Sebastian VS Kurt
2009
Kurt arrived at the Lima Bean an hour early and sat waiting in his car for forty of those minutes before entering the cafe and waiting anxiously at an empty table next to the door. He knew Blaine well enough to know his seat would allow him to walk up behind Blaine unnoticed and hopefully add a hint of casualness to the otherwise jittery Kurt.
When Blaine walked in it was about five minutes after 10. The five minutes was enough to send Kurt into multiple fear-filled fantasies about why Blaine might not be there but his late arrival made Kurt feel as though the five minutes had been only a moment and nothing else mattered except seeing Blaine again.
"Oh, sorry I'm late." Blaine gushed, as Kurt knew he always did. "I'm usually much better at showing up on time. You weren't waiting long were you?"
"No, of course not!" Kurt laughed, mentally wondering if Blaine genuinely believed he was ever on time without Kurt making him be. "I just got here. Perfect timing."
"Oh good." Blaine smiled removing his scarf and jacket and stepping into the line. "Have you ordered yet?"
"I haven't." Kurt smiled.
They didn't speak while in line but after sitting down, speaking was as easy as breathing. Blaine listened patiently while listening to Kurt talk about his bullies at school, mainly Korofsky, and Kurt listened willingly to Blaine's replies. He saw a spark of anger in Blaines eyes, well hidden and undetectable to people who didn't know him. Had that been there the first time? Or had what Kurt told him gotten worse as more time passed with Kurt suffering it? He wasn't sure. Everyday since the moment he realised he might not magically return to his life as he'd known it had been more painful than anything the bullies could have done. He knew exactly what his happily ever after looked like and what he'd overcome to get it. Now he stared it in the eyes but it barely even knew he existed. Kurt was sure he could take any amount of hatred that people could pointlessly have towards him based on his sexuality or style, but he could not survive being without Blaine.
"I know my father would let me go to Dalton if he understood how bad it was." Kurt replied confidently to Blaines second attempt to convince him that Dalton might be a better fit. "I've been hiding it from him, so he didn't have to hurt with me, but it is starting to seem a little counter-intuitive."
"You are so incredibly brave, Kurt." Blaine praised, resting his chin on his propped hand. "I honestly cannot believe how... composed you are. I certainly wasn't." He made a face that Kurt knew well, and hated, as Blaine internally attacked himself for being what he considered a coward and running away from his old school.
"You are brave, Blaine." Kurt promised putting a hand forward on top of Blaines. "And you will have many opportunities to prove it."
"I hope you're right." Blaine whimpered putting his hand over Kurts, and staring longingly into Kurts shoulder, but only for a few moments before he collected himself once more and pulling away. "B-But anyways, how are the New Directions? Have you started preparing for nationals?"
"Regionals was yesterday." Kurt laughed softly.
Blaine smiled a little and shrugged.
"Hello there." Both boys looked up at the voice they both found familiar. Sebastian stepped towards the table with a coffee in his hand and a threatening grin stretched across his face. "Blaine." He greeted. "Who is this?"
"Sebastian!" Blaine greeted with a wide, surprised smile. Sebastian moved to stand next to Blaine, lowering his face to kiss him which Blaine willingly met. Kurt felt acid pump out of his stomach and into the back of his throat at the sight but fought to maintain a straight face. "Kurt, this is my boyfriend, Sebastian. Seb, this is my new friend Kurt."
Kurt waved and smiled because he doubted he'd be able to produce words.
Sebastian smiled at Kurt as he pulled out a chair and took a seat.
"Nice to meet you Kurt." Sebastian seemed serious as he offered his hand over the table to Kurt who unwillingly accepted it, only because he trusted that Blaine would value Sebastians opinion of Kurt. He wouldn't be able to win over Blaine if Sebastian convinced him that Kurt was a bad person. "You're from... New Directions, right? You're the boy who got really upset backstage."
Blaine put a hand on Sebastians shoulder to stop him. They shared a quick look before returning their glance to Kurt.
Sebastian changed his tone immediately, though. "What have you two been talking about?"
"I was just asking whether they had started preparing for nationals." Blaine answered.
"But Blaine, regionals were yesterday." Sebastian laughed giving Kurt a knowing look. Kurt tried but he couldn't find anything malicious or suggestive in Sebastians expression. Maybe, Kurt thought for a moment, he really did care about Blaine and his treatment of Kurt and the New Directions was just his anger and jealousy that he never had him.
No, Kurt thought, Blaine is mine and Sebastian is Satan. I must save Blaine.
"Nationals is a big deal." Blaine reminded them both. "You don't just put it off until a week before."
"I'm sure we will start talking about it on Monday." Kurt agreed with a small smile.
"So, Kurt, are you feeling better after yesterday?" Sebastian wondered. Kurt was almost convinced Sebastian cared. Momentarily, Kurt thought that maybe this was why Blaine had been so oblivious before, because when he wasn't stealing candy from babies or trying to set animal shelters on fire, Sebastian really did seem like a decent, normal guy.
"I am, thank you." Kurt continued to force his smile. He couldn't imagine anything could be worse than seeing Blaine with Sebastian, and if he was wrong then he didn't want to know.
"I know, the first time on stage can be very jarring." Sebastian purred with a small smirk and a tone Kurt was sure was meant to provoke him. Kurt took a breath and tried to shake off his history with Sebastian so that he could focus on what he was saying now. Kurt needed to stay focused if he wanted to free Blaine. "But your original songs idea was a good one. Very... cute. But also very risky."
Something about Sebastians tone made Kurts stomach turn.
"Well, sometimes you need to risk it to get a reward." Kurt mused only because he could think of no other response for the jackal across from him currently holding Blaines hand.
"I agree." Sebastian purred again. "I'm a personal fan of taking risks, myself."
He winked at Kurt who had to fight not to recoil from it. What game is he playing at now? Kurt wondered but looked back at Blaine who was the only person Kurt thought really mattered.
The three boys continued talking for nearly an hour and from an outside perspective it could almost seem as if they were a trio of friends rather than the two separated lovers and snake-in-disguise that Kurt viewed them as.
"I have to be going." Blaine said suddenly, looking at his phone to see two missed calls from his mother. "Sebastian, did you want to leave with me or do you have something else?"
"I'd actually love to stay here and get to know Kurt a little better, but I will call you tonight." Sebastian promised, kissing Blaine once more.
"Alright." Blaine smiled, then looked at Kurt and said, "Sorry I have to go. My brother is coming home for a couple days and my mom wants us to pick him up at the airport. It was great spending time with you. Text me and we can hang out again."
"I will." Kurt smiled through clenched teeth knowing that in a moment he'd be sitting alone with the boy he hated who'd been deluded into thinking he had any right to touch Blaine. He was fairly certain that Sebastian's wanting to stay behind had something to do with a warning for Kurt to stay away from Blaine, and just as Sebastian had with him, he would state how little Sebastian deserved Blaine and his intentions to win him over.
They did not speak until the door had closed behind Blaine and to Kurts great discomfort, the boy smiled at him just as friendly as he had when Blaine was there and asked, "do you ever work with your dad at the shop?"
"Not really." Kurt mumbled.
"Damn, I imagine working with cars would be pretty hot." Sebastian grinned before his face turned a little more serious. "Nothing about you strikes me as sexually threatening, Kurt."
"Thank you?"
"It wasn't a compliment but you're welcome." Sebastian mused, "yet there is something inside me that tells me maybe I should be worried about your intentions with my boyfriend. I'm sure I must be crazy,"
"You are." Kurt answered immediately and confidently, not because he didn't intend to go after Blaine and proudly, but because he thought Sebastian was crazy.
Sebastian laughed though, and seemed suddenly a little more relaxed. "I'll admit Kurt, I have definately enjoyed some fun times, and Blaine will certainly not be my first, but I haven't genuinely wanted someone the way I want him and I can assure you I will not let someone into our lives if they indent to take him from me."
"Careful, Sebastian, that almost sounds possessive." Kurt warned.
"It's not." Sebastian replied, then smiled a little more. "But now that we are a little more clear, would you like to go for a walk with me?"
Kurt wanted to roll his eyes and ask Sebastian what was wrong with him but he didn't and instead said, "I have to go too, actually. My dad wants me to help him prepare for a family dinner."
It was a lie and one Kurt struggled to form as he spoke but it worked well enough.
"Oh, that's a shame." But Sebastian never lost him sly smile. "Well, it was very nice meeting you. I hope to see you again sometime."
Kurt gathered his things rather quick and was ready to go by the time Sebastian had stopped talking. He offered Sebastian one last forced smile and walked out to his car.
At about 9pm while Kurt was preparing for bed he received a text from Blaine and they continued to talk until they fell asleep. Not in the same way they had when they were dating but in the friendliest way Kurt could manage so that he didn't scare Blaine away. A few times during the night Kurt thought about what Sebastian had said to Blaine that had annoyed Kurt so much back when the roles had been reversed so that he didn't have to deal with Sebastian's jealousy. Although he wanted to make Sebastian unhappy, he didn't doubt he would be successful in blocking Kurt's budding friendship with Blaine. Kurt had no hold or claim on Blaine that could challenge his new boyfriend.
He also considered everything Blaine had ever told him he'd found secretly appealing about Kurt while they were friends and tried his best to incorporate those things. It felt almost like a job more than a budding romance, but at least he had the memory from their first time around so that if the universe didn't correct himself, he wouldn't have any unpleasant feelings about how intensely he was trying to woo Blaine.
Kurt and Blaine texted throughout the week and made plans for a movie night on Friday. Kurt told Blaine they'd watch anything he wanted because he wanted to make sure Blaine felt comfortable and happy. Kurt didn't even mind if Blaine decided they would watch the entire Star Wars saga or transformers or something, Kurt would be happy with it because he got to spend the time with Blaine.
Finn had a date, with whom Kurt had been too occupied to care. He knew how that story ended anyways and just wanted Finn to be happy for the remainder of his time. Kurt had also bought Burt and Carol a romantic night at a hotel to get them out of the house. He pretended it was for a minor anniversary he was surprised they didn't remember.
Then he'd filled his living room with all of the best movie snacks, and all Blaines favorite snacks, including cronuts he'd had to drive three hours to find. He would have made them but he wanted to make sure they were perfect and he'd never really learned how to make them. This wouldn't be the best time to experiment. He also ordered Blaine's favorite pizza which arrived ten minutes after Blaine was meant to. He put it in the oven to keep it warm and nervously returned to the living room to wait. Kurt decorated the living room the best he could for his little party of two and waited anxiously on the ready couch for Blaine to arrive.
Kurts heart fluttered as he raced to the door and found Blaine looking guilty and upset.
"Hi." Kurt went from excited to worried in an instant but then Blaine started apologizing so Kurt assumed his expression was in response to his tardiness.
"I'm so, so-so sorry I'm late. Really, Kurt." Blaine gushed as Kurt lured him into the house. "And I really hope you do not mind, but I brought Sebastian."
Blaine, it is incredibly rude to show up fifteen minutes late with an extra guest. Especially one the host despises, Kurt thought, if I didn't already love you, this might be a deal breaker.
"Oh." Kurt forced an artificial smile. "Of course not. More the merrier. Where is he?" Kurt looked out the door but didn't see Sebastian.
"He's parking." Blaine answered exhaustively then breathed as he removed his coat, "We had a bit of a fight."
"Oh no," Kurt gasped. "Nothing serious I hope."
"No, I don't think so, it smells good, what is that?" Blaine asked, perking up a little as he ventured further from the door.
"Pizza. I haven't eaten yet and I figured everyone likes pizza." Kurt shrugged, then jumped a little as Sebastian arrived at the door. Unlike Blaine, he did not seem at all phased by his forced intrusion.
"Mm, it smells good. Pizza?" Sebastian wondered.
"Yes." Kurt glared. "Please, come on in."
"I brought a couple movies." Blaine said as Sebastian handed his coat to Kurt to hang up. "I got ones I thought you'd like."
"That's very thoughtful, Blaine, but I wanted you to choose." Kurt smiled as he walked to get the pizza.
"Well, I sort of did." Blaine replied following. "I ordered them from what I wanted to watch most to least. You can choose from that list, though."
"How many?" Kurt wondered.
"Just three," Blaine glanced over Kurts shoulder as he bent to get the pizza. "What kind is that?"
"Your favorite." Kurt answered mindlessly. Then he froze, slightly panicked as Blaine laughed and walked to open the box.
"No way, that is my favorite." Blaine laughed in surprise.
"Oh, mine too." Kurt lied with a smile. "What movie did you choose first?"
"Moulin Rouge." Blaine answered surprising Kurt.
"Why?" Was Kurts response.
Blaine looked nervous suddenly, and carefully answered. "Well... I... thought you'd like it the most."
"Yea-yes! Of course I do like it." Kurt stammered. "I'm just so surprised you would guess that."
"And you guessed my favorite pizza." Blaine laughed, but picking a common pizza and a movie out of a billion was not the same, Kurt thought. "I do hope you don't mind but it's the 2001 version and not the original." Kurt was somewhat disappointed but also very happy at the same time. "It was the only one I owned."
"I am completely happy with it." Kurt tried to remain calm despite the amount of love he felt towards Blaine in that moment. He knew Blaine didn't have the same memories that he did, and was still closeted to his feelings for Kurt, perhaps even more now with Sebastian in the way, but Kurt felt suddenly free to hope.
A part of him wanted to imagine that Blaine had also been somehow sent back into 2009 and was trying to win him back the same way Kurt was, but Blaine wouldn't have taken so long and he wouldn't have done it with Sebastian on his arm.
"Let's go watch." The clear excitement on Kurts face made Blaine smile with pride as he followed Kurt into the living room. "Wow."
"This is a very nice set up you have here." Sebastian praised from where he was sitting on the couch. "Do you go all out for all your new friends."
"I'll go this far out for myself." Kurt answered in a sour tone. "Some people like to make things special."
"What are those?" Blaine wondered pointing at a cronut as he took a seat on the couch next to Sebastian who responded by putting an arm around Blaines shoulder. Kurt has to pretend he didn't care as he put the DVD into the TV.
"Cronuts." Kurt answered. "Try one. I'm sure you'll like it."
Kurt took a seat on the other side of Blaine as Blaine took a bite of the cronut. Kurt watched him in carefully displayed awe, only because he'd never actually seen Blaine eat them like a normal human before. Usually he was inhaling three or four at a time.
"Oh my god." Blaine groaned with his mouth full as Kurt started playing the movie. "Oh my..."
"I'm glad you like it." Kurt smiled as Blaine began to shove the entire cronut in his mouth.
"Wow, you can fit a lot in there." Sebastian noted with a small hint of surprise that filled Kurt with happiness. Blaine couldn't have put out that much if that surprised him. Which means Sebastian had been so far unsuccessful at pressuring Blaine, as Kurt was certain he was.
"I am glad you like them." Kurt smiled, then he lied once more which he wanted to kick himself for, "My step-mom brought these back from a trip and I've liked them ever since."
"I don't need sex." Blaine decided after swallowing and taking another. "These are an orgasm."
"Wow, thank you Kurt." Sebastian laughed but there was a tension in his voice that Kurt wanted to understand better.
"I have a few recipes for cronuts that I've been wanting to try if you wanted to join me sometime in making." Kurt suggested. "Or you could just be my taste tester."
"I will accept both invitations." Blaine spoke with him mouth full once more.
"Let's watch the movie, guys." Sebastian snapped and they all did.
They watched and Kurt could feel the tension like it was a train hitting him at full speed. He wasn't sure whose tension it was or where it came from, but it made the movie difficult to follow. When it was over, Kurt said, "That was nice. Would you like to watch one more?"
"Sure!" Blaine smiled willingly, then looked down in disappointment at the empty box of cronuts in front of him. Blaine, I bought 16 and I ate one. I'm not sure whether Sebastian had any. Kurt thought but wouldn't voice it, even if he was back in 2014.
Sebastian looked tired, bored, and annoyed by Blaine's answer as he stood up and started walking in a small circle, so Kurt said to him, "You do not have to stay for another if you are not in the mood."
Sebastian gave him a cold look before hiding it behind his sly smile. "I've just been sitting a long time. I am used to being fairly active. I do not mind staying if that is what Blaine wants."
"You don't have to stay for me if you don't want." Blaine said. "Kurt can drive me home later."
Or you can stay the night, but I understand why you wouldn't tell Sebastian that part, Kurt thought watching them.
"I don't mind staying." Sebastian decided, disappointing Kurt.
"If you don't mind my asking," Kurt started as he grabbed another of Blaines movies and put a random one into the TV. "Why were you fighting before coming here?"
Blaine rolled his eyes and Sebastian looked annoyed but answered, "Have you seen those credit score commercials with that very sexy man who sings like an angel?"
"Y-yes?" Kurt asked and looked at Blaine who Kurt feared might start crying. But Blaine hardened his face and turned his expression from defeated depression to intense irritation. The commercial with Cooper Anderson, Blaines brother. That couldn't have been the fight. Unless, maybe Sebastian had met Cooper and it hadn't gone well.
Kurt remembered watching TV with Blaine before knowing Cooper was his brother, or even knowing his name, and telling Blaine that he would marry that man if he didn't have Blaine. Blaine hadn't agreed but he also hadn't started any sort of fight over it.
So it must have gone deeper than that.
"Well, we were at Dalton and-" Sebastian started but Blaine cut him off.
"Sebastian wants to make one of those lists of guys we're allowed to cheat on each other with." Blaine snapped.
"You agreed!" Sebastian groaned in annoyance.
"Only because we agreed to choose celebrities that we would never actually meet!" Blaine argued loudly.
"The man from the commercial is a celebrity we will never actually meet." Sebastian tried.
Sweet baby Jesus, what is going on right now? Kurt tried to keep any judgement or shock from his face as he watched them argue over something so... inappropriate. Had they really been dating long enough to create such a thing? It had taken Kurt and Blaine years to even consider having a "I would cheat on you with..." celebrity conversation, and Blaine wasn't allowed to play that game anymore. He'd already picked his person and used up his chance.
"He's not a real celebrity and you could meet him one day!" Blaine yelled.
"And you could meet Cyndy Lauper, but that doesn't mean you need to take her off your list."
"You chose Cyndy Lauper?" Kurt asked in surprise.
Blaine turned back to him and said, "Yes, because I wasn't taking my list that seriously but he is and he wants to cheat on me with my-!" Blaine shook his head and stood up. "We're not playing this game. Neither of us gets a list. Infidelity is not a joke."
"I'm not making it a joke." Sebastian argued. "It is just for fun, many couples do it. That's why we chose celebrities."
"He is not a celebrity! He does mid-western commercials for a credit score company. He hasn't done anything that puts him at a level where he could go on the list!"
"He is a celebrity!" Sebastian fought.
"That man couldn't act to convince his parents he hadn't had a high school party." Blaine snapped, and Kurt wondered if that was a true story or just a rebuttal.
"You don't have to be an actor to be a celebrity!" Sebastian reminded.
"You do if you're a celebrity for your acting skills." Blaine replied.
"I can't believe we are having this conversation again. Why does it even matter? It's not as if I know the man." Then Sebastian grinned, "Only that I want to."
"Kurt, what would you do if the person you loved most cheated on you?" Blaine inquired suddenly looking at Kurt.
Kurt hesitated but thought about his current situation and answered, "a lot, apparently."
"Would it be okay just because the other person was in a couple commercials?" Blaine demanded.
"No." Kurt answered.
"But you have to admit that man is sex on a stick." Sebastian pushed.
"Yes, he is." Kurt nodded. "I can't imagine anyone wouldn't have a crush on him."
Sebastian gave Blaine a look as if he'd just proven something and Blaine looked like he was about to yell or throw punches but Kurt continued,
"And if I might say something, the man from the commercials is very attractive and he is very talented. He might not be an A-list celebrity but everyone knows his face, even if we don't know his name, and knows who we are talking about when we say the credit score commercial, so I would agree that he was a celebrity, but Blaine, I don't think you need to worry." Blaine looked a little sickened by what Kurt said and stood watching him unhappily with his arms tightly crossed over his chest. "I cannot speak for Sebastian but in my personal opinion, there is no competition."
Blaine's face was curled up in disgust and a little sorrow so Kurt continued, never wanting Blaine to feel poorly about such a sensitive topic, "I can't imagine, in a real life situation, anyone would actually choose him over you, Blaine." Blaine seemed surprised by this but his face hadn't fully relaxed yet. "He is beautiful, yes, but you're real and you're interesting and kind, and every bit as talented as he is, even more if you ask me but don't tell him I said that." Blaine let a small smirk cross his lips but removed it just as quickly, "And you are both so attractive, and your features are too similar for anyone to say one of you is definitely more attractive than the other. Personally, and in a platonic way, don't worry, but I find you more attractive. Something about him just seems so... arrogant. And rude. So I am sure, no matter what list Sebastian might want to put him on, he has no intention of actually meeting him and sleeping with him. And even if he did, I'm sure he'd keep it in his pants."
Blaine thought for a moment then said, "I don't want any lists, Seb. And if you cheat on me, it's over."
Blaine started collecting some of the candy garbage around them and started leading towards the kitchen.
"Where are you going?" Sebastian demanded.
"I'm going to throw this away then go to the washroom if that's okay with you." Blaine snapped and walked away.
"Wow." Kurt breathed.
"Unbelievable." Sebastian mumbled. "You understand it's just for fun, right Kurt?"
"I understand why someone might not want to do it though." Kurt responded.
Sebastian sat down, closer to Kurt now, and put his arm onto the back of the couch.
"I do too, it's just that..." He shook his head. "Blaine is beautiful. And he's talented and smart, in an I get A's kind of way," Kurt wanted to slap him but remained composed, "and he's been all I've wanted since I first got to Dalton."
"But?"
"But I'm still wanting." Sebastian groaned sliding a little closer to Kurt, making Kurt a little uncomfortable. "When I started dating him he was exciting and open to try so many interesting things but..., I didn't expect him to be such a prude."
I'm going to kill him. I will bury his body in a tire yard and he can be found in six months after dogs find him for his bones. Kurt thought.
"Everyone is free to move at their own pace." Kurt decided despite feeling extreme pride for his long lost fiance.
I'm going to stab him in an important artery and let him bleed to death under the pile of tires. It will look like an accident.
"Are you ever curious, Kurt?" Sebastian asked lightly touching a piece of Kurts hair. Kurt paused for a short surprised moment and then reality crashed down on him.
Is he hitting on me?! Kurt glanced over his shoulder quickly to where Blaine had left then back to Sebastian. The thought of Smyte anywhere near him made him sick, but Blaine had just said he'd leave Sebastian if he cheated on him. Maybe Sebastian was just challenging Blaines authority over him. Still, Kurt was very tempted by the chance to show Blaine what an awful person Sebastian really was.
No, Kurt decided, for two reasons. One, he couldn't stand the idea of hurting Blaine like that. He'd felt that pain before and he couldn't let Blaine suffer it. He might not show it, but he was far too insecure to survive a blow like that. Even from someone Kurt was sure he loved less than Kurt and Blaine loved each other.
Two, he knew he could never get with Blaine if Blaine associated him with disloyalty and causing his break up. And he never wanted to be that sort of rebound.
"Blaine is in the other room." Kurt warned with a dry mouth. "And he just said what would happen."
"Doesn't have to be now." Sebastian reminded.
"Doesn't have to be ever." Kurt said, standing up and walking to the kitchen to get them drinks.
Blaine had returned when he did and they quietly watched the movie. Sebastian sat with his hand on Blaines leg which made Kurt want to be sick, especially after a few minutes ago, but he took a breath and focused on the screen.
Would anyone be surprised if Sebastian did coke or meth? Maybe I could give him a bad batch he could O.D. on. Kurt shook his head and remembered his time with Blaine, the memories that would be now impossible to recreate. He would fix this, though. As fast as he could before anything else became irreplaceable.
Thank you all for reading! Please let me know if you want me to continue quickly so I know whether I should prioritize this more as holidays come to an end.
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