to make this spar 'more realistic to outdoor conditions', Lloyd had placed a whole bunch of random objects and benches on the training mat… And Nya already acquired numerous of bruises from tripping over them.

"You can't keep dodging forever. Get to your sword," Lloyd hissed as he went to strike again, leaving Nya no choice but to dodge again!

"You're not making this easy for me!" She snapped as she tried ducking underneath Lloyd's arm but his leg quickly prevented her from going forward!

"Neither will your opponent!"

"But you're one of the best in our class!" Nya snapped.

"Don't fight honourably like a samurai! Fight like a ninja!"

Nya rolled her eyes. Whenever Lloyd said to fight like a ninja, he meant look for openings and strike them but how could she strike an opening that wasn't even there?

Suddenly, Lloyd thrusted his sword out towards her. Nya was barely able to step to the side, missing the sword by mere inches but her hands were quicker. One firmly grasped Lloyd's wrist in a grip to prevent him from trying to nick her with the sword and the other one the edge of the handle. Then, she firmly pushed down, knocking the sword out of his wrist. She quickly grabbed it and poised it at Lloyd's own neck.

For many long seconds, none of them said a word or moved. They both were just panting. Lloyd looked mostly fine. He didn't seem tired but Nya knew she must look somewhat horrid. Probably really flushed and red in the face and her clothes damp with sweat- ewww, she could feel a drop trickling down her back. However, Lloyd grinned; making her drop the sword.

"Great move. I don't remember teaching you that though."

"Your father taught it a couple weeks back. Don't you remember?"

"Uhh, no," the blond chuckled as he scratched the back of his head. "Must have slipped. Oh well. But that technique is good if you're duelling against students with swords. If you happen to go against Cole who mostly fights with a scythe, you really have to look for open spots without your sword."

"But scythes are terrible to disarm swords," Nya reminded.

"I think we trained you too good," Lloyd sighed while Nya gave him a quick pat on the shoulder.

"It's not a bad thing. Just means you and Jay are good teachers."

"And you're a good student. Either way, go and take a shower. You stink!"

"Thanks," Nya muttered sarcastically.

.::.

It was said that two percent of time actually spent in the shower was spent on washing, eight percent was on singing and the rest, the ninety percent, was spent on making life decisions. Nya knew that this set of statistics were wrong… Well, at least to her since she didn't sing in the shower and she didn't spend ninety percent on making life decisions. Maybe twenty percent she spent on making decisions but the rest was just reflecting on whatever happened.

Although it had only been three days since her encounter with Zane Julien on the roof, Nya couldn't stop thinking about it. Not because she was infatuated with the guy but because of what he said and what he knew. She couldn't believe he knew since day one that she was in disguise. Just how many more boys out there that knew she was a girl but decided to keep quiet about it?

"You might not be able to control these feelings but you should not let them control you. At the moment, you are letting them control you."

Nya hated to admit it but… Zane was right. She allowed her grief and misery consume her that she had forgotten about staying in character around him. But not allowing your emotions to control you was a lot easier said than done. Nya honestly had no clue how to not do that.

Maybe I just have to be on the roof when rain is about to come and ask him myself…

Nya softly sighed as the pebbles of hot water caressed her skin as they made their way down. She hated depending on other people but Zane made a valid point… a point that she needed to fix up before she would stupidly reveal to someone else that she was a girl.

… Then there was the other point that Zane had made; the point that Jay was bound to found out sooner or later.

After the nightmare, she and Jay didn't speak at all in the dorm. The only times they would speak to each other was during training. It was putting a strain on their… friendship, but Nya couldn't face Jay. She knew that if they were to engage in a conversation other than training, he was going to ask about her parents or the nightmare.

But, again, Zane was right. If she didn't tell Jay any time soon, how long would it be before she would have a really bad nightmare? One that would consist of her screaming or crying in her sleep and sounding very much like a girl? Jay would know for certain and then who would know what Jay would do next. If she were to tell him herself, she would be able to have control over the situation and keep it calm… Jay might freak out a little but not as much if he were to discover it himself.

Normally, by the end of her showers, Nya would make a decision… Except this was the one decision she couldn't seem to make. She didn't want to tell Jay. Her philosophy was that the less people who knew her secret meant that there would be a lesser chance of her uncle ever finding out where she was. But… if Jay found out himself, things wouldn't end well. Even if Nya did decide to tell Jay, how? When?

The girl sighed as she turned off the water and stepped out of the foggy shower stall to wrap herself in a thin towel. She went towards the mirror on the other end of the bathroom and wiped it with her hand… however, she frowned when the condensation just fogged up the mirror within a split second. Well, she did take a much hotter shower than what she usually took.

Nya went to her clothes, prepared to put on the dreaded bindings and bodysuit but she paused first to realise that she didn't grab a new pair of clean clothes… Just the really sweaty ones from training.

"Idiot…" Nya muttered to herself before she slowly went to the bathroom door. "… Jay, are you back from dinner?"

Nya made sure to wait twenty seconds… Twenty long seconds but when she literally heard nothing, she cautiously opened the door and stuck her head out to look into their dorm.

No Jay. Good.

Holding the towel tighter around her, Nya quickly darted out of the bathroom and to her dresser, quickly opening the drawers to gather a pair of clean pyjamas and underwear. She didn't feel comfortable at all being in the open of her dorm in a thin towel that revealed too much of her feminine curves. Sure she was in here alone but she couldn't help but feel shy and nervous.

However, Nya came to a stop when her eyes caught sight of one of Kai's sweaters at the bottom of her drawer. After she had grieved over Kai in the woods, she somehow managed to pick herself up and leave him… after taking his bag and possessions. That was one of the hardest things Nya had ever done in her life. Although she wore Kai's clothes when disguising as him, there was one sweater she could never bring herself to wear.

She remembered Kai telling her it was his absolutely favourite sweater… why? Because it was the one she attempted knitting for him when she was at the delicate age of ten. Nya didn't understand why Kai brought it with them on the run. They both got clothes that would give them a low profile and be sturdy against the outdoor conditions… Yet this sweater was bright red and knitted loosely that if it were to get snagged on a branch, it would be damaged immediately.

"I still don't get it."

"Get what?"

"Why you brought that ugly thing?"

"Ugly?!"

"Yeah. I made it when I was ten. Look at how awful it is. The sleeves are too long, the neck line is too big yet tight around the shoulders."

"Hey, stop insulting my favourite piece of clothing!"

"Favourite?"

"Yeah."

"Kai, it's hideous!"

"I think it's perfect. It doesn't matter the outcome, it's about the effort that has gone into things. That's why I love it because I knew, at the time, you tried making this as perfect as you could."

Nya sighed as she softly ran her fingers over the sweater, her eyes having a slight sting to warn her of the tears to come.

"I miss you…" She quietly whispered, feeling her hoarse voice break.

Nya gulped, trying to hold back the tears. She knew continuing to look at this sweater would only allow a horde of emotions to overwhelm her.

But just as Nya was about to close her drawers, she felt her blood run cold when she heard the door open and close behind her.

Within the timeframe of a split second, over a hundred profanities screamed into her head. How did she come up with more than a hundred? Let's just say that Nya could get very creative with her profanities.

And turning around and seeing a very stunned looking Jay caused another hundred to scream in her head.

"W-Wha- K-Kai? B-But… Y-You… Errr…" Jay spluttered, no coherent word flowing from his lips.

And to be bluntly honest, there wasn't a coherent thought that went through Nya's mind that wasn't a profanity. She didn't know what to do. The one thing she didn't want to happen was happening in the worst possible way! Come on, what could be worse than Jay finding out while she only had a freaking towel!

Nya fearfully examined her roommate's face. There was the obvious jaw drop that stuttered with silent splutters, there was a twitch in Jay's eyebrow while his blue eyes were wide with shock. Then, Nya followed his eye line… And saw he was staring right at her cleavage.

"D-Don't keep staring!"

"Y-Y-You're not supposed to have those!" Jay blurted out, finally able to form words and point at her… or more specifically at her breast, causing Nya's face to blare bright red as she automatically grabbed the top of the towel and tried to cover herself more.

"And that gives you the permission to keep staring?!" Nya exclaimed, no longer bothering to disguise her voice. She honestly wished she had jumped off the roof and risk the chance of not dying on impact because spending months in a hospital would be better than this!

"You have breast?! You expect me to not keep staring?!"

"Yes! It's called decency!"

"Wait, YOU'RE A GIRL?!"

Nya couldn't help but stare at Jay with a dumb-folded look on her face, embarrassment dialled down. Did Jay seriously thought that she was a guy with breasts?! Only now he realised that she was a girl?!

"Yes, I'm a girl. Now keep your voice down," Nya immediately whispered, also realising how loud they have gotten.

"Keep my voice down?! Are you insane?! You're a-!" But before Jay could scream out another word, she had grabbed the styling comb off her dresser and threw it at Jay's face. "Hey!"

"Shut up, will you?!" She hissed.

"But w-why are you a g-girl?!" Jay exclaimed, much quieter than before.

"Why am I a girl?"

"Yes!"

"Because I was born that way?!"

"S-S-So you mean you d-didn't just have surgery or w-whatsoever?" Jay stammered, looking absolutely mortified.

"What? Of course not."

"Y-You've been a girl this w-whole time?!"

"Catch up, Jay," Nya muttered as she looked down to the ground… but she immediately looked up when she heard Jay give out a horrified gasp.

"S-So I've been changing in front of a girl this whole time?!"

Honestly? This is what he's most upset about?!

Nya rolled her eyes as she made her way to the bathroom, no longer wanting to stand naked in front of this slow idiot.

"W-Where are you going?"

"To change."

"B-B-But I don't understand-!"

"I… I'll explain later. Just… Just don't go anywhere and not a single word to anyone."

She didn't wait for him to reply before shutting the door behind her. The sound of the door shutting echoed within the bathroom, almost imitating the sound of impending doom.

Nya didn't know whether or cry or to scream at the universe as to why it would always give her the worse luck. Her stomach was in a complete knot, churning and churning while threatening to bring up bile at any moment.

Get a hold of yourself. We can't change the past… All we can do is deal with the present and hope for a better future.

… Pfft, as if that had ever worked before.

But, Nya knew she had to deal with the problem at hand instead of crying or screaming about the fact that Jay knew now.

Nya knew that she couldn't tell Jay the partial truth like she had with Skylor because… in some ways, Jay deserved to know the full truth. She lied to him this whole time and while he wore a facial expression full of shock, she knew he was just as equally hurt. Although Jay was a talkative person, he wasn't a very open person either. She knew he wasn't a fan of losing friends – like him and Cole… So probably finding out that his roommate was actually a girl his whole time would have been a big blow… Heck, Nya had trust issues and if someone did that to her, she would definitely have no trust in anyone.

… Here goes nothing.

.:Jay:.

It wasn't often that something could render Jay speechless. Heck, he always had something to say… or at least know what to say but know it would be better not to say it. But this?! The fact that Kai was a girl?! Jay didn't know what to think!

Kai- no! This girl had been pretending to be a boy for nearly five months! Why?! It just didn't make sense! Why? Why why why?! Heck! Coming to think of it, the signs were so obvious but how did he miss them?

Kai never took his shirt off - probably to hide the fact that he -SHE!- had breasts! Then there were the monthly stomach aches! Maybe that was why Kai had 'feminine' curves to his -UGH HER!- face! Did Skylor knew that her boyfriend was actually a girl?!

Jay was torn from his mental rant when he heard the bathroom door open. Instead of seeing Kai – broad shoulders, scowl, baggy clothes – Jay saw this different version of Kai that really shocked him. It was like the Kai he knew was stripped back. Instead of broad shoulders, he -SHE!- had more of a feminine curve to the shoulders. His -ugh, come on, HER- arms were actually exposed for once. They were muscular and tone but they still retained the slenderness of a girl.

"Just tell me I'm dreaming. You can't possibly be a girl, right?" Jay asked, almost in desperation. Had his friend… been lying to him this whole time?

"I wish you were dreaming…" She said, her voice softer.

"B-But… Why?" Jay urged, looking up to her face, the feminine qualities being more prominent now that he knew that he was staring at a girl.

"I'll explain… I promise. But I need your word that you can't tell anyone. Not even Lloyd."

"Why?"

"If you do, I'll have to leave."

Leave? A bit extreme isn't it? Jay thought as he looked at this… at this stranger that stood in front of him. But his damn curiosity was dying to figure this out.

"Fine, fine. Just who are you?"

"… You haven't figured it out yet?" She asked, almost shocked. "It's me… Nya."

Almost instantly, Jay's eyes widened as wide as they could possibly go. Everything single word had left him as he continued to stare at the girl in front of him… The girl who looked at him with amber eyes that held little life and energy left… Like the embers in a dying fire.

"Well? Aren't you going to say anything?" She questioned, arms folding over her chest.

If Jay wasn't so shocked, he probably would say something but, at the moment, he couldn't get his lips to move. It was like he was stuck underwater, everything slow and warbled.

"Please, just say anything," she exasperated.

"T-This whole time… It was you?" Jay finally managed to asked. He almost cringed at the amount of hurt that laced in his voice… but he was hurt.

This person… he had tried so hard to be friends with. He had tried to offer her so much support and help, comfort and sympathy… Yet she couldn't even tell him the truth? It was like the Kai he had known had suddenly vanished… replaced by this stranger, by Nya.

Heck… Jay felt like he didn't even know this person anymore.

"I have a good reason…"

"A good reason? Really?" Jay skeptically asked, a painful scoff exiting his lips as he slightly shook his head and looked to the ground. "So all the things you'd told me before is all a lie?"

"No. I told you some truths… Not the complete truth but close enough," she muttered, making Jay look back to her.

"And you're going to tell me the truth now?"

"Yes."

"The complete truth?"

"Yeah…" Nya repeated.

Jay didn't know whether or not he believed her words. She had lied to him once before… and lied really well. What if she was lying again? What if she would deceive him with some other story? Heck, why was she even doing this?

All of these questions… All of these truths and lies... All of these revelations were causing Jay's head to pound and spin.

"… Jay?"

"I need a minute," he muttered before getting up and leaving the room.

.::.

Jay remembered an old saying that Master Wu had once said in his first year at this academy.

"The saddest and most painful thing about betrayal is that it never comes from your enemies."

… and it was true. In Jay's opinion, the worst thing about betrayal was knowing that it was done by someone you trusted… someone you trusted the most. As much as Jay loved to socialise with people, after the whole fallout with Cole, Jay only limited himself to a couple of close friends that he could count on for never falling apart… Even when things went bad.

Okay, not a couple of friends. Just the one. Lloyd.

Yet, when Kai came along, Jay couldn't trust him… But when he started to see Kai as a friend and got to somewhat know him better -even if it wasn't a lot- Jay started to trust him.

Maybe it was because he was so secretive that it made Jay realised that even if Kai did know something about Jay, he would have kept it quiet. Maybe it was also the fact that Jay knew that Kai had no friends and had lots of trust issues… but if he managed to entrust Jay in keeping quiet about the nightmares and the parents, then it meant that he would have no reason to betray Jay's trust.

… Yet why did knowing that Kai wasn't who he said he was betrayed Jay so much? Jay honestly shouldn't be… he and Lloyd both pointed out on the night of the gala that Nya and Kai were so alike… Meaning that the Kai that Jay knew was exactly the same as Nya. The Nya that had nightmares at night. The Nya that had a lot of trust issues. The Nya that probably wouldn't tell anyone anything.

Even so, Jay couldn't help but feel betrayed.

After countless of minutes of numbly walking around the academy, Jay eventually went to the roof of the academy. Before the fallout with Cole, Jay remembered Zane saying how the roof of the academy had to be one of the most calming and relaxing spots in the entire academy.

Jay had to admit, the odd boy was actually right. Sure it was high up but Jay didn't care. The breeze was tranquilising and the sight before him was beautiful. The sun sat half exposed on the horizon, its fiery colours linger on the sky as the sun began to sink.

"… I didn't know you were up here."

Jay jumped, nearly falling off the roof, when he heard his roommate's voice. He whipped around in a fright, only to see her standing there, looking down at her feet… but to his surprised, still dressed as… well… not a boy.

"Do you have to scare the living daylights out of me?" Jay asked, stepping away from the edge of the roof. "Why are you up here anyway? And… still dressed as that."

He watched as Nya looked down at her attire before sighing.

"I thought that maybe you left to find Lloyd and tell him… So I came up here in hopes to clear my mind. You know, the calm before the storm."

"Well, I haven't told anyone," Jay muttered, turning his back to her and sitting down on the tiled roof before drawing his legs to his chest.

For a few seconds, only silence could be heard… apart from the distant sounds of birds and the occasional breeze. But, soon, the sound of footsteps reached Jay's ears and before he knew it, Nya was sitting down next to him… more like a couple meters to his right.

"… You have to understand that I couldn't tell you about this," she said softly but it didn't distract Jay from the sunset. "This is just a way from me to hide from my past."

"Your past…" Jay muttered bitterly. He couldn't help but still feel betrayed.

"I didn't lie about my parents," Nya whispered. "They are dead…"

"… But it doesn't make sense," he sighed, before finally turning to look at her. "Why dress up as a boy?"

"I wasn't lying when I said I would tell you the truth."

"But why now and not before?"

"… Because you deserve it after everything you have done for me," Nya softly said, her words shocking Jay. "I… I decided a few days ago it would have been best for me to tell you the truth… instead of you finding out but I didn't know how to go about it."

"Then I found out."

"Yeah… then you found out," she sighed, looking drained. "Look, this… this whole thing started when my parents died last year. They both went at the same time in a car accident."

"I'm sorry to hear," Jay whispered gently.

"That's not even the worst part."

The worst part. Jay didn't know what could possibly be worse than your parents' death because Jay knew, for a fact, that that would definitely be the worst part in his life. No matter if they went from old age or murdered, it would still be the worst part.

"Since my brother and I weren't old enough to look after ourselves, we were placed into our uncle's custody."

"Your brother… The real Kai, does he know about this?" Jay asked quietly as he gestured his hand to her and her 'get-up'.

"No."

"So why dress up as your brother, of all people?" He questioned, brows furrowed in confusion.

"I'll get up to that bit," Nya murmured, looking back down to her hands that were clasped over her laps. "Our uncle… He was a drunk and used Kai and I to keep running the family blacksmith store to pay for the house and for his alcohol… But he also found some kind of sick joy in beating me up."

Jay couldn't help but let a gasp escape his lungs as his face morphed into utter shock. It suddenly clicked in Jay's mind… why Kai/Nya seemed to flinch away from sudden movement when he/she first came here. Why he/she didn't take off the shirt… not because of scars from blacksmithing or kenjutsu but from physical abuse.

"Y-Your scar… It wasn't from w-walking backwards as your uncle pulled a sword out of the furnace…"

"No… It wasn't. He… He deliberately did it just because I talked back at him."

Jay felt sick. Really sick. Jay honestly thought there weren't people like that in the real world – just in movies and books. But to hear that there were people like that… that was sickening. But to then hear that Nya's own uncle would do that to her was even worse – even more so just because she talked back at him!

Jay stared wide-eyed at Nya who only continued to stare at the sunset, her hand reaching over to her shoulder to grab at where Jay assumed was the scare.

"He did this for a couple months… Abusing me while threatening me to keep quiet about it and not tell my brother… otherwise he would have hurt Kai too. But, my brother eventually found out… so he started to pick more fights with my uncle just to protect me."

Jay then watched as she reached into her photo and pulled out the tattered photo of her and her brother – the real Kai. He watched as this sad and yearning look washed over onto her face… immediately informing Jay of how close she must have been to her brother and how much he cared for her to try and pick fights with his uncle just to protect Nya.

"Maybe after five months, my uncle threatened to Kai that he would kill me… so my brother got me in the middle of the night and we escaped."

"Kai- Nya, I can't believe you had to go through that," Jay whispered. "You or your brother."

"… It doesn't matter. It's in the past," the girl murmured. "Two months we managed alright… going from town to town while keeping a low profile to stay away from our uncle who we knew was looking for us. Kai managed to get in contact with an old friend of ours who was in Jamanakai Village. I was hesitant since it was close to where we lived, in Ignacia, but Kai assured me it was only for a few days… But Ronin betrayed u-us."

Nya paused, keeping her head down while her hand slightly squeezed the photo. Upon further inspection, Jay silently gasped to see tears making their way down her face.

"Apparently he owned my uncle a large debt… a d-debt he paid off by bringing u-us into his house where o-our uncle was w-waiting for us."

"I've trust a friend before… And they betrayed me, so I apologise for not trusting you."

That was what Kai- that was what Nya had said to him. She must have meant this Ronin friend betraying them to their uncle. Heck, that just made Jay feel guilty for feeling betrayed just because Nya kept this from him.

But, judging by the distraught on Nya's face and how her shoulders began to tremble, Jay had a feeling that the next bit was the worst bit to come.

"Kai and I ran… into a nearby f-forest but when Aidan isn't d-drunk, he has a good aim when it comes to k-knives."

"Nya, you don't have to continue," Jay spoke softly before scooting over to be closer to her, to reassure her that she had him… but she shook her head.

"H-He managed to get two into Kai over a far distance… M-My brother… K-Kai wanted me to go on and promised he would be right behind me b-but I argued, n-n-not wanting to leave his side. But Aidan g-got closer and Kai pushed me into the bushes so he c-could deal with Aidan alone… I-I knocked my head on the way d-down but when I c-came around… I-I-I found his b-body."

By the end of it, Nya was reduced down to a blabbering mess of tears that wouldn't cease from falling from her eyes. Instinctively, Jay wrapped an arm around her shoulders and pulled her close to his body… and she didn't bother to push him away.

"I'm so sorry… I really am," Jay whispered. "But… wouldn't dressing up as your brother bring back bad memories?"

"… It d-did as first. When I was left to be on the run a-alone, I knew my uncle w-wouldn't just stop with just Kai – he would come after me until I'm dead. So… I knew I-I needed a disguise, preferably male just to hide better. Then I thought K-Kai would be best; my uncle would think he's d-dead and this way, I could somehow stay close and c-connected with my brother… It seemed to be a great idea at the t-time but it just brought back painful m-memories. But… time went on and I just couldn't be b-bothered changing the whole look so… I just s-stuck with Kai. Then I had the c-crazy idea to apply here and only come if I get a full scholarship in… This way, I wouldn't h-have to be on the run and h-hide from my uncle."

"… And you kept it from me because you didn't want word to get out…" Jay murmured; Nya nodded her head.

"But… Skylor knows…"

"S-She does?"

"After fifteen minutes into knowing each other," Nya sighed. "And… And I found out a couple days ago that Zane knew since the very beginning-"

"W-What?! He knows?!" Jay exclaimed, pulling away from her before his brows furrowed in concern. "What if he tells someone?"

Nya had been through enough. Jay honestly didn't know how she went through it all… If that was him, he probably would have given up. That could be 'giving up' as in allowing to keep living a life full of abuse or… or give up life in general. It was, without a doubt, that Nya was strong as much as she was broken. She had made it this far… but that still didn't make it okay for her to keep enduring through things like this… things that Jay want to put a stop to immediately.

"He told me he wouldn't… I trust him enough to stay true to his word," Nya sighed. "But now you know… Please don't tell anyone."

"I won't, I promise," Jay immediately assured.

"Thank you…"

"Like I've said before, I only just want to help."

"Still, thank you."

Hi all! I'm back and feeling so much better and back to my old self… Well, mostly. I found that surrounding myself with the people I love and starting new hobbies really helped me through – so I'll stress that if you're going through depression or any mental help, always seek help! Always surround yourself with the people you love instead of pushing them away.

But on another note, a not so great ending but I hope the length of the chapter makes it up for that! But massive thanks to everyone who have reviewed, favourited and followed, and even sent me encouragement messages (I don't know what else to call them): Jaell, RebelutionaryWrites, Natalie Singe, Guest, JSNI, Beatitude Girl, RandomDragon2.0, MortalNinja, Cerenda, EchoIsACutie, unknown, CuddleLover, TheKittenQueen, JC-17, Bananachild248, QueenofHearts7378, and all my silent readers!

Cerenda: I hope that this chapter answered as to why Nya disguised herself as Kai and not some other random guy – in addition that she had Kai's bag with her so she had access to his clothes.

CuddleLover: I have to admit, your review was probably the most entertaining (and difficult) review I have read in a LONG time hahaha. I'm so sorry for killing your heart, for making everything hurt, making you cry, a mess, and so on. Also, I love the chilli analogy! But don't worry, I'm planning on writing fluff soon to get rid of all of this angst. Now that Jay knows, let the romance begin!

And to everyone, thank you for your support, loving words and patience for while I was going through this rough patch in my life. It really means a lot to me. I really love you all!

Anyway, I've been working more than 30 hours a week so updating will still be a bit slow and I also have started a business! Well, sort of. As you may or may not know, I love to bake and decorate cakes and I have two people who have ordered cakes from me! It's super exciting as one of the cakes I'm going to make $120 but it has to feed 30+ people… So yeah, that's gonna be interesting. So both of these cakes are due in the next week and the half and I'm also in examination week so I may get to update in two weeks.

But next time, on the next chapter, we get a look out how Jay and Nya will interact now that the secret is out and some fluff (because who doesn't love fluff?). I'll see you all soon - xoxo ZaneLoverFan88