(12) I Won't Let Go
A/N: I'm so sorry for the late update... I had a bad case of writers block (I know where the story's going, just don't know how to get it there :/) and I thought that watching Glee could cure it (since it usually helps)... I picked the wrong episode to watch... Yep, On My Way (why I torture myself like that by rewatching such a heavy episode is a mystery to me)... Basically, I was bawling my eyes out and yelling at the TV for forty three minutes and it made it impossible for me to think anything bad of David Karofsky, who I actually like as a character ON THE ACTUAL SHOW, NOT HERE. Two different Davids... But yeah... My heart was breaking for him so I couldn't even hate him in this or any fic /:
And to add onto that, I sorta lost my will to write when my I left my iPod on the table and one of my brothers unlocked it an found all my Fanfics and laughed at them... Nothing major, but still kinda stung
And to add to THAT I had my iPod taken away for reasons that I would rather not discuss that involve my old geography teacher being a moron and my mother never believing anything I say...
And another thing, I've been EXTREMELY busy with a Family Reunion that involved my Quinceañera and lost of decorating and work and partying and saying hi to relatives from (brace yourself because my family is HUGE) *takes deep breath* Florida, New York, Kansas, Arizona, Oregon, Idaho, Mexico, Germany, California, and right here in Texas...
Anyways... I know that the story has slowed down a bit, and there might be less drama an a bit more Kluff (my word for Klaine fluff... Criticize it not por favor... I have an addiction with mashing up names of like, everything...) but I promise you that things will get more interesting plot-wise after Christmas(?) Ok, long, rambling blah blah blah excuses excuses... A/N over, on with the story!
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Blaine dragged his suitcase through the door of the Hudmel household and up the stairs to Kurt's room. As he began unpacking, he asked. "Kurt, are you sure that your dad is ok with us staying in the same room now that we're..." He turned to Kurt. "What are we?"
Kurt walked up to Blaine, grabbed his hands and intertwined them. "In love?" he asked with a sheepish smile.
Blaine smiled and nodded. "Definitely." Kurt leaned in and kissed Blaine. Blaine was fighting the urge to deepen the kiss. God only knew what could trigger Kurt's memory and make him flip out again. He couldn't live with himself if he kept continuing to be the cause of Kurt's flashbacks.
Kurt pulled away when he sensed that Blaine was tense. "Are you ok?"
Blaine nodded and swallowed, then shook his head. "I just keep remembering what happened on our date... I don't wanna do anything to make you uncomfortable..."
Kurt looked down. "I'm sorry." he whispered.
"What? No!" cried Blaine. He held Kurt's chin and slowly lifted it up until their eyes met. He shook his head. "That's not what I meant at all. I just... I want to make sure that you're completely comfortable around me."
"I'm only comfortable when you're around me."
Blaine smiled. "So, what do you wanna do?" he asked as they finished unpacking.
"Well," began Kurt. "The tree still needs to be decorated. Usually it's just me and my dad, but this is our first Christmas as a family, so maybe we could actually do this together," he said with a shrug.
"That sounds fantastic."
Kurt smiled and led him down the stairs by the hand where they almost crashed straight into Burt. "Whoa!" Said Burt. "I was just about to go see if you guys were coming down to help with the decorating."
"Funny thing, actually," started Blaine. "We were about to see if everyone else was ready to do the same."
Burt nodded. "Come on down kiddos," he twitched his head in the direction of the living room. "The rest of the family's waiting already." He paused and turned to Blaine. "That means you, you know? After all you've done... For us... For Kurt... You are a part of this family, Blaine."
Blaine smiled as he fought back tears. This meant so much to him. He smiled and wrapped a rather taken aback Burt in a hug. "Thank you Mr. Hu-Burt..." He released him from his grip and they all went to the living room where Finn was standing up the tree.
"Hey guys!" called Finn as he placed the stump into the water. "I'm almost finished setting it up, so as soon as I do finish, though, we can start decorating."
Just as he finished, Kurt smiled and pointed to the lights. "Finn, can you pass me those snowflake lights over there so we can start stringing them?"
"Sure thing," he grabbed the box of lights and handed them to Blaine who passed it over to Kurt.
Kurt opened the box and the five stood in a circle around the tree, passing around the lights as they strung them in a spiral motion.
With all the laughter and joy being spread around the room, if someone had been on the outside looking in, they might've thought they were watching a family movie instead of a tragedy.
Burt pulled an ornament put of a box and stared at it with his hand over his mouth for a while before his eyes began to water. From the back, Blaine could only see a smooth rectangular surface. From what he could make out, it seemed like some sort of picture frame.
Kurt, curious to see what it was, made his way to his dad's side where he too began to get emotional.
Slowly, the rest of the family gathered around them to see a picture of a younger Burt and a baby Kurt reaching up at his father's hat along with a woman who had Kurt's eyes and complexion laughing beside them.
"Is... Is that-?" questioned Blaine cautiously.
Kurt bit his lip as he nodded and leaned back against Blaine's chest. "That's my mom..."
"You ok, kiddo?" asked Burt.
Kurt nodded. "Can-" he looked up to his father with pleading eyes. "Can I have it?"
Burt nodded slowly. He knew Kurt didn't have many pictures of his mother, and almost none of them together as a family. He swallowed back the lump in his throat. "Um, why-why don't you guys uh, go upstairs... I think we're pretty much done with the tree."
Finn, Kurt, and Blaine all nodded and headed up to their rooms.
Blaine followed Kurt into his room. "Are you ok?"
Kurt nodded as he wiped his eyes. "You know," he began as Blaine sat next to him and wrapped a comforting arm around his shoulders. "Life. Is. Insane..."
Blaine pursed his lips and nodded slowly. "I-if you don't mind my asking." he turned to face his boyfriend. "How... How did your mom..?"
Kurt sighed and looked down. He took a deep breath and looked back up at the ceiling. "She was on her way home from work one day. A drunk driver ran a red light and she was just in the wrong place at the wrong time..." He gave a halfhearted laugh and looked back down. "Must run in the family..."
"Hey... Don't- just try to stay positive. Keep your spirits up-"
"Yeah, because there's obviously a silver lining in this hellhole of a situation..." remarked Kurt, his voice dripping with sarcasm. Immediately, Kurt regretted taking that tone with Blaine. "I'm sor-"
"Don't... Don't say that you're sorry, Kurt. You have nothing to be sorry for." comforted Blaine.
He began to tremble and buried his face into Blaine's chest. "I don't even know anymore... I just don't know... It's all- it's all just too much... Sometimes I don't know if I can handle it."
Blaine pulled back and looked him in the eye. "If you ever-EVER-feel like you can't handle it, just..." He swallowed the lump forming in his throat. "I want you to know that I will be here. Forever."
Kurt just nodded and they fell asleep in each other's arms.
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Blaine's eyes fluttered open just as a ray of sunlight coming in from the blinds hit them. The first thing he realized was that his arms were wrapped around Kurt. He smiled and nuzzled his face into the back of his head, inhaling deeply the scent of the person he loved most.
His eyes shot wide open as a second through crossed his mind.
Christmas.
It was Christmas. He nudged his sleeping boyfriend a little. "Kurt. Hey, Kurt. Wake up. It's Christmas."
Kurt turned to face Blaine as his eyes fluttered open and he stretched. "Hmm." he smiled when he saw Blaine, hair natural, in his pajamas, excited smile on his face. "I already love my present." Kurt sat sat up and placed a hand behind Blaine's head. He pulled their faces together and kissed him. When they pulled away, Kurt smiled.
"Merry Christmas." Blaine smiled. "Cmon!" he twitched his head in the direction of the stairs. Kurt smiled as Blaine took him by the hand and they rushed downstairs.
Burt, Finn (it was a miracle that he was up before Kurt) and Carole were already waiting downstairs in a circle around the tree. She waved her hand over. "Come on boys! We're just about to open presents!"
With huge smiles, they sat down on the rug along with the rest of the family.
"Ok!" began Carole. "We'll each choose one present to open first, then, it's every man for himself! I'll open yours, Finn." she smiled sweetly at her son.
"Thanks mom." He smiled back.
"I'll open Kurt's." said Blaine.
Kurt smiled and decided to open Blaine's, Burt opened Carole's, and Finn opened Burt's. "On the count of three... One... Two... Three!" Everyone opened their gifts simultaneously.
Finn got a Call Of Duty game, Burt got Mellencamp's Greatest Hits album, Blaine got the entire DVD collection of Harry Potter, and Carole got a Make Your Own Cheesecake kit from Finn.
Kurt sat there, rendered speechless by the gift that sat inside the little red and green box. He swallowed and tears formed at the rims of his eyes as he pulled out the small, pink, heart shaped bottle from it's case. He looked up at his boyfriend with a smile. "Finn told me about how you'd go into your parents room to smell her perfume," explained Blaine. "I figured that after you moved-"
He was cut off by Kurt throwing himself and tackling Blaine in a hug. "I love it... I love you... And everything about you." He pulled away and smiled. "Here's to our first Christmas together."
Blaine returned the smile, his eyes filled with adoration and love. "The first of many."
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A/N: ... ... ... Fuck it... I'm really REALLY sorry! I'm usually a hell of a lot better at Christmas things but I have no idea what the actual fuck happened here. So, that's it for Xmas :( up next is the start of the trial, which I've been looking forward to writing... Hopefully it won't be as shitty as the last two have been :(
Also, hey! Almost to 50 reviews! Yay :) 50th Reviewer gets special mentions and Klaine love!
On a happier note:
HOLY FUCKERS THEY RELEASED THE VIDEO OF THE BOX SCENE AND IT'S SO AMAZINGLY BEAUTIFUL! IT AMAZING AND JUST AgBZfdkwoakHjdhalDk IF YOU HAVEN'T SEEN IT, GO SEE IT, NOW! ITS PERFECTLY IMPERFECT! I NEVER THOUGHT I'D SAY THIS BUT... I FUCKING LOVE YOU RYAN FUCKING MURPHY! (i had no acces to a computer so yeah this is a AN from the past)
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