It took another four days of agonised hours for me to give into my desire to see Bella again, alone. Since the last time we'd spoken, she had been filled with guilt and riddled with need, so much so that her emotions almost brought me to my knees. I'd taken to avoiding her and Edward simply because I could barely contain the territorial growls which built in my throat every time Edward laid a hand on his girlfriend.

His girlfriend. With a special emphasis on HIS. I knew that what I was feeling wasn't right or even rational.

Why should one tiny human bring to life such burning need inside me? She was just a child, human, expendable, frail and inferior to us.

I'd lived a thousands lifetimes during my existence and yet I'd never experienced this level of need before.

I went through the motions with Alice, not feeling anything anymore, images of Bella driving me to release eventually. My wife just didn't arouse me anymore. I wanted Bella it seemed and none would do but her.

I was teetering on the edge of a precipice and I feared the out come would be dire.

Edward was still not quite as ardent as he had been before, his emotions loving and yet distant. I put it down to his need to protect her from his own thirst. Who was I to question his motives when my own were less than noble.

Bella tried to avoid me at all costs, but her human efforts were well wasted on such a creature as I.

I could catch her without trying and contain her struggles without any effort at all. Just the thought of her guilt stricken self trying to escape me made the monster buried deep within me purr.

My chance came to me far quicker than I'd anticipated, Alice was going shopping with Esme and Rose, Bella of course detested shopping so she opted out of their little trip. Edward, Carlisle and Emmett were going hunting and of course I was invited. But I opted out explaining, quite truthfully that I'd hunted the night before.

I had been hunting far more than I usually did, in an attempt to keep the beast within me under control.

I sat reading in the living room, on the opposite side from where she sat watching TV as they left us. Edward kissed her lips as he left, his fingers caressing the think rope of silken dark hair where it lay across her slender shoulder. I envied his fingers their familiarity with her body. My own fingers longed to stroke every inch of her soft white skin. Such beauty in a human was pure cruelty I decided, it was unnatural to be so attracted to ones food source.

Bella Swan was a goddess, a sublime beauty, her eyes filled with a luminescence I found spellbinding.

I could feel the shift, the moment they disappeared completely, her feelings were instantly relieved and curious as she pretended to flick through the channels to find something to watch.

I watched her with an intensity I didn't bother to hide. I dropped all pretence of reading as I allowed myself to adsorb every seductive inch of her. Her breaths quickened as she became aware if my scrutiny, her lips parting to allow the fitful gasps to escape tinging the air with her delicious scent.

Not bothering to even act human, I laid the book on the table and leaned forward in my chair, facing her, hands carefully folded between my knees.

She still ignored me although her heartbeat betrayed her knowledge of my attention.

I grinned at her aloof profile, as I raked my hair out of my eyes. I decided to bait her, to draw her out.

What I wanted from her I didn't know. As vast as my mind was, I'd not dwelt on the outcome of any further interaction between us. There couldn't be anything lasting between us, I was simply puzzled by her and my startling reaction to her.

Bella perplexed me.

"You're right, you know." I stated quietly. I stopped there and waited for her to take the bait.

Without meaning to I amplified the desire I was feeling, the thrall she exuded making my vampire senses salivate for a taste of her warm perfection. I could share any emotion I felt and even control another's desires if I so wished, although it had been many years since I had done this, it came as second nature.

I watched as her rounded shoulders stiffened as my need hit her, goose flesh eloped across her milky flesh and then a small gasp left her mouth.

"I do enjoy being able to control situations and people when necessary. It used to be my one great joy, but it's been too long since I used it to its full capacity." I watched entranced as Bella shuddered, her hand dropping the remote control carelessly on top of her lap, her head falling backwards slightly, lips still slightly open invitingly.

"Alice convinced me to only use it when others needed it or when I saw a way to prevent some disaster with my gift, she thought that any other way was wrong. What do you think, Darlin'?"

At last her eyes lifted to mine and I growled out loud at the expression in those golden brown, honeyed depths. The animalistic sound didn't scare her as I thought it might, she only whimpered, a soft little cry that went straight to my cock.

"I think that you are evil to use it on me in this way, Jasper...is this how you feel? Is that what I'm feeling inside me, everywhere inside me, I feel you. And it's not fair..." she dazed me with her words, my teeth elongating into fangs as I watched the flush of passion bloom on her cheeks.

"Why is it not fair, darlin'? Shouldn't you know how you make me feel? And I am evil, the very devil for wanting you in ways I can't explain, in ways I shouldn't, in ways that are sinful to man, God and immortal ...and yet I feel it, so keenly. It's like you're killing me, Bella, and I'm already dead."

Her fingers formed claws as she clutched at the fabric of the sofa she sat on, her eyes trapped by mine.

The bond we had formed before was still there, it was easy to reopen the channel between us, it was a warm tangible thing, our bond. It was red velvet, sweet bloody silk, the life blood that pulsed through her veins and the passion I felt for her flesh.

It was need and want to fierce it drove me insane with longing.

We both cried out as that non physical bond was reaffirmed, we had not touched and yet we were bound as closely as if we were intertwined on the floor at our feet.

"Oh God Jasper, it's too much!" She whispered as her limbs shook and her heart raced dangerously close to bursting.

"It's everything. .." I said as I shared with her every ounce of lust I felt for her. "Feel me, Darlin', deep inside..."

Bella moaned as her back arched off the sofa and her long hair fell off the edge, trailing onto the floor. Her hand reached between her supple thighs and I bit my lip as she stroked her fingers across her sex, pressing to relieve the pressure.

I clenched my fists tightly as I fought the urge to go to her and take every inch of her as I was dying to do.

"Please...please...Jasper, touch me, I need you, I don't know why, or how this happened, but I do know that I cannot breath when you are not around...touch me and make me whole..."

"Bella, I can't touch you that way, I don't have to tell you tales nor do I have to embellish how dangerous it is for you to want me near you. I want your body and I want your mind, but I also want to eat you alive...I want to taste your flesh and drink your blood. You are not safe with me, darlin' you never were. It was all a lie..."

Warm brown orbs regarded me, half crazy with need, "Take me." She whispered, those simple words flooring me with the desire to do as she asked. No fear touched her emotions, as I shared with her every ounce if her passion for me. "Make me yours for all eternity." She said, her delicate hand still rubbing her swollen sex, it's delicious scent tempting me still further.

I allowed my baser nature to take over, to let her see what she was asking. I knew my eyes were black as pitch by now, as I stared into her eyes, I smiled revealing my fully extended canines. "Bella you don't know what you ask. I'm not human, and I'm not a hero. I'm the monster in the story, Edward is far more worthy than I am. He fights his need to take you, but I would not."

Bella other hand slipped upward and cupped her own breast, tiny fingers plucking at the tight bud. "I need to be with you...I only feel right when you're there. You must know it, can't you feel it, Jasper? I think we are meant to be together."

"You had better pray that your wrong, darlin'," I stated. "Because if you were mine to take, I would consume every part of you and never let you go."

I at once sensed the return of one of my siblings, far south, about five minutes out.

I severed the bond instantly and watched as Bella stopped touching her self and slumped onto the sofa.

An embarrassed flush settled on her cheeks as she continued to watch me in return.

"I'm sorry." She said softly, biting on that lower lips which I longed to sink my teeth into.

I grinned at her, "Don't be." I replied, rising at supernatural speed to stand before her. At her questioning look at finished; "It was all true, and some truths, darlin', are best brought out into the open."

I went towards the door at human pace, "Where are you going?"

"Emmett is nearly back. We shall have to meet again." I said calmly.

Bella sat up and asked; "Where shall we meet?"

"I will find you." I said as I left the room.