Over the next few cycles, Kylo made sure to keep a close eye on his husband, anxious Hux's mind might betray him again. Kylo had been teaching Hux to strengthen his mind, to protect himself now Leader Snoke had taken an interest in the Colonel's designs.
Kylo had not expected this training to remind Hux of his depressing childhood. It had been an oversight on his part. Having seen into Hux's mind and his past it was not something that could be helped. Hux's mind was strong. Strong enough to overcome the reconditioning program. He didn't need Kylo's help to carry those memories. A few more training sessions and he would be able to hold his own against force users. Which was important given how Snoke loved to break into people's minds and delve into their secrets.
In addition to their force training, and his regular duties, Hux had been busy already starting to prepare for their youngling, reading as many guides on child rearing as possible and making Kylo look at them as well. To Kylo's pleasant surprise the First Order cares greatly about children, providing new parents with mandatory paternity leave and various assistance from free formula to free childcare.
Maybe it is the promise of children, that makes Hux softer, or maybe it is the time spent apart that makes Kylo yearn for their warm marital bed. Either way Kylo finds himself spending as much time as possible with his husband, Hux's previous annoyances forgotten.
Now that he understood the First Order, he can see how Hux had merely been looking out for him, not wishing him to fall foul of regulations. The First Order is strict but not uncaring.
Lying together on their sofa, entwined closely, back to back, Kylo can feel Hux's heartbeat, warm and steady. Today's their rest day and they have done very little besides snuggle close to each other and watch holo-dramas. Closing his eyes Kylo can sense him through the force, can feel how much he is adored by Hux. Work obsessed Hux who has left his datapad in their bedroom on silent and not sneaked off to check it.
He can sense another presence in the force, a being reaching out to him, their child, growing strong. He'll be powerful one day but more importantly he'll be loved. Kylo will make sure that the failures of his parents will not be repeated. They will ensure their child is loved and not left alone with only droids for company. Kylo smiles and sends his child thoughts of love and happiness.
Kylo had spoken with Snoke at great length, and while it may not be easy, it had been decided that Kylo would be allowed to continue his training while also raising his child. He had of course talked to Hux as well, who was supportive of Kylo staying at home with their child.
Kylo had meditated a lot about this decision, aware that it would hinder his training. Snoke had promised him that one day he would be Master of the knights Of Ren, something Kylo had wanted desperately since he had become Snoke's pupil. His marriage had altered his desires. Soon he would have to delegate tasks to his brother knights and rely on them more, unable to leave his child to take on dangerous missions unless absolutely necessary. There was a lot he could still do though and he was thankful he would not need to relinquish his title completely.
It was a sacrifice that he was willing to make however. A baby would strengthen his connection to the First Order and his husband. He would have a proper family and none would be able to question his loyalty. They would ground him firmly in the dark side, for the light did not permit such attachments. Were Ben still alive he would be alone, ignored by his so called family. Kylo Ren had his knights, Snoke as well as Hux and the child. He was lucky.
Kylo had also reflected also his past. His father had been the one to stay home with him, and while Ben had adored him, he had resented his mother who was never around. He and Hux would get that right, he would make sure Hux made time for their baby and was not some distant figure recognised from holos. To only put their work first would not be fair to the child.
"You're quiet." Hux hummed turning and pressing his lips to Kylo's cheek. Hux's lips are red from their kissing. "Don't vex yourself unnecessarily." Hus says leaning against Kylo's chest, his dogtags pressing into Kylo's chest the metal warm on his skin. When they're close like this, Kylo could almost believe Hux was a mind reader. No one has ever known him so well or made him feel so comfortable. "It's getting late, I'll warm you some soup." Hux says getting up onto his knees and rolling up his shirtsleeves.
Kylo groans and drags Hux back down onto the sofa, wrapping his arms tightly around his slim waist. "Not yet."