Pains, Sorrows, Shivers, Flows, And Crashes!

As Morph had duly noted this morning, a certain mutant had made the forecasted sunny day, a miserable one, to match her mood, as the lightning flashed, and the thunder rumbled off, with every wave of cramping she felt in her young body. Ororo was left to deal with her pain and suffering, all alone in bed. Ororo hardly managed to make it to the toilet to discover her flow of blood had come earlier this month than she had expected it to come, and with it, more intensely than she typically has from the cramping. As much as she wanted, caring for, and help. No one was stupid enough to go in there, to help her, she knew. So she felt the sadness and loneliness, and helplessness that no one cared, accompanying her hormonal state that came this month. "Will this pain, never end?" Her thundering and lightning was her SOS, but none heeded it, so she suffered alone in silence!

Still not regular, oh, such were the; typical; problems, most teenage girls go through, from the onset of their very first one. But not being too informed of this, didn't know it and that help was indeed available to her if needed. She had many options open to her for help, from simple information to ease both the burdens as well as her questions. To, the pill, to help with her needs, both hormonally and to regulate her as she wanted and maybe needed. She wasn't so sure; if taking the pill is what she needs, as there were so many, questions, she never got any answers to yet, on just the basics.

Tears flowed down her cheeks with her unexpected shedding of blood as she sat hunched up in her room, blasting her stereo. She usually liked wearing shorts, but this morning, Jubilation was still shivering, even wearing sweatpants and a sweater, and had the heat on, and yet, she felt so cold. No one cared, and wanted to be around her, she felt. Who even bothered to try to understand how she hated this, not having her period regulated by now. It was supposed to be, right, right from the start?! No, not usually, not often for most girls, but she was never told any of this, being tossed to and fro, from one family to another one, before coming to live with X-Men. Even then, Jubilee still didn't have the proper 'talk' as she should have. As such, she only got the gist of the very basics, from some, 'in the know, friends', but not ever any of her needed and necessary compulsory questions asked let alone answered, to know all this.

So she suffered, with it, with mood changes, she did not like one bit for more than one, make that, many reasons! "Why the hell isn't it normal?! Why wasn't it every 28 days as it is supposed to be?" Or whatever her body's normal rhythm was best for her, be it every 28 or longer, yes, preferably longer apart. But at least regularly, on time. That way, she would know and be better prepared for it, whenever it was to happen, with whatever she needed. At this point, she only had the one, namely the menstrual pad she had on right now, and maybe she could try bumming some from one of the others. But she was too cold and far too miserable and depressed to get out of her room to bother asking for it, or for any help for that matter. Also, a bit ashamed of it as well; topped off with a bit of embarrassment as well.

Her periods were still not regular or coming even partly regularly, according to her app she had on her phone. Some of her periods sort of were 28 to 32 days apart by a few days early or a few days late, as well as like now, early, and quite unexpectedly. How that had really played with her emotions, to the point of her full week of depression on her normally sunny and very happy cheerful disposition! At times, some of her periods, were really long apart, to the point she feared she had somehow gotten pregnant, but finally got it, relieving that worry, but adding another, namely that she was pregnant, and had a miscarriage.

Yes, Jubilee at least knew you had to have sex, whatever that was, to get, or maybe be, or actually, become, pregnant. As details were missing, a lot of them, as she never had 'the talk' yet, on how to do it, to really know what to do, and how to avoid it, even accidentally. Yes, being an orphan slash foster child had some significant drawbacks rather than being a typical child that would have been told all that, in due time. Frankly, she was just too embarrassed to ask, at her age, that she didn't really know! Namely the details on how hard it can be to become pregnant, or how easy it can be, from one time, even from just fooling around. Top that off with fear of getting pregnant. She believed some of the silly, and way out there, to the just plain stupid rumors, of how some young girls had somehow gotten 'mysteriously pregnant,' or rather excuses, or downright lies, they used. Namely for fooling around, or just plainly having sex before marriage, to get knocked up in the first place.

After watching a particular TV medical drama show, she had come to a conclusion or idea about it and looked it up. Now all because of that, Jubilee was so worried and scared she would be found out, to try to dare to ask if it would be a good idea to go on the pill, to maybe help her to try to regulate her monthlies, as she was too afraid of the shame it might bring. Not to mention the usual and no doubt angered and or freaked out questions to go along with it if they did find the pills in her room, or on her person or whatnot. The huge accusations she did not want nor need to hear. You're on the pill, why? So, who are you seeing? Why do you want it? Or the blatant questions. Why do you have these pills? Are you having sex? Do you want to have sex? As you sexually active right now? So she suffered alone in silence.

She also had questions of her own if she were to take them. How do they work? Are they safe to take? Will they really help me? Is it really like birth control that I'm taking with these pills, and so what happens down the road when I do eventually want to have a baby, will I still be able to have one? Will taking it, mess my baby up? Don't only people who don't want to have kids take this? Wouldn't it be just like having an abortion, murder, if I took them, and kill a potential life, a baby's; before it even had a chance at life? Because I am fully against that very idea‼ What if I get pregnant on it, will it harm the baby? Not that I do want to get pregnant, at this age, not for a few years, probably, we'll see. But you know, especially in our line of work, there are always those situations, especially living in New York; that things, horrible things, do happen. If it happened, and I do fall victim in that way, I may not want it, as in caring for it, but I would not kill it, murder it; in other words, I would put it up for adoption, and still be in its life as much as I can be. Will the pill harm the baby, or not, or affect the pregnancy, if something like that did happen to me, God-forbid?

"Ohh, I just hate this! Oh, Marie, Per, ohh, you are so right, it hurts to be alone," she hummed along to the song as Jubilation bawled her eyes out. Thinking she was all alone; that no girl had her same problems! Let alone the embarrassment of not knowing the details; she should know by now, at her age! (AN: Per, is the Swedish version of the name, Peter, and he is the male vocalist and guitar player and primary songwriter of the band Roxette. {His name if you don't know; is pounced like: pear or pair.} If you want to hear the song, and see the lyrics, look up 'Roxette It Hurts' on YouTube and look for the vid with thumbtacks.)

AN: You should see a significant improvement in my writing I got Grammarly Premium, as before I only had the free version. So enjoy the better writing!