The story Twilight it was created by wonderful Stephanie Meyer.
Chapter 33: My Fear of Elevators
"Hello sweety! Are you on your way yet?" My mom asked me as she spoke into the phone.
"Ye-yeah." I breathed. "I just had to pick up something, but now we're headed straight to the hospital."
"Okay, well I was just checking to see if you were still coming."
"Yes we are." I said.
"Well the i'll see you when you get here baby." She said and a small smile formed on my lips.
"See you mom." I said and then she hung up. I put my phone back into my purse before staring at the road ahead.
"I know your mom and Jasmine will be happy to see you." My dad said from the driver's seat.
"Yeah, she sounded like it." I said.
As the quiet settled into the car I stared out the window still mildly bothered. What was with that lady at the gift shop? What was her problem?
We arrived at the hospital twenty minutes later and parked. I grabbed my purse and Jasmine 's gift and got out of the car but I only took a couple of steps forward. I had to wait for my dad to come from around the car so that we could walk together to the entrance. When he did we went to the entrance and got our visitor passes. The man and the women who worked at the front desk and help us to get our passes looked very bored and ready to go home.
The woman looked up at us but the man's eyes stayed on his computer. I suspect that he was playing a computer game. My dad for some started a conversation with the women about everyday life and he somehow pulled the man into as well. They were laughing like they were old buddies when they mostly likely didn't know each other at all. Ahh, my dad, always talking to strangers. I wanted to wait for him but when he leaned against the counter I lost hope.'This was going to take a while'.
"Alright dad i'm going to go ahead." I said to him and he nodded at me before turning to the man and women again with a smile.
"I got to go my daughter is getting impatient." He said to them with a smile. I just gave him a look that said 'really dad, really?' And then my dad started walking towards me slowly because he was saying his goodbyes to his new 'friends'. But then something ironic happened while he was saying his goodbyes, he walked right back over to the counter and started another conversation!
My eyes widened in amazement and in annoyance before I just shook my head and headed over to the elevators. When I came to stand in front of three large metal doors I started to become really nervous. I hate elevators.
I wonder if I can just take the steps. I looked at the door for the stairway and that emergency signs were on it and around it. I would take it but I don't know some kind of alarm will go off as soon as I open the door. That would be so embarrassing. I turned back towards the elevators and walked up to the up and down buttons and pushed up. Here goes nothing...
Almost immediately the middle door opens with a small hushed noise and a ding. My heart started to race and I felt cold and anxious. I made myself walk into the elevator and swallowed hard before I pressed the button with a four on it. The metal doors closed smoothly then I felt that elevator start to move up.
I took a deep breath when I felt my insides start to twist and then I started to feel light headed. I quickly looked at the red glowing level number saw that it was only on level 2. I twisted my head to the side and I was breathing hard so I shut my eyes. Which didn't help at all because I felt the motion of the elevator even more.
"Ehh..." I sad lowly and then I glanced at the floor level again. 'Level 3' it read. Oh my goodness! This is the longest elevator ride ever! I was getting to a point where I couldn't take it anymore and I started breathe very deeply through my nose and I gripped the railings as well. If the teddy bear that I was carrying had bones they would have broken by now in his hand.
Think about something else. Think about Edward... what floated into my mind was his handsome face, mesmerizing voice, his hazel eyes that I would love to stare deeply- I stopped right there and opened my eyes because that made it worse! Making my heart pound faster while facing my fear since childhood, not a good idea.
As soon as I heard the ding for the elevator to stop I stared a hole at the metal doors waiting for them to open. Come on, come on, come on, come on open! Then finally the doors separated, slowly I might add because when I exited I bumped my arm hard in result of the small opening. Maybe it also had something to do with me taking one big step into the hallway to fast. Either way I got injured temporarily, but I was out of there!
I rubbed my arm repeatedly before I started to walk through white hallway extremely grateful to be out of the elevator and free once again. Now I needed to find the room that my sister was assigned to. My black open toed short heels clapped softly against the hospital floor as I walked towards the information desk where three nurses were.
When I got up to the counter the male nurse in blue scrubs looked up at me.
"Hello, can I help you?" He said with a smile.
"Hello, i'm here to-" I started.
"To see your sister Jasmine right?" She's right down this hallway in room 127." He said pointing at the hallway to his right and I gave him a hesitant nod.
"Yes, thank you." I said before I turned around and walked towards J asmine's room. I've gotten quite use to Forks but not the everyone knows everyone and everybody's else's business thing. It's kind of a likable quality and is it the same time very annoying.
I walked down the hall reading the numbers, '115...117...119...121...' , then out ahead from a patient's room on the other side of the hall with the even numbers a familiar blond head came out. Carlisle...
"Dr. Cullen?" I said as he shut the door behind him after turning towards me with a small pleasant smile.
"Hello Jessica, I was just going to your sister's room." He said and I gave him a smil and nodded before I caught up to him and we started to walk there together.
I always have felt respectful of Carlisle and the nice atmosphere that he had about him. I couldn't see him being anything else but a doctor. And I don't need to mention how amazing he always looks right? Two passing female nurses looking back at him proved that point. If I was his age...I'm going to stop that right there. Edwards the only one for me.
That's all i'm going to think about Edward as well or else i'll become to anxious to see him. And I don't need to show the signs of a girl in love yet, not in front of his father and definitely not before I see my family. They will notice.
"So, how is she doing?" I asked him.
"She's really getting better, at this rate we'll be able to discharge her soon." He said.
"That's great! I know that she and my mom can't wait to get back home, and I really have missed them." I said.
"They said the same thing to. And although I would be happy to have your sister in perfect health when she leaves the hospital staff on this floor and I will miss her a lot. Your mom and her are really enjoyable people, and I like when they bicker. They make the work day more enjoyable." He said.
"Thanks." I said with a laug. When we reached room 127 he opened the door for m, I hope that I didn't blush before going in. I love being treated like a lady...I wish it was Edward that was doing it though. As soon as I felt my heart thump I shook away the though hesitantly. If it wasn't for Carlisle I wouldn't have this problem of containing my thoughts. It's his fault!
Those fussing thoughts were left behind once I walked further into the room and saw my sister. I was not really prepared for what she looked like now compared to how I'm use to seeing her. My sister was hooked up to a IV, her eyelids looked swollen and the left side of her face and both her legs were bruised. Jasmine noticed me immediately and she looked away from the t.v. that was positioned high up on the wall. I put the bear behind me before she noticed.
"Hey Jasmine." I said and then I walked over to the side of her elevated bed and hugged her.
"Hey, it's so good to see you." She said. Her voice sounded a little weak.
"It's good to see you too." I said and then I gave her a kiss on the cheek.
"Ew." She said and I looked at her.
"Really Jazz?" I said. Was a sick person supposed to act that way to affection?
"Yup." She said.
"So how are you feeling today Jasmine?" Dr. Cullen asked her after checking out a clipboard from the end of her bed.
"I feel good enough to go home." She said and smiled at her.
"Well we still have to take you through some tests tomorrow before that is certain. But when you pass them we will still need to keep you overnight for observation, then you're free to go home." He said coming over to her side and I stepped out of the way for him.
"Thank you." He told me. "Now i'm going to adjust a few things for you. Could you sit up please?" He asked.
"Ok."Jasmine said before she did what he asked.
"Thank you." Then he started going to work.
"Where's mom?" I asked Jasmine and she looked away from Dr. Cullen to me.
"She went to the vending machine to get us some snacks." She said.
"Not to many I hope." Dr. Cullen said.
"Noooo." Jasmine said but her widened eyes told Dr. Cullen and I that that was not true at all. Dr. Cullen lifted his blond eyebrow in humour at her before continuing in his adjustments. I smiled at Jazz but she was busy looking at something behind me.
"What's that?" She asked me then another smile tugged at the corners of my mouth.
"What's what?" I asked innocently.
"That thing behind your back." She said suspiciously.
"You mean this!" I said before whipping out the bear in front of me.
"Could you lift up your arm for me please?" Dr. Cullen said and she did as she kept her gaze on the bear.
"Aw! It's so cute, and it in my favorite colors!" She said smiling then I handed it to her.
"Look what my sister got me Dr. Cullen." And he looked at it and smiled.
"That's nice." He said nodding lightly.
"Thank you Jessica!" She said.
"You're welcome." I said and then my mom walked in with a some snack bags, bottled drinks and rapped up muffins.
"Hey mom!" I said wrapping my arms around her tightly.
"Hey pumpkin!" She said.
"Mom look what Jessica got me." Jasmine said showing her the bear.
"Aw that's cute." She said.
"Yeah, and it's in my favorite colors too." Jasmine said handing the bear to my mom.
"I see that, this is really nice. Where'd you get it from?" My mom asked me before handing it back to my sister.
"Uh, Lapelle's Flowers and Gifts shop." I said.
"Oh, I've been there before. They must have gotten some new things because I didn't see anything like this the last time I went there." She said. Then Dr. Cullen came out from the side of the bed and wrote a few things down on a clipboard.
"I'm finished so I'll be going now. Is there anything you need Jasmine before I go?" He asked.
"Uh, can I have some ice?"
"Yes, i'll send a nurse to get that for you right away. See you all later." He said before leaving the room.
"Where's your father?" My mom asked me as she walked over to the chair on the right side of my sister's bed and sat down.
"Talking with some people." I said with a 'you should have known' tone.
"Of course." She said closing her eyes for a while longer then needed.
"So Jessica..." My sister said nonchalantly.
"Hm?" I said narrowing my eyes at her.
"Have you been hanging around Edward lately?" Jasmine asked me. Oh really, she just had to ask me about that. I held in a sigh before answering her.
"Not really he's on a camping trip with his brother." I said like it was no big deal. Which it wasn't, I just wanted to see him...Really badly.
"Aw." She said.
"Why did you ask?"
"No reason." She said shrugging her shoulders before changing the subject, but I could tell that was a load of bull. We talked for a couple of minutes more before my dad walked in and then we all just hung out together for some hours. It was really nice, us being together as a family.
It was around eight at night when my dad and I got home. I felt happier after seeing both my mom and my sister and I them home more then ever. My thoughts swayed away from them when I felt my stomach rumble so I sat my purse down on the small rectangle table near the door and headed straight for the kitchen.
I went over to the refrigerator, swung open the door and stood there a minute and found nothing worth eating. Then I went over to the cabinet beside it and fortunately I found what I needed at first glance: a can of spaghetti. It may not be on the list for the most delicious can foods but it definitely tasted good and filling. And I may have eaten faster than I usually did, my reason: brown hair and hazel eyes.
After dinner I told my dad good night and went upstairs to my room. Once I shut my door I looked over at the window and all that l I had been holding instarted to spring forth. My heart started racing as I started to rush as fast as I could to get ready for Edward before he arrived.
"What to do, what to do?" I said pacing. Oh! Of crouse! "I'll take a showers first...No! Pick out my night clothes, then take a shower, brush my teeth, comb my hair..." I mumbled my list out as I practically ripped off clothes from my body before I headed over to my dresser.
When I was done I was wearing my white t-shirt and short gray pants. I stood next to my bed looking at the window and biting my lip as I wondered to myself should I open the window now or should I wait until i'm done drying my hair? I reached for the hair dryer and then I hesitated and looked at the window again.
"I'll just open it." I said before blowing out a breath and I walked over to it quickly and unlocked it.
"Okay it's open, just calm down Jess. There's nothing else to do but dry your hair." I had to tell myself something to calm the squeeze in my heart. I took some deep breaths before flicking on the hairdryer on low and let myself relax a little underneath the heat.
A couple if minutes later of running my hands through my hair and blow drying it my head felt dry so I shut the dryer off. I ran my fingers through my hair on the side of my head to pull hair from the side of my face. And then I turned around and my heart practically jumped out of my skin. The window was open and Edward was sitting on my bed watching me.
"Oh my goodness! How long have you been here?" I asked him in a surprised voice. He gave me an easy smile that showed his white teeth before answering me.
"Long enough to see you flip your hair five times." He said and I blushed hard and rubbed my knees together.
"Why we were you staring at me?" I asked him in a low voice, normal people wouldn't be able to hear me.
"It's hard not to." He said smoothly. My goodness the way he looks at me...My gaze lingered a while when I noticed that his eyes were not as bright as they should be. He did come in when I was blow drying my hair. I spoke first to interrupt the heavy silence.
"So how was your trip?" I asked him. Obvious question but the only thing that poped into my head. "Did you have fun?"
"I always do. But I think I might have it irked brothers last nerves." He said with a chuckle.
"How come?" I asked interested.
"I was distracted so I wasn't as much fun as I usually am." He said.
"Can I ask what ditracted you?" I asked moving on to the bed and I was very conscious of the fact that we were both on my bed. Concentration is key...
"I was thinking about you." He said. I thought it was just my intense feelings that I couldn't take but no, he brings on the intensity. 'Say something!'
"Oh..." I said pulling my hair back and he chuckled at me causing me to smile as well. Yup that's all I have, ohwait! I think there's something coming out of my mouth right now!
"Why would you be thinking about me?" I said coming to lay next to him against my headboard. Nice save Jess, nice save.
"I find you very hard to figure out." He said seriously.
"Me, hard to figure out?" I said with an almost laughing smile and Edward lifted his eyebrows at me.
"What? You don't agree." He said.
"A little but i'm mostly just not use to that." I said.
"What?"
"Someone trying to figure me out. It's always the usual assumptions about who someone thinks I am or how I should be. Ya know?" I said looking into his eyes directly.
"Yes I know exactly what you mean. Unfortunately that's something that everyone does. Trust me, I know." Of course he would. "But I don't want to assume who you are or who you should be. I want to know you." He said. My heart pounded in my chest and it was getting hard to breathe normally. So that I wouldn't start shaking I laid down onto my stomach and laid my head onto my folded arms with my face tilting up to him.
"I want to know you to." I said honestly and then Edward got this semi-hard look on his face, it was almost sorrowful. "What is it?"
"You don't seem to really trust most people easily. Why trust me?" He asked. I sat up closer to him before I spoke.
"Edward we've talked about this already. You and are friends and you're more than smart enough to know what that means to me. It means i'll let you in and that I won't be guarded." I said.
"How can you be sure that is the right choice?"
"There is a consequence for every choice made. But choosing you as my friend is something I will never regret."
"How do you now?" He asked me.
"Something like this can't be bad and if it is time will tell. Until then there isn't anything that you can say that will make me regret my decision. Do you regret it?" I asked. His eyes moved from downward to me.
"No." He said and then I smiled.
"Then stop looking forward to mistakes that most likely won't even happen and enjoy the moments we'll have. You can't really do that when you're thinking about the worst outcome. Honestly Edward how did you make it as long as you did thinking this way?" I said and he smiled.
"Just invincible I guess." He said chuckling and I laughed. He couldn't miss an opportunity for an inside joke.
"Okay, what were we talking about before?" I asked him.
"You were going to tell me everything I wanted to know about you." He said with a lopsided grin and I laughed.
"No." I said.
"No?" He asked with a raised eyebrow.
"Well not completely. I will tell you about me but that doesn't mean that i'll give it freely, you have to tell me about yourself to." I said leaning back into my pillows and he did the same.
"Alright i'll play. Lady's first." He said.
"Okay, let's see...oh I got it. What did you think of me the first time you met me? I mean officially met me." I asked.
"I realized that you were definitely a lot more complicated then I thought you were. And that frustrated as well as interested me." He said and I hummed. Good answer.
"You're very interesting yourself. Now your question." I said.
"What did you think of me when I first spoke to you?" He asked me. I remembered clearly that I had given him the cold shoulder.
"When I first saw you I knew that you were dangerous." I said and then I looked him in his eyes but I could see all of him become stiff. "I didn't want to stay here for long and I knew if you ever spoke to me and we became friends i'I'll never want to leave. But you did speak to me and now you are my friend. You are completely lethal when it comes to my plans." Which was true.
"Is it just me that you feel this way about?" He asked me calmly, I could tell that wawasn't effort on his part.
"Yes, from the moment I saw you I just knew that I would never be the same again. But, I was afraid of changing, everything had all ready changed so much with moving here. Before you spoke to me I promised myself to be cold to you, it was the only way I knew how to react, so I could stay me. And so I hoped that you would leave me alone and I knew what would happen if you didn't." I said.
"Which was?" He asked me as he made a almost calculating expression.
"What we're doing now. We both are changing right now, we're taking a chance on someone." I said.
"Really, so do you know what will happen in the future?" He asked with a smile.
"No just certain things are...predictable. It doesn't take away from what happens though it makes it more exciting." I said.
"I'll keep this in mind. And I noticed that when you were giving me the 'cold shoulder' you seemed as if you enjoyed it." He said with a teasing smile.
"No I didn't but I liked your reactions. Something tells me that you're not used to the cold uncaring shoulder. You seem like you're to getting your way." I said teasingly and he laughed.
"No i'm not use to the cold shoulder."He said.
"Okay that was three questions you owe me three next time." I said.
"Next time?"
"Yes you're coming over again aren't you?" I asked.
"As many times as you want me to." He said and I bit my lower lip. I will always want him to.
Four hours we sat there talking about the little things and I couldn't have been happier. My heart did slow down at one point but the feeling of it's cause to pound remained. And like all good things this moment ended to soon when my eyelids became heavy and of course Edward noticed.
"I should go you need your rest more then I do, we don't want you fainting in class again." He said and by th the feel of my eyes squinted at him I knew that he was right.
"Yeah." I admitted.
"If your dad doesn't mind, I can pick you up in the morning at 7." He said. I smiled at him.
"No he won't." I said truthfully and shook my head gently. Edward smiled down at me before getting up until only one knee was pressed into my bed and the other one was on the floor.
"I'll see you later Jessica." He said to leave but I think I have developed a problem with letting him go so easily.
"Wait."I said and he leaned his head to the side.
"Yes?" I went over to stand on my kness in front of him and then I grabbed Edward on his upper arms to steady myself. Our faces were very close and his cool breath brushed mine as I leaned in and kissed him on the cheek. When I was done I lingered close to him longer than I did last time. But when I went to back away he grabbed me gently by my upper arms and kissed my cheek as well and he lingered close to me for a moment just like I did.
My heart started pounding very face when I looked up at him and I blushed and I just couldn't help but smile at him. He gave me a soft smile as well and put his hand on the curve of my neck as and thumb touched my cheek.
"I'll see you at 7." He said softly.
"Yeah at 7." I said with a smile and then I watched him as he turned around and jumped out of the window, onto the tree outside and he climbed down from there. I smiled wider because I knew he only had climbed down to put on a show for me. After he left my view I held the cheek that he kissed.
I was still facing the window when fell backwards on my butt and I just sat there and thought about him. Everthing around me felt so different but looked the same and I just couldn't help but feel happy about this. And I may have been tired but I just kept thinking about Edward, it took me two hours to finially calm down and go to sleep.
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