"Do you know what?" Asked Roderich when he ended brush his teeth, looking at the mirror.

"What?"

"I was thiking in that article you read to me the last day."

"Which one?"

"That about how affects to a test the observation of the subject."

"Oh, well... yes. The mind helps. What were you thinking about it?"

"I think we could experiment with it."

"Oh... ohhh! Do you want me to close my eyes?"

"Mmmm... not exactly, but if you think it could change something we can try with a blindfold"

Vash hugged himself even tighter.

"You having complete control and me not knowing what are you going to do?"

"Do you mean... as always."

"No! But the rest of the times I see you!"

"And?" Roderich smirked.

"And it's different, at least I can... I... see what your intentions are and if you are mocking me or not"

"Sounds good."

"But if I can't see you... maybe I will not react at all."

"Do you think so? I think you could imagine better that I'm... well, who you want"

Vash squeezed his eyes shut

"For example, maybe it could work for me."

Of course... Vash thought AGAIN that he was stupid. Of course a Roderich would want to think of someone else and it would be easier for him not to see him... instead of see him. To think he was someone else.

"You are right... it should work better with my eyes closed" Vash whispered a little sad again.

"It's not what I had in mind but if you want to try."

"What's not what you had in mind?"

"Don't worry about it"

"I will close my eyes, then?"

"I think we could use some... t-shirt to make sure you are blind." Not your scarves then?

"A t-shirt? Ok... hm... take one out of my drawer, please. Or we could use one of your scarves!" He thought suddenly. His scarves smelled like him.

"They are not scraves, they ar cravats" he went for one

"Those things!"

Roderich showed him one and smiledand Vash... blushed.

"I prefer one of them" he confessed.

You little pervert.

"Ok..." he got closer.

"Could you... p-please don't laugh of me while I'm not seeing you"

"Laugh of you?"

"If I get... excited"

"I never laughed of you for it"

Vash smiled and sat anyway because it was true. Roderich smiled a little and caressed his face. He followed the movement

"Are you ok?"

"Yes... I just missed these moments when we were relaxed and alone"

"Well, we are here"

Vash nodded and closed his eyes getting closer so he could knot the cravat on his head.

That is exactly what he did, fondly.

Vash put a hand on Roderich's leg while he did it, and didn't realize that he was getting used to this. He was less nervous than he should be.

"Do you see something?"

He shook his head to say no and... quickly got quite nervous, more of the excitement than our of fear. Francis says that this is known as sexual games, not medical experiment.

Roderich took his notebook.

"Could you describe how do you feel?"

"I feel... I-I... maybe... expectant and nervous."

"Mjm...?" He wrote it down.

"W-What are you going to go do?"

"The unexpected is the point here."

Vash tried to dry his hands on his pajama pants.

"Maybe we should undress you"

"U-Undress me?! But it's... cold!" you are just justifying yourself.

"Yes" he answered, but started to do ... well, he didn't stop him

"Just your chest and your hips" I'll let you keep you socks. Thanks.

Naaah. He means he is not going to take off all his pants or his arms.

Vash stood there, letting him do, nodding.

But of course his manhood will be exposed to the fresh air.

"Eh-What are you doing?"

"It could be a little strange at the beginning..."

But in the last experiments... Roderich started to learn how, where and when touch him, as if he was a little violin. Vash moved the hands, trying to search him.

"D-Don't do anything weird..." he stuttered.

"It's weird try to excite another man, but it's for the science" he caressed his chest with more interest than only the scientific.

"It's weird..." he repeated thinking that... well Roderich was quite good at it to think it was so weird and of course it didn't take that long to get Vash a little excited, just Roderich's hands roaming around was enough.

"But I know you like it."

"Wh-What?!"

"And you can't hide it or deny it."

"I-I-I... I don't like it!" Yes, yes... your excited manhood is a proof of it.

"Let's see" he... blowed on it

"Ahh!" that was half a moan!

"I told you" he smiled and came to the chest again

"What are we... why... I-I... I..." Vash was breathing heavily by now.

"It's Ok, it's ok..."

"What are you going to do?" Vash asked again

"What do you think?"

"I-I-I don't know..."

"Well, then I could just... keep doing this."

"N-No... I... l-let me concentrate" in him or in something different to him?

"Ok, you say"

The problem was that being there half naked in front of Roderich and without being able to see him prove to be a bigger obstacle than he had expected

proved.

He felt quite pervert, and his heart started to go faster, concentrating on the man that was in the same room than him.

He, anyways continued caressing his chest.

It has sexy as hell, he allowed himself to imagine for a moment that Roderich was naked too. Naked and excited, but he was unable to touch him. Only Roderich could touch him.

He wanted, really, not to get excited. He faaaaailed, only with a few moments and caresses on his chest.

So, Roderich started to go down, near the dangerous zone and Vash started to tremble a bit, but just bit his lip and closed his covered eyes and his hands. He wanted Roderich to touch him. And kiss him. And he wanted desperately to touch Roderich too.

"Ok, wait now... could you describe what are you feeling and your thoughts?" Roderich took the notebook again.

"De-Describe? N-No!"

"No?"

"I-I can I-imagine things... more things... being th-this way" Vash blushed.

"Mjm?"

"B-But I'm... at your mercy..."

He smirked with it, taking the note and then, unexpectedly, touching him on his manhood with the pen.

"Aaah!"

"So..." he continued as it never had happen.

"You... you..." he covered himself with his hands

"Tsk!" He scolded him flicking a little in his hands with the pen.

"You... touched!"

"Yes, and I will do it again... so... let it go, and tell me."

"T-tell you what?" Vash swallowed again, but let him do it.

"About your feelings and your thoughts right now"

"I-I'm thinking... that..." he didn't know what the hell to invent. "It's unfair that I'm the only one naked. I-I mean..."

"Does it really matter? I mean, anyway you can't see me"

"Your hands are soft and delicate" Vash took a deep breath.

"Are you imagining me naked?"

"J-Just to make things e-even" Vash bit his lip and blushed.

"Aja?"

"I'm thinking I... I... Your cravat smells like you"

"What if someone come in just now" he caressed again.

"They would have a wrong impression..."

"Would you feel unconfortable?"

"Yes. And scared" he exhaled and tried to reach out to him to touch him.

"And... more excited?" Not everybody are an exhibicionist like you.

"No... not really. Why would I feel more excited?"

"Maybe because someone else catches us."

"It might be a disaster, they would think we are... a couple."

"And what do you think about it" this is evil, you monster!

Is there a good answer for that question?

Vash breathed deeply, pondering his options.

Could you let him think instead of touching him, Roderich!?

"I... ahh... I think... there are a lot of... worse things in the world that people may think about me than that"

"Like what?" Seriously?

"L-Like... like... " those stupid hands, he hated them! They were too distracting. "Like that I'm a criminal, o-or di-dishonest..."

"What kind of criminal?" Don't lie! You are just doing this to distract him

"A-Any... loving you is not a crime" Vash... be careful with your words...

"Isn't it?"

"D-Do you think it is?"

Roderich frowned, because he is a little too much concentrated according to him, but Vash has absolutely no idea of what he is telling you. Anyways, Roderich intensified the touch.

Vash squeezed his eyes shut even harder and moved to lay on the bed completely.

He felt for a second that Roderich was just enjoying this as much as he was, admiring his body and getting excited, and didn't stop himself of thinking it.

"So... to love me?"

"Yes... very much" Vash whispered and hugged him a bit to get him closer.

Roderich raised his eyebrows and stopped. Vash made a gutural sound.

"What?"

"What what... ?"

"What did you say?"

"Say?"

"Yes"

"Wh-What did you... ask?" he was quite impatient to get over this and continue with ... Roderich touching him.

"About love."

"You didn't!"

"And you said very much."

"I didn't" Vash paled.

"Yes, I heared you."

"W-We-Well obviously I didn't know what I was saying. I wasn't even hearing you! Why would I tell you... anything about LOVE!"

Roderich licked his lips and this time Vash was afraid of uncovering his eyes and see Roderich's expression. He just laid there, terrified, scolding himself silently.

"Well..."

Vash swallowed.

"I-I'm sorry... I don't know why I said that" the blonde whispered feeling the urge of covering himself again. Because Roderich had seen a part that he should never see.

"Maybe you were imagining something"

"I was imagining someone touching me... if you talked about love then maybe I... just got carried away" he covered his manhood with both hands scolding himself again for being reckless.

Roderich sighed.

"I'm sorry" he repeated rolling to give him the back and hugging his legs.

Roderich moved looking to the ceiling, and then got the notebook again.

Vash still was not brace enough to take the cravat off his head, he just kept telling himself he was an absolute IDIOT.

Why were they talking about love anyway? Why would Roderich ask him that?

Brave.

Roderich looked to the ceiling thinking, he shouldn't stop. Vash swallowed again.

"Please don't get mad at me...".

"What?"

"Don't get mad at me... "

"I'm not mad at you, I was thinking"

"About what?"

"I think you lost too much your awareness when you get excited."

"Yes... well, that's normal, isn't it?"

"Yes, that's why you say things with no sense"

Vash relaxed seeing that Roderich had found a logical explanation.

"When I'm that way I'm... just that way. I can't think."

Roderich looked at him

"I'm I sick for that too? Can you think straight while... you do just?"

"Well, i'm not sure, but I think it's normal."

"I have an idea..."

"What?"

"You do that while I ask you things."

"W-What?" Roderich blushed.

"Just to se how... sick I am."

"I told you that it's normal."

"You said you "think""

"Yes..."

"Well, we can prove it. I will not see anything and I am sure you are super quiet."

"What?"

"We can prove that you also get... absorbed by your brain and you don't think."

"The problem is that you will be her"

"We could try..."

"You still will be here."

"You were here too..." Vash sighed.

"Yes, but is different."

"Is it? I can imagine it is, if I'm here you will not... relax and get excited, right?"

"I will be uncomfortable and ashamed"

Vash sighed again, because this was a not so subtle reminder that Roderich didn't like him.

"Yes, for sure you would" he went to his head and took off Roderich's cravat. "I'm also uncomfortable and ashamed."

"I know but... you are braver than me."

"Braver..." he repeated and then smiled softly because that didn't sound that bad.

Roderich looked the ceiling again and licked his lips.

"I am sure you could be brave too"

"No one was here before when I did it."

"You... did it? When? I never know when you do that. I feel that you know EVERYTHING, and I do not know anything"

"I mean while I was... I..."

"You were... excited? When?"

"Sometimes... at my life long"

"You are talking about here. Look, you were saying that maybe I should get excited if someone found us. Can't you think I'm someone who found you while you... you know."

"It happened once..."

"While I was here?!"

"No, not with you."

"Then?"

"With Ludwig... he never noticed that I was..." You evil man. Ludwig blushes.

"You dared with Ludwig but not with me?!"

"He didn't notice"

"Was it exciting?"

"Well... yes, but not for him."

"But it was for you... it wasn't for him because he didn't realize."

"I mean, the situation was stimulating."

"Because he didn't know. If he had known..."

"It would had been diferent"

"Different how? Different exciting?"

"I don't know, I mean... he could react... "

"L-Like what? Getting excited too?"

"What? No, I don't think so."

"So you didn't want him to know..."

"Mmm..."

"You wanted him to know!"

"Well, no."

"I don't understand you..."

"What is it that you don't understand?"

"You wanted him to know but at the same time you didn't want... "

"Yes... so so"

"Mmmm... that's weird."

"Why?"

"Because you found that exciting, the possibility. I understand that, but... I don't understand what you could do if he actually happened, so I think you did not want it to happen"

"Of course not, but... the rush of adrenaline."

"Mmmm... and why don't you enjoy the same the rush of adrenaline of touching yourself while I'm here but I can't see you, so I don't know if you are doing it or not?"

"But you know."

"Well... in the end you are going to end up knowing everything about me, and I will know nothing" Vash sighed again.

"And?"

"And I would like this to be more... even. It would make me feel less sick."

Roderich licked his own lips

"But I also understand if you don't want to..."

"You do it?"

"Yes, I... well, I get it"

"I don't know, it us strange."

"Everything is strange for me lately... just a few days ago I didn't even knew that I was... sick"

"Yes... I know"

"And suddenly everything is... different in my world. Different and lots of things are out of my control, which make me nervous. I also have gotten closer to you, which is good but... well, it is weird"

"What is out of your control?"

"Everything. Me, my body and whatever it is doing" and you and your sexual games.

"Well, I will be here the major part of the time to help you with it."

"Yes, that's right" Vash touched Roderich to search for his hand. "If you were not here, I would not survive this."

"It could be strange if you achieve to make me aroused"

"It could prove one thing..."

"Which thing?"

"That anyone could get excited with anything as long as it is physical."

"Well, yes, that's true."

"Which is exactly what happens to me..."

"Yes, yes, I know"

Vash raised his hands to finally take off rodeich's cravat

"Wouldn't you... like to know how your body reacts to certain things?"

"W-well" he hestiated a little. Vash caressed his arm softly. "So?"

"Do you want to experiment with yourself or not, Roderich?"

"I..."

Vash placed a hand on Roderich's chest.

"It's part of the experiment. If you are not sick you will not react... I think."

And I will... well, I will confirm again that I am stupid and have absolutely no opportunity with you... he thought.

"Mmm... I think that it is not like this."

Vash sighed deeply again.

"I mean, if it is... physic" Roderich added.

"Aha?"

"It could happen anyways"

"Or not... you would know it is me" Vash looked at him. "Roderich... "

"What?"

Vash hesitated a moment.

"Maybe we should go to sleep..." he decided, blushing. Roderich sighed, thinking that is Vash's fault that way. But it was OK because Roderich was ashamed anyways. Then, that way he could blame on Vash.

Vash thought that clearly Roderich did not want to do anything with him, not even try... anything. He didn't know how to force him a bit, to make him try. Maybe he could put more pressure... or be less permissive with him. It was true that there was not one single thing that Roderich had wanted that they didn't try.

So well... Vash reached out to turn off the lights. Maybe he should start putting some distance between himself and Roderich.. in the end Roderich did not want to share anything personal with him. He did not want to share anything about his family, he didn't want to tell him his secrets, and he wanted to know everything about him. That made him a bit sad again.

Last night they were kissing and hugging, and today... he had said something stupid about love... and had managed to stop Roderich on his experiment.

Roderich stood there thinking too. Maybe he should let Vash do it today, because he had done it yesterday so today he may not react. Or maybe he could wait until Vash fell asleep and do it then.