Christian takes me to my room and closes the door behind. He sets me down carefully on the floor and gently caresses my cheek with the tips of his fingers. My breath hitches as I lean into his touch and embrace his soft skin. I want him. Now. It's been too long for me to wait.
"Are you sure you want this?", he asks nervously and the look in his eyes tells me he's unsure. I smirk and whisper in his ear.
"I'm too dressed", I reply and slowly bite my lip as well. He smirks in return and kisses me again. He slowly unbuttons my blouse and I watch as he slides it down my shoulders to my elbows before slipping it off my arms and dropping it to the floor.
"Keep going", I whisper. Christian then undoes my bra and guides the straps down in the same fashion as before. He softly kisses my shoulder and guides the tip of his tongue to the base of my neck. I quietly moan as he steps closer to close the space between us and my heartrate quickens as I stare into his eyes. That carnal look is deep and I can barely breathe as he stares down into my guileless eyes. God, he's beautiful.
"What now?", he asks seductively. I exhale sharply. How does he do this to me?
"Go lower. Please", I beg and he smirks at my request. He kisses me briefly before leaving a trail of kisses down my neck and my breasts, and then he latches his teeth on my nipple and sucks gently. My head falls back at the pleasure and I struggle to hold back my moan. He repeats the assault on the other nipple and twists the other one around his thumb and forefinger, hardening them as he does. He then goes lower down, lightly kissing my skin until he reaches his goal. He unbuttons my jeans and slides down the zipper, and my breath catches in my throat. He then slides my jeans slowly down to my ankles and I hold onto him and he takes them off completely. He then hooks his thumbs into the waistband of my panties and agonizingly slides them down as well. He starts to stand back up but I stop him before he can.
"Kiss me", I beg.
"Where?", he smirks. I point my finger to the apex of my thighs and he immediately takes the hint.
"Oh, with pleasure", he simply says and widens my legs further so my clitoris is more exposed. He slowly inserts a finger into me and I hold onto his shoulders for dear life. He slowly pumps his finger in and out and I feel my legs quaking from his touch. He then removes his fingers and skillfully guides his tongue around and around my clitoris. My head falls back as he laps me up and I'm calling out for mercy from his hypnotizing assault. I feel my legs shaking again and grasp his shoulders harder. I don't want to come. I don't have the strength. I gently pull him away and motion for him to stand. I stand on my toes and kiss him, desperate for his taste. His tongue quickly finds mine and I let out a small moan as he invades my mouth and I invade his. I go for the buttons on his shirt but he stops me before I can let one loose.
"What do you want, Anastasia?", he pants.
"I want all of you", I whisper and before I know it, he pushes me on the bed causing a loud thump to be heard. I giggle as I watch him remove the last of his clothes, pull out a condom from the back pocket of his jeans, and climb on top.
"This is what you want?", he asks.
"Yes, please", I answer. He smirks and lifts my hips before gentle entering me and filling with his length. I gasp and grasp his arms, careful with where I touch, and he starts to move, really move.
"Christian", I moan.
"Come for me, baby. Don't hold back", he breathes and pins my hands by my head, firmly holding me in place. I wrap my legs around his waist as he lowers himself so I can feel more of his power. My legs start to shake and I can tell I'm coming close.
"Christian, please."
"Come for me, Ana", he growls and that's all it takes for me to fall apart. I call out his name and my back arches and my climax takes over.
"Fuck, Ana", he hisses and I watch as his body stiffens. Once he stills, he falls on my chest and we're both breathing hard. I run my fingers through his hair and gently kiss his head as I hold him close.
"Don't ever leave me", he whispers.
"I never will. I love you", I reply and sense his smile on my chest. He kisses my breasts before responding and rising to meet my eyes.
"I love you too", he smiles and gives me a tender kiss.
Some time passes and Christian and I are lying on the bed, holding each other close with him on my chest. He intertwines his fingers with my own and raises my hand to his lips. He kisses me gently and I can't hide my smile.
"Why do you think you waited?", he suddenly asks and I'm momentarily confused by what he means.
"For sex", he explains.
"I guess I was just waiting for something exceptional. All the books I was reading just showed me what I wanted, but nobody ever measured up to that. I guess I kind of gave up until…"
"Until?"
"Until I met you." I can sense his smile against my skin.
"No regrets?", he asks.
"No regrets", I reply as I kiss his head.
"Was it hard for you? To be away from me for so long?", I inquire. He lets out a long sigh before responding. Shit. Did I go too far?
"To be honest, it's never been this hard for me. As soon as you left, I knew I made a mistake."
"What happened?" He tenses as I say this.
"I went to go talk to Elena. I needed her advice."
"Oh."
"It wasn't at first. It took a few days since I didn't feel like talking with anyone and became more aggressive towards my employees. Even my family hasn't heard from me since you left."
"Did you have nightmares again?"
"Yes. They started getting worse and I had to go see Dr. Flynn, my therapist. I just couldn't handle it anymore. I had to win you back." I kiss him again and fight to hold back my tears. I'm upset he went to go and see her, but I'm more upset at what's happened since I left. I think back to when I first saw him having a nightmare. If it's gotten worse than that, my hearts aches even more for him. My Fifty…
"I'm so sorry."
"Don't be. It's my fault that you left."
"I asked you to hurt me."
"I should've said no." I let out a long sigh.
"You said that I hold all the power and not you. Why are you blaming yourself for this?"
"I've told you before that I want to punish you, but the way I did made you leave, even after I've told you that I would never go that far."
"Christian, I told you how I felt. But, I just never thought that we could work. Yes, you punished me and yes it hurt. But, if any punishment would be like that, then how could I ever be your submissive? I just wanted to make you happy because I love you. I just need more time to get used to this."
"How much time?"
"I don't know. But I'm not leaving. No matter what." He breathes a sigh of relief and sits up before giving me a brief kiss.
"You want to take it slow?", he asks.
"Just for now. Just a, what do you call it? A vanilla relationship?"
"Vanilla relationship?"
"Like normal people?"
"Sure. I can do that."
"Good. I think I can too."
"Would you ever consider working for me again?"
"I don't think that's a good idea. Besides, you already own my company."
"I can make myself scarce", he remarks with amusement.
"Not with your stalking abilities", I joke.
"You surprise me, Miss Steele."
"Likewise, Mr. Grey."
"I'm sorry you had to find out that way."
"It's okay. It just shocked me is all", I reply before kissing his fingers one by one.
"What is it?"
"Nothing. Um, I was just thinking about who found out about us. Ros never told me so, I've just been curious about it is all." As I say this, Christian avoids my gaze and stands to discard the condom in the wastebasket. What's he thinking?
"Do you know?", I enquire.
"It's nothing important", he responds impassively. A sudden thought enters my mind.
"Was it Elena?" It would make sense. She warned me about hurting Christian the last time I had the displeasure of her company, but would she really go that far? As I look at Christian for clues, he gives nothing away.
"Christian?", I press him.
"Go to sleep. I have to make a phone call", he orders and leaves. What was that about?
I decide to lie back down and close my eyes briefly, trying to contemplate Christian's words in my head. Does he know who found out about us?
Would he tell you?, my subconscious asks. Knowing him, he probably wouldn't. But even now, I know that's not completely true.
A few minutes pass and I've fallen fast asleep. I then feel a slight shift in the mattress and Christian's arm wrap around my body. He pulls me close and kisses my shoulder and wraps his leg in-between mine. I take his hand and kiss it gently as he stirs slightly. I carefully turn over and my eyes meet with his. I reach up to gently stroke his face and he stiffens slightly as I do.
"It's okay", I whisper.
"I know. Because I'm here with you", he smiles shyly and gives me a quick kiss. I kiss him again and he pulls me closer as I moan. Before I know it, he pulls my legs over his body so that I'm on top, his lips never leaving mine. When I pull away, I'm panting but I don't want him to stop. I kiss him one more time before crawling down the bed, lightly kissing him as I do. I hear him groan in the back of his throat as I reach my goal. I twist my tongue around his pubic hair, and grip his member and move my thumb over his tip. I lick my lips and take him in my mouth. I sheath my teeth as I take him deeper, watching as his chest heaves with my every move. My own Christian Grey flavored popsicle. I smirk at the thought.
"Shit. Fuck, Ana", he breathes and I go deeper as he does. I go as far as I can and watch him stiffen as I do.
"Ana, stop. I don't want to come", he orders but I don't care. I grip him harder and soon feel a sticky substance shoot up into my mouth. I quickly swallow it and come up for air, with a look of satisfaction on my face.
"Are you ever going to do as you're told?", he enquires with a hint of amusement on his face.
"Probably not", I remark. He then reaches out his hand for mine and I accept it without hesitation.
"Come. I want you on top", he whispers. I quickly do as I'm told. I grip him and am about to slide down but he stops me before I can.
"What is it?"
"Condom."
"I took my pill", I confess and he raises an eyebrow as I do.
"I was hoping you'd come back", I explain and he grins.
"Good girl", he simply says and pulls me down onto his length. I groan at the feel and start to work up my pace. He grasps my hips to keep my in place and I hold onto the metal bar for dear life. I ride him up. Down. Up. Down with no intention of stopping.
"Fuck, Ana", he moans and I can tell he's close.
"Come for me", I order and can see the lust and love in his eyes. Fuck, I love this man.
"I love you", he confesses and I'm close as well.
"I love you too", I answer and soon, he calls out my name to the ceiling and stills as I continue my assault. I feel my walls tightening and my head falls back as I sense my climax approaching. Soon, my orgasm rips through my body and I call out as it does. Christian helps me off of his lap and lies me down on the bed, panting hard.
"Well done, Miss Steele."
"We aim to please, Mr. Grey." He just smiles and kisses me tenderly. He holds me close and I feel my eyelids getting heavier by the second. Soon, I close my eyes and fall asleep, holding Christian close in my arms and him holding me as well.
A few hours pass and I'm suddenly awoken from my sleep. I sense a movement at the end of my bed but when I glance at Christian, he's fast asleep. I blink a few times and look in the direction of the movement, but once I do, there's nothing there but I still sense that we're being watched. I regard Christian intently and carefully make my way out of the bed. I grab a bathrobe from the bedroom door and cautiously check the apartment. I double-check the doors and windows but they're all locked. Weird.
I open the front door and check downstairs. Nothing. I lock the door again and after one more check, head back to my room. Christian is still sleeping peacefully and I smile at the sight. Even when he's comatose, he's just as beautiful as when I first met him.
And happier too, my subconscious remarks and I can't help my agreement. But will it last? I can't say but at least we can try. I'm always willing to try. For him.
I slip out of my bathrobe and let it fall to the ground. I carefully climb into bed and cover Christian and me with the sheet. I give him a soft kiss on the cheek and he lets out a small hum in response. I lie down on my side and slide in as close as I can, wary not to wake him up. I close my eyes and fall asleep, knowing that I'm safe with the man I love. And who loves me.