Sorry I haven't updated. It would have taken a while as most nights I have had the light off and couldn't see my keyboard for editing stories. It's hot down here in Australia, bushfires everywhere and my air conditioner was broken.

Episode Thirty Eight - Dark Side of the Moon

Church that week was more of the usual, and he felt odd that he was getting used to it. Father Maloney still glared daggers at him, but none of the other parishioners in the church really cared who or what he was.

He was largely accepted simply by being around Ella, which made him happy. Too bad this was all done in a church. He would prefer to not.

Ella was excited all day and that night in the church and he could only presume it was because of tonight's episode of Supernatural. She did tend to get extra worked up about some episodes. He hoped that meant this episode was going to be a good one, but she had gotten excited for episodes he cared nothing for, before.

As it was, when they got to his flat and the DVD was put in ready to go, she was bouncing on the couch with excitement.

He sighed. "Okay, what's it called?"

"Dark Side of the Moon. This one features Heaven."

And he suddenly realised why she was so excited. This was one of those episodes she probably would want to stop to ask him questions, or maybe enjoy his bitching about the episode.

"Okay... Is it a good episode, or are you super excited to get questions answered."

She grinned widely at him. "Oh, both, but the questions can wait for tomorrow, where I will have all day to bug you over it. No, It's a good episode."

He nodded, took a deep breath and let it out in a sigh and pushed play. Here goes nothing for the Heaven episode.

He grinned at the way Dean getting shot in the head immediately changed into the bloody splash screen. "Oh, clever. I liked that."

Ella nodded. "Yeah. It was good."

He nodded and paid attention to what was going on. He wondered what this Heaven would be like.

He paused it and raised his eyebrows at the screen. "Huh. So Heaven here is good memories forever? Sounds pretty much right, actually."

Ella grinned at him. "Yeah, pretty much. It's good to hear so far it's pretty accurate."

He nodded. "Yeah...pretty good."

He was suddenly feeling oddly like peeking into rooms in Heaven just to see if things had changed. It had been millennia since he last saw Heaven, after all.

He paused it again shortly after to frown at the screen. "Wait...that gun from Roy was pointed at Dean's head. How did he get shot in the chest like Sam? That makes no sense..."

Ella let out the most ridiculous amused sound at that. "Holy shit that is the most ridiculous thing to say."

He stared at her. "Um, Cassie is talking to him through radio because angel and communication makes sense. Dean being in Heaven makes sense. Even though he did make that demon deal, but he did serve his time in Hell, so, yeah. Also that's where Michael is. Sam and Dean being separated makes sense because everyone gets their own separate Heaven, because everyone is different and has their own ideas of Heaven. That Sam isn't there with him makes sense. Him being shot in the chest when the gun was aimed at his head is the only non logical thing here."

Ella fully laughed at that, but she was nodding. "Okay, you've got a point. It is still a hilariously stupid thing to pause it over."

He shrugged. "Maybe, but I don't care."

He pushed play again because he was liking this so far.

He laughed at both the boys not understanding how they would make it to Heaven. Ella looked at him but he shook his head. It was just a silly thing he found.

He paused it when Dean got pissed when Sam had a happy memory after running away from his family to be on his own for a while. Given Dean treats Sam the same way as John did, that didn't surprise him at all, but no. The only thing that mattered to Dean was that during his time away from the family, Sam was happy and got a dog.

"So, let me get this straight... Sam has no right to be sad or complain when his mother doesn't even see him in the room and he can't interact with her at all, but Dean has every right to be pissed when Sam has memories that Dean isn't a part of?"

Ella grimaced. "Oh yeah, I forgot that you'd really grab onto this and gnaw it with every tooth you have."

He crossed his arms. "Am I wrong? Sam can't have happy memories unless Dean is present, but Dean is fine if he has memories when Sam isn't there. Sam isn't allowed to complain about anything, but you better bet he better start having memories involving him, or there will be hell to pay. In Heaven."

Ella rolled her eyes and punched him in the arm. "Shut up complaining about Dean being a bastard about past memories and push play alright?"

He sighed, rolled his eyes but took the hint and pushed play.

He paused it again when Dean actually goes off on Sam for having happy memories about not being with his family, when his family was abusive. Dean may have stayed, but that didn't make Sam wrong...

"I...I hate Dean in this episode. Like I said, Sam isn't allowed to have happy memories if they don't include Dean, because Dean has to be Sam's whole world, because that is what Sam is to him. Even then, Dean is allowed happy memories without Sam. I am pretty sure I am so pissed right now I am repeating myself. Also, how come Zachariah is a search light?"

Ella seemed to ignore his Dean bitch fest and frowned at the other part of his rant. "I have no idea why Zachariah is a search light. Maybe because he is using one in Heaven, and it isn't actually him?"

He shrugged. "I have no idea, but it's really weird and everything about this episode is beginning to annoy me."

She rolled her eyes at him "Yeah, I kind of figured that out, Lucifer. Push play damn it..."

He pushed play, if only to stop the inevitable fight that may come out of this episode. He hated when he fought with Ella. It made him feel like she would quit before he did. Not that he was going to quit.

He paused it again at the soulmates word coming out of Ash's mouth. "Ugh, no. Soulmates aren't actually a real thing, Ash. So, everyone, including Sam and Dean have their own, personal, Heaven. That part is true. Which is why it is stupid to believe that they're all connected by a road of some sort. It's more...rooms. Like Hell, but in reverse. Good instead of bad. This Heaven is beginning to make no sense."

He pushed play again without having to be prompted after having his say.

He laughed, and Ella laughed with him at Ash saying that the Winchester boys died more than anyone else he had ever met. Truer words have no doubt, ever been spoken.

He paused it after Joshua sent them back to their bodies. "You know, this both implied that the memories that pissed off Dean so much Sam had were planted, because we saw that Zachariah has the power to do that, as a way to get Dean to lose faith in Sam. Not that he had much faith to begin with."

Ella rolled her eyes again, "Sometimes this show is so vague, you have no idea what the truth is, but yes, I agree with you there. I see it that way too."

He nodded. "I liked Joshua though. Too bad about his message about God sitting back and watching the show though. I think people tend to get the End Times a bit wrong though. I mean, sure, everyone human will die, but that just means time is up and a new species will take over."

Ella frowned and nodded. "Mass extinction. Wouldn't be a first."

He nodded. "Yep."

He pushed play again to watch the rest of the episode, since it was right near the end now.

He stopped it at the end scene and stared at the screen. "You know, right now I don't even care about Dean's hurt feelings. Castiel just had his entire belief system destroyed in a single conversation. He's broken. They broke my fictional brother. I want to hug him so badly..."

Ella patted his shoulder. "Oh yeah, that look on his face. He's heartbroken. He's lost his home, he's lost his family, he lost his faith. He's lost everything."

He nodded. "That sucks. I know how that feels. You never actually get over it, you know? It stays with you for the rest of eternity and it sucks. Dean on the other hand just lost faith in everything and symbolically threw away his brother."

Ella winced at his side. "Oh yeah."

Lucifer nodded. "I have no doubt Sam picked up the amulet and is keeping it so that he at least didn't ever give up on Dean, even if Dean thinks he did. Because Sam is like that."

Ella shrugged. "Maybe. Until that happens though, there is no way of actually knowing, because this show is sometimes so damn vague."

He nodded again at that. "Yep. I am going to go get drunk, because that last scene brought up a lot of bad memories for me."

Ella blinked at that one. "What, Heaven didn't?"

He shrugged. "Not really. I have as much attachment to Heaven as I do to Hell. Wonder why I am here instead of either of those places? Yeah, because this is where I feel at home. "

Ella grinned at him and gave him a hug. "Aww. Found family is the best family sometimes. And speaking of, I am going home to watch the end of season two with Dan and Charlotte."

He grinned at her. "Have fun in those earlier seasons, where not everything sucked and there was such a thing as a happy ending."

She laughed at that. "Will do. Enjoy your wallowing in bad memories. I've got to go."

He waved at her, as he went over to the bar to grab a bottle of scotch to drink. He didn't bother with a glass. He was going to drink the whole damn thing.

The closing of the lift doors behind him felt like the end of something.

Headcanon - Yeah said it before here in a comment, but will say it again. I saw Sam's Heaven not having Dean included as Zachariah messing around with their Heavens in an attempt to get to Dean. And succeeded. So both Ella and Lucifer see it.