A/N: You'll notice that I used some lines from the show again and of course I needed to make a few changes for it to fit the story.

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McDreamy

"They call him McDreamy. He has a nickname." Addison was trying her best to hide all of the confusion and anger in her tone to spare whoever was on the other line. "He lives in a trailer in the middle of the woods. He eats trout. He wears flannel. FLANNEL! He is basically a flannel-wearing, wood-chopping fisherman." All her efforts to keep herself composed was clearly forgotten. Addison was annoyed. No wait. She is passed annoyed. She is frustrated. "Who the hell does that? What kind of person asks you to stay then ignores you. Nae?" The red head was screaming at this point.

Naomi rolled her eyes. "Addie we both know things don't happen overnight. You have to give him time to grasp it all. Derek has a job. He has patients and responsibilities that he can't just drop. He has a life there." There was hesitation in Naomi's tone. "He has a life in Seattle without you Addison." Naomi finally said the one thing Addison needed to hear."You need to give him time to think about everything. You blindsided him by flying there. What do expect Addison? He's Derek. He's stubborn."

Addison groaned. "He had two months to grasp it all!" She had given up on calm hours ago. Hence, the phone call to Naomi. Addison started pacing through her hotel room. "I gave him divorce papers; he ignored them. I tell him that I still love him; he sleeps with me. Then, he asked me to stay. What am I supposed to think Nae?" The neonatal surgeon finally stopped pacing when she spotted her wedding ring on the nightstand. "I can't wait for him forever. As much as I want to, I don't beg. If he wants me to go, then I would. But if there's even the slightest chance that he still wants me, then I'll do everything to make my marriage work." She sat down on the foot of the bed. "He is my family." Addison sighed. "I've never felt like I belonged in my own family, and I still don't. I was awkward and my mother never liked me. Now that I'm thinking about it, I don't even fit in with Derek's family. Carolyn despises me. I was never one of them. I never belonged there, or anywhere really...Till Derek." Another long sigh. "He made me feel loved and cared for. He was perfect. He was..." She paused to find the right term.

"McDreamy?" Naomi filled in.

"yeah. He was McDreamy." Oddly enough it fit. Addison's heart broke. "Now, he's someone else's McDreamy." A tear rolled down her cheek. "I don't want to hurt him anymore."

Naomi can hear a muffled cry. "Oh Addie..." Then, line was silent. Both women sat in silence. All Naomi heard was Addison's muffled cry. Naomi had known Addison and Derek long enough. She had watched them fall madly in love. Which made this even harder to watch. Naomi hoped that this wouldn't be the end of Addison and Derek. They were the perfect complement to one another. Derek was the only person that encouraged her to be herself. Without Derek, Addison would be the cold hearted bitch everyone expects her to be; all because she would still seek for her parents approval.

"Distract me Nae." Addison pleaded. "I can't think about my life anymore."

Days went by and Derek still hadn't made any effort to talk to Addison.

He was busy. He had patients to see. At least that was what he kept telling himself. Truth be told, he was stalling. Derek didn't know why he had asked Addison to stay when he knew that he was in love with Meredith, or was in love with her. He wasn't sure anymore. Seeing Addison was painful, hard and confusing, but it had to happen at some point. Suddenly, he saw her walking towards the elevator.

He didn't plan on talking to her. He wasn't sure what he would even say to her, but he needed to hear her voice again. Derek missed her. "Skipping rounds?" Derek asked.

"Avoiding mother." Meredith tried to keep her responses short and straightforward. She was still upset with him. He had made her fall in love with him. Only to find out that he was married all along. Meredith felt cheap and played with. She had no interest in talking to him, so she kept walking.

"Meredith!" He held her hand. She jerked it away.

"You've got a wife." She stated.

"Yes." He smirked.

"Your life is complicated."

"Yes." His smile was getting more mischievous.

"I don't need complicated. I have complicated all on my own."

"Yes." Now, he was just doing it to annoy her.

"Stop saying yes." A smile was now forming on her lips.

"Stop trying to make any sudden movements." He teased.

Meredith was now annoyed. He wasn't taking any of this seriously. "You think this is funny?"

"Addison is leaving." He lied. "She doesn't have anymore patients in this hospital. There is no reason for her to be here."

Except for the fact that I asked her to stay. He thought to himself, but he quickly dismissed that. He has built himself a life here. He has a job, friends, a trailer, and he has Meredith.

"No reason?"

"None whatsoever." This time it was true. He had made his decision. It's Meredith. It was always going to be. Derek placed his hand on the interns cheek.

"Well..." A familiar voice said. Derek cringed. "Isn't this cozy?" Addison asked as she pressed the elevator button. "Can I join in? Or are you not into threesomes?"

Derek rolled his eyes. Typical. Addison was always a drama queen. Of course she would pick the most inconvenient time to pop up.

"I have to go." Meredith announced as she scurried off. Now, Derek wishes he could have just followed her.

"You really are Satan. You realize that right?" You can hear the bitterness in his tone. "If Satan were to take physical form, he'd be you. Everywhere. All the time."

He hates you. Addison told herself. She took a deep breath, but she knew that already. The fluke in the on-call room was too good to be true. "I'm so not Satan." She tried to keep at least a little of her dignity by defending herself.

"How come you haven't gone on your broomstick and gone back to New York where you belong?" Derek looked at her with disgust. He should've never kissed her. He went closer to her to press the elevator button she had pressed earlier. He just wanted her gone.

"Because you asked me to stay." Addison whispered softly when Derek was close enough to hear it. She knew he hated her. She had come to terms with it, but a part of her still wished he would change his mind.

Derek softened a bit. He remembered how it felt to hold her that night. The hadn't held each other like that in a really long time. He would never hurt her. At least not intentionally.

"Stop being petty." She asked him nicely.

"Stop being an adulterous bitch." He bit back.

Correction. New York Derek would never hurt her, but this man in front of her was Seattle Derek. He is a flannel-wearing, wood-chopping fisherman, who apparently had no control over his words. Derek immediately regretted his words. He wanted to apologize. He wanted to tell her that he was just having a bad morning. He opened his mouth, but no words came out. Suddenly, the elevator dinged. Announcing that it had stopped on the surgical floor.

"You know you are going to forgive me. Eventually." It was more like a plea than a statement. Addison walked closer to him. "Right?" She wanted to grab him and shake him, but opted to cross her arms instead. She wasn't sure she could touch him again. "I mean you can't just..." She wanted to say 'end this' but knew that she would break down if she did. "I mean there was a time where you thought of me as your best friend."

"There was a time where I thought you were the love of my life. Things change." Derek's heart broke as he said the last two words. Things can't change that quick.

Little did he know, Addison too was thinking the exact same thing. Things can't change that quick, but maybe it wasn't quick. Maybe, he hadn't seen her as the love of his life way before Mark and Meredith happened.

"I give up." She said softly as she turned her attention back to the elevator. But her whisper was not softly enough. Derek had heard it too. She knew that she had run out of time. There was no more stalling. He had made his choice. She opened her briefcase and pulled out the blue folder.

"Divorce papers?" Derek read.

"Your lawyers said that they're okay. I haven't signed them yet. The ball's in your court. If you sign, Ill sign and you'll never hear from me again." Addison's face dropped. She was ending her family. She may have had days to prepare this speech, but actually saying them to the love of her life was heartbreaking. Never had she imagined that this is where they would be ending up.

"Addie" Derek whispered. He just wanted to grab her and hold her. The mean and selfish Seattle guy was back into the tiny box in his brain. Now, New York Derek was in control. Addison shook her head at him. It was her way of asking him to stay away. The elevators door opened, and she immediately got in. She needed to get away from him.

"I'm going to Los Angeles for a couple of days." She stammered. Derek wanted to say something, but she quickly cut him off. "I'm going to see Naomi." She explained as she adjusted the strap of her bag. Honestly, she was just looking for an excuse to not look at him. "I'll fly back here after my visit, before going to New York,..." she cleared her throat. "to pick up the papers and to say goodbye." Her voice was now incredible soft. She was tired to fighting. "I'll stick by my words Derek. You sign and I'll be gone." She assured him. The elevator doors were about to close, when she all of a sudden, placed her arms in between the metal doors. The hesitation in her voice from earlier was now all gone. She was looking at him straight in the eye. "Derek have you ever thought that even if I am Satan and an adulterous bitch that I still may be the love of your life?" She offered a gentle smile as she walked back into the empty elevator.

Derek looked at her with sadness in his eyes. Minutes ago, he was certain that he wanted her gone. Now, he wasn't as sure. She was once everything to him. How can he sign a piece of paper that would end all of that? How could he disregard all of the memories they had shared? They made plans together. Even if they had achieved most of the plans they had made, they still had a few that he really wanted to cross off, and she is the only person he wants to do those things with. Then all of the regret hit Derek like a ton of bricks. He isn't a bad guy. He doesn't lie to women to get them into bed; that was Mark. He never forced Addie to have kids when she wasn't ready; that was Sam. And certainly, Derek didn't treat Addison like a piece of ass that he wanted to sleep with; that was Archer. Derek was the good guy. He had always been the good guy. He knew what he had to do. He was McDreamy after all.

I don't really know where I'm going with this story, but I hope you liked it! Any suggestions on how I could go on from here?