Alex's Pov

It was a little later, when I heard Uncle Jethro's Phone ring

"Gibbs." I heard Uncle Jethro answer, I glance over and saw that he was staring down at his desk, while he had the phone pressed to his ear. I looked back down at my drawing and saw that I had been drawing Angel, I sighed and pulled the page from the sketch book, I then screwed it up and tossed it into the bin next to the desk. I thought back to that night in the training room, things were a little bit hazy, but I remember the majority

Flashback

I walked into mine and Angel's training room, it was a refurbished apartment, he'd found the empty apartment in his building he lived in, after deciding his place was too small to train in, it was just two floors under his place, but it worked just fine. He'd paid to have it all re-done and bought all the furniture that was in it, which consisted of a bed in the other room, a small dining table and two chairs in the kitchen, the table was up against the wall besides the fridge, in the main room there were mats on the floor and dummies set up around the room. There were some weapons lined up against the wall and some even mounted on the wall as well, we'd not gotten around to working with them, not before he lost his soul an all.

I huffed and shut the door behind me, I made my way in to the kitchen and walked right over to the sink, I reached out to get a glass when I heard one of the chairs creaks behind me. I froze, no-one was supposed to know about this place except Angel

"Crap." I heard a huffed like chuckle behind me. I turned around to face who it was, and dread filled me as soon as I caught sight of who it was… Angelus. I dashed out of the kitchen and raced for the front door, but I didn't make it as I was tackled to the ground and flipped onto my back so was looking up at him. He looked sad

"Don't leave." He said, I glared at him

"So, you can what? Eat me? No thanks." He growled

"I don't want to eat you Xander! Haven't you noticed I haven't been chasing after the scoobies lately? Or the slayer for that matter, I thought I trained you better than that."

"Yeah, I noticed, doesn't make you any less evil though, and you didn't train me! Angel did."

"I am Angel! Just a little less soulless that's all."

"Let me up." His face deflated

"Xander- "

"You said you don't want to eat me, so get off." He sighed and climbed off me, standing to his feet, he reached out a hand to me, but I ignored it and got to my feet by myself. I then turned and headed for the door

"Please don't leave." I stopped right at the door and turned to face him

"Yeah, why should I?"

"Because I want to talk with you, without any violence, or because the slayer got involved, do you know how many times I've tried to approach you, when you've been on your own, only for the slayer to show up and chase me off?"

"Uh, no, I didn't even know you'd tried to approach me."

"Seventeen times Xander, I've ben trying to talk to you since my haze ended."

"Your haze? You mean the one that led you to killing Ms Calendar?"

"Yes, and I don't regret that- "I huffed and turned back to head out the door "Please let me explain!" I turned to glare at him

"Explain what? How much you enjoyed killing her? How much to enjoyed terrorizing Giles in leaving his dead lovers body laid out on his bed? Or how much you devastated me?"

"Devastated you?"

"Ms Calendar, she was the only one I could talk to about home, besides Angel, when I heard about her death, it hurt, but when I learnt that you had done it, it nearly killed me." He looked shocked at my answer

"Why? Why did it nearly kill you to learn that I did it?"

"Because I have feelings for you! Or I have feeling for Angel, but I don't see him ever coming back if you can help it." I glared at Angelus, but only to get what looked to be a soft smile in return

"Xander, do you know why I wanted to talk to you?" I shook my head "Where did you get those clothes you're wearing?" I shrugged

"They came in the Post for me, even though I didn't order anything."

"Have you had anything else sent to you recently?" I frowned

"A few drawings of me, some little trinkets, why does it matter?"

"They came from me." He said with a grin

"What?"

"I sent them to you, the clothes, the drawings, I do have to admit I may have sat outside your window to draw a few of them, but he rest of them were drawn from my memories, and the trinkets were just little things I picked up that I thought you might have liked, so, did you?"

"What?"

"Did you like the trinkets?" I nodded dumbly

"Why?" He gave me a confused look

"Why what?"

"Why send me all those things? That amount of clothes must have cost a fortune." He shrugged

"I've lived a long time, I've got money to spare." I huffed

"That's not the point, why buy me then in the first place?"

"Because you needed them."

"What?"

"You always said, when Angel asked you why you didn't have suitable clothes, you always said that you didn't have any, and you didn't have nay money to buy any either, so I got you some suitable clothes, and clothes that fit… they lost rather nice on you actually." I sighed

"I don't understand, why get me anything or draw me anything in the first place?" he frowned

"Isn't that what you're meant to do, when you intend to court someone?"

"Court?" He nodded

"Yes, is that not what people do these days? I admit I've not been around for a few hundred years, but I'm sure the custom is still the same, or is it flowers you get the person you intend to court?"

"Why would you want to court me or all people?" he gave me a sad look

"You thought he'd never return your feelings, that's why you didn't tell him, Angel, wow, referring to myself in the third person is strange, anyway, Angel only slept with Buffy to convince himself that he didn't love you." I looked at him in shock and he moved closer to me

"What?" Angelus nodded and moved even closer, until he was right in my personal space and I was backed up against the door

"He loved you but didn't think you'd return his feelings, so he started up something with the slayer, slept with her and released me, he might have not told you, but I will." He stepped even closer and pressed against me, his fingers pressed under my chin to lift my head up so I was looking him in the eye "I will never hurt you, if I so do, I will walk into the sunlight and turn myself to dust, I will always be good to you, I will always do right by you, if you'll have me as your partner, my consort, my lover?" I looked at him in shock, as he lent his face closer to mine "You can say no, push me away at anytime you want to stop, but I want to kiss you, right here right now."

"I won't say no." Then his lips touched mine

Flashback end

I blushed thinking about what happened next, sleeping with him and waking up to empty bed with a drawing of my sleeping face on the pillow next to me, with a small note at the bottom I'll be back soon, just something I need to take care of first A x

Suddenly a different memory popped into my head

Flashback- (Speech from the Becoming part two episode) At the Hospital

I leant over to the bed and gently takes Willow's hand into mine.

"Come on, Will. Look, you don't have a choice here. You gotta wake up. I need you, Will. I mean, how am I gonna pass trig, you know?" I chuckle "And who am I gonna call every night... and talk about everything we did all day? You're my best friend. You've always..."

I look at her for a long moment, I look away for an instant and then at her again, struggling with my emotions.

"I love you." I saw her face twitch and her hand gives mine a squeeze. My eyes widen

in hope. "Willow?" She takes a few breaths before responding, with her eyes still closed.

"(whispers) Oz? Oz?" I lean away, a little taken aback. Oz must have heard her as he walked into the room.

"I'm here." Oz responds, I look back at Oz

"She's just starting to wake up." I stand up, to let Oz go to her, he moves forward to take her hand and leans over the bed, but Willow still has her eyes closed

"Hey, baby." Oz says

"Hi." Willow responds weakly

"I'm gonna go get a doctor." I head out of the room to find a doctor

Flashback End

I sat up straight in the chair

"I don't remember going to see Willow at the hospital." There were a lot of other memories that filtered into my head, being on the phone to Buffy, her telling me where Angelus was hiding out, being back together with Cordelia, even though I know I wasn't with Cordelia at that time. Another memory of me offering to be back up to Buffy, telling her that Willow said kick his ass, even though she was trying the spell again.

"Alex?" I heard Uncle Jethro ask, I turned to look at him, only to see him stood at the edge of the desk I was sat at "You okay?" I shrug

"I'm having conflicting memories, I just need to sort through them, are you going somewhere?" he nodded

"We've got a case, Tim is getting Ducky and Tony is down gassing the truck, I just want to tell you where I was going, in case you needed me." I nodded

"Okay, I'll stay here." He chuckled

"Alright, if you need to use the head, it's just down there." He pointed behind him "Do you want me to bring you a drink back or something?" I shook my head

"Nah, I should be fine."

"Well, there's a vending machine in the break room, that's down that way as well, do you want some change for that?" I grinned

"That's okay, I've got change." He nodded and ruffled my hair

"We'll be back soon." I nodded, and he headed over to the elevator. I sighed, none of those memories seem right, like I'm observing myself doing something I know I didn't do, like getting Giles out of that mansion. I know I'll ring Giles, he was in those memories, he'll know if they're true or not. I pulled out my phone, I scrolled through my contacts until I reached Giles Phone number and pressed dial, before holding it to my ear.

It rang a few times before someone picked up

-Giles Residence, Rupert speaking-

"Giles, I'm glad you picked up."

-Xander, good heavens, where are you? You've got us all worried-

"What do you mean Giles?"

-Buffy and Willow came to me the other day and had you'd run off, gone missing, they're expecting you to turn up as a vampire any day now, you're not a vampire, are you? -

"No Giles I'm not, and clearly they didn't tell you what really happened, but first I need to ask you a question."

-Go ahead-

"The night that Buffy sent Angel to hell, did I come to get you out of the mansion?"

-No, Buffy got be out before she confronted Angelus, why on earth would you ask me a question like that? –

"I think someone has tampered with my memories."

-What do you mean? –

"I have memories of the night Angel was sent to hell, that aren't my memories, because I know where I was that night, but the memories of that night are trying to, how do you put it… overlap, they're trying to overlap the memories I have of that night."

-I can tell you right now Xander, I haven't been tampering with that kind of magic-

"I know you haven't Giles, I just don't want to forget that memories I had of that night."

-Where are you Xander? I'll come and see if I can sort out what's going on and if I can reverse it for you-

"That's, actually I'm not sure that's such a good idea Giles."

-You have magic messing with your mind and memory and you're telling me it's not a good idea to come and see you, tell me why-

"Buffy and willow won't like it."

-What on earth are you talking about? They'll be relieved you're safe-

"Giles, they're the reason I left in the first place, we'll left for a longer trip than I had originally planned to anyway."

-What do you mean? –

"I was planning to go on a road trip over the summer break, get out of Sunnydale for a while."

-I can understand that, heavens know why I didn't think of the same thing, but obviously something else happened for you to say about a longer trip-

"Buffy and Willow turned up the day I was leaving, they knocked on my front door, when I answered Buffy punched me in the face and claimed it was for lying to her, I don't recall lying to her Giles and I did, I don't know what for, she knocked me to the ground and started hitting and kicking me, yelling about her and Willow talking about an ensoulment spell, and I told her that Willow said Kick Angelus ass, instead of telling her Willow was trying the ensoulment spell again, Giles I don't know what to believe, my memories are all over the place."

-Xander, while you were in Sunnydale, do you remember being in the hospital with Willow and talking about the ensoulment spell, or going to the mansion? –

"Possibly, I have two sets of memories for that night Giles."

-Tell me where you were that night, before these other memories started-

"You'll hate me."

-I promise you I won't-

"I know you will though."

-Xander, please just tell me-

"I was with Angelus, Angel had been training me to defend myself before he lost his soul, we had our training place we'd meet up at, I fell of Angel, hard, I went there that night, hoping for a little bit of peace and calm, do some training after Kendra had been killed, but Angelus was there."

-What happened next? –

"He convinced me to stay, that he wasn't going to hurt me, he told me that since his hazy had ended, he started courting me, sending me presents. He told me how he felt about me, how Angel had felt about me, but Angel had slept with Buffy to convince himself that he didn't love me."

-Xander, what else? –

"I slept with him Giles, that's where I was that night, I woke up to an empty bed with a note on his pillow. It said he would be back soon, he just had something to take care of first… I waited for a few hours, it was day break by then and he hadn't come back, so I left, I headed home, Willow caught me the next day and demanded to know where I had been."

-What did you tell her Xander? – I thought for a moment

"I…. I don't remember."

-Xander, do you remember Willow telling you anything? –

"Yeah, she told me that Angelus was gone, the spell had worked, but he was still in Hell, and Buffy was gone too, so we'd have to pick up the slack."

-Xander, I'm not upset with you, we can't help who we fall for, but I need you to tell me where you are, I need to remove the magic on you-

"You think there's a spell or something on me?"

-I think so, as to the fact you can't remember what you said to Willow after that night, after managing to remember that night very well, I think Willow may have been playing with magic she doesn't understand, so I need to come and fix it, so, where are you? –

"I'm staying with my Uncle, my mother's brother that is."

-And he lives where? –

"Sorry, he lives in Washington DC."

-You're in Washington DC, alright, I'm going to pack a bag with some supplies and set off driving in about an hour, hopefully I should be there by the day after tomorrow, just, keep thinking about that night, your version, don't forget that, because if you do, the spell will have succeeded, I'll be there as soon as I can, maybe, maybe call Angel as well, he might be able to help-

"Thank you, Giles."

-You're welcome Xander- then the phone line went dead, I pulled the phone away from my ear and pulled up a new text message to send to Angel

/Need to talk to you about something, when you've got time that is/ I sent the text off and set my phone down on the desk. I sighed and stood from the chair, I made my way in the general direction Uncle Jethro had pointed out, to the break room. I managed to find it, after turning down the wrong passage and had a helpful Agent Balboa point me in the right direction for the break room, he even pointed out which way to the toilet which I was helpful for. I made my way over to the vending machine and pulled some change out of my pocket, I put the change into the slot and selected and can of soda, I collected it from the bottom and made my way back to the Bullpen and sat down at the desk I had been sat at before.

I noticed I had a new message from Angel, I picked up my phone to read it

\I have time for now, the stake out can't happen until sundown anyway, what do you need to talk to me about? \

/I'm not sure if talking about this over text is the best thing but I need to know, do you remember anything from your time as Angelus? /

I set my phone back down to wait for a response, I opened my can of soda and took a sip, just as my phone began to ring. I set the can down and pick up my phone, it was Angel calling, I answered

"You didn't have to ring."

-Why do you want to know if I remember? –

"A yes or no would have been find you know." I heard him growl down the phone

-Alex-

"Fine, something happened between me and Angelus the night that Buffy sent you to hell, I just wanted to know if you remembered what happened as Angelus, because Giles thinks Willow might be messing with my memories."

-What do you mean? –

"I mean I have two sets of memories from that night, I know what happened that night, but the other memories are trying to overlap the memories I have of that night and replace them, I'm already started to forget things, Giles told me to keep thinking about that night, and suggested I talk to you about it as well, thought it might help."

-Alex, this really isn't a conversation to have over the phone-

"No, it isn't, but we're just going to have to make do, because I'm in Washington DC and you're in LA." I heard him sigh down the phone

-Yes, I remember that night, I remember what you and Angelus did together, what he told you, and the drawing he left you with a note on it-

"What he said to me, about you, was that true? Do you remember what I said to him?"

-I remember it all Alex-

"That didn't answer my other question." I heard him sigh again

-I don't really want to be talking about this over the phone Alex- I sighed

"I'll take that as a 'no it wasn't true' then."

-Alex, I told you I don't want to talk about this over the phone-

"Good luck on your mission tonight."

-Alex- I hung the phone up and set it down on the desk, almost immediately it started ringing again, I glanced and saw it was Angel ringing me back, I pushed my phone away and began to draw again.