I Own Nothing
AN: The Last chapter is here it's been fun writing this story and hope you all have enjoyed it.
CN: Justin let's Ian know exactly how he feels about what he did to him. They also have time with Gus.
Title: A Healing Hand
Justin had gone back to the booth finishing his breakfast not saying anything about what happened. Brian had a smile on his face since he could see Michael's split lip. He hid it however behind Gus' head, but he knew Justin had given Michael a piece of his mind and fist. It served him right for thinking he could mess with Justin. He had to have said something for Justin to punch him.
"We have an announcement to make. We were going to wait until you noticed them, but whatever. Brian asked me to marry him; I said yes." Justin blurted out which got all their friends mouths to fall open. He could hear Debbie from the other side of the diner after a second. It was definitely not what they thought he'd say.
"Oh my god I didn't even notice the ring until now, baby." Emmett said getting to Justin first with another hug. A bouncy hug which Justin was seriously thinking about calling him Tigger soon. "I'm so planning it I don't care what you say, we're having a party for this." He added. "No, a blow out that is what we are having because I think the dead has risen. Brian Kinney wants to get married. He may be the one with a fever." Emmett teased with a smile on his face so happy for them.
Debbie was the next that grabbed Justin into a hug, which he was sure she was trying to break his ribs. "Oh Sunshine, you two are going to be perfect together. I'm so happy for the two of you, my boys are getting married." She smiled before hugging him again. "I love you two so much. The best boys a mother could want. I bet Jennifer is thrilled about this." She was so over joyed she started crying. Brian tried to pry Justin free of her since she was holding on a little too tightly even if she meant well.
Lindsay and Melanie got up giving Justin a hug as well. They were both so happy that Brian finally was being who they thought he could be. They hadn't known if it would ever be possible, but when Justin was around him anything was. They got Brian in a hug as well with Lindsay telling him that her Peter Pan was all grown up now. Brian rolled his eyes, but he excepted the hugs. He even got one from Ted letting him know that he thought it wouldn't be taming him, it would be letting him grow more by marrying Justin.
Not one of them noticed that Michael was standing near the counter glaring at them. Obviously crying as everyone congratulated the two. He wasn't happy about it at all because to him Brian was selling out. Of course no one cared what Michael thought since to them he had betrayed all of them the way he treated Justin. He was left out in the cold because his mom hadn't even spoken to him when he'd come in today. He knew that Ben was staying in his old room until he found a place to stay. He was supposed to be Brian's end game not some teenager. Justin only got attention because he'd been sick. No one was loving on him when he'd left Brian for that fiddler. He didn't bother ordering, he walked out zipping up his coat against the bitter cold. He had lost his best friend and everything else over his jealousy of Justin loving Brian.
~BJ JB BJ JB~
Once Justin finished his food, after the celebration of their engagement had died down they parted ways bringing Gus with them. Brian had convinced Emmett to give them the weekend before he dared calling about ideas. He also made it clear there would be no girly drinks or umbrella things at the party. Justin could pick everything else, but he was picking the drinks.
They had to also promised they'd be at Sunday dinner at Debbie's before they were allowed to leave. She promised to get them for already telling Vic, but knew they were right knowing she couldn't keep this one a secret. It was too wonderful she said to hide it because they were good together. Brian already had stuff at the loft for Gus which Justin knew about. Lindsay and Melanie had found out a while back too. Since they had thought about asking to take Gus they'd thought ahead bringing the car seat Brian had gotten a while back too.
Brian let Justin drive even though he knew where they were going next before going back to the loft with Gus. Before they got to Ian's apartment however they spotted him on the sidewalk doing what he usually did. Brian had asked Justin once if Ian had an actual job or if he'd asked him to pay a lot on the bills since he only saw him doing this. Justin had said he hadn't even changed the apartment lease with both their names on it; he hadn't paid anything. Brian was glad of that because he would had been getting Melanie to look into that if Justin had.
Since they had Gus with them Brian decided it was better if he stayed in the Jeep. It wasn't going to take Justin long either since he'd already said it multiple times to Brian what he wanted to say. They'd prefer doing it more private, but Brian figured it might help if there were witness. Also Gus being in the vehicle would keep Justin from going too far. Justin wouldn't put him in danger for anything. Gus had been chanting dada and daddy fun since they left the diner. Brian knew that he was lucky to have both Justin and his, no, their little boy in their lives. Gus thought of Justin has his other dad which made him happy.
Brian could tell that Ian was surprised to see Justin when he looked up to see who had tossed something in the case. Justin had broken the CD that he'd been given by Ian, okay more like he'd smashed the thing into tiny pieces. It had been done days ago as a form of therapy Justin had said. Daphne had found it in Justin's bag when she'd been looking for something for him. He had not expected to be called asking if he had bought a sledge hammer or a hammer since Justin had been gone. He had thought Daphne had slipped something into Justin's drink while they'd been there alone. He had brought one home though as Justin's request because he needed to take one to something. He'd gone with the claw hammer instead of a sledge one.
What Brian had found funny was that when he'd asked if there were any pictures Justin wanted to burn three days ago he'd been told no. Justin hadn't taken actual photos of Ian and his self. He hadn't even taken his camera with him when he'd left, but if he had he wouldn't have taken any. He didn't want to think what it might have done to the camera that Brian had gifted him. It might not have been a birthday gift, but Brian had given it to him when he'd moved into the loft after prom. He'd said at the time it was a gift for being able to go out into the world again.
Daphne had gotten rid of the sketches that Justin had done already. Another funny thing was that Justin had an entire three photo albums of Justin and his self together. There were more pictures too since Justin had come home once he'd gotten better. Brian didn't even know how many sketch pads were filled with him either. There had only been about six pages in one of Ian, but his was at least six books of them. To him that screamed he meant more to Justin than the fiddler could ever had.
~BJ JB BJ JB~
Justin meet Ian's eyes not sure what he'd seen in the other man besides listening to his pretty words. He could tell that Ian hadn't been missing him since he saw the look in his eyes. It was as if the man who claimed to love him didn't want to be bothered with him now. Daphne had already told him the other night what she'd seen when she'd gotten his bag. The bastard with some other guy which he was sure would have hurt if he'd been with him still.
There were so many things he'd planned out to say. He'd even thought of punching him like he had Michael. The thing was now that he was in front of his ex fuck buddy, because without love that was really what it was, fucking, there was only one thing he really thought about; wishing he didn't exist. He wished that it never happened and he hadn't hurt Brian and his self over something so stupid.
"I hope that you get real comfortable with that bow because it should be the only thing up your ass. I mean all you love is your music so why not figure out a way to fuck yourself with the thing; or fuck it?" Justin asked after a moment longer. "Don't even try denying that you actually gave a shit about me either, Ian. You put me on the mother fucking couch just because I didn't stop coughing. I was clearly sick, but unlike the ones that actually care about me you didn't offer to go to the doctor with me. You didn't even put any cover on me when you tossed me down. All you said was you had to sleep for your precious music and I was bothering you. Don't worry about me ever in this life time bothering you again. I got something you never could give me even with all those words you spouted out. I got a family, I'll have a husband and son too. Which if I remember you said you wouldn't want little brats to raise so you wouldn't have made me happy. I want half a dozen kids at least to start with." Justin said before he tossed the only thing he had with Ian on it. The booklet he'd gotten on his birthday he'd drawn Ian's face on. "Hope the new fuck keeps you warm I heard about."
"Who the fuck is Ian?" Ethan asked looking at Justin confused. "What now that you're better he's fucking you so much you have brain damage?" He asked. "Or did you have some other guy while fucking me too?" He growled out. "Who the fuck would want to marry you either? You aren't that good in bed anyways." He wasn't going to let Justin call him out without throwing some back at him. "You'd be a horrible dad too, six kids, you'd lose them in the store."
Justin laughed shaking his head. "No, although Brian and I are fucking like rabbits making up for lost time. There's nothing like having Brian's nine inch cock in my ass while he's pounding me so hard I can't think of my name. I'm nice and tight he tells me every single time he slides into me. Then there's the times when he makes love to me I'd never let you do. I remember your name, but Ian's what Brian calls you, it used to get under my skin at first, but see now, it doesn't. I prefer it since I used to think about naming Brian and my kids Aiden and Ethan. You fucked that up for me like every thing else. You and I only ever fucked because I never loved you. I might have been infatuated by you, but it wasn't love."
He ignored the brain damage comment. He'd never told Ian about prom because that was Brian and his business. He also ignored the jab about not being good in bed. It was a clear lie since he'd heard the way the asshole screamed while he'd fucked him. It was like a cat dying really which even had his cat hiding. He still hoped that the cat had gotten out and found a new home, with a way better name. The one thing that ticked him off was the jab about being a good dad.
"I think my son, Gus would tell you that I'm a great dad to him. I share him with Brian along with his moms. I never told you about him because it was one person I didn't want you ever to know about. I guess even if I thought I found something I also knew I hadn't. I couldn't bare to introduce him to you. Plus, I'd rather him never know about the horrible mistake I made in straying from his dad. The man I love with my entire heart, soul, and existence. The man that took care of me while I was in the hospital. He held me when I was cold and gave me actual care. You can't even remember to fed your cat so I'd never trust you with my kid." Justin said.
"You're a slut just like he is. So go on back to Brian when he gets tired of you again you can find someone else to bitch about your problems to." Ethan said. "I'm surprised the only thing you ever got was pneumonia." He added which was probably the wrong thing to say. "No one would want another Brian in this world either. One's too many as is which I highly doubt the kid really would want you when he's older." He should had stopped while he was behind.
Justin had turned to walk off, but the last comments got to him and he hauled off punching Ian in the face knocking him on the sidewalk. "BRIAN NEVER PUT ME AT RISK. You are the mother fucker who caused me to end up with pneumonia because you were too busy to call in that the heat was out. Brian's a million times better than you ever were. He asked me to marry him which is better than what could have given me with misery." He took a breath not wanting to pull out the inhaler. "You ever talk bad about Gus or Brian again, I'll bring a world of pain down on you so hard you will be begging me to have let Emmett punish you." He finished before walking away this time not caring about the people who had stopped to watch. It wasn't like he'd done any real damage to Ian. He'd been sitting up rubbing his face when he'd walked away.
He may have let people know what a horrible person he was. He also might have thought about letting Emmett rescue the cat like he'd offered. It needed a better home than a starving musician as Brian called him. He hadn't given Ian a single dime on the apartment since it had only been a week after the Rage party he got sick. Ian brought it up, but he had held off because he didn't want to really pay for a place that sucked. Maybe it was living with Brian or the fact he enjoyed small comforts like heat that worked which stopped him from doing it.
~BJ JB BJ JB~
The drive back to the loft was mostly quiet besides listening to Gus say random words. Brian kept the smile on his face all the way there. He had pulled Justin into a heated kiss when he'd first gotten into the Jeep though. He'd wanted to show Justin how proud of him he was even if he'd known it was best not to talk. He'd also let his hand rest on Justin's knee on the ride to home.
Justin let Brian get Gus out of the car seat before they walked up to the loft. Neither one of them had wanted to wait on the elevator. Brian wanted to do more than kiss Justin after the knock out he'd delivered to Ian. However they had Gus so another heated kiss was all he could give for the time being. He did promise to rock Justin's world when Gus took his nap later while they showered. He might have offered up his own ass too which had left Justin groaning when he'd walked away.
Now they were sitting on the floor letting Gus play with the toys they'd gotten him over the last year that was kept there. Brian had pretty much gotten him anything that a child could want or need. He kept them in a large tote inside of the closet brought out when Gus was around. It took two people to move the thing. So luckily Justin was feeling better or they would have had to figure something else out.
Justin watched Brian who kept placing the stuffed dog against Gus' cheek as if it was giving him kisses. Brian had told him that the next morning they were going to the animal shelter to pick out a dog. They were going to let Gus be the one that decided on which one would come home with them. He couldn't wait til then, but was enjoying now as well with the little boy that already thought of him as a dad. He still wanted more kids with Brian in the future maybe six of them like he'd told the scumbag.
He had turned Melanie down when she'd asked if he'd be the dad to their next child. He loved them and wanted kids, but he couldn't give up his rights to the baby. He wanted to raise his child with Brian, not have to only see them when the girls let him. He wouldn't go through the hell Brian had even if they were letting him see Gus more now. It would break his heart too much. He never wanted his child to think they weren't loved if they found out he didn't have rights to them.
Gus was squealing in delight trying to get a hold of the toy while loving the game too. Justin smiled because he didn't want to think about what could have happened if his knight hadn't rescued him. He wouldn't be able to witness this like he always enjoyed seeing. He couldn't believe he ever thought Brian didn't love him either as he watched him with Gus now.
Justin picked up the stuffed elephant that he'd won for Gus using it to give the little boy kisses too. Gus had called it Dum, as in Dumbo,when he had given it to him. He loved it as much as he did the stuffed bear Brian gave him. Gus let out a shrill sound before breaking into giggles of delight. Once Gus finally did catch both the dog and elephant Justin got his attention moving the toy truck with the remote. Gus' eyes lite up and he stood up playing the new game of going after the truck, dropping the stuffed animals. Brian was right behind Gus making sure he didn't bump into anything since he was walking these days; more like running.
When Lindsay and Melanie had agreed to let him have more time with Gus he'd child proofed the loft. Justin was the one that had convinced the mothers to do so because Brian loved Gus. He'd set it up for them to see how much one day before Brian had rescued him from his own stupid mistake. Brian always showed Gus more love when he thought no one was watching. Justin had not only let them see first hand, but he'd showed them the videos he had one of Brian singing Gus to sleep. That was one of his favorites and Gus had gone out like a light.
~BJ JB BJ JB~
Gus got tired of the car after a few rounds of chasing it. It was how the next idea came about. Brian was holding Gus in his lap while letting his son play in the paint and paper Justin set on the table. There was a large table cloth on the table and a drop cloth under it to protect the rug. It had been a while since Gus had gotten to do it. Justin was sure that Gus had more paint on his self than the paper though. Brian gently guided his son's hand making designs after Gus had started out slapping the first paper. He even helped Gus draw out his name in paint which Justin thought would be cool for not only them, but the girls too. The year before for a late mother's day gift he'd made Gus' foot and hand prints in cement to go in their back yard. They had gone inside the house instead which Justin had noticed Lindsay had also painted.
Justin got a picture of the two before he'd started working on his own painting. He felt so much better than he had weeks back. He realized something when the doctor had mentioned that he'd gotten better sooner than he'd thought. Brian was the reason he had like he'd said, but the man he loved had a healing hand on him. He'd taken care of him when he needed it the most which showed how Brian loved him. He couldn't wait to be married to him which would mean Gus would be his son too. He'd seen the shocked looks on their friends when he had finally told them all. It had been even better to see the one on Michael's when he had come out of the bathroom. He hadn't missed him crying either knowing probably that he'd lost in the end. He wasn't going to get Brian as his man like he dreamed of.
"What's the smile for Sunshine, not that it's not good to see?" Brian asked looking over at Justin.
"I love you and I'm happy. It's the first day I haven't felt the slightest bit yucky. Yesterday I did a little bit when I first woke up, but not once today." Justin said leaning in kissing Brian.
"I'm glad and I love you too, both my Sonny boys." Brian said returning Justin's kiss. "If you ever start feeling yucky again I'll drag you kicking and screaming to the doctor if I have to." He warned which Justin knew was true.
"I'm sorry I scared you, I promise never to get that sick again." Justin replied with a smile. He knew there was no chance of it. He was sure that if he even sneezed Brian would carry him to the doctor after what happened. "After Gus goes for his nap you can use those hands for a different kind of healing."
~BJ JB BJ JB~
Brian returned the smile and he knew that Justin wouldn't ever get that sick again on his watch. He never wanted to go back to seeing Justin as sick as he was feeling helpless like he'd felt for the second time. This time the hospital stay could have been prevented if he'd only done something, even if Justin hadn't been with him. He should have maned up before it had come to that. The seriousness of their talk was broken by Gus' little hand coming up to Brian's face smearing orange paint all over it.
Justin started laughing grabbing the camera getting a picture of it. Brian's mouth open in shock before he too started laughing at his son's actions. He shook his head asking Gus why he wanted to paint his face. He got a giggle in response before Gus did it again this time getting the paint on his other cheek. Justin was laughing so much he couldn't breathe this time in a good way.
"I think you are going to be a mini Justin instead of a mini me, Sonny boy. He likes smearing stuff on me too." Brian said with his own laugh. He didn't even care that Gus enjoyed painting him more than the paper. "Let's get you a bath though and let this master piece dry. We can put it on the fridge once it does." He added.
"No daddy, no." Gus pouted at the word bath. He shook his head not wanting to take one.
"You take a bath for us and I'll let you paint me all you want tomorrow." Brian said trying to reason with his son who was almost two.
"I'd take the deal Gussie. Your dad agreeing to let anyone paint him is a miracle in itself." Justin put in.
Gus thought about it for a moment looking between his dads before he nodded his head. "Duckies too." Gus said.
"Yeah, you can play with the duckies." Brian said kissing Gus cheek which got paint on his son that had been across his mouth too. "We'll paint your dada tomorrow. After we pick out our new dog." He smiled which had Gus cheering happily as they went towards the bathroom. Gus' paint covered hands holding onto his daddy's shirt the whole way there.
~BJ JB BJ JB~
Justin hadn't gotten to see the latest addition that Brian had gotten since he'd been sick. It wasn't large enough for adults, but just the right size for Gus and his duckies. Brian had found a large round tub that one might have used to do laundry in the olden days in. Justin was sure that Brian and him got soaked, but the tub could go inside the shower which saved the bathroom floor from being drowned. Gus could splash all he wanted in it and it was portable as well. Justin thought it was a wonder for sure. Brian was smart to buy it because Gus could have flooded the place.
After Brian had cleaned Gus' hands and washed his hair he let him play until the water got cool. Gus let them know when it happened too letting out a scream of the word out, out. Brian had cleaned his face of the paint before Gus' bath. He'd also tossed his shirt in the dirty clothes glad Justin had gotten him to change out of his good one before paint time. They decided to take one later when Gus went to sleep instead of separate ones then. Justin turned the make shift tub over letting the water go down the drain before he dried off from Gus' splashing all over him. Brian hadn't let him take his shirt off worried it might get him sick. He had to change now since he was soaked, his jeans the worst.
Justin worked on dinner while Brian and Gus watched Dumbo until it was done. They sat eating at the now cleaned off table. Justin had placed a bib over Gus' clothes to save them from the way the little boy made a mess. Brian laughed thinking they might should have waited until after dinner to give Gus a bath. Luckily it was easily wiped off with a cloth not needing a second bath though. Justin took the only pill he was still on before they relaxed on the couch letting Gus watch another cartoon. This time it was one of the Pooh movies because Gus loved Eeyore the most.
Even though Justin was better he was still worn out after the long day they'd had. Brian caught him dozing off multiple times before he took Gus to the bedroom. He'd gotten a race car bed for Gus to sleep in when he stayed over after he'd out grown his crib. He might have gotten the wrong size when he got it, but it didn't matter. Gus loved the new bed and had only woke for a moment before falling back asleep. Brian was glad they'd put his PJ's on after the bath he'd had.
He then picked a sleeping Justin up taking him to bed. It was only seven, but even he was exhausted after the fun they'd had. There was also the happiness of watching Justin punch Ian. Gus being with them had him smiling too as he pulled the cover up over Justin and his self. He placed a kiss on Justin's temple holding him close drifting off into a peaceful sleep. His last thoughts were that come spring Justin was going to be his husband. He already loved him more than anything in the world right along side of Gus. His life was complete now that Justin was well again and Gus was with them for the weekend. His second thought was that he hoped when Gus picked out the dog it wasn't big as a house.
~THE END~
I hope that you all have enjoyed this story that's the end of it. Thanks in advanced for reviews and kudos. I also want to thank you all for the imput and wonderful reviews. I hope it was all that you wanted with the ending. Special thanks to Vic32 cause you gave me the title of this story when I started it. Happy Valentine's everyone this is my gift to you.