Hello! I doubt this will be a return for good, because nothing last forever or even a couple of days for me..But my Father lent me a laptop to study that I will do and this also. PS. This computer auto corrects to French(My Father speaks French out many languages..I only speak English) so I definitely don't know If my grammar and spelling is correct.

Lucy ran hurriedly down the hall with a grim look on her face and feeling like the world was on her shoulders, She ran up staircase after staircase the closer she got towards the Phantom Lord ward the more she felt a gurgling and queasy feeling of worry fill her heart and stomach, her head hurt from the thought that something might go wrong, since Phantom lord never had a good reputation as doctors,

she threw off her clothes in the changing room and dancing in the shower as quickly as she could she jumped into the clean scrubs laid out for her by the kind nurses who watched over her needs the dark green outfit she had always been happy to see felt like heavy armor that locked her heart in place as she pulled it on effortlessly in terms of physical strength, she donned her mask and running shoes taking off at the top speed she was known and loved for.

Lucy arrived under a big hospital sign that bore the name and mark that was truly a burden to the hospital, feeling like she herself was a hospital patient and she was unable to be cured. The first OR was the one and only that read surgery in progress and a crowd of familiar doctors seemingly marked that room as correct in front of the big doors blocking the doctors were people standing in black like they had come from a very solemn funeral wearing white earpieces,

This was like an organized crime..that is what it was, Phantom Lord was desperate to clear their names after their history of malpractice and other inhumanly acts..The only reason they had not all been fired was because Magnolia was run by Ivan Dreyar son of the previous more superb Makarov Dreyar and the founder of the lot of horrible aggressive doctors, Makarov who had retired three years ago had no say in the making of such a group,

Ivan oversaw and favored Phantom Lord shielding the surgeons from the backlash of the outside world and humane organizations that if they had known would do absolutely everything to bring Phantom Lord down..Natsu had talked against Ivan many times and had received bad ratings and other career ruining allegations, Ivan left Fairy Tail and The world Savior program untouched simply out of the scraps of respect for his father.

Lucy asked the doctors to move so she would not dirty her scrubs and sterile gloves which she held in front of her face, they quickly complied after seeing Lucy's chocolate eyes molded with a slight fire that made her scary even though they knew she would never hurt them. Now after the sea of white garments parted like a giant wall the guards formed a blockade.

If you entered Magnolia General Hospital that cold night and curiously climbed a few stairs you might have heard the fierce yelling like a lions roar escaping the soft pink lips of a pretty maiden who wanted nothing more than to save a life.

''Let her through..she's going to have to take this surgery over. '' an extremely tall and broad tanned man named Aria, one of the guards said holding his earpiece and receiving his orders. The guards parted their muscle ocean like the froth of the sea, Lucy ran through her hands still raised in front of her face that was masked with worry.

The pure white operation room air was cool and it tried its best to calm the salty sweat beads rolling down her face into her eyes as new nurses from her ward started to rush in and replace the fleeting Phantom Lord doctors and nurses.

The operating was taken in by Lucy in one breath like she was standing on a perilous cliff as she rushed to be by the girl she knew as Angel's side.

never before had an open surgery seemed so putrid to Lucy she felt nauseous at the fact that 'doctors' had ripped a girl yet to be under the knife from her bed like kidnappers and started a surgery only to toss the matter into her hands since she was the original doctor of Angel, leaving her to any complication that might come her way, just as they had done many times before but to different doctors.

Lucy felt as if she was too dirty to be in this room with Angel, she felt fire leaping in her throat and her head felt as though it was splitting..she had not protected Angel instead she took a long time off of work battling with her father day in and out.

she felt a lump in her throat when she picked up the scalpel and gazed into the little girl's chest at the tumor that Phantom Lord doctors couldn't identify, it was a special case that is why Lucy was made to be the performing doctor and she had received approval from the medical board to allow the tumor to grow just to be safe before extracting it, she moved her hands with an extreme air of precision like she had been a doctor all her life yet she still felt worried.

-BACK WITH NATSU-

The stars were blotted out by the clouds as if the clouds themselves were made up of the darkest ink edged with a beautiful curve of royal blue.

Natsu lay on his back still asleep on the soft grasses after a long day of running after an old man who had quite the playful side contrary to his quiet demeanor.

Natsu opened a beautiful onyx colored eye that seemed almost gray for his long dream of the sun, it was in fact very chilly and there was a thin eerie fog near just above his head, he looked around at the deserted park to see the streetlights shining brightly like lanterns in the dark, feeling suddenly sad about the atmosphere tonight he lifted his head to gaze at Lucy's lucky stars yet they were no where to be found on this cold night covered with fluffy dark clouds.

Natsu shivered not from cold but from the bitter loneliness in his heart he always felt when his friend from childhood was away for too long, he still scoured the sky for one small speck of silver or blue light instead his dark eye was met with the sky's teardrops, he smiled quietly and solemnly to the earth hoping to brighten the night, he looked for the baby-man child Jude as he called him in his deepest thoughts.

He saw the face of the pale older man start to stir in the night probably feeling the sadness the world was radiating tonight, he opened a dark circular eye seeing Natsu made it go sharp and Natsu smiled warmly at him, Jude turned away trying not to smile Natsu's smile was just that contagious. ''We should go home.'' he said in a raspy voice tired from running and jumping all day with the children and parents that reminded him of his wife and daughter.

Natsu had his hands over Jude's head protecting him from the rain that was going to start to pelting them from sleeping for so long, before that Natsu bought two umbrellas from a nearby convenience store placing a pink and white polka dotted one over Jude's head before he was greeted with the same sour face, so he silently replaced it with a vine covered white one feeling kind of embarrassed to have the polka dotted one.

They were the only two umbrellas left in the store..Natsu guided Jude through the fog and rain with relative ease as they stepped into the warmer but still cold house, he couldn't help but think of what Lucy might be doing maybe she was coolly discussing hospital matters with Erza and Jellal or she was performing a surgery.

He always found his mind back on Lucy when she was gone, sometimes he felt happy to know she couldn't help to miss him as well though she missed everyone because of a problem that made her feel as though she would be left alone someday soon if people left her or she left them soon.

Natsu had urged her to talk with a therapist since Jude's leaving seven years ago had affected her negatively, but she always said when she wasn't busy she definitely would but she always busy.

After Jude was asleep Natsu was still in the midst of tossing and turning usually he was at the hospital alongside her working, but because of his hand he couldn't help her right now..it made him feel uneasy since he loved to help her even with the little idiotic things she liked to do sometimes.

Natsu finally dozed off for a bit dreaming of Lucy dancing through a flower garden one of her many dreams before her medical dream was to be a ballet dancer, Natsu had a Eidetic memory so he recalled things with pictures to go with them..but he always remembered specially anything to do with Lucy Heartfilia.

Lucy completed Angel's suture herself instead letting the other doctors do it, she had lost her mind during the surgery as memories of her ample training guided the strokes of her hand quickly and precisely, she sealed Angel's body making all efforts to make a stitch that would heal and wouldn't scar before she was old enough to be self-conscious about her body, Lucy didn't wish to add anything for her to think hard about on her journey to learning self-esteem, Lucy was highly praised for her skills in stitching which carried out on most of her patients.

Being done with a surgery that lasted two hours, Lucy was both famished and tired, not taking her own advice to Natsu she went for a vending machine meal of chips and grape juice on her way to the Hospital directors office. She felt like she had eaten a tuna sandwich and downed a jug of milk..there was a worried expression on her face accompanied by a lump in her throat when she knocked on the door of the quiet office.

''Come in.'' the gruff voice of Ivan called out, Lucy walked inside with a new found confidence fueled wholly by her unhappiness with the Phantom Lord doctors.

''Master.'' she said sitting down heavily. ''I would like to request the removal of the Phantom Lord ward.

Ivan didn't answer her request or rather anything she said. ''This is not the first time they have done something Immoral, but this is the first time they've abducted a sleeping child out of her bed, Master they conducted a forced surgery!'' Ivan cleared his throat, standing up and going to peer down at the little city lights below, colors blue, pink, and yellow.

''Lucy, I am the director of this hospital.'' ''But Sir can't you jus-'' she tried to plead. ''No! if you can't stay with Phantom Lord any longer get out yourself!'' he suddenly turned around yelling at her, ''You're telling me to get rid of an entire ward, this hospital doesn't need the likes of one meager doctor!

Lucy's eyes widened for a split second before she ripped her name tag from her pocket, fury burning like unattended oil in her heart and reflecting through her smoldering gaze. without another word uttered Lucy slammed her name tag down hard on the oak desk and marched out of the office, she quit.

But her case would be going to court even if she was fired Phantom Lord could not be trusted with the many lives entering Magnolia general.

Lucy ripped her white coat and dark green scrubs from her body, tossing the scrubs into a bin for the sterilizing team.

folding her coat and taking her little belongings, she slammed her locker for maybe the last time.

Lucy stepped out into the fog and looked high for her guardian stars, they were not present.

Again she looked for a silver orb in the blue sky, but on this night the fog was coming closer to the ground and blinding her.

It was extremely late and cold outside she could feel the cold air's fingers caressing and pinching her pale face and ears turning them a ruby color.

Lucy took heavy steps away from the hospital building, the cold night did nothing but fuel her sadness.

she could feel it in her stomach and head a hard clamping sensation, she broke into a run towards her car but the tangy feeling in her mouth was already taunting, her mind started to insult her with every word she could muster out of her wide vocabulary.

she tried to turn the lock but instead dropped her keys, bending down turned into a lot of effort as the saddened cold air tried to calm her by embracing her tightly,

Only making her feel even more worthless though she knew that wasn't true, hardships and struggles that had nothing to do with now started to turn her mouth sour as she opened the door and threw herself in for a warm comfort.

But since her car had chilled for so long it was only a bitter cold awaiting her, she shivered in her shoes and felt the loneliness of Autumn something she had never felt before..because she was always in summer's embrace.

Lucy's ears perked up to the sound of two fellow doctors calling as they walked into the hospital. ''Lucy be careful going home.'' smiles in there voices.

normally she would reply but she didn't want to end up crying, hot tears were already threatening to fall from the young prodigy's eyes.

Lucy closed her car door and took off down the forest path that led to Fairy Hills, the path had never looked scary before, rather it was always a mysterious delight to go home at night.

Lucy could barely see in the fog so she drove slowly down the path using her memory as a guide for the path she often drove or walked down.

Finally! she was home, her hunger no longer bit at her stomach walls as she had forgotten about it in her hurry to leave Magnolia general trying not to be caught by self pity and her friends.

she stepped out of the parked car and was instantly greeted by cold rain, it sent a sudden chill down her unsuspecting spine and a gasp flew from her lips.

Lucy's mind screamed. ''I can't take this!'' she stomped her foot in response and hot tears ran down her face warming it.

She knew what she did wasn't wrong, but she had always been a sensitive girl especially when she was yelled at,

she never tried to cry in front of anyone but she was always caught by Natsu. It had rained many times before Lucy's departure from the hospital.

Yet the rain came down heavily and it was so cold Lucy thought it might turn into hail,

she stepped under the trusty Totoro in the rain umbrella by the porch it was already covered in wild flowers she deliberately planted their some time ago.

her blonde hair was stuck to her shoulders and her clothes felt skin tight and heavy from the rain, but since the rain was so loud she wailed as much as she wanted without being heard since the sky had more sorrows then she could ever imagine.

Lucy let herself inside her apartment leaving her soaked shoes behind,

gazing at Natsu's vacant one across the hall remembering every time he came over to comfort her, and the one time she actually comforted his tears she still didn't know why he cried but it was years ago.

The house was dark except for a single light in the kitchen with a foiled bowl containing what would have been her dinner just in case she finished up work early and came home.

Lucy sniffled and ate the now cold food with a grateful heart, it was comforting though the hunger had sparked once again at the sight of it.

she carefully undressed in the bathroom and pulled on a comfy outfit consisting of a black T-shirt and black baggy pants, before waltzing of to the kitchen drying her hair with a washcloth on the way.

she was going to make breakfast super early because she didn't feel tired, Natsu yawned and made his way towards the light and sounds thinking ''hm maybe its a dumb robber.'' he was surprised to see Lucy bending over a bowl adorned with her cooking gloves stirring something.

''Hey Luce.'' he said in his tired and husky voice. ''Hi.'' she replied calmly even though he just scared her out of her mind. ''What are you doing?''

''I'm making an early breakfast.'' she said holding her head strangely in its place normally she would have looked up and smiled gently, but this time she had wet eyelashes and Rudolph's nose to hide.

noticing the difference in her behavior Natsu rounded the counter top and laced his arms around her. ''Luce whats wrong?''

Lucy choked up and pushed her cooking bowl so she would add tears to the food, the reason for her tears came out like water whenever Natsu asked her something quietly she would spill with no self control.

Natsu tightened his embrace unfamiliar to Lucy who always received hugs that she could see, she couldn't see his face but she knew he was angry with Ivan and he probably would go and find him wherever he was right now though it was super late.

Lucy grabbed Natsu's hands and gave a reassuring squeeze, spinning around she looked into his eyes. ''I am fine Natsu, you know me I'm just overly sensitive.''

''That isn't true Luc-'' ''shh let me out away the food and lets go to sleep.'' she quirked her eyebrows at him.

Natsu smiled sadly and gave Lucy's cheeks a squeeze. ''Your nose is still red.'' he said walking back to their room.

Lucy packed the food up thinking about how easily Natsu's embrace warmed her heart and body, a quick scarlet blush managed its way up to her face.

Lucy dove onto previously only her bed and rolled over to face Natsu who felt shy under her gaze, she grinned from ear to ear and batted her wet eyelashes.

Natsu laughed softly and offered his arm which she gladly accepted..she had a blanket but he was far more warm.

''Luce do you want to go somewhere with me tomorrow?'' he asked yawning again. ''I wouldn't miss out on your company.'' she said wholeheartedly making a smile creep to his lips.

''Aaw Lucy I love you so much.'' he said dozing off. Lucy felt he didn't mean it in the way she wished but she her heart pounded in her chest.

she replied in her mind for fear he would hear, if she said it out loud before scooting closer to his warm aura and closing her heavy, aching eyelids.

Jude walked on past Lucy's door, he was on his way to get a cup of water and couldn't help but hear the conversation of the two life long friends, he kind of hoped would be lifelong lovers.

That's it for this chapter Lovely person, I had to copy and past the apostrophe and question mark so it took extra long since my Father's laptop is french and apostrophes and question marks come out like this (É)

Thank you for tuning in for another chapter of 'My special Star' I hope you enjoy this chapter and I'm sorry I was away for so long.

BUT I don't know if this will be a permanent laptop for me it is old and slow, and my siblings are possessive and destructive but don't blame them I have ten siblings all fully related to me..we don't get many things to call our own since we have been 'sharing' things all our lives.

I apologize in advance for the many flaws in my stories, the repetitive language, grammar and spelling mistakes.

Long winded speeches and for being away for so long.

Thank you dear reader I hope to be back for another chapter.

-Peace