(6) I Won't Let Go

A/N: Blaine's parents will be briefly introduced in this chapter. I really don like the whole unaccepting father theme, so Blaine's parents are cool with him being gay.

Another thing: I HATED the way RIB trolled us by making Blaine a junior, so Klaine is the same age here

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Blaine woke up the next day as a sun beam peeking through Kurt's blinds hit his eyes. His arms had managed to wrap themselves around Kurt. Kurt had turned in his sleep so that his back was towards Blaine. He nuzzled his face into Kurt's back, trying to force himself back to sleep. When he realized that he wouldn't he able to, he just laid there, not wanting to wake up Kurt.

He brought his hand up to the back of Kurt's head and lightly stroked his hair. He paused slightly when he felt the ridges that came from the stitches placed in the lower region on his skull. Blaine clenched his teeth and tried to stop his eyes from watering in vain. He took in a shaky breath.

He was pissed. He was pissed off that anybody would hurt Kurt. Pissed off that Karofsky got a trial he didn't deserve. That he even got a chance at freedom.

But most of all, he was pissed off that he hadn't been able to do anything to stop it. If anything, he was responsible...

Kurt stirred a little as his eyes slitted open. He turned to face Blaine who had tears in his eyes and rolling down his cheeks. He furrowed his eyebrows. "Blaine? Are you ok?"

Blaine buried his head into Kurt's chest and his whole body shook with sobs. "I'm just... I'm so sorry Kurt. This... It's all my fault. The whole damn thing. I'm so sorry."

Kurt grabbed onto the back of Blaine's shirt and rubbed his back, trying to comfort him. "It's NOT your fault Blaine! This- these things... It's not your fau-"

Blaine shot his head up. "Yes it is!" his eyes had gone red from crying. "I- I should've never told you to stand up to him. If I hadn't told you..."

"Blaine! Look at me." Blaine lifted his head and faced Kurt. "This is NOT your fault... You didn't tell him to do this to me. You didn't force him to do this... This isn't your fault... None of it is."

Blaine stared at Kurt. God, he was falling for him so bad right now. If only the situation was different. He wrapped his arms around Kurt in a hug. He closed his eyes. Jesus... He loved the way he felt, wrapped around Kurt. But he hated the fact that this was how he'd discovered his feelings. They'd probably never be able to be anything mote than friends. He finally pulled away. "I think I should go home and explain to my parents why I wasn't at school. They'd be worried."

Kurt nodded. "Yeah, I need to get ready for school, anyways." they got out and got dressed. By the time they went downstairs, Finn was already at the table eating Count Chocula.

With a mouthful of the chocolate cereal in his mouth he asked "Wha oo ooin' uh sho eary?"

"Finn. Food. Mouth." said Kurt.

Finn wiped some milk from his mouth and repeated. "What're you doing up so early?"

"Well," started Blaine. "I have to go because my parents might be worried if they get a call from my school that I have two unexcused absences in the last week."

Kurt smiled at him and it took all the self control Blaine had not to melt right there. "Well, I guess I'll see you around?"

Blaine smiled right back at him. "You know it." he grabbed his things and headed out the door to his house.

"What about you?" asked Finn.

Kurt gave him a bitch-please look. "I need to get ready for school. It's Monday, in case you didn't know."

Finn's eyes went wide. "What! No! Kurt, you can't go back to school!"

"And why not? Karofsky's been arrested. He's probably being held in custody already."

"Kurt... I just..." he inhaled deeply. "My mom's off this week. She's still asleep, but she'll wake up later. Please, just stay home. Just for today... For me?"

Kurt sighed. "Fine... I guess I can figure out how to keep myself entertained for eight hours."

Finn smiled as he grabbed his backpack and headed out door. "I'll see you when I get home. Take care of yourself and don't do anything to crazy... Or... Whatever..."

Kurt huffed and rolled his eyes. "Yes, MOTHER!" he said sarcastically.

The second the door closed behind Finn, Kurt collapsed in a chair, buried his hands in his face, and began to cry. He didn't want anybody to see him like this. Like all he was- all he'd become - was a sobbing pile of pity. No. He wasn't going to let what happened define who he was, or what people thought of him. He would put on a brave face when he had to. He knew he was damaged for good, but nobody needed extra pressure from him to need any taking care of. Nobody could EVER see this side of him. Everyone needed to see the him that was to be admired for his talent and whatnot. Not the side of him that was to be pitied.

Kurt Hummel would not let himself become a sob story.

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When Blaine reached his house, before going inside, he placed his forehead in the steering wheel and began to cry. No matter what Kurt said, he would always feel responsible for what happened. This whole thing was his fault. He'd given Kurt advice that he was to cowardly to follow himself. His damn hypocrisy had gotten Kurt raped.

After about eighteen minutes, he got off his car and walked inside. "Mom..? Dad..?" His parents were sitting at the table. His mom was still in her robe, but his dad was ready to go in his business suit.

"Blaine?" his dad called. "We thought you wouldn't be coming home until Christmas break."

"Um... Yeah... Some things... Came up." he said grimly.

His mother waved him over. "Come sit down, have some breakfast." Angie's son looked ill. He wasn't his normal self and he looked like he'd been crying.

"I'm not very hungry..." He took a seat next to his mom. "You remember Kurt?"

His father smiled. "That nice boy that tried to spy on the Warblers a few weeks ago?" He'd never seen Blaine come home from a wedding so giddy. Hell, he hadn't seen Blaine this happy in a really long time, or ever, for that matter.

"Yeah, well... The- the other day..." His lower lip quivered and he buried his face into his mother as she held him while his whole body shook with sobs. Why was it that Blaine couldn't get a grip whenever he thought of what had happened to Kurt?

"Blaine! Honey what's wrong?"

Blaine took a few shaky breaths before looking up and answering her. "He... He was raped." he whispered. He buried his face against his mom again and she held him tighter.

"Oh my god..."

"And it's all my fault!" He could hardly get any sentences out without sobbing. "He- we invited him- back for-for coffee... I told him- to stand up to his- bully- and he- he... Oh god..! God! I'm so stupid! Why, just... Why?"

Robert had come and wrapped his arms around his son and wife. Both of Blaine's parents had started crying. "Blaine?" said his father. Blaine looked up at him, eyes red and puffy. "You- you should stay home today... I don't think you're in any condition to be in public for a while."

Crying had taken so much juice out of him that Blaine didn't even have the energy to argue. He had a massive headache from all the sobbing. He just nodded and headed upstairs to his room.

He laid down on his bed and tried to cry himself to sleep. But somehow, falling asleep wasn't as easy without Kurt in the same bed.

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A/N: I need to apologize for that chapter... I have a minor case of writer block and I'm having trouble figuring out how to move the plot forward, but when I do, I promise (The Pessimistic Part of My Head: "Don't make promises you can't keep!") it will be worth the wait. (hopefully?)

Ps. I just wanna clear things up if there's any confusion. Kurt didn't stand up to Karofsky until sometime AFTER "Furt" and "Special Education" but before "A Very Glee Christmas". And um... I'm sorry if this is sorta dropping a bomb on you guys, but the Warblers lost at Sectionals... *hides from stones being thrown at her*