Hey guys

I am so sorry for the delayed post. Unfortunately my grandfather died last week which resulted in me taking a breaking from anything and everything related to the internet. Thank you for your patients and understanding. Without further ado: Chapter 17.

Chapter 17- Broken

Peter knocked on the door and a short and beautiful women opened the door with a smile on her face.

"Peter." Mrs Stanfeild answered, "Greg! Peter is here. Come in dear." Mrs Stanfeild pulled Peter into the warm house, "Are you ok honey?"

"Kavinsky!" Greg said coming down the stairs. He looked at Peter and realized something was wrong from his red puffy eyes, "Dude have you been crying?"

"Peter!" Another voice said from the kitchen. Audrey walked into the foyer and smiled at Peter until she too saw his eyes, "oh my god what's wrong?"

Peter kept quiet and just looked at Greg who looked concerned. Peter had only cried twice in front of his friends. Once when he thought he dislocated his shoulder and couldn't play for a while but turned out to be a minor injury. And two when he told Greg that his dad had bounced.

So Greg decided to be proactive.

"Mom!" He said, "We are gonna go to the pool house and chill."

"What?" Mrs Stanfeild said frowning, "I thought we were about to watch a game with your father."

"Do you really want to watch a game?" Audrey raised an eyebrow at her mother.

"Of course not." Mrs Stanfeild said, "But if you two are not there then Aston and Georgina have to suffer alone."

Ashton and Georgina were Greg's youngest twin sisters. They are a yeast older than Owen but go to the same middle school. Ashton was more into sports so didn't mind watching the game.

"You know they will be good," Audrey said, "Ash loves watching the game with daddy. And Georgie is on her phone anyway. So they good."

Mrs Stanfeild looked at Peter and took his hand, "I just made dinner. Should I fix you a plate?"

"I'm good Mrs S," Peter tried to smiles, "I'm sorry for barging in like this."

"You know you are always welcome." Mrs Stanfeild smiles and then they all heard a whistle come from the tv room, "I would say go greet Mr S but you know how he have that don't disturb me during a game policy."

"Which means we are going to the pool house." Greg said, "Come on Kavinsky."

Peter followed as did Audrey and when finally they got to the pool house Peter told them everything.

About 15 minutes later, Audrey's eyes are wide yet disapproving.

"Let me get this right," she says, "You used a girl who used to like you to make the girl you used to date jealous. She was happy to be used as long as it looked like she liked you in front of another guy who she used to love. Am I missing anything?" Peter shook his head, Audrey then continues, "You eventually got your ex to want you back but you don't want her. You want Lara Jean, But she doesn't want you, she wants the other guy who used to date Lara Jeans sister."

"That sounds summed up." Greg states and then gets up to switch on his Playstation.

Audrey stands up too, "We need to get high." She opens a drawer and takes out a bag of weed with scissors and paper.

Greg frowns, "Was that there the whole time?"

Audrey says nothing and sits down next to Peter, "And what's the deal with your mom?"

Peter looked at Audrey as he had not said anything to them about his mom.

"Your mom called my mom." Audrey shrugged, "You should probably know better than thinking that they don't talk."

Peter sighs, "I think the thing with my mom made me more angry than I was before I got to Lara Jean's house."

Audrey assembles the joint together as she says, "What happened?"

"My mom just said something about me in relation to my dad." Peter shrugged and looked at the screen, "I don't wanna talk about it. Please."

"Ok well we have to talk about one of your issues," Audrey shrugged and continues to make a joint, "and the one I'm going to with is Lara Jean. Actually relationships."

Greg rolls his eyes and starts playing a game on Play Station. Audrey grabs the controller from her brother.

"What the hell!" Greg snaps.

"Shut up!" Audrey says, "Listen to me both of you," She sighs before saying, "Gone are the days where you think you can use girls for you own selfish gain. Both of you did that this year and both of you felt what happens when the consequence turns around to bite you in the ass."

"You literally told me to use someone to make Gen jealous though." Peter frowned at Audrey.

"I took a feminist class this past semester," Audrey shrugged, "Upon reflection I've decided to give you a little more progressive advice"

Both Peter and Greg looked at each other and then frowned at Audrey who continued and said, "I know what I said and it was wrong." Audrey sighed, "But this Peter you know that you shouldn't have made your relationship fake." Peter looks down as Audrey continues to say, "But also you should've told Gen sooner it was over and that's that. And you should have also told her that you love Lara Jean."

"Whoa Love-" Peter's eyes went wide this was the second person to bring up the notion of love.

"Audrey lets calm down a little," Greg rolls his eyes, "Peter is not in love with Largie. Deep like maybe but not in love. I know my best friend," Greg chuckles, "Yeah sure he hangs out with her more than he did with Satan's love child, yeah sure he gets this goofy look on his face when he talks about her to us instead of the stressed out one he used to get. Yeah sure when he looks at her he gets this weird look on his face that no one else understands…"

"I speak about my dad to her." Peter frowned and whispered almost as if he was talking to himself, "She also knows me...but like knows me. She loves when I study and get good grades. When I do mess up with school she doesn't laugh at me, she just helps me again with all the patients in the world. She loves hearing about lacrosse and how much it means to me. She loves playing Fortnite with Owen and gets on great with my mom. She loves my friends."

"I won't lie I love Largie too!" Greg grinned.

"So do I…" the moment it left Peter's lips, he couldn't take it back. In fact he didn't want to.

Audrey smiles at Peter as does Greg who says, "Gotcha."

Greg knew how Peter felt but as he said he knew his best friend. It was just a matter of getting him there.

Peter couldn't help but smile at his friends and then sigh, "She loves Sanderson though and she is not talking to me."

"Fuck Sanderson," Audrey takes the joint and starts lighting it, "You have just got to fight for her."

"Are you allowed to smoke in here?" Peter says as Audrey takes a puff and as Greg's phone buzzes.

Audrey shrugs and continues to smoke. Greg looks at his phone and his eyes go wide before rapidly tapping on his phone and looking at something else before saying, "Are you sure you didn't smash Largie?"

"What?" Peter looks confused.

Audrey frowns before grabbing the phone and then in shock gives the joint to Greg as she looks at something at the phone in shock.

"What are you guys looking at?" Peter asked.

"Wait before you give him the phone." Greg takes a drag of the joint before handing it to Peter, "I know you hate smoking but your ass is going to need it."

Peter takes the joint frowning but also takes the phone. After looking straight at the phone a part of him wished he could have taken a huff of the cigarette first.

His whole facial expression fell as he watched him and Lara Jean making out in the hot tub. His one hand was in her hair the other was invisible in the water so it could have been anywhere, but Peter knew that his hand was on her lover back. But the issue is the video was now on Instagram and was being interpreted sexually, when everything that happened in the hot tub was romantic.

It was in a page called Shaderoom Teens (Adler High Edition). Peter hated that page. It was created more than a two years ago and had over 8000 followers, some of which weren't even Adler High students. The creator was anonymous as well as its contributors. Principle Thomas tried to banish the page but because he did not know who it was, it was difficult. He did promise to bring in a forensic investigation team but that never happened.

Every one he knew had been exposed on that page.

Audrey for kissing a girl at a party…

Greg for being wasted on the couch and then being thrown in the pool (that was a video that went vial).

Trevor and Sarah has video on of them fighting.

Chris for multiple things. But with Chris she would just get a portrait posted of her and the captions would be something that she allegedly did. But no concrete evidence.

Emily vomiting in a toilet.

Cheerleaders falls and gross moments.

School clubs partying, smoking or public indecency.

Teachers who made fools of themselves.

Everyone.

And this was not Peter's first time…

But this was Lara Jeans.

"Oh shit!" Peter said taking his phone out and seeing the multitude of Instagram notifications.

Audrey quickly snatched his phone from him and said, "Don't text her!"

"What!"

"That's the worst thing you can do," Audrey said, "You both just had a fight. She's probably emotional already. And chances are she hasn't even seen it yet. Besides you're a little high,"

"No I'm not."

Audrey takes the joint from Peter's hand and puts it in his mouth,"Yes you are."

Peter drags the weed and gets a full head spin the moment he does.

"Audrey is right think about it tomorrow." Greg says.

"What if she calls?" Peter asks.

"Then you answer!" Audrey says, "But trust me the last thing she wants is you consoling her."

The next morning Peter woke up on the pool house couch next to Greg. He got up, has breakfast with Greg's family before he left to go and face the wrath of his mom back home.

When he walked into the house slowly, he tried not to make a noise for his mom to hear.

"I'm doctor!" Peter jumped as he heard his aunts voice from the kitchen. He turned to find her making coffee, "I wake up early."

Peter sighed.

"Sit!" She commanded and Peter obliges sifting at the breakfast bar.

"Look I'll apologize to mom and-"Peter began but Deniese stopped him by saying, "Do you know I almost had my medical license revoked." Peter frowned because he didn't, "When we were growing up: me, your mom and your uncle Danny," Peter's uncle Daniel, Danny, had died a year before his parents split. He was the oldest and had worked in construction. He had just gotten engaged to a young lawyer named Belinda and they were planning on moving up here near mom before he got sick. It wasn't long before the cancer became terminal and he had asked his sisters to grant him permission to be drugged and die in his sleep.

"We were the three musketeers but believe it or not your mom and your uncle made me feel like I could never live on the edge," Deniese poured her nephew a cup of coffee and handed it to him, "When your uncle died I had just become a medical intern. Before he passed on he said to me, "D that bastard that married our is cheating on her. I can tell. Don't be a little bitch do something about it"", Deniese chuckles a little before saying, "He didn't wake up the next morning. I was so wrapped up in grief and comforting Belinda and making sure your mom was ok that I didn't even think about what Danny had said," Deniese sips her coffee before saying, "One day after the funeral I was at UVC picking up some book in the library… mind you I kept asking for a sign from Danny letting me know that he's good. That he's made it to heaven. Trust my brother and his wicked sense of humour to lead me to the library and catch Gayle and your father there hooking up like if teenagers." Peter is blank and says nothing, "I didn't say anything. I couldn't say anything. So I retreated, swore at my brother and came over for dinner. I don't know if you remember but there were times that your father was always wildly sick. Always vomiting and using the bathroom,"

"Oh my god what did you do?" Peter couldn't help but smile a little because during that period Owen and Peter would always break out in laughter when their father ran to the bathroom.

"I gave him fast acting over the counter laxatives every time I came over," Deniese shrugged, "I crushed it and snuck it in his food."

"You drugged my dad?"

"I drugged a cheating bastard," Deniese said, "Eventually your father figured it out. And one night when I came over in front of your mom, told her that He would be reporting me. I wouldn't be able to practice medicine ever again. So in front of your father, I told your mom the truth." Peter did not know this part of the story, he had always assumed that Peter's dad had just fine clean, "Your mom cried and cried and cried… and begged for it not to be true. And it was. She stopped crying and said, 'I need you to leave. I don't want my sons to see you like this. Especially Peter.'" Deniese sighed and then said, "He begged her to stay. He begged her to forgive him."

Peter couldn't help but feel heavy.

"You are like your father in so many ways," Deniese said, "And that might not sit well with you. But it's good things that you possess. Your father is not honest, he's not loyal and above all he can really be a piece of shit. Those qualities he doesn't have, you do." Deniese said, "He did fight for your mom Peter, she just didn't want him to fight. Because she didn't want you and your brother to see what an unhealthy relationship looks like."

Deniese took her mug and went over to Peter, "Think about that before say the things you said last night, ever again." She pats his shoulder before leaving the room.

Peter hear another pair of footsteps walk in. Peter turns and looks to see his mom standing in her robe.

Peter walks up to her and hugs hers her tightly, "I am so sorry mom."

Peter's mom holds her son, "You are so grounded this break."

Part of being grounded was that Peter was revoked of his cellphone privileges this break. So he couldn't even contact Lara Jean to see how she was doing.

"Duh dumbass," Peter told himself, "If she has seen it, she definitely hates you."

Even though Peter loved her.

He was allowed on his MacBook, for school, so Peter was able to log onto Instagram and check the post.

There were were 500 likes and even more comments.

Some of them read:

Omg I know that girl, it's Lara Jean.

Lara Jean Covey is down like that? I'm definitely sliding into those DMs. Who knows her handle?

Peter Kavinsky is dating her?? Why?

People fall pregnant easily in hot tubs. The temp in the water is just right. Don't know how good Lara Jean would look pregnant.

Isn't that Lara Jean girl friends with that home wrecker Christine? Well I suppose Lara Jean did wreck PK and Gens relationship. They were really #CoupleGoals

Peter slammed his hand in the desk hard. He was angry. He was livid and he was ready to punch someone anyone.

However he opted for doing the one thing he should have done a long time ago.

He reported the post.

He did this because he loves Lara Jean and he did not want to hurt her any further.

I'd also like to dedicate this chapter to Cameron Boyce. My grandfather died on the same day as him which made me more emotional. I grew up watching that kid shine and make me laugh. My little sister is obsessed with Decendants, so it hit us a little than it should have. How ever this past week has really helped me reflect on the prospect of talent and passion.

Both my grandfather and Cameron May have been on different levels but they were both very passionate in anything and everything they did. The one death is more personal to me but I'm using them both to reach out to anyone that's reading this and saying: if you have a skill or a goal or a talent or feel strongly about something (a cause and such), get passionate about it and stay passionate about it.

I love you all and chapter 18 will be here soon.