And just as they came... they went away to leave behind a mark less dramatic than he thought. Roderich's mother cried a lot in the train station, yes, but life afterwards was not precisely different: they still slept on the same bed, walked on Monday hand by hand and... well, even if the Edelsteins left Francis behind, there had been two days and they had not heard of him... yet. Vash was quite worried, Roderich wasn't.
Vash, though, finished the weekend quite exhausted. He was not used to having so many social activities. He also was quite worried about having to pay the cabin for Roderich's birthday.
Roderich sighed when the train was finally out of the station.
"Are you ok?"
"Eh? Yes, yes..."
"It was a long weekend, wasn't it?"
"Yes... but we survived."
"Hardly. Ehm... a-are we ok? You and me? Do you think your father liked me?"
"Why wouldn't we be ok?"
"I don't know, I was just checking" Vash shrugged.
"Yes... I think my father likes you."
"He is somehow like my father."
"Really?"
"Yes, even if my father is not in the army he has the sort of... mentality. Quite rigid and serious. Even more than your father."
"More?"
"Yes, your father makes jokes, for example."
"And? Yours not?
"No, he is quite serious. Both of them... you will see when you meet them."
"Well, they will like me. I'm serious."
"You are not serious! You laugh all the time!"
"What? That's not true."
"It is true, and I like... well, ehm... I like that you laugh."
"Well, that must be because you say silly things to make me laugh all the time."
"I do not say silly things... at all!"
"Yes. It must be your fault" Roderich smiled a little.
"It is not my fault... and it is not a bad thing, to be honest, I like to be able to make you laugh."
"So... it's or not you fault?
"I... I think I prefer it to be my fault. But not because I say silly things, just because you like to spend time with me."
"Mmmm... no. Everything or nothing, not just the part of your convenience"
"Ugh... then it is my fault" he agreed blushing because he... he liked his smile and his laugh.
"Then you will have to be quiet when they come for christmas" Roderich smiled again, so proud.
"They will like you anyway I think. Or well, maybe they would think that you are a bit..."
"Aha?"
"A bit... well... mmmm pompous."
"What?"
"Well... yes."
"Why? I'm not" he did a certain movement of the hand... Without noticing.
"Look at yourself and your movements. You... look like a princess or at least a prince. My mother... will roll her eyes to you all the time" and blush.
"What? Why? Be a prince is good"
"It is quite... obnoxious."
"It's better than seem a goatherd."
"Excuse me?! I do not seem like a goatherd!"
"Insist on that won't make you seem less."
Vash blushed.
"Why do you say I look like one? What makes you think of a goatherd when you see me?"
"Your... movements and..." another vague gesture.
"My movements? What movements?"
He smiled, because he was only quoting him.
"I do not have goatherd movements!"
"Don't you?"
"No. I don't have ridiculous pompous movements either. I have normal movements of a man."
"Who loves goats."
"Yes, but loving goats doesn't make me a goatherd... as acting like a ridiculous prince does not make you one."
"What do you mean? Of course it maked me one!"
"No, it doesn't! You are not a prince, you are a normal boy like me."
"I prefer Kaiser."
"Kaiser!? I cannot continue with this conversation!"
Roderich laughed.
"I prefer to talk to you about what we said we would talk."
"What we said we would talk?"
"About the experiment... and you being part of it as a test subject"
"I don't think that It is a good idea."
"Why? I actually think it is a perfect idea."
"Who is going to take notes?"
"Me."
"Mmmm... but you will have to be there then."
"Well, yes. As you are when I am... well, you know."
"But I'm the doctor."
"I am a doctor too, you would be a... subject in an investigation."
"But we need an objective mind."
"What are you trying to say?" Vash frowned.
"That I couldn't be a subject."
"I am an objective mind! You can be a subject and I can take your measurements of a... healthy man, as you take me as a sick one!"
"Anyway. I prefer to try with Ludwig."
"I don't, Ludwig will only be here for one weekend, and he will not have the same levels of intimacy that we already have because... of me."
"But we only have to take notes once."
"On a lot of different situations. If you are the subject... well... we could see how you do not react to situations I do react... like when we kissed. Ludwig has nothing to do there."
Roderich frowned with that example. Vash blushed.
"Or in other situations, we concluded with that one that it was a physical thing, nothing to do with me..." he whispered.
"We will discuss about it."
"What is Ludwig going to say when he realizes... that I am sick."
"But... we said that we aren't going to tell him."
"Are you really going to measure him, as you measure me... ?" he looked at him sideways.
"Why not?"
Vash sighed. Of course there was no reason at all why the things that hapened with him... could not happen with anyone else.
"I think he will be less submisive than you."
"Less... submissive?"
"Yes. It will take more effort to convince him"
Vash blushed even more.
"It is not that I am submissive! I am just sick and I trust you... maybe Ludwig doesn't trust you."
"He does it... but he is not sick, and this is a little strange between men."
"But you know I am sick, and you know the reasons... that's why we should not ask him and do it yourself" Vash blushed even more.
"I don't understand your logic."
"If he will not be happy with this and will think this is weird...you should not ask him."
"I still prefer to ask him than doing it by myself."
"I don't."
"Well..."
"I guess that no matter what I say you would still use Ludwig."
"Yes."
"Are you ashamed of... do these things in front of me?" Vash frowned.
"What? Of course"
"But you make me do all those things in front of you..."
"It's different."
"Is it? I-I am ashamed too..."
"Yes, I know."
Vash was not happy AT ALL of thinking of Roderich measuring Ludwig's manhood. He was jealous... ridiculously jealous.
"Where is Ludwig going to sleep while he is here?"
"I don't know... in a hotel? Or maybe we could put a mattress in our room... if you want, for that two nights, the violin could be kept in the wardrobe and you could have all the bed for you"
"Or he could sleep with you, why not... " he frowned.
"Yes, that is what I say, it's logical that he sleep with me, we did it before."
Vash opened his mouth and looked at him in complete shock.
"Unless you want to sleep with him for some reason."
"No! But I cannot believe you prefer to sleep with... ok, you know? Do whatever you want, I don't care" he crossed his arms.
"What? Why are you mad now?"
"Because you do whatever you want and you prefer Ludwig that is not sick as I am... ok, do that" he knew he was being childish...
"What? I just say that if someone has to share beds..."
"And why can't we share bed as we do DAILY?"
"Because I can't keep the violin in the guardrobe daily."
"I hate you sometimes."
"Why?"
"Because your violin will be fine in a cupboard for two days!"
"Yes, for two days."
"I don't get you, Roderich, but fine, if you want to sleep with Ludwig, fine."
"And what do you want?"
"He can sleep in a hotel, isn't he millionaire like you are? Or he can sleep on my bed."
"I thought that you prefer to have the bed just for you for a couple of nights"
Vash blushed.
"I... well... I... I don't want Ludwig to bother you."
"Bother me?"
"Roderich!"
"What?"
Vash grunted because he was not able to say the reason why he was so... angry.
"Let's go to our bedroom, I want to study"
Roderich rolled his eyes.
"I guess you are happy that your best friend is here... maybe you would like to be alone with him."
"What do you mean?"
"I don't know, maybe you don't want me to know him and be with you two, maybe you want to be alone" Vash... really, stop.
"Why I shouldn't want you to meet him?"
"You should but I don't know if you want now" He looked at him sideways and squeezed his hand.
"Is you who are saying."
"You are not going to stop being my friend, right?"
"Maybe if you continue acting like crazy."
"I'm sorry..." He shut his mouth and looked at his feet.
"So, what is happening?"
"I am just nervous."
"Why?"
"Because you are my best friend and... I am stupid."
"Why? What are you imagining?"
"That he will come here and... well I don't know. Maybe you will remember why is he your best friend instead of me... "
While, inside Vash's mind... Roderich hugged Ludwig arround his strong neck and kissed him on the lips, raising a foot.
Exactly. And then Ludwig will carry him through the threshold of their bedroom and have sweet sex in his own bed with him hearing them in the bed next to his.
And Roderich moans loud as him. Or as yesterday with him. Louder than that and very concious.
"I'm better than him!" he half screamed suddenly.
"What?"
"You cannot... do with him the same things that we do! I'm... better!"
"Better in what? What do you mean?"
Vash covered his face with his hands because... to add insult to injury, the idea of him moaning again was awful and made him jealous, and also was... sexy.
"This is a disaster!"
"What?"
"I am sick."
"It' happening again?"
"Noooo"
"Then?"
"Yes..." he said with a small voice. Having a sudden idea. If they had gotten this far in just a few days, maybe if Roderich kept experimenting with him through the week, they would even get closer. In one week. But that meant he had to force things a bit... and he was not good at all at lying.
"Mmmm... OK" Roderich scrutinized the train station, it was almost empty...
You, Vash, don't know yet who are you dealing with.
"Come..."
It was a risky situation, he was not sure yet that Roderich could make him react whenever he, Vash, wanted. He always resisted so much... maybe it wouldn't work if he wanted.
"Maybe now that we get to our room, you could take some notes and... continue the experiment" Vash proposed innocently, still thinking that they would wait until then.
"No, I want to try in a public space to know how it affects to you."
Vash stopped on his tracks.
"Wh-What? A-A public... what?"
"A public space, come, come to a discreet corner"
"But how... are going to do this on a public space, someone could see us!"
"Yes, that's the point."
"I-It's... dangerous."
"Yes."
Vash swallowed. Did you really thought you were not going to resist?
"I-I'm sure I will not react"
"Why not? You think you will be too worried?"
"Y-Yes!" your body is not precisely agreeing with you.
"That's why I think it could be interesting to try."
Vash thought that he would definitely need to control himself. That this was the golden test. A small voice in Vash's head told him that he could not resist. No matter what he did. He swallowed again.
"Try not to look suspicious"
"B-But what are you going to do?"
Roderich put his hands on Vash shoulders and pushed a little.
"Touch you" he wishpered on his ear.
He shivered immediately, and got goosebumps with a direct and unmistakably warm feeling on his manly parts.
"B-But..." he wanted him to touch him. And he hated the idea. Both in a very powerful way.
"What?" He pressed him a little against a wall, looking away, and licking his own lips because he liked this more than just to do experiment, and he didn't know.
Vash's heart..., he was sure it was going to come out. Even he was able to hear it. He could feel Roderich's proximity... he could smell the soft remanents of his lavender soap. He placed a hand on his chest but he was not capable of stoping him... he didn't even want to do it.
"I-I-I..."
"Shhhh, calm down, you heart doesn't let me hear if someone approaches" he lied, smiling at him.
"I-I'm... trying" Vash really tried, but oh god, that smile! His heart didn't even try.
"So..." Roderich swallowed a little, because that blushed and urged face.
"R-Roderich..." He looked directly to his lips and it took all his might not to kiss him.
The brown-haired boy had to close his eyes and shake a little his head.
Vash looked up to Roderich's eyes and realized he had closed them. If he closed his eyes he would think of someone else.
"Nooo..." he moaned. Needy, urged.
He blinked. Vash bit his lips, not because he said no, but because the moan was... too much.
"What?"
"N-Nothing..."
He shiged, and took a step back. The blonde followed him with a small step and still maintained the hand on his chest.
"Maybe it's better..."
"Wh-What?" Vash was trying to catch his breath.
"Comte to our room"
"I'm sorry... I just couldn't be quiet" Vash nodded. It was his fault, of course.
"What?" Roderich was not paying attention, doing a movement with a leg because something was a little hot. But it's obviously that... it's situation's fault.
Vash of course was so worried about his own problems that he didn't realize Roderich had issues to. He took Roderich's hand and tried to hide his own problems with the other hand.
"Let's go"
The austrian nodded
"Are you ok? Sorry if I made you uncomfortable"
"Yes, yes, don't worry... I just... I remembered something"
"Ohhh what?"
"Ehm... about Francis, and the kind of things he does"
Vash froze again with that comment and Roderich looked him.
"Th-The awful and nasty things he... does"
"Well... yes."
"And you remembered all those things while..." Vash sighed.
"It's just because we were in a public space, it was a little pervert."
"I know. I think no one saw us... hopefully. But...you are not like your brother" A little?, thought Vash
"Am I not?"
"You are nicer and more clever."
"Do you think it?"
"I am sure" he caressed his hand.
Roderich smiled.
"You don't have to worry about him or by anything people may think of you after meeting him."
"Why not?"
"Because even if he is your brother, you are you, and you really do not act like him. It is easy to separate you two."
"Well, yes, looked that way."
"That's another problem... where is he going to sleep? Or what are we going to do with him while he is here."
"That is the minor of my worries."
"Is it? I think... well, he is your brother and you heard your mother..."
"I won't take care of him."
"But he needs food... and a place to sleep."
"That is his problem, not mine."
Vash sighed knowing that his brother will return at some point, and that they will have to do something for him. Roderich knows too, but...
"I think I will have to work every night in the next two weeks."
"Eh? Why?"
"I have things to pay..." he blushed.
"Which things?"
"You know what things, Roderich"
he whispered, a bit ashamed.
"I don't."
"It's your birthday..."
"Oh... but we will go to te cabin, won't we?"
"Yes... well. We will go if I work every night."
"But my mother said that they will pay"
"Well yes, she was saying that but then someone changed the subject and they didn't give me any money."
"Well, just write them and they will send it to you."
"Isn't it too... wouldn't they think bad of me?"
"No."
"Then I will write them... and will not have to work every day, maybe just a few days then" he smiled.
"Ask them for all the money, nobody will know."
"I wish my parents had all that money... " Vash looked at him sideways.
"How expensive it could be?"
"I don't know. For you and your parents I am sure it will not be expensive" admited Vash thinking that a night in the cabin will be way less expensive than a night on that beautiful hotel.
"Then, it's OK."
"It must be great to be rich..."
"Well... yes."
"I will be rich one day... "
"Making cheese?"
Vash blushed and frowned.
"I will be a doctor. A good one. Maybe a surgeon. I could work in an important hospital!"
"Don't you want to specialize on psychriaty?"
Vash squeezed his eyes shut.
"Yes, I am not sure I will do, but that's what I want and I could work on a good hospital too as a psychiatrist"
"You will have to go to war and be a militar doctor."
"I don't want to go to war."
"But you are that kind of man."
"I will go to war if I need to, I just hope Switzerland remains neutral until the end of war."
"It sounds... I don't know."
"I like to cure people, not hurt them!" he opened the door to their room.
"But if you go, you will have to cure them."
"Or hurt them if needed. I don't know. I prefer that the war stays out of my house, I do not like conflicts."
"Anyways... i don't know what really could keep Switzerland to get away from the nazis..."
"We are strong, and neutral. We will not be annexed like the Austrians or I hope"
"What do you mean" Roderich frowned.
"That we... can remain neutral. I really hope so."
"But austrians are weak and useless."
"I didn't say that. Austrians are... less neutral than us. Look at your father"
"Anyways" he looked sideways. Vash bit his lip. "So... now you know"
"I... already knew. You mean... about your... father?"
"About... everything."
"To be honest I... I would have liked you to tell me all before meeting them."
"It's something difficult to say, here."
"I know... and I can get why you didn't tell me, but I... would have liked to know your point of view... I actually would like to know it. About the war and about... going to war. Are you here to avoid war?"
"Yes."
"I am glad. I don't want you to go to war."
"I won't go"
"You can stay here" Vash smiled.
"No. I will be a head on the movement"
"A master mind behind the war? Really?"
"Yes."
"That's dangerous."
"No, it's office work."
"But... you could stay here and play the violin."
"No, I couldn't."
"Why? Think about it..."
"Because my father"
"Will he force you to go there?"
"Yes."
"Maybe your mother could convince him."
"No... it doesn't matter."
"Well we first have to finish the school" Vash smiled.
"Yes..." he sighed
"You would look good with an uniform, though" what on earth are you thinking, Vash?
"Do you think? Not really, because I am very thin."
"But you are tall. You would look less thin on one."
"No near to Ludwig or my father."
"You say that Ludwig has a good body."
"Yes."
"And does he looks wonderful in his nazi uniform?"
"Well... yes."
"I'm reailly curious to meet him. I can't wait" Again; Vash grunted
"Oh, you will like him."
"Do you think? Why? Are we alike or something?
"Mmm... in some things."
"I will try to become his friend" he announced solemnly.
"That's fine."
"For now, we can return to our routine" He smiled
"Yes."
"Which I think is great!"
"Something you like, at last."
"You say it as if I never liked anything...Maybe we could go play your violin" Vash sighed but smiled a bit.
"What time is it?"
"Seven twenty three" Vash took out his watch.
"Yes, let's go."
Vash smiled even more, clearly happy. He was going to be able to think while Roderich played! He went straight to his bed to get the violin.
To think about how atractive he is
Of course. He will spend all the time thinking how beautiful he looks and how well he plays. And that he is super beautiful and smart and clever and... god, you are soooooo in love
Roderich winked
Vash bluuuuushed even more, but he still smiled like the idiot he is. You do not have a most loving fan. Trust me. Vash claps happily once he finishes one of the pieces.
And he smiled, because he though too that it was perfect. Enough he scolded Vash to clap even when he makes some mistakes.
But it was perfect!
"You will be the best musician in the world one day" Vash said.
Roderich smiled even more, so proud... a little of modesty won't kill you, do you know?
I don't think he knows that word. Gauls...
Vash has not thought even for a second about his current situation. Too busy with admiring Roderich loooovingly
That was his idea. It worked.
Not so much, he had to think!
At least it relaxed him. I thought you said it was Roderich's idea not to let him think
You know how evil he is. He and his tail.
Which tail!?
He has one, he only doesn't know about it
Is Roderich going to pursue any further investigation tonight?
He could see the tail dancing while he plays the violin?
We all could. Uugh!
Nothing was the same since that day. Since we discovered he had a tail. Ugh. Vash hides below a table with a trash can on his head
And he let it fall... and waved
To wave is forbidden
Make it dance?
Forbidden too. Nothing sexy, he cannot do anything sexy with it like dance at the same rhythm of his hips...
He could stay here... existing or is too much?
Don't make fun of Vash! He will dream with the tail tonight and it will be your fault. Don't laugh! It will have serious consequences!
Which ones?
He will wake up tomorrow again excited
That are de consecuences? Maybe it's not going to happen
What? You don't think those consequences are enough?
Nop.
Maybe he will kiss Roderich while sleeping.
Mmm...
Maybe he will wake up Roderich excited and asleep.
Maybe them will do something before to sleep
What? That's not fair!
Why?
Well it... what are they going to do before going to sleep? It depends on what if it is fair or not.
Maybe let him more urged. But with love
Vash whimpers.
Vash is a crybaby.
He is not! He cries... but silently!
Roderich hear him anyways.
Not true. He stops whimpering immediately, clears his throat and gets into the bed with his pajamas on.
He will take out it soon
Vash hugs himself and doesn't move at all.