The story of Twilight and it's characters belongs to the wonderful Stephenie Meyer.
Chapter 17: Field Trip
Today my class and I were on a field trip to...well i'm not sure what it's called but I know that it's a big greenhouse. Perfect field trip right? As if we didn't have enough of nature in Forks. On the bus ride over I wondered how things would play out for me. Will I stay or will I go? I'm in no real danger. After the accident Edward pretty much has stayed away from me. Which sorta stings emotionally. I guess after I thanked him, he and his family counted it as to close of a call. And maybe it was enough for him to try and stay out of the heat. I guess that's supposed to be a relief to me, but I can't help but feel down.
After we got off the bus we went into the green house where gave us a tour. Like other students I didn't stay most of the class and wondered off into the aisles to observe the plants by myself. They were kind of interesting. There was red plant that looked like it was made of fuzzy layers. I liked looking around for a change though. Only once in a while do I actually take time and observe how beautiful my surroundings are. As I walked around some more I started to think about my reasons for staying again. I could never get anywhere with them though, my thoughts were so confusing. And I kept getting interrupted by the sound of my class mates fooling around. Although Mr. Banner was talking through the whole tour most of us were ignoring him. I was turning on another isle when jumped up in surprise because someone caught my arm. I looked quickly to my right to see who it was.
"Hey Jessica!" The other Jessica said smiling nervously at me. What is she up to? I hope she doesn't ask me anything about Mike. She glanced at the floor then back at me. "So...I was thinking about asking Mike to the dance. But I wont if you're going to!" She said worriedly. Really Jess? Really? I thought sarcastically. For a gossip hound she doesn't have a clue for my preference in man. At least she's enough of a good person to not want to hurt other people s feelings. And she was just going to let me have her shot with Mike just like that. To bad I don't like Mike.
"No, you go a head." I said gently shaking my head.
"Are you sure?" She asked politely.
"Yes, i'm sure. I'm not going to the dance and not to mention that you two would be good together." I said. I saw relief wash over her features and she gave me a real smile.
"Yeah! I know right!" She said cheerfully. Then something behind me caught her eye. I looked at here in confusion. What is she looking at? I asked myself as I turned around and looked and back of me. My eyes opened wider and I gave a small intake of air when saw who it was. There standing behind me looking oh so so inviting was Edward.
"So i'll see you later Jessica." I heard the other Jessica mumble, then I heard her walk away. Nervous I turned around and started walking slowly down the aisle. I felt Edwards presence behind me.
"What are you doing the weekend of the dance?" He asked me in his usual smooth voice. Everything that my heart worked so hard to pump blood into felt numb enough for me to stop moving. I leaned my head back to see him over my shoulder. Looking at his handsome face I couldn't help but let my guard down more and more. Is this that predatory trip that was mentioned in the book? Either way, these past few months unfolded just as I predicted. My determination to ignore him and to be an awful person to him would wither away. I'm just not the type of person to hold on to negativity. I turned around after realizing that I would quickly give myself away and start making eyes at him. I slowly breathed in a breath and built up some emotional strength. I can talk to him I just have to make him be careful towards me. I don't even have to be rude, I told myself.
"And hello to you to." I said not answering his question as I looked at the plants.
"You avoided my question." He said almost in a way that sounded like he was entertained. I looked up at him and sure enough there was a smile on his face. Was he making fun of me? I frowned.
"I don't believe that I owe you an answer." I said. He chuckled.
"Must I save your life again for you to talk to me honestly?" He asked with a smirk. He actually brought that up!
"Why are you talking to Edward?" I asked generally curious.
"What are you doing the weekend of the dance?" He asked again and I sighed. Then I decided to tell him part of the truth. If I decide to go back home to the normal world i'm gone forever, if I decide to stay i'm going somewhere private to do some major thinking about the events a head. At least I can get to let out a little of what's been going on in my head.
"I'm going out somewhere... I haven't decided where. But I need to go." I said
"So you aren't planning anything specific to do? You just need to get away?" He asked.
"I have things that I really need to focus on and think about." I said looking at him. His hazel eyes flickered to mine. Oh man he's really clouding my decision.
"Like what?" He asked in a monotone voice. I smiled because I found it funny that I was stuck. I don't know what else I can say that wouldn't gave him a clue. Time to say more direct sentences again. I turned to him smiling.
"I'm not going to tell you." I said. His face came closer to mine.
"Why?" He asked.
"There are somethings you don't have to know Edward." I said.
"Really?" He asked as if he was restless.
"Yes." I said. As we walked out of the building towards the buses Eric and Mike were picking out worms from some garbage can and showed one to me one a stick.
"Look Jessica!Worms!" Eric said laughing. I smiled because of how they were so easily entertained by something so simple. Forget the opera, give them worms. When we neared the buses Edward turned to me.
"Stop asking me questions I won't answer." I said before he could even open his mouth. He smirked. Then suddenly he frowned. What's with that?
"Are you riding with us?" I heard a smooth high pitch voice say behind me. I turned to the side to see...Alice! My mouth was slightly agape because I was taken off guard. I haven't really thought about I would react to the other Cullens. I saw that not only Alice was here but Jasper as well. This was the first time that I was standing so close to her and Jasper.
"No,we're full." Edward said before I could say something. Then he knocked on the buses door to open. After he went inside Alice smiled at me and followed with Jasper behind her. I turned away and headed over to my own bus.
Back at School
When I got off of the bus I looked to see if my dad was here to pick me up yet. Unfortunately he wasn't. I looked around the parking seeing other kids laughing and talking together or going home. I sighed and looked at the ground waiting. Then a pair of shoes and legs came into view. I looked up to see that it was Mike.
"Hi Jessica!" He said smiling widely.
"Oh, hi Mike." I said with a slight smile. When schools out all I want to do is to go home and relax or go shopping. But someone interrupting what supposed to be my me time is very annoying, especially when they aren't someone who isn't even close to me. Mike looked kind of nervous.
"So Jessica asked me to go with her to the dance..." He said. Oh...This...Right. I hope that I don't say anything mean, because after school I really don't have very good patience. I just want time to myself.
"Yeah..? That's good you two look good together." I said. Mike's face then turned a little red and my smile widened a little.
"Actually, I was hoping that you would ask me." He said. Even though he chuckled slightly while he was saying this dude looked like was dying a little. I would say poor guy i'm not really in a heart felt mood right now. I blew out a small breath.
"Really?" I asked. This is kind of awkward, I thought. He smiled.
"Yeah." He said nodding. Now I do feel kind of bad. I noticed a figure standing beyond his shoulder looking at us. It was Edward. He was shamelessly standing near the bus staring at us. Eh! Walk away model! So I can watch your back side! My thoughts kind of made me want to smile. But i'm sure that it would have been misinterpreted in this moment with Mike so I held it in.
"I'm sorry Mike i'm going to be busy that weekend." I said apologetically. Mike frowned.
"Are you sure that you can't reschedule?" He asked with hope.
"I can't... It's like a dead line kind of thing." I said thinking that that was the best way to explain it."
"Deadline?" He asked skeptically.
"Yeah, that would be the best way to describe it." I said thoughtfully.
"Does it involve that guy that came to see you at the Beach?" He asked tentatively. Did he really have to asked that? I glanced over at Edward.
"Yes, but this is after meeting him." I said.
"After meeting him? Then what are you doing this weekend?" He asked with his eyebrows in a slight scowl.
"I'll be going out,ya know to think about things." He huffed out a breath." You have no idea how complicated things are for me." I said. Ow man...Am I gonna cry? I can't do this. I didn't mean to let any of my feelings slip like that.I turned away a little and blinked away tears that were forming. What's wrong with me. When I looked back I saw Edward looking very intense at Mike and Mike just looked guilty.
"Jessica...I'm sorry if I made you sad." He began apologizing. I looked back at him feeling guilty for making him feel guilty.
"No Mike you didn't make me sad. I was already feeling this way. This is why I need to take that weekend off,i'm so stressed. I need to thank things through. It's not your fault okay." I said. He looked at me thoughtful before responding.
"Was it that guy at the beach that made you feel like this?" He asked. Oh, he's clever. I shook my head.
"Yes and no.I...He..." I was at a lost for words and Mike scrunched up his eyebrows." Let me just get the obvious questions out of the way. No, we have no romantic connection of any kind. He is a friend and is helping me in his own way. And no, I don't meet with him a lot." I said looking serious.
"Oh,okay."Mike said looking a little confused. For some reason that was more for Edward then it was him.
"I'm sorry Mike." I said. He nodded and walked away. I saw that Edward was no longer by the bus and wanted to see where he had went. (Beep!)(Beep!) A horn sounded. I looked at the car that made the nose and saw that it was my dad waiting for me. I walked over to the car and got in. My dad turned to me.
"I'm sorry i'm late. I had business to take care of." He said. Of course you do. You always do. I thought glumly."How was your day?" He asked.
"It was a day." I answered without turning to him. I put in my headphones after that. When I got home I saw that my mom and my sister were gone. Oh, yeah. Today they had a doctors appointment for my sister. Hopefully that will go well. My sister said that she just felt more sore then usual. I went to my room turned the television on and then took off my clothes. I walked into the quiet hallway and walked to the bathroom so I could wash my hands. I walked back into the hallway after I was finished. The house wasn't creepy at all, it was pretty homey and comfortable. But the silence was a little annoying. I went straight back to my room and laid down into my bed. The cool sheets molded against my skin comfortably. I stared at up at the ceiling and started thing of my interaction with Mike, and how Edward stared at us. When i thought of Edward I blushed and smiled. Then I became worried. I know what's gonna happen if I stay,but in the end will I not be happy. Can I prevent certain things from happening. Or will I leave and keep hiding from life. I squeezed my eyes shut. I thought of Edward again. I thought about how I usually sneak peeks at him when no ones looking. Next time i'll look as long as I can. As I closed my eyes my mind floated back to that dream that I had about Edward. He kissed me so heart thumped as I thought of this. Hopefully more dreams like that will come. I sighed and turned over on my side. Not long after I fell asleep.
Wow! That was a long chapter! I hope you all liked it. I worked really hard on it. Please review my dearest readers! If you do Alice will take you on a shopping spree!