It felt like I was floating.

Things were flashing in and out, bright and then dark, but I was warm all over. I didn't know where I was and if I was still alive, but all I saw was the sky lit up with ships and stars, flames of beams going around me as I was slowly going to sleep, it felt like I was going to sleep.

Was I asleep?

Voices were heard floating in and out of me now as I couldn't move or feel anything, but it felt like I knew those voices. They felt and seemed familiar as if I was having another dream or a dream in a dream. It was odd, and because I couldn't move or talk, it felt like I was going along some kind of journey.

"Neyli….don't let go just yet."

"We've got you Neyli…concentrate."

"You're safe…you're safe and sound."

I felt something flicker within me, almost like the small spark was igniting and trying to get bigger and bigger. The light then as trying to get bigger, having me hear not too far away deep breaths, deep and good breaths. Almost like they were concentrating.

Visions were coming through my line of last, or lack of line of sight. It was like I was seeing the past, the images of people I knew and how they were watching me. I saw my father looking at me with a smirk, his infamous smirk, then it flashed to my mother with her kind smile that was big and pure, the same way she would smile at me as a child.

Maybe this was going to be the real end.

"You're strong, Neyli. Find the light and run to it."

"Concentrate, find the breathing and mirror it."

"He's saving you…concentrate on him."

Who was saving me? I felt so lost, but that small flicker of light was almost getting bigger, and yet it was still small and fragile.

More flashes were coming through now as I was seeing other moments coming into view. One was of me as a child, playing with Ben on the Planet Naboo through the large grassy fields. Another one flashed, my first day training with Uncle Luke as a Jedi. A third image was of me being older, crying over the thought that I lost my brother.

Oh…oh Ben.

Something was stirring within me, it was coming through slowly and carefully as I was trying to find a way to search for it. The warmth around me was getting more vibrant with every second going by, the breathing I was hearing was almost coming clearer and crisper.

Neyli….come back to me….hear my breathing….

I knew that voice, it made me try to find it within me more now as that voice sounded desperate and yet demanding. Ben…Ben was talking to me somehow, trying to get me to wake up. There was no way for me to move anything since I still had no idea where I was and how to get back to where I needed to be. But then it felt more and more like my out of body experience was slowly coming back into place. I was trying to concentrate on his breath, on how the small flicker was getting bigger and bolder.

More images were coming through, one of me starting my training as a Resistance Pilot. Another Resistance memory was of me meeting Poe for the first time. That triggered something, a set of flickering images were coming through without me realizing it and I was watching it all unfold in front of me. Poe and I meeting late in the night, kissing for the first time under the Force Sensitive Tree at his home, it was all coming back. All fo what we did together, including just recently, was making me feel the warmth and some familiarity.

I started to sync with his breath, the smaller piece of warmth was now coming back to me now as the vision in front of me was no longer dark, but it was getting lighter slowly. I wasn't anywhere, but it felt like I was going back from the darkness and into the light. It almost felt like I was coming up form being underneath the water for far too long, all of my sense being blurred and how waking back up.

Please Neyli….don't leave me like this….please come back to me….

I finally felt myself take in a breath, though it was hard to do at first. That energy from Ben was working wonders, and yet I had no idea how it was doing it. I could feel my own eyes flutter a bit now as I took another breath and I could finally almost move.

I opened my eyes, seeing the sky above me with smoke rising in the darkness. I was fluttering with my eyes, no knowing where to look first. But I saw two people look gin down right at me from above, both of the looking beyond relieved at the same time. I was relieved to see them, let alone being alive again from a moment I thought I was going to be dead.

First, I saw Rey. She was looking sweaty and a small amount of blood there on her face. But she was alive, and here I thought she was dead from what happened with her and Palpatine. Did she kill him? She grinned at me, tears were in her eyes.

But the second person I could see there made my heartbreak as we were looking at each other with locked eyes. Ben, who's arm was underneath me to cradle my body next to his, and his other hand was on my neck. I smiled very softly at him as he was grinning at me, and yet something else felt off with him.

"Ben…" I said, my voice was really hoarse and almost unbearable to use now.

"it's…" he stopped, almost like he didn't want to say more to me but his bit his tongue. Even his voice sounded off as he looked back at me, "Neyli it's okay."

I nodded, though I didn't know why I was agreeing with him when I did this. I looked at him now in confusion since something else was going on there within his face, within his body. It was like he was the one who was now trying to hold on, using all his strength. It then made me realize what he did. I looked at him in shock, Rey was looking away now since she felt like I tuned in. I was beyond shocked and mortified that he did this, and I felt it all this time without realizing it. It was Ben that was trying to bring me back to life but in the sacrifice of his own life.

I slowly got up, mostly with Ben's help and we were sitting there side by side and facing each other. it was still dark, but there was rubble all around us. We were all covered in a thin line of dust and sweat, I looked down at my body to see most of the damage. It was quiet in the sky, having em think that the rest of the Resistance ships already left to go back to base, and we were the last one there. Were they all okay? Did they all make it out alive?

I had a wound along my arm, blood was scabbing over on my forearm and I could feel a dull pain. Maybe it was from me falling over after Palpatine tried to kill me, or it was from the lightning itself, but I knew I could handle it and I dealt with worse.

But my leg was worse, along my right thigh there was a wound that seemed as big as my leg itself. The blood was not as bad, but it almost looked like it was charcoaled from the lightning blast. It felt numb, maybe it was numb from the sudden impact and I was a bit frightened now.

"Ben…what did you do?" I asked him hoarsely as I looked back at my brother, seeing him look down for a brief moment before he cleared his throat as if he was about to cry. His hand was still on my neck as we finally locked eyes. I felt terrified about what did because I knew then that he might lose more than he could afford.

"I did what I needed to do," He replied brokenly, having me see that there was a small tear there on his face, "All I wanted to do was to keep you safe."

"I know," I commented, touching his face briefly and seeing the pain there on his face. It made me look at him with a bit more remorse. I could see Rey was given us space, moving away from the both of us as I took in a very shaky breath, "I just wish we had more…more time."

"Me too," He admitted to me. He took in his own breath, already sounding raspy with how he was breathing as I could feel the sense of dread coming over me and the both of us sitting there together within our little bubble of a moment. I slowly and carefully leaned my forehead over to touch his forehead, both of us staying silent. We could feel the other and how the other's Energy was simmering and connecting. It was almost like we were becoming one like we used to do when we were children and nothing kept us apart.

"I wish there was another way," I said in a remorseful way, but Ben shook his head now as he pulled away and looked at me with a haunting look in his eyes. I could tell he wanted to tell me plenty of things, so many things were haunting him behind his eyes.

"You remember what Uncle Luke taught us when we were little, about death?" Ben asked me carefully, his voice still wavering and almost breaking towards the end. I said nothing now as I was trying to remember, but I clearly knew. It was one of the main things Uncle Luke told us about dying and death. Especially those who were Force Sensitive, the connection that we all had together and could still have though we were no longer physically present in the world.

"I do," I answered, seeing him give me one more smile and he searched my eyes. He squeezed his embrace with me once more before I felt him slowly fall backward onto the ground. Rey rushed over as I helped eased him on the ground to make more he wouldn't hurt himself. Now he was the one who was on the ground, looking right at me as I hunched over him painfully with my wounds still there.

I had to embrace what he did and why he did it. I didn't want to be the selfish one and want him to stay when he had his motives. But we were apart for so long and this was our only small moment back together.

"I won't leave you," He reminded me, having me nod as we were holding hands on top of his hand. I nodded, giving him one last smile before I saw him look briefly over at Rey. She was next to me, giving him one more smile too. I could tell they had their moment together before I woke up from being near death, and I looked at Rey, seeing some lightness back on her face. The lightness within her was strong compared to before.

But when I looked back at Ben, he was gone. I took in a shaky breath, slamming my eyes shut now as I placed my hand that was once on top of Ben's chest there along the ground. He was gone, long gone now and there was no sense of hope that he was going to come back. It was one of the moments a Jedi could have, leaving this world for another part of the Jedi journey.

I was the last in my family now, the last Skywalker.

"I can fly,"

"Doubtful, you're weak."

"Come on, Rey, I can do it."

Rey gave me a knowing look as she was helping me stagger out from the structure and back to my X-Wing. There were Destroyers all around, but my X-Wing was left untouched from all the chaos. Nothing was moving, nothing was seeping death. In fact, it was early calm, which was both frightening and unsettling. Maybe it was some kind of miracle, but I could finally hear Q2 beeping at me in fear and panic as we were approaching.

I was numb, not only from the wounds that were still fresh and making it worse for me to concentrate but also from seeing my brother's death firsthand. I knew why it was numb there within me, but I didn't even want to digest just it all just yet as now we had to leave this place, all of it behind us.

"Don't be stubborn and let your droid fly you back."

"I can…"

"Neyli, I swear to you I think Poe's stubbornness is rubbing off on you," Rey grumbled as I weakly chuckled from the thought, "Q2, fly her straight back to the base and nowhere else," Rey ordered my droid, who was now beeping at me frantically wondering what happened and why it took so long.

"Not now….buddy," I said in a groan, almost collapsing on Rey from he energy already feeling like it was slipping. But it was just exhaustion, almost like I wanted to fall asleep. Rey grunted a she kept me up, having me look at her amazement with how she was holding me up with ease. We finally made it to the side where I climb up the ladder with my shaky legs, the wounded leg making it harder for me to not grunt out and hiss in pain. Once I was finally in the cockpit, I leaned back in my seat as Rey reached over to touch some of the buttons.

"Let Q2 drive you back, Neyli," She said to me as I looked and rolled my head over to eye her, "And Q2, make sure she gets help and over to the Med Bay."

"Poe'll make sure of that," I grunted out as I was getting even more tired from just talking about it, but I paused and looked up at Rey as she was finishing getting the coordinates ready within my cockpit. I felt pathetic that she was doing this for me since it felt like My body was physically a noodle. But I reached up with my bloody hand, the same hadn't I used to push my Force Energy to save her, and I placed it on her sweaty arm. She stopped and looked at me, having me give her a tired grin.

"You're stronger than you think," I reminded her, seeing her give me a look of uncertainty, "And I'm glad to have you as my friend…after all of this happened." She grinned at me, it was a sad smile though. She mourned for Ben too, what she felt with him was different from what I had with him since he was my twin, but never the less we both mourned for him in our own manner. But I was glad I wasn't alone in this.

"You're my friend too," Rey reminded me, having me see her help me strap into my seat, "Actually," She paused, thinking to herself now as she then gave me a smaller smile now, it was genuinely more than forced, "You're like my family now."

I smiled, though I must have looked like an idiot with blood on my lips and my face beyond sweaty, seeing her look over at my droid as I felt and heard the X-Wing warming up.

"Make sure she gets there in one piece, I mean it Q2," She informed, the droid beeping in agreement as Rey finally got my helmet carefully on my head. Once it was fully one, Rey tapped my head as she gave me one more gentle look and smile before tapping me on the helmet, "I'll see you back at base,"

"You got it," I replied, seeing her finally hold down and the X-Wing roared to life. Q2 beeped in my helmet as the window and visor closed. I leaned more against my seat, feeling the X-Wing move on its own now since I knew Q2 was taking control for me.

"It's fine…Q," I said to him as he was steering us to take off into the sky, "I'm fine….please take us home."

And with the soothing feeling of the X-Wing taking off and soaring above the aftermath of the battle, I dozed off once more, somehow wish that Ben was still with me.