Unbreakable bond

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Chapter 8

Longing and desperation.

*Bella's POV*

I miss sleeping. I miss my heart beat. I miss feeling happiness, joy and hopeful amount life. At the moment all I feel is pain and anguish. I feel like I am barely existing, but I can't go on like this anymore. I have to go on. For my dad, Jacob, and Amber. And my Alice. I still have not spoken to her, or even looked at her properly. I can't after having my heart crushed. It hurts a lot.

It has been 2 months since classes have started. Both Edward and Alice are back, but they don't even acknowledge each other anymore. I don't have classes with Edward and more and I am never left alone around him, but I can constantly feel his stare on me.

Alice and I do have a class together, but I don't get to be around her. I sit with Jacob and he keeps me occupied. Unlike Edward, Alice keeps her distance from me and doesn't do anything to make me slightly uncomfortable. However, whenever our eyes meet, I can see the pain in her eyes. The same pain I have been feeling. I don't know why that pains me more and I just want to go hold her close to me. But I always hold myself back. She is not mine to hold anyways.

Rosalie and I sit together by history. We aren't on talking to terms but then again, she doesn't have a frown on a glare whenever our eyes meet. I think the only Cullen or Denali who I talk to is Kate but that is also just Hi, how are you and good bye. I like that.

Today is Friday. Which means chicken nugget day. Amber and I were sitting and alone. Both Angela and Jake were getting food… I am not sure why they want to eat that but alright, who am I to judge? As the Cullen's walked past us I couldn't help but look at them shyly and then look away as quickly. I notice Kate walking towards our table and I slightly tense but then relax when she greets me in a friendly voice "Hi Bella, Amber. Do you mind if I join you today?" Before I can ask why Amber quickly says "go ahead" and gives me keep quite look. I feel embarrassed by my rude behavior and decide to say Hi back. Kate says, "Sorry to bother but I could sit around my boring family any longer. My mate is too much of a nerd and says I can't just leave school because I am bored." I hear Jasper chuckle softly at that… and my eyes fall on him. He looks at me for a second and then decides to come over.

I take an unnecessary breath preparing for some argument or he might start to scream at me but then I see he just sits by Kate and holds her hand. I look at them and see the love that shines in their eyes for each other… this makes me happy for Jasper, as well as pains me, I wish I had that with Alice. I know Jasper is an empath and he can feel my pain because he turns to me and looks quite thoughtful.

Jasper asks gently "Can I talk to you Bella for a moment?" I nod slightly and we go outside the cafeteria and away from inquisitive eyes.

I lean against a tree near the playground and look at Jasper expecting him to say something, but he stands their waiting as if I called him out. I sigh and then look at him "What happened between you and Alice?" As if he expected my question, he tells me about how they broke up because they were both no longer in love with each other and found their expected mates after so long. I looked at him with a pained expression and it was so hard to ask, but I asked, "Who is Alice's mate?" He simply smiled at me and said "You. I approve."

This melted my heart. I couldn't believe it. I was waiting for this to be true for so long that now that I know Alice and I are mates, I couldn't believe it. I did not feel rejoicing though because if we were truly mates… how could she have left me? Did she hate me? I knew all these questions could only be answered by her. I had to talk to her. I have to talk to my Alice. Before it is too late. Before I lose her completely.

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