"Maybe you should go somewhere else when they come... but I want you by my side" Roderich, stop saiying this things if you are going to be the homofobic nazi.
"I-I will be by your... Side. Yes" Vash assured, completely confused. Roderich smiled pleased "But... Well... They do not have any plans to come, right?"
"Well... maybe tomorrow."
"What?!"
"My mother wrote this week. Maybe they will come tomorrow."
"Whaaaat?! No!"
"Eh? Why not?"
"B-Because... I'm sick"
"Oh... that. Do you think it could happen again when you see my mother? It could be embarrassing."
"It would be a relief..." he mumbled.
"A relief?" asked the boy whose ears can hear your heart without a stethoscope. His heart started beating faster by the way.
"A-A... I mean... F-Forget it."
"Don't worry, anyways I suppose I could hug you and hide any problem you have" or maybe do it worst.
"Hu-Hug me..." his heart is not going any slower with only the idea.
"Like yesterday at night."
"W-We hugged?"
"When we were in the bed."
"You... No-Noticed it?"
"Well I noticed this morning. And during the night, because I couldn't move very well"
"D-Did I... Hug you... All night?" Do you want to sound SO... Guilty
"All night long..." He smiled. Are you accusing him of something? If Vash was blushed... Now he was triple blushed.
"I... I... That was unintentional" Vash mumbled feeling accused. Don't you realize, dear, that he does not seem uncomfortable...
"Was it?"
"I... I... Was asleep. You don't control wh-what you do while sleeping" He whispered.
"And you sleep all night without wake up"
"I-I don't usually sleep that well" but your hugs seem to make the trick...
"Why not?"
"I mean, I sleep normally... Yesterday, I was probably vey tired or something"
"Ah, maybe" He shrugged. Vash could not look at him into the eye... again. Completely nervous... again.
They stay in silence taking notes for the rest of the class. The professor says FINALLY which seems like a miracle.
Roderich smiled and dropped his pen.
Well, the profesor Wales hates you!
Why?
The noise "Shhhh!" He thought Roderich was dropping his pen to make noise
Roderich raised his eyebrows because it's very unusual that someone made him shut up. The professor looked at him intently and continued with whatever he was saying.
"Do you have anything to share with the class, Mr. Edelstein?"
"Was?"
"You seem to be particularly interested in interrupting me today. Please enlighten us with whatever is more important than my class."
"Well..." he glanced Vash askance. "Today's subject was very interesting."
"Was it? I'm not sure you have listened anything else but what we said while Mr. Zwingli was here..."
"Au contraire" He said in french, like an expresion of his mother. "I have a very close friend who has medicals problems with this and I'm determinated to help him to solve it" Roderich explain, crossing his arms and without hear what he is saying in apparence. I don't want to talk about where are the eyebrows of the Italian guy, Feliciano.
"Medical problems with the physiology of the arousal response? Hmm..." the professor looked at Roderich thinking that this probably was like those times when people talk about something personal saying that "they have a friend"... "And you think you can help this friend of yours?"
"Well, maybe not today, but I hope, in the future I will certainly do. Maybe that essay that we should do could be about him, I'm evaluating the idea."
"Wh-What?! "Vash whispers.
"You could add his case to the essay, for sure."
Roderich smiled with his chin up
"I want SPECIFIC information since you are reviewing a practical case, ok?"
"Oh, it will be very easy..." He said glancing at Vash again.
"Ihateyou..." Vash whispers.
"Ehm..." He hestiated with this. "I will send a letter to my friend this evening"
"Good. Well... class dismissed."
Roderich smiled to Vash, who sighed and stood up to leave and the austrian followed him.
"What do you think?"
"Now you will do an essay!"
"He said that everybody have to do one. But now, my essay will talk about you."
"YES! You will do an essay of ME!
"Do you... disagree?"
"Ugh!"
"I could say that I don't have permission"
"Just don't say its me"
"Of course I won't say its you"
"You... should let ME do the investigation and everything. Really, don't worry."
"What?"
"You don't need to worry"
"But... you can't do it because is about you."
Vash blushed.
"I'm just trying to... make your life easier."
"But that is to healt yourself."
"There's nothing I can tell you to avoid you doing that essay, right?" Vash surrendered.
"Come on, relaaaax, it's just me."
Vash sighed and nodded... yesterday that would have been a relief and certainly a reason to relax. Today it was something that made him panic, to be honest. Pat pat on his shoulder.
"Why don't we go to eat, and then I have to... study"
"Yes, let's go."
So they went, again holding hands, and Vash carrying Roderich's bag.
"Hey!" Feliciano stopped Vash and Roderich, staring his holding hands.
"What? "Vash frowned not wanting to stop, really.
"Are you going to eat?" Feliciano asked.
"N-No" answered Vash.
"Yes, do you want to come with us?" asked Roderich at the same time.
"Whaat?" Vash complained.
"Oh, no, I prefer not annoy a perfect couple date." Feliciano smiled.
"A whaaat?"
"Eh? "Roderich didn't understand and Feliciano laughed. Vash blinked thinking... maybe he'd heard wrong.
"You look very good together." said the latin guy.
"Why do you say that?" Roderich asked. Vash looked at them both in shock
"It doesn't matter. It's a little bit strange but it's OK."
"Strange why?" Roderich isn't thinking in that kind of couple.
Vash looked at Roderich as if he had three eyes... what?! "Strange why?" he first had told him that homosexuals were the worst possible perverts in the world, and now he said it was not strange?!
"Well... for nothing "Feliciano smiled every time more conviced.
"We are going. Now" decided Vash, in panic, completely convinced that Feliciano had discovered him.
"But he can come with us "Roderich answered. Vash looked at Feliciano, quite scared to be honest.
"B-But... Roderich... why do you want him to come?" He whispered.
"It isn't like we are goiNg to do the... private thing while we are eating."
Vash blinked... and blinked again looking askance at Feliciano, who did the same.
"B-But..." Vash mumbled... startled.
"Eh... don't worry, Roderich, another day I will come, really."
"Well... we'll see you soon" Roderich smiled to Feliciano. Vash pulled Roderich's hand.
"What are you doing?" Vash scolded him after pulling his hand to take him out of there.
"What?" Roderich followed him again
"Why... what... the... why did you say him that?"
"Because he can't imagine the truth anyways, so... it doesn't matter."
"I-I believe he can actually imagine a lot of things!" not that you are making it any difficult to him.
"No, it's imposible, how would he know?"
"I don't know... he seemed to know..."
"Why do you think that?"
"Well... I... I..." He babbled... again. Although he thought that maybe he was being paranoid. "I'm probably wrong."
"Yes, you are, trust me... He can't know nothing about what we do or not" Roderich said, thinking about playing the violin.
Vash looked at him really impressed thinking, of course, about sleeping together and being excited with Roderich...
"It's a secret between you and me, no one else knows anything. And they would let us do it if they knew how pleasant is."
"Oh my god..." Vash whispered again.
"What?"
"I'm hungry "he changed the subject.
"Let's go to eat something"
"Yes, thank you!"
Roderich laughed with that nervios answer just to receive an "angry" look from Vash.
"You shouldn't frown that way, it doesn't looks pretty."
Look... Vash blushed then, and stopped frowning at once and Roderich laughed again.
"Ugh... You are confusing me!"
"Why?"
Vash closed his eyes thinking of Roderich saying "pretty green eyes"... And blushed again. Roderich bowed his head slightly.
"What are you going to eat?" asked Vash.
"Don't try to make me think that I didn't make a question."
"Because you say... Things!"
"What things?"
"Confusing ones" Vash made a soft caress in Roderich's hand with his thumb.
"Like... what ones?" Roderich did one in return without thinking on it.
"L-Like..." Vash shivered.
"Aha?"
"I... I... I'm probably just being paranoid."
Roderich sighed and decided to focus on the meal. So, finally, Vash had a few minutes of peace. Yeah while Roderick was chosing. Two minutes of peace, then, maybe less.
"Wh-What's the plan, then, with your mother?"
"Eh? What do you mean?"
"What do you want me to do?"
"Do you want to come with us during the visit?"
Vash hesitated... He was afraid of Roderich's mother and the possibility of her finding out that he liked Roderich... However, if he fell in love with her... All his problems would be solved.
"Hmm... I would like to meet your family, yes"
Roderich smiled.
"It's just my mother and my brother."
"They are your family, aren't they?"
"Yes, but my father won't come."
"Why not?"
"He is working" on his super secret cool nazi things.
"Does he work on the weekends?"
"Sometimes, he usually travels for a few days, so he is out for the weekend." That's why my mother could have a lot of lovers, like the teaches of physiology, for example... someone added on the Roderich's mind.
"My father does not travel that much... however I don't think he would come and see me... Neither him nor my mother."
"Why not?"
"It is a waste of time and money."
"What? How could you say that?"
"Well... they would say that too, not just me."
"But... Don't you feel... alone?
"Yes... I miss home terribly."
"Was that sarcasm?"
"No!" He looks at him seriously... thinking that thanks to Roderich he didn't want to return home almost daily. "Although... I... Think you help on that department."
"But... why you don't come back to home for some days?"
"I... Well... It's expensive"
"How much could a train cost if you will feel better?"
"It does not matter, it is stupid to feel homesick" but you still feel homesick.
"Well... maybe you should invite me to know your home and your family" Of course, Roderich, why not? He is only saying that going alone is expensive...
"I-Invite you? Ehm... Well... Maybe in Christmas."
"Ehm... obviously, no" He sighed
"No? Why?
"Because my family will want me at home for Christmas."
"Maybe for my birthday... I could ask that as a present" Vash sighed.
"Oh that would be nice! But... it's scary too. What if your parents don't like me?"
"Nah, they will like you. Everyone likes you."
Roderich smiled.
"You too?"
Vash bluuuushes.
"Anyway, I was talking about medicine, because you are better doctor than me."
"I-I... ohh! Well... do you think so? You are not good because you do not study enough. You could take your violin there, I am sure father would like to hear you play."
"Really?" sparkling eyes here.
"My mother does not care, but my father... I think he likes music, yes."
"It could be easy to get on well with my future father-in-law."
"Y-Your future... what?!" Vash blushed even more.
"Maybe it's too early to say it" he smiled, blushing a little too.
Vash opened his mouth in awe... was Roderich saying that they were... going to. But what about what he said about homosexuals? And well... he still needed to THINK. Carefully. About all this. Anyway, he felt butterflies in his belly with the idea.
"Do you think it's better if I say my intentions directly or maybe I should be cautious?"
"Y-Your... intentions? What intentions?"
"Well... sooner or later they should know."
Vash bluuuushed again.
"What do you think?" asked Roderich.
"B-But you... you said..."
"Yes, yes, I know... but it doesn't matter, I say a lot of things in a day."
"B-But your opinions were strong... and... well... what would the rest of the world say... and..."
"In the end, I can change my opinion."
"Oh... change your... oh... and you are ok with this? I mean, are you... did you realize since the beginning? Do you feel, ehm, things too?" Vash asked blushing eeeeven more.
"Feel things? How I could feel nothing if I don't know her?"
"Her?" Vash frowned, confused.
"Well... your sister. I know that you said that I'm not enough good for her and I said that she would not like me... but... I can change my opinion."
Vash still stared him in confusion for a few seconds, while his brain processed the quite cruel reality.
"My... sister" Vash mumbled... OF COURSE he was talking about his sister. Probably Roderich would meet Lili... and both would fell in love with each other. It would actually be a good thing for her if he was completely honest. Roderich was a nice and decent man, and even if he had, indeed, said in the past that he was not good enough for her… since they both had that conversation, he had had the opportunity to know him better and now he knew that he was quite a good catch for her. However... today... today he did not want to share Roderich, not even with his beloved sister.
"Please, don't be mad again."
He was being silly, and stupid. Silly and stupid and completely irrational. He was fantasizing with Roderich. They were both men... and friends. He was misinterpreting every single part of their conversation, just because his head was... acting crazy. What was wrong with him? Why was he acting like a ridiculous girl, getting nervous around his best (and only) friend and... sexually aroused with him this morning. Everything was weird today. Again... he was panicking.
"Vash, Vash, please" Roderich asked when he saw his face.
"I... I... just" he mumbled softly looking at his own hands. He felt like crawling into a hole and dying. Why was he so, SO incredibly stupid. He even had felt stupid butterflies in his stupid belly.
"It's OK, really, I'm not going to be bad or something with her."
"I know..." and she will not be bad with you. But you are my... Roderich. The one who uses my bed to hide his violin and let me sleep on his bed. Even if you are a man... you are the one who depends on me... and the one who holds my hand. And if you meet her... you will think that she is the one with the pretty green eyes.
Roderich smiled a little with this.
"Why do you look so sad, then?"
He needed to fix this. He was a pervert, a sinner. An outlier. He was totally SICK, just to think about all those things. And if he continued being this way the world would find out about him and his perversions, and then he would lose his family and Roderich.
"I'm fine" he assured Roderich without looking at him.
"Well... we'll talk about this in other moment" Roderich decied thinking that Vash was not happy again for this, feeling that he was a little overprotective in his opinion, but well...
"I will go to our room once we finish. I need to... ehm... study."
"Don't you want to come to the morgue with me?"
"I... I..." no, he did not want to come to the morgue. But... if he did not come, Roderich would get lost. At least if they went to the morgue he would have some time to think without Roderich talking. It will not work, you know, he will be playing the violin, which is even more distracting than hearing him talk...
"Ok. We can go to the morgue."
"Please, I promise that you will like it." Roderich smiled again, because it was easy.
"Is not that I will not like it, I just wanted to go to the library..." Vash explained, still not being able to look at him. Even if he knew he was smiling.
"I love the way I could easily convice you to go to hell if I want."
"That's not true!"
"Yes, and you are so sweet because of that." Roderich laughed.
"No! No, it's not true! I do what I want and I'm not influenced by you! "yeah, right, you are questioning yourself if you love him or not, even if your only sin was to wake up aroused.
"Yes, but normally you are very very helpful and you usually want to please me because you are extremely kind."
"You are my friend."
"Yes, but... I think you could also be kind, even with someone who isn't, and you are always so... rude, and angry because you think that the people must prove that they are really in need instead of taking profit."
"People take advantage."
"Yes, I know."
"And I don't realize that until... It's too late."
"Yes... thats why a lot of us become cynical."
"Exac... Wait."
"What?"
"Are you taking advantage of me?"
"Sometimes, but you take advantage of me too. So... it's a normal friendship."
"Do I take advantage?" He asked curious.
"Of course you do."
"How? I mean, I believe you... I'm just curious."
"Well, I help you to talk with everybody, I know that it make you feel nervous. And you can hear very good music every time you want and I keep you company."
"Ah... But no, no... What other people do is just take advantage and do bad things once they do that. You will not do anything bad, right?"
He shook his head and Vash smiled a little. Roderich smiled too, looking Vash in the eyes.
Vash thought that his violet eyes were beautiful. *rolls eyes* Roderich thought that Vash seemed to feel better now, and that's good.