Chapter 1: After mount weather
The events at mount weather were two months ago and clarke still fought with the guilt and pain. She had killed then all then all. All the people in mount weather. Friends, children, innocent people. And clarke just wiped then all out. After they had rescued all of their people from the mountain, lexas betrayal, killing over 300 people, clarke couldn't go back to camp jaha. She couldn't look at their faces every day and be reminded of what she had done to save them. She needed time to think, time to realise what she had done. Bellamy had tried to convince her to stay. So clarke left camp jaha with nothing more than her gun and the clothes she was wearing. That was two months ago.
Now clarke was laying on her coat at the river and watched the stars in the sky. She was thinking about her dad. She missed him so much. He should have seen this beautiful planet with his own eyes. It was always his dream to get down here. A tear fell down onto her cheeks and clarke was scared to death when a lighting crossed the sky. She jumped up as someone was about to attack her. She catched her breath for a second. She laughed at her self because she was afraid of a thunder storm.
" Wanheda is afraid of a thunder storm!" , clarke says laughing. She knew that everyone called her 'wanheda' , the commander of death. The first time she heard is was last week, when a grounder tried to kill her. He called her Wanheda over and over again. She didn't knew what it meant and she didn't get the chance to ask because she killed him.
When she was at the trading post two days later, she heard it again. The young woman behind the table said it. When clarke heard it she was scared that the woman would try to kill her as well, just like the other grounder. But when clarke backed up to leave the won threw her hands up and giggled. "You don't have to fear me, Wanheda. I mean no harm to you!"
Clarke had asked her about Wanheda. "What does it mean? I know that heda means commander. Why are they calling me that?" Clarke thought about lexa for a second but she quickly banned her from her thoughts after she felt the pain of her betrayal. "You killed our greatest enemy. The mountain men." Clarkes chest filled with pain and anger. "You're a symbol. You're known as Wanheda. The commander of death." The woman told her. Clarke wanted to scream. She killed a whole race and the grounders are praising her for it. She was disgusted.
"Why do they want to kill me then?" Clarke asked her. The woman smiled at her. "We belive that when you kill someone, you get their powers. The people believe that you command death and they want your power." She woman replied. Clarke felt nausea. "That's fucking stupid!" Clarke yelled at the woman who was confused because she did not know the word clarke used. Clarke ignored her questioning look and turned around as quickly as possible. She wanted to leave. Now. But in that moment the the door flew open and clarke quickly turned back.
She walked towards one of the shelfs with clothes. She acted like she was interested in them. Three men entered the cabin. Two of then stayed at the door while the other one made his way towards the woman behind the table. "Niylah,don yu seen disha strat?" He showed her a picture. It was a drawing of clarke. Niylahs eyes stayed on the grounder while she answerd:" Em kom op by bida days kom gon. Em as op gon de edei. Em biyo em wanted gon hon daun de nout tray." "Azgeda..." the man whisperd. The three men then left the cabin quickly.
Clarke was so thankful. She left niylah with the promise to stop by again. Clarke then disappeared in to the woods again. Something yanked clarke out of her memorys of niylah. Clarke rose to her feet quickly and grabed her gun from her hip. She searched the woods from where she heard the sound. She saw nothing. She waited for the sound to appear again but it didn't. She only heard her heart beating like crazy in her chest. She waited and waited but she saw and heard nothing.
After a couple minutes clarke decided to leave, to go back into the woods again. It was late and clarke knew she needed shelter for the night. After a short walk through the woods, she found a small cave in the ground and she decided that she would spend the night there. It wasn't perfect but still better than nothing. Clarke took of her jacket and tossed it to the ground.
The rucksack she got from niylah was filled with a small amount of food and water, an old blanket, a flashlight and a thick pullover. She thanked niylah in her head and pulled out the blanket. Clarke didn't want to make a fire because she was scared that someone could find her because of it. Everyone was trying to kill her so clarke did not take any chances. She laid down on her jacket and placed the blanket over her body. It didn't take long before she fell asleep.