Hey! Here is chapter 6! Thank you again for the reviews! To answer some questions from reviews: Amelia is 8 years old in the 2020 chapters. I admit that I am not the best at writing in general and not exactly sure on how kids talk. I thought the dialogue I wrote for her was something that my younger siblings who are 8 would say, but maybe I was wrong. If anyone has any tips on writing dialogue for kids, I'll gladly take it. If anyone has an advice in general about writing, I'll take. Thanks for reading with this story! I admit I am not sure when the next chapter will be posted as I have tons of midterms in the next three weeks and will be focusing on that. Sorry in advance!

Sarah vs Almost Two Years

December 12, 2013

When Sarah leaves Burbank after dropping her daughter off with the baby's father, she spends the next two months getting into her previous physical shape. Well as close to her previous fitness level as she can get. Her body doesn't feel like her body anymore. It isn't even just from having a baby. Sarah has scars that she did not have five years previously. It makes trying to forget about all she has been through harder.

When she isn't in the gym, she is working with her psychiatrist. General Beckman and the doctor both think she isn't processing things. They are right, she isn't but denies this fact. Sarah wants, no needs, to go back to being a spy. She knows she needs to be a spy without emotions and becomes that once more. Her psychiatrist warns her that ignoring everything she has went through won't be good in the long run. That she needs to face her life. She doesn't care and he ends up clearing here after a couple months because technically she is fine. After Sarah is cleared by everyone, she needs to be cleared by, Sarah throws herself into mission after mission. General Beckman warns her to slow down, but she doesn't.

Sarah texts Chuck telling him she's okay every week. She doesn't answer any of the questions he asks or pick up any of his phone calls, though. She needs to not get close to him and tells herself it is for the best. Spies don't fall in love. She believes at one point she probably did love him, but right now it is best to distance herself from him and not get herself caught up in that life again. She tells herself she could never be a good mom and is not the Sarah that Chuck wants anyway. She worries that he'll track her down if she doesn't let him know she is okay and since she decides that because of this fact combined with the fact that she did love him and did drop a baby into his arms and leave, she should probably let him know she is okay weekly. It is the least she can do. That lasts until January.

In January, she goes on a mission that is rough. Her partner ends up getting shot and almost dies. Sarah walks away with a good number of broken ribs. She finds herself needing herself needing someone to talk to when Chuck calls. She doesn't even realize the date and doesn't put together why he has called. She immediately picks up. They talk for hours about anything and everything staying away from the heavy topics though. In the end, Sarah promises to come visit soon and to call more. Only one of those promises is kept.

In July of 2013, Carina somehow gets her new number and doesn't stop texting her until she agrees to meet her and Zondra. The meeting gets pushed a numerous number of times as Sarah takes missions back to back. This prompts Carina and Zondra to figure out where she is staying and camp out until she returns from the last mission Sarah took.

Sarah walks down the hallway to her hotel room and sees the two girls standing there. She doesn't know how they found her she used an alias for her room just like she used for her doctor's appointments while she was pregnant. She didn't want anyone tracking her down and still doesn't, but it looks like it didn't work. She gives a soft smile as she unlocks her hotel room and they all walk in.

"You know, it is kind of rude to cancel plans repeatedly," Carina says as they enter the small room.

"You know it is rude to track people down who obviously don't want to be," Sarah huffs as she throws her duffle bag onto the bed and sits down.

"Well, you left us with no option," Zondra replies plopping herself down in one of the chairs in the room.

"What is this about?"

"We know about 'Snoresville'. Why you were there. Why you dropped off the radar two years ago. That you left a family," Carina states hoping to get Sarah riled up with the last comment. If she cares, Sarah doesn't react, though.

"How?" Sarah asks looking at her friends. She knows that they were present for her wedding and that Amy was the traitor, not Zondra, but not much else than that.

"Popped in for a visit because we hadn't heard from anyone for a while," Zondra says while Carina adds, "We were… are…worried about you."

Sarah is surprised to hear Carina say that. The Carina, she remembers would never in a million years say that. She knows that she cared back then, even when they were on the C.A.T. squad together, but to actually hear her say it is another thing entirely.

"I have been okay," Sarah tells them. It is true she has been okay. She just isn't sure the old her would have been.

"That's good. What exactly does the C.I.A. have you doing?" Zondra asks.

This launches Sarah into a fit about incompetent partners. Which turns into a conversation about Amy which turns into other conversations. It feels natural and Sarah realizes she has missed them. They talk for hours. Carina pulls alcohol out of her bag sometime during it which doesn't surprise Sarah. She thinks she knows why they are here, but to her surprise they don't touch the topic for most of the night.

"You know you loved him, right?" Carina asks during a lull in the conversation. They are all laying on her bed and probably had a little too much to drink.

"Yeah. I don't remember it or feel it now," Sarah tells her friend. She is staring up at the ceiling, wishing she was asleep like Zondra is next to her. She wanted to avoid this conversation so much.

"I think you do, though," Carina says looking over to Sarah.

"I don't," Sarah states.

"Oh, you do and for some reason won't admit it. You wouldn't have had the little girl if you didn't feel at least a little," Carina tells her, "The first time, I knew you loved him before you even knew. This time is the same. I'll never understand why, but you love him."

Sarah shakes her head turning to look at Carina. "I don't." she repeats, "I haven't even seen them in over a year."

"Fine, I'll go place house with him," Carina tells her. She says it sarcastically, but the second she says it Sarah grabs her arm.

"You won't or I'll kill you. He doesn't need you messing with his life.," Sarah threatens. She knows Carina is trying to push her buttons just like she always has, but she has seen Carina do stupid things.

"You are right I won't. But not because of you threat, but because he only has eyes for you." Carina tells her. Carina looks at her friend and can see it in her eyes that she is right. Sarah loves Chuck.

"Did he turn you down?" Sarah asks laughing.

"Multiple times," Carina states causing both to laugh harder.

For once Carina, doesn't try and push Sarah's buttons and doesn't bring up 'Snoresville' again, until they go to part ways in the morning. Carina tells her if she wants to have C.A.T. squad meet up again, she needs to visit Chuck and Amelia or at least tell Chuck, she isn't ever coming home and to stop leading him on. Sarah doesn't answer Carina and just says goodbye. Later that night as she thinks about it, Sarah decides to visit her husband and her daughter who is quickly approaching two years old not ready to tell Chuck that she is never coming back.

July 23, 2014

Sarah doesn't tell Chuck of her plans to visit when they talk on the phone and doesn't take time off. She instead waits for a mission to be in California semi close to Burbank and plans to just make a quick stop to see Chuck and her little girl. She wants to avoid everyone else in Burbank because she isn't ready to face any of them. She isn't even sure she wants to see Chuck. It takes her awhile to get a mission like that though, but eventually she does six months after Carina and Zondra's visiting her.

The mission finishes without a problem and she makes the hour and a half drive to Burbank. She had to pull the address for his new house off the CIA database because she doesn't exactly remember where the house is as it was chaos last time she was there. She knocks on the door and prays Chuck answers. She doesn't have a lot of time but wants to see them.

Morgan didn't plan on babysitting on his Saturday off, but he ends up with both Clara and Amelia due to Chuck dealing with a technical problem at Carmichael Industries and Awesome and Ellie getting an all hands on deck call from the hospital. Everyone else was busy and he ended up being the only one free. It's the practice for him and Alex's eventually children that makes him easily accept watching his honorary nieces. He doesn't mind watching the girls, but they wear him out.

After lunch of grilled cheese, the girls are settled on the couch almost asleep watching the beginning of Wreck-It-Ralph with their Uncle Morgan, when Sarah knocks on the door. Morgan, who is also falling asleep, shoots up waking the girls laying on the couch next to him in the process. He runs over to the door followed closely by Amelia and Clara.

When Morgan opens the door trying to keep the girls from leaving the house, Sarah wishes she called first just so Chuck would be the one at the door instead of Morgan.

"Hi, Morgan," Sarah says while watching the little girls try and squeeze their way past Morgan to see.

"Sarah, I told Chuck you would be back eventually. That you would realize what you are missing and quit C.I.A.!" Morgan exclaims assuming she is here to stay. He jumps a little and ends up opening the door fully letting the girls sneak through.

"I am just here to visit," Sarah quickly says as soon as Morgan finishes saying what he was thinking. She looks at the small girls who have grown so much since the last time she has seen them. Chuck sends her pictures of Amelia sometimes including other family members such as Clara, so she has seen the girls, but she decides pictures just don't show how much the girls are growing up. "They are getting big," is all she manages to add.

"Uncle Morgan, who is she?" Clara asks eyeballing the strange woman who her Uncle knows, but she doesn't.

Amelia doesn't say anything but wraps herself around her Uncle Morgan's leg pulling on his pants almost trying to hide behind it, but still trying to watch the scene in front of her. To the little girl, the woman looks familiar.

Morgan reaches down and picks the blonde up before answering, "She's Mill's mom. Your aunt, Clara."

Clara's eyes go wide while Amelia looks back and forth from the mysterious woman and her Uncle.

"Mama?" she questioning as she points at Sarah, but before anyone can answer, she wiggles out of Morgan's arms and darts to the stairs and starts to climb the baby gate.

"Miss Amelia," Morgan says sternly getting the attention of Amelia as he sees what she is doing, "Are you allowed to climb the gate?"

Amelia pauses for a second looking at the three people at the door, answers, "No", but then goes back to climbing the gate.

Morgan leaves the door and goes to get Amelia while Sarah and Clara stand still at the door watching Morgan and Amelia. Amelia has already crossed the gate by the time he gets there.

"What's upstairs?" Morgan says exaggerating his expressions when he asks the little girl.

"Mama upstairs." The little girl says as she turns around heading up the stairs.

"Your mom is at the door," Morgan states as he unlocks the gate and goes to grab Amelia, but the second he touches her, she lets out a wail. Morgan freezes not wanting to send the little girl into tears.

"Sorry guys, I guess we are going upstairs really quick. Sarah, you can come in. Clara why don't you show her to the living room?" Morgan says as he follows the blonde up the stairs.

Sarah looks down at the girl who she guesses is her niece and is unsure how to feel. She doesn't remember Clara all too well. She basically only remembers her right at a year old, but even than her memory of her is fuzzy as she was focused on the mission Quinn sent her on. The one where she threatened to take the Clara's mom. Sarah studies Clara. She makes mental notes on things such as how her brown straight hair is almost the same as Ellie, but her eyes are blue like Devon's. The rest of her facial features are the perfect combination of her parents.

Clara pauses after being told what to do and watches Sarah study her. She isn't sure what to make of the women in front of her just like Sarah isn't sure what to make of her. But eventually grabs the woman's hand and pulls her into the living room. Sarah flinches as Clara grabs her hand, but lets the little girl tug her around.

"Sit." Clara points to the couch once at the living room. Sarah does as told. Clara is pleased once her Aunt sit and continues, "I go play with blocks. Stay."

Clara does over to the corner of the room and dumps a tub of Lego Duplo's out and starts to play. Sarah stays where she is and looks around the room while also watching Clara. There are two gaming chairs along with a couch and a glider. The bookshelf is full with children's books and movies and there is a toy chest and play table where Clara is playing. She turns around and glances at the dining room and kitchen. It all looks homey and lived in. Sarah sees the door frame where she wrote her and Chuck's names before Quinn stole her life. It is still the only full memory she has back. She sees her daughter's height marked on the door frame a few times below it.

After a few minutes, footsteps could be heard moving down the stairs than into the living room. Sarah turns just in time to see her daughter carrying what looks like a picture frame come into the room followed by Morgan.

Her daughter looks at Sarah walks over to her and climbs onto the couch than on to Sarah's lap. Sarah lets her. Sarah looks over the girl's shoulder and sees the photo is of her and Chuck. The one I kept in my suitcase Sarah thinks to herself even though she isn't sure why.

"Dada," Amelia states point at Chuck. "An' Mama." Amelia adds first pointing at Sarah in the picture, then turning around looking at Sarah and looking at Sarah.

Sarah isn't sure what to say. The little girl just continues to watch her from the spot on her lap waiting for her to say something. Morgan watches Sarah and his honorary niece's interaction after sitting down in one of the gaming chairs in the living room and decides he needs to help some.

"Yeah, that is your mom, Millie!" he says giving her a thumbs up.

Amelia smiles up at her mom and Sarah smiles back. Amelia watches Sarah for a few second and Sarah wonders what her daughter is thinking. She can see the wheels turning even though she isn't saying anything. Amelia seems to have made up her mind about something because she slides off Sarah's lap and heads over to the giant toy chest near where Clara is playing. She opens it and starts digging tossing toys on to the floor some landing near Clara.

"Uncle Morgan, tell Millie not to do that," Clara whines looking at her younger cousin. Millie turns to look at her and immediately goes back to digging.

Morgan sighs not sure what Millie is wanting, but to him it is obvious that she is looking for something. "Mills, try not to throw the toys." He warns thinking maybe she'll stop.

"'ission," she answers back not turning around and still digging. It isn't hard to guess what she was trying to say, and Sarah laughs. Morgan gets up to stop her, but before he even takes one step, Amelia has already found what she was looking for and turns around and runs back to Sarah.

It is a very old stuffed dog. It is obvious it has been very loved toy and is old. As soon as Sarah sees it, she knows that once upon a time it was hers. She doesn't know where her daughter got it but has a feeling her dad had something to do with it.

"Mama's bunny," Amelia tells Sarah as she hands the dog to her and climbs on to her lap again.

"That's not a bunny," Clara says stating the obvious and then continues to play with the blocks.

Sarah laughs at her niece. Amelia lays her head on Sarah's shoulder and continues to watch a movie on the TV that was playing when Sarah walked in. Amelia falls eventually falls asleep on Sarah. No one talks and Sarah just enjoys the peaceful moment holding her.

"Morgan, is it okay for her to sleep?" Sarah asks quietly as the movie ends unsure if this will mess with her daughter's sleep schedule. She hopes it doesn't. The room is already a mess that someone will have to handle.

Morgan looks over to Sarah and Amelia and smiles, "Yeah, she usually takes a nap around this time, unlike miss Clara over there who is too big for naps." He answers turning to Clara and making a funny face who turns in sticks her tongue out at Morgan.

Clara goes back playing and Morgan turns back to Sarah. He looks at the women who he hasn't seen since before Chuck and her beach moment. She is gently playing with her daughter's blonde curls. He wonders if maybe she'll stay, and his best friend will get his fairy tale ending. They all deserve it.

"How long are you for?" Morgan asks.

"I have a flight to catch at four," Sarah says sadly as looks at her phone to check the time. It's past 3:15, she sees and thinks she better get going. "I just had a mission close by and realized I haven't seen them in almost two years," She sighs and tries to move her daughter on the couch, but she snuggles in tighter to Sarah.

Morgan doesn't say anything. He pulls at him phone instead texts, Chuck, who was trying his best to get home.

"I better get going actually. What do I do to move her without waking her up?" Sarah asks stiff as a board afraid to move.

Morgan looks up from his phone, "I actually am not good at the not waking kid thing. But if you could hold off for 15 minutes, someone who is pretty good with all things Amelia could help you. If you could push your flight back, we are having a game night, tonight."

Sarah starts to freak and slides Amelia off her lap quickly waking her up in the process. The girl starts crying and Sarah jumps up. She suddenly doesn't want to be here any longer than she has anyway. She doesn't want to be sucked into the hole that is Burbank. She is a spy and she has to get back. While she loves her daughter, she doesn't know how to be her mom. This short time here has showed her that she can't hold her daughter without messing up. She gets up and walks to the door.

Morgan follows her leaving a crying Amelia and a confused Clara who missed the whole incident as she was playing with her blocks. Morgan catches her arm only for Sarah to turn around and grab him by the neck like she has done a few times before. Sarah quickly stops before she hurts him. Tears start rolling down her face.

"I can't be here, Morgan. I just can't," Sarah says looking at her husband's friend who she almost hurt.

"Look Sarah, you did that before you lost your memories. I am sure you'll do it to me when we are old and grey too." He quietly says trying to make a joke to defuse the tension in the air as Sarah reaches for the doorknob.

"Tell Chuck I said hi and I wished I could have seen him," Sarah says slowly turning the knob.

Morgan shakes his head and just answers a simple, "Yeah, I will." He pauses then adds, "Alex and I are getting married in April. We haven't sent out the invites yet, but we would like for you to come."

Sarah pauses opening the door, "I can't, Morgan."

"I know you can't, but I thought you should know. You are family. You will always be a part of it whether you want to be or not. I know Chuck will always accept you with open arms because he loves you," Morgan says rushing to get everything out before Sarah leaves

"I understand and I wish I could see Chuck, but I have a plane to catch. Goodbye, Morgan," she says as she walks out of the door.

Chuck walks into his house hoping by some chance his friend got his wife to stay a little longer. Instead, he walks into his crying daughter, a frustrated best friend, a grumpy niece, a messy living room, and the credits of Wreck-It-Ralph playing on the TV.