Chapter #02
Next morning.
"OHHH! Kaede! Wake up it's too late! It's 9:45am now!"
I open my eyes lazily trying to figure out what happed in the world. After a moment I back to the world. As my aunt continue shouting: "Come on move you lazy rat!". As I start moving in a hurry. I quickly prepared myself in 15 minutes. I ride my bike in a hurry too, as I reached the school in about 15min without sleeping. Off course when I arrived to school I get punished for arriving late by doing some silly exercise in the main school yard. Then went to my class. As usual my teacher start scolding and fired me where he didn't allow me to attend his class. So I spent the remaining of that class standing outside waiting for it to end.
While I'm standing, I remembered that lonely girl. So I decided to return home early today. I order to keep my promise to her.
Well the school day has passed a usual, unless returning home early today. I enter home, I found aunt preparing some food. She surprised at my early return. I told her that it's because that I have too many hard home works to do, so I'm goanna do them at my room. She doesn't seemed to be convinced, because she know very well how lazy I'm in my school studying. But she said "Good luck, and do your best dear".
As I went to my room I start looking for my smart phone, which my elder brother gave it me. After knowing that I will live with my aunt he gave it me so he can call me directly. But I didn't used it at all and the only number I saved in it is my dear elder brother phone number.
I took the piece of note I wrote last night. And signed up to that chatting site after creating an email account. In that chatting site rule I must log in with a user name and a password. I get little bit confused 'what I should call myself. It supposed to be a name that don't relay to me or to my characteristic 'after thinking deeply I heard my aunt calling me from down stairs to have my dinner. At that moment I decided to call myself "The Aunt". As I call my aunt back "ok just give me a moment, and I will come". I finish setting up my new and only chatting account, joined to that social group. Then I went down to my dear aunt.
As I get in the living room I find my aunt sitting on zabuton, as the dinner had been prepared perfectly on the kotatsu. My aunt was watching T.V. Where she didn't started her dinner yet, waiting for me to have it with her. As I enter the room she gave me one of her famous side glare, as if she know that I'm up in something that may related to anything in the world except to my studies as I claim before. When I sat down beside her making myself not noticing her reaction. I said "Thank you aunt for that wonderful and warm dinner, and I'm sorry for making you wait for me". Both of us start eating. She asked "How is your homeworks kid?" as she continued eating, without looking at me and with a side smile.
"It's fine, I'm going on it" also without looking at her.
"Good how is your school day?"
"It's fine, you know I was punished two times today. One because I came late, while the second one is for not solving my homework". I try to avoid her direct questions, and her direct concentration, by giving her some distracted information. That will distract her concentration.
"Why did you wake up too late, or do you always wake up lately when I'm not home". Raising her voice.
"I did not, that not my manner. But yesterday I could not sleep well that's why".
"I wish", "ok aunt how is your work today?"
"It was fine, I'm still working on that conference report", "no problem aunt, I will clean the dishes after our great dinner".
"No my dear passionate son I will do it. And you go back to your study"
I smile at her and said "Thank you aunt". I said to myself 'I will do my homework today for her'.
After finishing my dinner quickly, I ran to my room, put my books and note books on my desk. Then I back to that chatting room to see what happened to that girl. I found that there are so many chatting stuff so I roll up to see what they advise her. I found that two advisers gave her the same silly advice, but in different words. Their advice was "You are in teenage period of life, and this period is so complicated and hard. And in it you will always feel like frustration and upset." They write to her that since she had mentioned that she is 15 years old. But that girl didn't write any replay to them.
Well I myself didn't convinced of their advice. I mean I do have the same family type who will always make you feel upset and want to run away and never ever look or come back. Especially my father.
Any way I added that girl to my contact list, which only has her. She accepted me immediately in less than a moment. As we started our chatting.
The Aunt : "Hello I read your yesterday complain and I wish to talk to you about it. If you don't mind"
Lonely: "did you read their advices?"
The Aunt: " yes. I would like to know what's your opinion about it before giving you mine"
Lonely: "they were useless and silly such as my family"
The Aunt: "I find that too, but before giving any judgment about your family. I 'd like to know more information about them."
Lonely: " I already mentioned "
The Aunt: "these does not called enough information. Please let me know about why you hate them. For example what did they did to you? How they harmed you? ets"
Lonely: " ok. I will give you a brief details about them. My mother she is always busy as she is a community lady. Who always give courses and lectures about community, ladies stuff and family life style and so on. My father is a business man. He is the owner and manager of so many business in Kanagawa."
The Aunt: "so they always busy "
Lonely: "yes, so many time I feel like they care about anything or everything except me."
The Aunt: "what about your brothers?"
Lonely: "they are the meanest brothers that you can ever imagine. Neither of them care about me. The elder one lives with my grandfather since he was child. But know he's abroad because of his working issue." She stop writing for a moment. I gulp as I feel that my heart beat accelerated.
The Aunt: "what about your other brother?" I write that as I feel that I know very well who is she is gonging to talk about. After a while she start typing.
Lonely: "he is the worst. He is the main problem in our house. He's always fighting with everyone even with servants. He hates everyone in our house. He always causes sorrow and grief to my father, while my father like him the most."
I stunned, my brain freeze. I can't think of anything. This stupide girl is talking about me! She is my only sister "Yoko". Yes her dear mother "Noriko" is that "COMMUNITY LADY!" and our dear father is that very great business man. And my dear elder brother is the one whose my grandfather took him since he was a child, because he is a genius kid so my grandfather wanted to raise him up in his own way. And I'm the one who always fight "ONLY" with my dear very composition father. Wait! By the way she is only 9 years old not 15 years. Why did she lie about her age? Why she hates me that much? Why she hates her family that much? Yes, I hate my father so much, but I see him spoil her so many times. Or she can be someone else, but with all these coincidences! Let's check.
She suddenly write "hello there are you still here?"
I still don't know what to write to her. I decided to ensure if she is my sister or not first. So I write "what is your elder brother job?"
" how is that related to my problem"
"you had mentioned your mother and your father jobs, but you didn't mention any useful information about your brothers."
"okay. He's a detective. He is 23 years old. Now he's in Turkey for his working issue". The same specifications as my elder brother.
"and that mean one?"
"he is 17 years old"
Well well if it's me then she will said I'm 15 years old. But come on if she is my sister how can we be at the same age. No problem. I still have some trick for her.
"you and your brothers are from the same mother?"
"uh. No. But how did you come up with that?"
"where is their mother?"
"she died."
"your younger brother was at what age when his mother died?"
" he was 6 years old".
"I see. So did your father marry your mother before his first wife died".
"No."
"so how come that between you and your brother only 2 years. It must be at least 6 or 7years."
"I'm sorry I lied about my age"
Uh. Yes she is my sister "why?"
"I was afraid that if I mention my real age, they won't take it seriously."
"how old are you?"
"9 years old".
I don't know what type of advice that I should give her. Now is my turn to give her my advice. After a while I took a deep breath and finally write: "do you have house?"
"yes, and it's a mansion. I told you we are so rich"
"do you have room in that mansion?"
"of course!"
"do you have enough food?"
"what's wrong with you?"
"just answer without any complains"
"yes, I do",
"did any one of your family insult you? Be honest with this question"
After a while she answered "No"
"so the only problem that you have is that you feel that they abandon you. Right?"
"yes, that's it"
"do you think that your problem will be solved if you run away?"
"I don't know? But even my mean brother left the home, while he has the biggest room in our mansion"
Oh yes my room size in my mansion is the size of three rooms. It has a study office, T.V, kotatsu, my very large bed, small refrigerator, all of my entertainment tools and of course there is a bathroom with in it. However all of that is in order to isolate me in my huge room, so that I won't leave my room and annoy them with my sight and existential. That was my step mother idea, and somehow her idea had succeed.
"did he run away?"
"No, he went to live with our mean aunt"
"so he didn't run away after all. Anyway, did you ever try to explain to your mother that you need her?"
"First I know that my brother will be fired from my aunt house, because both of them are so mean"
"I'm not talking about your brother now, I'm talking about you. Please answer me precisely. Did you talk to your mother or not?"
"no, I didn't"
I know Aoshi my elder brother very well. He is very patient and has a very high sense of responsibility. I know very well that he will do more than his best to care about us, support us and to protect us. Even if he is so busy. For example, he knows about me more than anyone in our family, though we don't see each other frequently. So I wrote to her:
"so in short, your problem is much simpler than what you think. You just over sized it okay. To solve your problem you have to try to talk to your mother about how is your day is going on, and so on. Also try to talk to your brothers especially the elder one, since he seem more prudent than the other one. Try to do so and see what will happened."
"you think it's as this simple!"
"I'm sure of that. As I'm sure that you never tried to solve your problem. The only thing that you try to do is escaping!"
"…"
"where ever you go you will face so many problems. This is life!"
"…."
"so are you going to spend your life escaping whenever you face a problem!"
"…."
"If you face problem you have to face it bravely! You have to do your best to find a solution for it! You have to be patient and endure these problem until they have been solved! And when they solved you will face another ones!"
"…."
"This is life. it does not give you everything, you are not in haven! And it does not take from you everything"
"Your word seems convincing."
"These are facts. Not opinion! Do your homeworks, and try to do what I told you. And have a good night".
"Thank you. I will think of that. And have a good night."
"don't hesitate to ask for my help and advice whenever you need it"
"yes. Sure. Thank you at least I'm little bit comfortable now".
"great"
Then she log out, and so did I. I keep staring at my phone for a while. I'm astonished by her feeling toward my family. Especially her hatred feelings toward me. Why she hates me the most?! After a thinking moment, I back to the world. It's 12:00am now. However I still insist to solve my homeworks as I promise myself. I told myself 'I will think of my sister after doing my homeworks'.
For more astonishing I did my homework in less than two hours it's 2:15 am. I check my aunt, I found her sleeping in the same position as yesterday. I tried to adjust her sleeping position gently, covered her, switched the light off, and left. Back to my room, had my shower and finally lie down in the bed. I couldn't stop thinking of my sister. I felt so worried about her. She is only 9 years old. And from now thinking of running away! Why?
I couldn't sleep that night. I couldn't sleep at all. I automatically started to recall our relationship, which is fragile.
I remembered the first incident between me and her, when she was still a baby. I was six years old when she was born. I didn't went to hospital to see her, as everyone keep me away from her. In order if I felt jealous or grudge. When my step mother came home with her. She carried her tightly when she saw me, as if I'm going to kill her daughter. I kept away from her, however I wanted to see her, to get near to her, to touch her and to hold her tiny hands.
After a couple of months I heard her crying. I was alone in the hall. As her room door was slightly opened and I found that she was alone. I got in to check her. She was in her baby bed crying. I got nearer to her, that was the first time I got close to her and saw her face closely. When she saw me she stopped her crying for a moment trying to figure out who is this strange boy. Then she continued her crying. I extended my hand to patted her hair and hold her hand. As I did so. Her crying had stopped little by little. As she looked and smiled at me. I smiled at her and shook her bed gently. Suddenly both of us shocked at the shouting voice behind us. it was the mean servant voice. She was shouting at me "WHAT ARE YOU DOING? LEAVE THIS ROOM NOW!". My sister started crying again I turned my face back to her to calm her down. However my step mother get in the room and that mean servant pulled me away from my sister. My step mother quickly hold Yoko and shook her gently. Then hugged her and patted her back gently. Then she looked at me and start shouting at me but not so loudly "what were you doing to her you little barbarian rat! She is your sister you have to take care of her. Not be barbarian with her. Get out now!".
I was so stunned at their reaction that I didn't know what to do as my tongue tightened and I feel like I had swallow it. I left. I went to my room silently and close it's door, lied down at my bed I buried my face in pillow and start crying silently. That day I wished to die I wished to follow my mother and be with her. That day still alerting on my mind.
Actually that was the basis of me and my sister relationship. Which is that I'm the evil, jealousy and barbarian elder brother. And she is the poor and kind little sister who must be protected from that evil brother. There were many incident between me and her has been misunderstand such as that first one. So both my father and step mother do their best to keep us away from each other. But lately I'm the one who did my best to keep myself away from her. Because I get so weary of that sick relationship.
However my brother Aoshi notice that. As he always warned me of being cold with her. However I never listen to him. I always complain that she has both her mom and dad, while I don't have any. So why she would ever need me any way. Whenever he heard my complaints he told me that she is my responsibility, so I have to care about her whether I like it or not. But even Aoshi couldn't care off her. She didn't even accept talking to him. She always ignores both of us as if both of us where her adversary.
In short, that is how our relationship is look like and is going on.