My day was pretty uneventful, in art Rapunzel was trying to apologize for Jack. I just shrugged, now that I was out of the house I was calmer and more, well me. Ever since the girls and I rented that house, it's been, weird. Normally I only had to meditate once a week but nowdays its an everyday thing. I even leave school angry but today, I felt normal. With Tulli sepressing my powers and now Rapunzel's on purpose influence over my spirit I no longer feel caged or threatened.

I found out later that Hiccup was in fact in all my Psych classes, he would sit in the back corner and I would sit against the wall somewhere. Today he sat with me to talk since he didn't get the chance. He was also in my math classes to which I was greatful. No matter how many eras I have lived I still refuse to do learn math, my math scores were in the Bs, I told my mother after the fifth century of Bs that I can't be perfect to the mortals in everything, I needed a flaw. She still doesn't buy it for the record. Hiccup walked with me and like Rapunzel rather than talk about went on in the house he told me about dragons.

"So you named him toothless," I asked trying not to laugh.

"Well when I was giving him the fish there were no teeth," Hiccup tried to defend himself. "

"I wouldn't have named him that."

"What would you have named him then?"

I looked thoughtfull for a moment before answering. "Tamesiswyhn"

"What is that?"

"Dark wings."

Hiccup looked at me like I just told him I have webbed feet, "That doesn't make sense at all, that's like the same as Toothless."

"But it's cooler and more mysterious, come Hic I'm good with mysterious names. There was this frost dragon I met once, I called him Cadwyn. He was one of the few dragons left before humans killed them all."

Hiccup and I shared a moment before I went into my History class where Jack and Merida waited for me. I apologized to them and they looked at me in shock remaining silent for the rest of the day. Today I had fencing practice, we were to decide who was going to participate in the compitition itself. Jannette was talking to me when Jack came in, for some reason my irratation came back and I wanted to take him down then I knew something was wrong. I feigned sickness to my instructors who said I had made the board anyway and will see me in practice later that week. But I had to get out, I was suffocating and I don't know why. I changed out of my gear and ran, it was an hour before i stopped at a park, it was empty, with it being December and all and the snow finally falling, I wonder if it'll be a white Christmas, should I sing in the square this year like I used to when I was younger. So many things I wanted to do, but, for some reason, at certain times, I lose all motivation and get angry.

I sat on a swing in the park as the snow started to fall. I didn't hear her until she sat on the swing next to me. I looked over to see Myles looking up at the sky.

"Do you what the snow becomes when it melts," she asked suddenly.

I blinked in surprise, did she think I was stupid. "Water of course."

"Wrong," she giggled, the famed angel of death and destruction giggled. "It melts into spring. If you think too logically you can only see the evidence, but if you can keep an open mind, you can see beauty. I didn't sloughter humans six hundred years ago, Demons had over run a small village only a handful survived, all children. When children are involved my power releases itself sometimes beyond my control. I'm sorry for what you saw, but I don't regret it. Not one movement. Do you have regrets?"

"No, I don't get that luxury. I live, I die, I'm reborn again. Like a phoenix."

"Are you afraid of your powers like Tulli thinks?"

I thought for a moment, was I, its true I never really used it, but was it out of fear for that power. No.

"No I'm not afraid of my powers," I finally answered. "I'm afraid of my control and myself. If my ability to boost other's power as a defense then doesn't that mean my power is designed to hurt people. I want to help people but what if I loose control and hurt them, what if I'm really evil?"

"I can see you're not evil," Myles started to swing. "You nutral and that scares a lot of people because they don't know where your true loyalties lie."

"So I'm a threat?!"

"To some, but to me, you just seem confused."

"How?"

"Well, you don't know yourself. You meditate everyday but that is to keep control of your temper, but have you thought of using it to explore your spirit, find out what you're powers are exactly?"

"No, I tried once I was unconscious for two weeks, my mother forbade me since," I get up off the swing to walk home. "I still don't trust you Myles, but I am willing to give you the benefit of the doubt, for now."

At home the anger and frustration was back, I was more irritable than ever, not even meditation and tia chi were helping anymore. I wanted to scream, what was happening to me, I even yelled at Rapunzel during dinner on their third day here. Sweet Rapunzel who helped me want to talk to my mother again, I yelled at her about being cheerful when that was why I loved her. I locked myself in my room and forfeited my place in the competition that weekend. Myles and her group left confused and worried but otherwise unharmed. I set myself into deep meditation barely eating and not sleeping.

Why was I angry what was the source of that anger, demon, human, another magic user? I was no closer to finding the answers than I was to knowing about myself. I ran for two hours everyday but my only escape, where Myles, Tulli and Rapunzel always seemed to find me, was the park, with the fountains and the running water. I didn't know what to think or do. I felt, free finally.

But, one week before Christmas, that is when all Hell broke loose, literally.