It takes them the better part of an hour to make what would have previously been a 15-minute walk. The entire walk back to the Nightbrother Sabine remained silent, her arms at her sides fists clenching and unclenching as she seethed within her own mind. Ezra for his part was growing more and more nervous, mirroring their Mandalorian escort who had decided to keep their distance after Sabine started stroking the hilt of one of her blasters ten minutes in. He was mostly sure that Sabine didn't intend to shoot him, which provided some relief against the steadily building waves of emotion he could feel rolling off Sabine, but even then he was making sure to give her, plenty of space.
When they arrived back at the Nightbrother, several of their escorts shoot Ezra sympathetic looks before departing, leaving him to follow Sabine up the ramp, pausing to use the wall as support when his leg seems to freeze mid-step.
Sabine for her part despite her emotions quickly notices when Ezra isn't right behind her and promptly doubles back, taking his arms and helping him 'walk' toward the sleeping quarters. Once he is seated on the bed; however, she is back up and moving as she paces back and forth, wearing a path into the deck plating below her feet.
For several minutes they sit there silently, Sabine working through her emotions as Ezra tries to give her the space he can see she needs. Eventually, though he has enough and reaches a hand out to her beginning "Sabine..."
Her response nearly shatters him, as instead of what he had been expecting she almost seems to flinch away from his hand before turning so she isn't looking at him. She pauses for a few moments, and when she turns back to face him he can see the tears she had been suppressing earlier rolling down her cheeks as she asks "do you love me, Ezra?"
Ezra startles, shocked by her question as he says "of course I do Cyar' ika"
Hearing the term of endearment causes her to look away for a moment before she asks "and do you trust me?"
This time he doesn't hesitate "with my life, and everything I am" he says struggling to rise and pull her close.
She again looks away, and this time when she looks back, she looks up into his eyes with anger swirling across her features as she asks her voice crackling with her anger and sadness "then why don't you trust me to fight by your side? Why are you so determined to leave me and let yourself be captured? Why Ez'ika? Why won't you stay with me, why would you try so hard to send me away?"
This time it is Ezra's turn to look away, sighing as he releases her and half sits half collapses back onto the bed. He notices she immediately wraps her arms around herself as if shielding herself from his answer, but he remains where he is answering "I do trust you, Sabine, I trust you with everything I hold dear in this world and the next. The person I don't trust is myself; I don't trust myself not to get you killed, I don't trust myself not to lose you."
He pauses before looking up to meet her eyes "You want to know why I tried to send you away? It's because I can handle being captured, I can handle being tortured, even killed, if it means you're okay. What I don't know is what I would do if you had to pay the price for my mistake.. "he bangs on his prosthetic with a clenched fist "if you were hurt because of this stupid leg... What terrifies me is I don't know what I'd do if you were hurt, or killed, because of me."
He steels himself as he says "so yes, I tried to send you away because if I lost you, I wouldn't survive." looking away he finishes under his breath without even realising "fear leads to anger. Anger leads to..."
There`s silence for several moments before sabine asks in a soft-spoken voice "And you think I could?" causing him to look back at where she had moved to kneel in his line of sight "Ezra, you're my husband, you know what that means, you're it for me, if I lost you..." she trails off, and he brings a hand up to wipe the tears from her cheek before pressing a kiss against her lips.
They stay like that for several moments just lost in the closeness after the day they have had until they pull apart keeping their foreheads close. Sabine begs "I need you to promise me Ez'ika, promise you won't send me away, promise that you'll let me fight by your side, promise me I won't lose you."
Ezra's voice cracks with emotion as he sighs softly "I... I can't" then swallowing he says "all I can promise is that I will do everything in my power to stay at your side."
And for now, somehow, that seems to be enough