Smut
Aftermath
2009
Kurt didn't say much as he and Blaine sat in the car. Blaine was glaring at the road ahead with his arms crossed over his chest. Most of the drive was silent but then Blaine started venting.
"I can't believe he would do that!" He snapped. "I told him I wanted privacy and he announced it to the whole school!"
"It wasn't the whole school." Kurt noted quietly.
"Don't defend him, Kurt." Blaine spat.
"I'm not." Kurt breathed.
"I don't understand how he changed so much! When I met him, he was the calmest person I could have known. But how dare he do that to you?! And how little he thinks of me?" Blaine looked at Kurt then, "Did you know, he told me I wasn't going to get a second chance with him. Why would I want to? Does he really think I need him so much in my life?"
Kurt didn't answer. He was fairly certain he wasn't supposed to.
"And another thing, I think he cheated on me. He didn't admit it but he kept reminding me of these other guys who'd wanted him who he rejected, and apparently one had a really good mouth, and I don't know what that means but it sounded dirty, and we started dating shortly after he got to Dalton so how else would he have gotten the time to get together?" Blaine noticed the direction Kurt was driving then and said, "I don't want to go home."
"W-where do you want to go?"
"With you." Blaine snapped, then added quickly, "If that's okay with you."
Kurt hesitated. Should he take this as an opportunity to be with Blaine? Or should he at least comfort him in a time of need? But this time was supposed to be his to get Mercedes's help... Can you really think more about yourself than what Blaine needs?
"I'll need to text Mercedes." Kurt decided. "And tell her you're coming."
Blaine grabbed Kurt's phone quickly and started moving through it. His tense posture changed suddenly and his eyes widened. "Who's Chandler?"
"Oh... I met him online." Kurt answered.
"You guys... text a lot." Blaine mused.
"Are you going through my phone?" Kurt wasn't insulted as much as surprised.
"No, he just sent you three messages... about how great your butt is." Blaine noted.
"Can you tell Mercedes that we're bringing Blaine?" Kurt asked, suddenly worried that he might have said something to her something about Blaine, but he was fairly sure he had not.
"Do you want me to text Chandler back, also?" Blaine wondered.
"If you would like." Kurt answered after a moment of hesitation. "Do you know what to send?"
"I think I get the idea." There was a little bit of a harsh undertone to his voice but Kurt shrugged it off as anger at Sebastian.
Mercedes acted thrilled to see Blaine, not realizing that Blaine had been the one to answer her "prep-boy" comment when learning he was coming. Blaine smiled regardless and greeted her happily. They'd decided to meet at Bread Sticks where
"Are you in a good place to join our pity-party, Blaine-Warbler?" Mercedes wondered.
"More than ready." Blaine nodded stepping passed her to take his seat. Kurt sat beside him, closer than maybe he should have out of habit but Blaine didn't seem to mind.
Mercedes interrogated Blaine about his break up with Sebastian, all the while acting like Kurt hadn't told her as much as he could manage over the phone, and pretending she'd heard very little about Sebastian from Kurt at all.
"Well, I'm glad I finally got to spend some time with Kurts new bestie." Mercedes grinned, giving Kurt a sharply suggestive look. "Especially since it might be the last time I get to see you."
"Why's that?" Blaine wondered.
"Well, I just assumed with Kurt coming back to McKinley, you guys would spend a little less time together." Mercedes answered, dodging their glances expertly.
"What are you talking about?" Blaine asked.
"Mercedes." Kurt hissed.
"Kurt, what is she talking about?" Blaine inquired.
"The principal is setting up a meeting Friday so that I can return to McKinley." Kurt answered, giving Mercedes a dark glare as he did.
"W-what about Korofsky?" Blaine wondered.
"He and Santana are starting a bully whips program to prevent bullying." Mercedes explained.
"That's ridiculous!" Blaine snapped. "Korofsky was the main problem! They expect him to have stopped and decided to go anti-bully in one month?"
"Well, Santana is helping him." Kurt explained while feeling a little touched that Blaine was acting so defensively in his behave.
"Wasn't Santana one of your friends?" Blaine continued. "Why is she helping him?"
Because I want her to, "Because she missed me." Kurt replied.
"I don't think that's a good idea, Kurt!" Blaine tried. "I mean, I know you've missed your friends a little but Dalton doesn't allow people to transfer in and out every few months. If it doesn't get better, Dalton might not let you back in!"
"I think it will get better." Kurt said, mostly certain. He also hadn't expected Blaine to have changed so much, so maybe he couldn't judge anything.
"So you're really thinking of going?" Blaine asked and Kurt wished he couldn't see passed Blaines cool, slightly judgmental expression and into the pain behind his eyes. Why would his leaving be so bad? He wasn't leaving Blaine. "I mean... I'm happy for you. I want you to be happy. But what if it isn't safe?"
"My dad will be watching, I have friends there who know now that it was serious, and I still have you, right?" Kurt answered putting a hand on Blaine's thigh from habit more than anything else.
Blaine glanced down a moment but didn't stop him.
"Does Chandler go to McKinnley?" Blaine inquired a little hotly.
"Who's Chandler?" Mercedes asked but was ignored.
"What does this have to do with Chandler?" Kurt demanded.
"I just think it's a little funny how you start talking to this guy and next thing I know you're moving back after."
"I guess I don't need to exist anymore, guys." Mercedes groaned.
"I'm going to a meeting about moving back a-and wait a minute... are you jealous?!" Kurt asked in disbelief.
"Why would I be jealous?!" Blaine snapped. "You don't even know this guy! He has none of the history we do."
"We have history?"
"Why didn't you tell me about this?" Blaine insisted, ignoring the question.
"Because it all happened so soon." Kurt skidded around the truth. "And you were so busy with Sebastian and honestly, I didn't expect you to mind much."
"Of course I mind, Kurt! Yo-... You're my best friend."
"You're mine." Kurt responded. "And that won't change. If I go back, I'll see you as much as I can." But I'm going back.
Blaine wrapped an arm around Kurt's but didn't reply any verbal form. Kurt glanced down at the arm Blaine hugged loosely and noticed it was placed very high on Blaine's thigh with his fingers wrapping into Blaine's inner leg. Kurt was about to move his hand until he realized that Blaine had not. He looked up at Blaine both curious and skeptical, but Blaine met his eyes with a calmness that confounded and intrigued Kurt.
They managed to pull away from one another's eyes though, and return their attention to Mercedes who watched them both interested and annoyed.
"What is going on in you're life, Mercedes?" Kurt wondered. After a few moments of careful consideration, she started going.
The drive from Bread Sticks was quiet and Kurt wasn't sure where he was going. He didn't think, only drove, but Blaine didn't seem to mind. Kurt finally stopped at an empty parking lot with a slight view of Lima. Neither said anything for a minute. The only sound was the quiet echo of the radio.
Kurt was the first one to speak, but all he could say was "you-" before Blaine turned to him, grabbed his face, and pulled him into an almost desperate kiss. Kurt didn't argue or push away from him. Kurt moved his hands down Blaine's body to his hips where he intended to pull Blaine onto his lap, before remembering they were in a car and the steering wheel would get in their way.
Blaine didn't share this concern. He pulled Kurt over so that he was perched over Blaine's lap and wrapped his arms around him tight enough to hold Kurt to his chest.
"Blaine." Kurt moaned in protest over his lips, letting his body relax a little over Blaine's and allowing himself to melt into him.
"No, Kurt." Blaine objected, deepening his kiss as he started removing Kurt's jacket. Then his vest, before returning his hands to the back of Kurt's neck, and to one of his arms.
Kurt was afraid of letting Blaine go too far into his own fantasies because he didn't trust he'd be able to emotionally handle loving Blaine once and letting him move on. Kurt wanted to, very much, but wanted to be smarter. Still, he'd experienced it before and he wanted it again. After every kiss he'd think just one more, as he allowed himself to imagine what being with Blaine again would feel like. His body responded rather quickly to the thoughts, which Blaine willingly accepted as approval.
He began pulling off his own shirt but Kurt put up his hands to stop him, pulling his mouth away from Blaine's just enough to give them separation.
"Why?" Blaine breathed, opening his eyes a little to look up at Kurt. "Why not?"
"You just broke up with Sebastian." Kurt answered just as breathlessly.
"It was over long ago." Blaine argued. "This is not a rebound."
"Blaine..." Kurt groaned, shifting his weight to get off Blaine. Blaine grabbed Kurt's hips and held him in spot leaning upward so their faces would be close again.
"Kurt... I don't want to wreck our friendship." Blaine clarified.
"Neither do I." Kurt agreed. Part of him wanted to pull away, part of him wanted to push closer.
"But I also can't keep myself from telling you this. So please, if you cannot feel the same, just forget I said anything."
"What are you talking about?"
"I like you, Kurt, and not just as my friend. I mean, of course I like you as my friend, but you mean so much more to me than that. I have never felt about anyone the way I do about you. I'm sure I'm not your ideal boyfriend. I know you could do a lot better but I promise, if you gave me a chance, I would do everything in my power to make it worth it."
"What are you asking me?" Kurt asked because his mind had become too fuzzy to think straight.
"Will you go out with me?" Blaine wondered with a certain voice, his fingers digging nervously into Kurt's hips.
"Yes." Kurt answered without giving it a moment of thought. Maybe, he realized after, he should have but his instincts didn't see a problem in their being together.
"Really?" Blaine's face brightened in relief, disbelief, and excitement.
"Yes... Yes, of course." Kurt pulled Blaine to him once more and kissed him.
"I-I don't usually do this on the first date." Blaine stated against Kurt's lips. "Just to be clear."
"Yeah, yeah, I know." Kurt replied, pulling off his shirt as he kissed Blaine. Blaine's lips then began sliding side ways until the point Kurt's cheek met his jaw and lower ear.
"I really don't." he vowed in Kurt's ear before biting it lightly and kissing down his jaw to Kurt's neck.
"Trust me, I know." Kurt groaned dropping his shirt to the floor. "Let's get in the back. There's more space."
Blaine was about to argue but Kurt had already climbed into the back so Blaine followed. Once in the back, Kurt immediately started pulling at Blaine's pants, to Blaine's surprise and pleasure. He didn't mind and started pulling off his own shirt and bow tie.
"Kurt." Blaine groaned in protest as Kurt started kissing down his stomach. Kurt looked up, curious and a little annoyed that Blaine was now stopping them, but he knew the look on Blaine's face fairly well. Kurt repressed the urge to roll his eyes and moved before Blaine could speak to the front console of the car where he'd put a couple condoms just before going to the bar Friday night, just in case. Clearly, he'd been right to do so. Blaine closed his eyes and let his head fall back after watching Kurt rip open a condom with his teeth, and holding it lightly between his lips as he moved over Blaine's hips, opened his pants and rolled it on.
Then he lowered his face back to Blaine's stomach and kissed his abs down to his hips, then he continued to kiss the V of his hips as he pulled Blaine's already open pants down to his knees and let Blaine kick them the rest of the way off. Kurt started pulling at his boxers until Blaine's erection was free of them. Then he lowered his lips to Blaine's base and started kissing him. Blaine groaned, looking up again to Kurt leaving a trail of kisses up his shaft. Blaine absentmindedly put a hand onto Kurt's head as Kurt wrapped his lips around Blaine and started lowering himself with a confidence that made Blaine blush.
He was almost speechless as he watched Kurt, who swore he'd never done anything, and never even watched porn, seemed to expertly fit Blaine into his mouth and start bobbing his head. First a little slowly but then gaining momentum. "Oh-my-god-Kurt!" Kurt thought it almost sounded like a question which made him smirk as he looked up to see Blaine's shocked yet satisfied expression. "What the-... Kurt..."
Blaine's reaction gave Kurt the inspiration to suck faster and deeper than he had been as Blaine's moans filled the car. "God, I wasn't expecting... how... Uhhhh"
Kurt waited until Blaine was fairly close to his orgasm to pull away, making Blaine whimper loudly in disappointment. Kurt sat up over Blaine and smirked down at the breathlessly flustered boy. Kurt wiped his mouth on the back of his arm before lowering his face back down to Blaine's and kissing him heavily. Blaine reached forward and grabbed Kurt's condom covered cock rubbing it lightly at first, then a little faster.
"We need something." Kurt told Blaine.
"What?" Blaine asked, a little annoyed that they had enough space between them to talk.
Kurt hesitated then made a face that worried Blaine for a moment, especially as Kurt pulled away and started going through everything in the front of the car.
"What are you doing?" Blaine wondered, a little upset that Kurt had become distracted by something that wasn't him.
"Something we can use as lubricant." Kurt answered.
Blaine laughed, "Why would you have lube in your car?"
"I don't know,"
"Is it really that important?"
"I don't want to offend you Blaine, but it's been a really long day, and you haven't showered yet so I can't say I really want to lick your asshole."
Blaine hesitated with a growing smirk on his face, then pulled Kurt back so he was sitting in the back seat and lowered his face to Kurt's waist. Then he put his lips over Kurt and started to explore him with his mouth. Kurt was surprised but pleased by this none-the-less, and sat back to enjoy as Blaine figured out what he was doing.
Blaine glanced up at Kurt almost nervously was he tried to mimic what Kurt had done a minute before. He hoped Kurt would be as satisfied as he had been, and based on Kurt's deep groans of enjoyment, he was. Kurt leaned against the car door as Blaine's head bobbed over his pelvis and one hand resting on the back of Blaine's neck while the other reached for support from the back of the seat.
Blaine lifted his head suddenly, and spit a few times on Kurt's tip before putting his mouth back over him. After another moment he sat up and looked at Kurt curiously. Kurt, breathing heavy, took a moment but then put his mouth back onto Blaine's and leaned him back so he was laying under him. The kiss didn't break as Kurt opened Blaine's legs and positioned himself between. Then he lifted Blaine's hips slightly and placed his tip at Blaine's entrance.
Kurt pulled his lips away from Blaine's just enough so that he could still feel his breath. "Ready?"
Blaine nodded, keeping his eyes mostly closed as he tried to drink in all of Kurt. "Yes."
Kurt thought for a moment that maybe he should ask again if this was Blaine's reaction to breaking up with someone less than six hours earlier, but he knew they were mean to be together forever, and he didn't mind starting a little early.
Kurt held up Blaine by his hips slightly while leaning back in to kiss him and easing himself into Blaine slowly. Blaine gasped over his lips but Kurt continued. Once half-way inside he started lightly thrusting in and out at half of his length to allow Blaine to get used to him. Kurt continued kissing him as his head started falling back and he started groaning and gasping over his lips. Then Kurt started kissing Blaine's jaw and down his neck as his hips very light thrust a little deeper into Blaine.
Blaine released a loud cry as Kurt did, and dug his fingers deep into Kurt's back as he tried to pull them closer together. Kurt looked up to make sure it was a cry of pleasure, and when he was sure it was, he reached between their bodies to grab Blaine's erection and start rubbing him. Kurt whimpered, missing the feeling of Blaine wrapped around him. Kurt started slowly pushing himself a little deeper into Blaine, hearing Blaine cry out in response.
Kurt continued thrusting and rubbing him until Blaine came, shooting onto their mostly connected chests. "Oh God, Kurt, please!"
Kurt continued kissing Blaine, holding out for as long as he could before pausing to enjoy his orgasm.
"Oh my god." Kurt groaned, letting his body collapse on top of Blaine's without pulling out or worrying that Blaine wouldn't be able to hold him.
They hugged one another for a while, allowing themselves to get comfortable with the others proximity and enjoying together the shockwaves of their shared pleasure. Neither spoke, or wanted to ruin the bliss they'd found.
Blaine was the first to make a sound, groaning in disappointment as Kurt finally pulled out of him. He pulled off the condom and tied it up before putting it aside. Then he moved to the front of the car again and grabbed another condom. Blaine watched with highly invested eyes as Kurt opened it and slid it over Blaine.
"What are you-" But Blaine stopped because he understood. Kurt pulled him up so they were sitting face to face and started kissing him again.
"You ready?" Kurt asked over Blaine's lips but it was a very different question than last time. Blaine nodded as Kurt leaned down to take Blaine into his mouth as Blaine had with him. When his cock was hard and wet enough, Kurt sat up and positioned himself over Blaine's seated lap.
"How have you never done this before?" Blaine wondered in disbelief.
"You're my first, Blaine." Kurt vowed. "I just feel very comfortable with you."
Blaine nodded in either acceptance or agreement, Kurt wasn't sure, and groaned as Kurt started lowering himself. "Oh my-Kurt!"
Kurt started riding him slowly, forgetting for a moment that this body wasn't as used to Blaine as he thought he was. He didn't mind getting lower faster, though, remembering fairly clearly what this felt like. He rode Blaine with hesitation but confidence, wanting to pull away a little to focus but Blaine held their bodies together, taking more lead now and pulling Kurt's face into his.
Blaine met Kurt's thrusts being a little less careful than Kurt was, and smiling as Kurt gasped into his mouth.
"Blaine..." Kurt moaned. "B-B-la..."
"You feel so good." Blaine panted, kissing Kurt all over his face.
"You feel so good." Kurt agreed nodding and letting his head fall back so Blaine could have easier access to his neck. Kurt wanted to also tell Blaine that he loved him, something that always made his Blaine smile, but this Blaine might not view it with the same joy.
"Kurt!" Blaine groaned as his body tensed but he continued being ridden by Kurt.
"Please." Kurt begged as he continued to ride Blaine harder. He was certain they could go longer if Blaine could last just a little longer. "Please, Blaine."
But Blaine, not sure exactly what Kurt was asking for, started rubbing Kurt's erection which had softened but was coming back against their stomachs.
"Kurt, I'm going to... uhh." Blaine tensed, then relaxed but Kurt continued riding him and after a moment, Blaine weakly continued also, until Kurt also came.
Kurt pulled off of Blaine so he could discard of his used condom, then they lay together, kissing lightly, not speaking. They didn't think there was anything that needed to be said that could ruin the blissful moment.
They continued to let their hands slowly explore the other's body as their lips remained connected and their eyes shut in relaxation.
"We need to go home." Kurt breathed after what felt like an hour. He sat up and started to pull on his pants again.
"It's only... how is it 10pm?" Blaine asked looking at his phone.
Kurt leaned over and kissed Blaine, surprising him a little. The surprise worried Kurt for a moment. Maybe it does mean less to him than it did to me.
But Blaine leaned once more into Kurt and started kissing him. Hopelessly and desperately.
"Blaine... Blaine... Blaine..." Kurt protested, finally laughing and pushing Blaine off him, "We do have to go."
"You're amazing." Blaine breathed with large love struck eyes. Kurt smirked at him as he pulled on his shirt again. "I can't believe we just did that... we just did that.."
"We did." Kurt agreed, again a little concerned because his full heart was in the act but he had no guarantee how much of Blaine had gone into it. Blaine doesn't do anything half-heartedly, Kurt tried to convince himself but then the hard reminder hit, he did Eli. C. Then he claimed that mean nothing. Maybe I'm his Eli. C... I'm not sure I can stomach this.
"Do..." Blaine had started pulling on his shirt also and combed his hands through his hair. "Do you still want to go out with me?"
Kurt looked at him suddenly, curious as to what he meant. Blaine looked at him with a nervous concern in his eyes. "Of course. Why wouldn't I?"
"I just mean..." Blaine looked down and shook his head, then pulled on his pants before looking back to Kurt. "I'd understand if you didn't... or if you thought... I mean, I get it... if you think..."
"What the hell are you talking about?" Kurt asked shaking his head slightly as he watched Blaine stumble over his own words.
"I understand, if you just wanted to be friends. If you didn't want to try dating me because..." Blaine explained looking down.
"When did you become this insecure?" Kurt asked, mostly himself. Blaine looked up in shock but Kurt ignored that and closed the distance between them, kissing him with a hard passion. He'd hardly pulled away when he mindlessly said, "I love you, you idiot."
Blaine froze and now it was Kurt's turn to feel like maybe he'd gone to far. But when he opened his eyes to look at Blaine, he didn't see any fear or repulsion, only curiosity. "Do you?"
"Yes." Kurt answered honestly. "I've loved you since the first day I met you. And every day since. And now."
"Are you sure?" Blaine asked, pulling away a little so he could see Kurt's face clearer. It had gotten dark outside the car, so his expression was only visible due to the lights from their phones. "Because hormones do weird things to people and we just had sex so you might not be sure,"
"I've never been more sure about anything, Blaine." Kurt answered, "So unless you don't want me-"
"I want you." Blaine stated immediately making Kurt smile bashfully. Kurt's phone buzzed and Blaine glanced down at it. His smile faded and he picked up the phone, "But I do want this to stop. Right now."
"What?" Kurt asked grabbing the phone and glancing at the screen to see three text messages and a missed call from Chandler. "Chandler?"
Blaine made a face as if to say obviously, which made Kurt laugh.
"There is nothing funny about your conversations with him." Blaine stated seriously.
Kurt laughed nodding, "I was only talking to him to make you jealous." He explained honestly, "And because I needed someone to distract me from you and Sebastian."
"You did want to break us up?" Blaine asked as Kurt got out of the car and back into the front seat. Blaine followed sitting in the passenger seat while waiting for his answer. "Yes?"
"Yes." Kurt answered with slight hesitation. He still wasn't certain of his position with this Blaine and with him so close, he didn't want to scare him away with too much honesty, too fast.
"But not because of Sebastian." Blaine clarified.
"No, it was mostly because it was Sebastian." Kurt admitted making Blaine feel momentarily uncomfortable. "At least I think so. I'd like to think I would just be happy to see you be happy. Maybe I'm just selfish, though. But Sebastian is a terrible person, Blaine, and you deserve so much better than him."
Kurt explained as he started driving out of the parking lot.
"Why wouldn't you just ask me out then?" Blaine wondered. "Just be honest."
"I didn't want to make you uncomfortable."
"I told you I wanted you to ask me!" Blaine argued. "I said I'd leave him for you if you asked."
"When?" Kurt wondered, glancing at Blaine who bit his lip and stared out the window. Oh, right. "You do remember!?"
Blaine hesitated, not wanting to answer.
"Blaine."
"I remember... parts..." Blaine answered. "And I remember saying that."
"Why not just tell me?" Kurt demanded.
"I didn't want to wreck our friendship." Blaine answered. "And I tried, you didn't want to talk about it anymore."
Kurt hesitated then shook his head and started laughing.
"What?" Blaine snapped, but Kurt couldn't reply over his laughter. "What is so funny?"
"Nothing." Kurt laughed, then turned his laugh into a cough until he stopped. "Nothing's funny."
"Kurt..." Blaine started, then stopped and asked instead, "Why were you trying to make me jealous?"
"Why do you think?"
"And you thought some guy I don't know named Chandler would make me jealous?!" Blaine asked in disbelief.
"Yeah, I don't know what it is about the guy but you seem to consistently hate him." Kurt mumbled in equal surprise. You've never even met him.
"I didn't expect to have sex today." Blaine stated, changing the subject.
"Me neither." Kurt admitted. It had been in all of his fantasies but he didn't expect it to really happen. Blaine grabbed his right hand then, and pulled it to his face to kiss each finger. Kurt smiled to himself as Blaine did this, silently relieved that they hadn't lost the fragile moments of passion.
"Thank you, Kurt." Blaine said suddenly, still holding Kurt's hand.
"What for?"
"For always being there for me. I don't think anyone has my back like you do."
Kurt smiled at him, and pulled his hand over to kiss it. They quietly listened to music as they drove and Blaine hesitated when Kurt pulled out front Blaine's house.
"You still want to go out with me?" Blaine asked.
"I still want to go out with you."
"How about tomorrow night?"
"Sure." Kurt decided but then paused, "Or maybe not."
"Why not?" Blaine asked suddenly nervous.
"Maybe you should have a few days to process your break up first." Kurt thought. "Without me around. To make sure you understand what you're feeling."
"You're not a rebound, Kurt." Blaine stated heavily.
"I know." He didn't. "But I think it's smart to let you process first before jumping into something new."
"I think we already took the jump, Kurt." Blaine noted with a small flirtatious smirk which made it hard for Kurt to want to be serious.
"I'll see you at school." Kurt grinned. Blaine leaned forward and kissed him, then jumped out of the car, waved him goodbye, and went into his house.
Kurt was lost in a momentary relief that maybe he'd fixed the future. Maybe, he'd wake up tomorrow morning with his Blaine back in his arms and maybe he'd fixed everything. That hope was instantly diminished when he looked back and noticed Sebastian getting out of his parked car a little down the street from Blaine's house and walk to his door.
Thank you for reading... I was having a really hard time deciding whether I wanted Blaine to also come back to the past (after Kurt had messed things up), and try to fix it, not knowing Kurt was also from 2014. Or if I wanted to keep it just Kurt. So I've decided to just make an alternate ending which I will post after this one and it will start roughly the same but then go differently.
Then I can focus on one story line at a time and stop changing my mind ;)
Please comment and review to let me know what you think so far!