A slight warning.. Next chapter could be a little sad one.. :)
Chapter 4 - What happens in private, stays there
Two weeks later, Dean and Sam were alone on a case. They were in Ohio and had booked a room in a motel. Since the case, a vampire nest, could be solved without major problems, the brothers were in good shape and had only minor scratches. Since Sam was in a good mood and they were both slightly drunk, Dean had actually decided to tell his brother what was really going on with him and Castiel.
Nothing had happened between him and the angel yet. Except for the seven nights Castiel had spent with Dean, when they fell asleep only cuddling together.
Dean could imagine more and wished for it. Only he didn't know how Cas would react. Also otherwise it was very relaxed. When Dean and Castiel were alone, they hardly talked. Castiel never talk much anyway, but the silence was not unpleasant. On the contrary, it felt good and calming.
Now, however, he and Sam were sitting in a small, slightly older roadhouse in the immediate vicinity of their motel. So they could walk back afterwards.
Dean had been quiet the whole time and thought about how he could start without scaring his brother.
Sam was also wondering how he could approach his brother on this subject without perhaps upsetting him.
At some point, it got too much for Sam.
„Dean, is there anything you want to tell me or what you want to talk about?"
„Great", he thought, „now I sound like a shrink too!"
„I...", Dean cleared his throat, „I don't know. There might be something there, but... Oh, I don't know!"
Sam thought it was a little funny how his big brother was hopping around. He decided to tease him a little.
„Oh Dean, are you getting a cold?"
„No."
„Are you going to be a father?"
„What? No, what makes you think that?"
„Well, I don't know, it occurred to me..." For a moment they were silent again. To help Dean a little bit, Sam said: „I got it, you're in love?!"
Dean looked up hastily and immediately regretted it. There was something knowing in Sam's eyes and that made him blush.
„Damn!", Dean thought. Actually he knew his brother well, but at that moment he couldn't evaluate him. He was really afraid of losing his brother.
Sam must have seen this because his features were softening. Secretly, he had even been happy to see his brother so anxious for a moment. It was something Dean never allowed himself to do.
That Dean didn't dare take the last step could be explained by their raising. But their father was no longer with them, so…
„Dean, listen", Sam said with a slight smile, „calm down, I know! If you don't want to admit it to me yet, that's okay. It's always a bit weird at first to admit that you're in love. That changes a lot... You and Cas", Sam took a short break, „it was clear from the beginning that there was something else besides friendship. I am happy for you. If it makes you happy, I am happy too.
That night, I also heard Cas and hoped that at least one of you would make the move. When your door closed and I heard no footsteps going back, I was overjoyed. I don't want to know what you are doing behind closed doors. What happens in private, stays there.
I just want you to be happy. You don't have to be afraid of me. I still love you, Dean!"
Sam was briefly shocked by what Dean always said was a chick-flick moment.
He had changed sides on Dean's table during his short 'speech' and was now gently pounding his brother in the side.
Dean, who apparently hadn't noticed Sam's change of seat, was a little frightened. He looked at Sam and Sam could see a slight shimmer in his brother's eyes.
„Thank you!", Dean said with a husky voice. „And I love you too, Sammy!"