Summary:

The next day Alex and Lena relax at the lodge.

Lena woke the next morning to an empty bed. She got up and looked in the bathroom and there was no sign of Alex. She looked at the time on her phone, it was 8am and she could hear voices downstairs and smell breakfast being cooked. She couldn't remember the last time she had slept in until 8am. She was usually up by 6 and on her way to L-Corp by 8. Lena headed for a quick shower.

Alex returned to their room and heard the shower running. She had been for her daily run. It hadn't been the easiest running in the snow but she needed to run. After the past few days she needed to think, and running always helped her do that. She was starting to have second thoughts about her and Lena. She thought by the time she came back she would have gotten over her doubts and fears but those things in the back of her head were still there. Am I good enough for Lena Luthor? Will I get my heart broken again? Am I really ready for another relationship? What if it doesn't work out? How will Kara cope? But the biggest question for Alex was, was she good enough? Lena was rich and successful. And so beautiful. The most beautiful woman Alex had ever set eyes on. And Alex was well, Alex. Head of the DEO and Supergirls sister. The only things of real value she owned were her apartment and her motorbike.

Lena came back out into the bedroom, rubbing her hair and wearing only a towel. She was surprised to see Alex standing there gazing back at her. But this time it was different, Alex was deep in thought and she could tell by just looking at her face.

"Where did you go?" Lena asked.

"I woke early so I went for a run," Alex told her as she stripped out of her clothes, "Sam and Jen are preparing a feast downstairs if your hungry."

Lena licked her lips and then watched Alex as she disappeared into the bathroom for a shower without another word. Hungry, yes Alex you are making me very hungry .

Lena put on some dark blue jeans, tshirt and a light weight dark blue sweater. She put on her leather boots and then checked herself in the mirror, after putting on some light make up to her eyes she brushed her long hair and left it loose. Finally happy with her appearance she made her way downstairs.

The smell of ham and eggs greeted her, along with stacks of pancakes and maple syrup. She took a seat at the large dining table. It was decorated with a red table cloth and place settings for each of them. A christmas decoration sat in the centre. It was the first time Lena had noticed she was in fact in the middle of a Christmas scene from a movie. The whole lodge was decorated with lights and Christmas decor. Lena definitely wasn't used to this.

Jen walked into the dining area first.

"Hi Lena, did you sleep well?"

Lena looked across at her as she sat down at the table.

"Yes, surprisingly well. And this all looks so good," Lena commented on the food laid out before her.

"Only the best for our guests, please help yourself."

Lena took some pancakes and poured maple syrup over them, she was about to start tucking in when she saw Alex enter the room. Her eyes were drawn to her tall frame, dressed in black torn jeans and blue plaid shirt. Lena had to take a breath to steady herself, Alex was absolutely gorgeous. Alex noticed Lena looking at her and gave her a small smile. Then she sat down next to Lena.

Lena looked to Alex beside her and Alex looked back at her. But Lena noticed something had changed and she couldn't put her finger on it. She wasn't sure if it was good or bad but Alex had been awfully quiet.

Lena was about to ask Alex if everything was okay when there was a knock at the door. Sam rushed to answer it. All three ladies at the table watched and listened from across the room.

"Elena, you made it!" Sam greeted her old friend from university, the same one that Lena had attended. Elena was also Lena's ex girlfriend.

"Elena?" Lena said quietly to herself.

Alex looked at Lena, "Do you know her?"

Lena looked awkward, "Yes we were at university together. Me, Sam and Elena. I can't believe she is here."

Sam walked over to the table with Elena. Lena stood up and greeted her. "Elena, it's been a while."

Elena smiled at Lena, "You look just as beautiful now as you did back then, more so in fact."

Lena blushed, "You look well, sorry I'm still a bit surprised, because this one here," she nudged Sam, "didn't tell me you were invited."

Elena laughed, "Well, here I am, well what are you waiting for Luthor, where is my hug."

Alex watched on curiously as the two women embraced. She suddenly felt out of the loop, these three had history. A history Alex realised she knew nothing about, in fact she hardly knew anything about Lena's past. It just made her doubt herself even more.

Lena was smiling brightly, she then turned and introduced Elena to Alex, "Elena this is my friend Alex." Friend? thought Alex.

Alex stood and shook the woman's hand then sat back down and started to pile on the pancakes and bacon onto her plate, "You'll have to excuse me, I'm starving after that run."

"Of course," Elena apologised, "I'll leave you all to your breakfast."

"I'll show you to your room." Sam told her friend.

"Catch up later Lee," Elena said before following Sam out.

"Yes," Lena smiled. Although part of her was a little apprehensive that her first girlfriend from university was here. She was going to kill Sam for not warning her.

Jen finished her coffee and stood from the table, "I'll see you guys later, I have a few errands to run before tonight. After all there are two bachelorette parties to be organised."

Lena and Alex both nodded and once Jen had left the room they were both alone.

Lena looked to Alex who was looking pensive, "Are you okay?"

Alex carried on eating her pancakes and muttered a quick, "Yeah"

Lena put her hand on Alex's arm, "You don't seem okay. You've been so quiet."

Alex sighed and put down her fork, sat back and turned her head, "I've been thinking."

"About?" Lena's heart was sinking rapidly, she had a bad feeling about this. All the signs were there in the way Alex was acting.

"About us, Lena, are you sure this is what you want? Are you sure you want me?"

Lena sat back with a frown, "Where is this coming from Alex?"

Alex looked at her, "Kara is your best friend okay, you have been friends for so long, what if we don't work out? It will kill her."

Lena took in what Alex said and looked thoughtful, "Why wouldn't we work out?"

Alex sighed and was about to respond when Sam came walking back in.

"You both all ready to party tonight?" She said cheerfully sitting down opposite them both, "I've arranged for my bachelorette party at a club in town. It's going to be so much fun, and free drinks all night."

"Great," Lena smiled. But deep down she was reeling from what Alex had said.

Alex stood and tucked her chair under the table, "I'm gonna go for a walk."

Sam looked at them both, surely there wasn't trouble in paradise already?

"Wait, I'll come with you." Lena said standing.

Alex took her warm coat from the hanger by the door, "No, stay here and catch up with your friend, I won't be long, I just need some air. We can talk later."

Lena frowned and reluctantly sat back down.

When Alex had gone Sam looked to Lena in sympathy.

"What happened?" Sam asked gently.

Lena looked at Sam, "I have no idea. I thought things were going fine. Admittedly we haven't even been on a date yet but Alex is having doubts already."

"I'm sorry," Sam got up and walked around to sit beside Lena, "What exactly did Alex say?"

"She's worried about Kara, she thinks if we split up it will put Kara in a difficult situation." Lena shook her head, "But Alex is wrong, it wouldn't, I know Kara. Even if god forbid, that happened, Kara would manage, she's strong."

"Alex is her sister, its a valid concern," Sam told Lena taking her friend's hand, "Look, you just need to talk it out, I am sure you will both be okay."

Lena looked at Sam, "No, it's more than just that, I know it is."

"Well then, you really do need to talk to her."

Alex stepped into the cold winter morning, she started to walk towards the SUV and decided that instead of going for a walk she would get in the car and call Kara, after all her morning run had done absolutely nothing to help so walking wasn't going to make any difference. She needed someone to talk to about this and her sister was her closest friend.

Alex got into the car and sat down then she pulled out her phone and called her sister.

"Alex hi, how's it going?" Kara said brightly. She was at work, at Catco when the call came through, luckily she was sitting behind her desk and not in any meetings.

"Okay I guess," Alex replied quietly, "It's beautiful here."

"I'm sensing a but?" Kara always picked up quickly on Alex's moods, just by the sound in her voice.

"Look there is something I need to tell you, something I haven't told anyone," Alex was nervously biting her nails.

"Oh oh, this sounds serious," Kara started to turn the pencil in one hand.

"What if it doesn't work out with me and Lena," Alex's heart was beating faster and not in a good way, she was anxious.

"Alex, even if it didn't work out, its okay, we will be okay. I love Lena and I love you, is there something more or am I imagining it, because you seriously can't be worried about that!"

"I, I think I'm in love with Lena," Alex blurted it out. It was the first time she had said it out loud and it felt good to tell someone but she was also terrified of what her sister would think.

"In love?" Kara repeated.

"Yes, I've felt it for some time, it's one of the reasons it didn't work out with Kelly," Alex explained, "And I'm scared Kara, what if she never feels the same way?"

"And why wouldn't she?" Kara was genuinely confused.

"Because, I'm just Alex Danvers and she's freaking Lena Luthor!"

She could have sworn she heard Kara roll her eyes, "Alex, what are you talking about? Lena is just like the rest of us, well apart from that genius scientist part, but you know what I mean. Have you forgotten she made best friends with a normal everyday girl called Kara Danvers? Who works as a journalist and makes a lot less than you do."

Alex paused to think, "You have a point."

"And, my beautiful badass sister isn't exactly stupid either."

Alex smiled a weak smile, "Thanks Kara you always manage to make me feel better."

"Now stop being such a misery and go and spend time with your girlfriend," Kara told her.

Alex smiled at the use of the word girlfriend but then frowned when she realised Lena wasn't even that yet. After all she introduced her to her friend Elena as a friend .

"Okay, I'll try," Alex promised, but she knew she had to speak with Lena first and clear the air because she hadn't exactly left it in a great place.

Alex ended the call and felt a little more sure of herself, Kara was right, Lena may be a billionaire but she was so down to earth in so many ways, her charity work spoke volumes and she always had the biggest heart. That was one of the many things Alex loved about her. But she could make a really big list of reasons why she had fallen in love with Lena Luthor, she was grateful that their chemistry had finally brought them together. Alex was about to get out of the car when she heard a tap on the window, she looked out to see Lena standing there, Alex got out of the vehicle and stood before her.

"Hey," Alex smiled sheepishly, "Sorry about earlier."

Lena eyed her suspiciously, her arms were folded, "Tell me what's wrong."

"I was being stupid, really its nothing, lets go back inside," Alex started to walk towards the front door.

"Alex." Lena raised an eyebrow at her in disapproval.

Alex stopped and stepped closer to Lena, "I was worried that I am not enough for you," she told her honestly. She left out the part about being in love with her, when the time was right she would tell her.

Lena took a hold of Alex's hands, "Alex you are more than enough for me, can't you see how amazing you are?"

Alex genuinely couldn't, she just frowned.

"I have always admired you Alex, your strength, your passion, your loyalty and your intelligence, what's not to love? You are perfect." Lena smiled and squeezed Alex's hands, "And your kinda hot too."

Alex laughed a little and relaxed more, wait did Lena just say love? No it's just an expression , Alex thought to herself. But then she said it again.

"I love everything about you Alex Danvers," Lena smiled and pulled Alex close to herself.

Their eyes met and for a moment nothing else existed, just the two of them standing deep in snow outside the lodge.

Alex lifted her hand to Lena's face, it was cold but Lena didn't care, she closed her eyes as Director Danvers let her fingers explore her face before her lips joined them. Lena melted into the kiss and warmth spread through her. They wrapped their arms around each other and deepened the kiss. They were broken apart by some kids wolf whistling at them from across the street. They both laughed and made their way back inside away from prying eyes.

Sam smiled at them both as they entered, she saw they were both holding hands and smiling, this was good, everything was going to be okay, just as she suspected.

Alex and Lena spent the rest of the morning helping bake cookies, then they sat on the sofa in front of the roaring log fire just cuddling and watching cheesy Christmas movies.

Lena rested back into Alex's arms. It felt like home, something she had never experienced before.

"Love," Lena rubbed Alex's arm that was wrapped around her.

For a moment Alex wondered what she was saying then realised it was a term of endearment, "Yes babe."

"This film really is bad."

Alex laughed, "True, but just being here with you, like this, makes it more bearable."

Lena couldn't have agreed more, "Mmm, your right, this is wonderful, shame we have to leave this sofa at all."

"I don't think Sam would be too pleased if we didn't go to her party," Alex replied.

Lena sat up and faced Alex, "Kiss me."

Alex was only too happy to fulfil her request. Alex had gotten a little addicted to kissing Lena Luthor, after waiting so long to do so, she now couldn't get enough, her mouth captured Lena's mouth, lips and tongues crashed together. Alex's lips started to make their way down Lena's neck, and she was just sucking on an earlobe and making Lena softly moan when Sam walked in. Alex shyly moved away but not totally, she still held Lena close.

"Well. I'm glad to see you are both enjoying yourselves," Sam remarked, "You know I won't mind if you both want to spend some time alone, there is a perfectly good bed upstairs."

"Sam!" Lena shot her a look that said, stop.

"Sorry, just saying," Sam laughed.

Alex felt her ears burning and she wasn't sure if it was embarrassment or because she had been kissing Lena.

Sam had made some eggnog which was gratefully received once Alex and Lena composed themselves. They all sat and watched the next cheesy Christmas movie and ended up eating most of the cookies. Then later in the afternoon other guests began to arrive, Jen's brother John, a couple of Sam's friends and a lesbian couple that Jen and Sam had gotten to know. As the house got busier with people Alex and Lena retreated to their room to get changed for the evenings bachelorette party for Sam.

Once behind the closed door Alex had Lena up against it kissing her, Lena moaned into the kiss, "Alex we need to get ready," but she was enjoying herself so much that she couldn't bare to push Alex away.

Alex just grinned and stepped away, "How am I going to keep my hands off you all evening?"

"Just think of it as a challenge," Lena winked and walked away towards the bathroom.

Alex sighed as she watched her, this was both heaven and hell. She had Lena, but she didn't at the same time. Why couldn't they be anywhere else but here?