Everything hurts, losing Boyd made it all happen, Derek and I gave Cora the responsibility of watch Laura, we told her that 'we just need to get away for a while'.

Getting away meaning that we needed time to heal, Derek and I were at the Lookout Point, just looked out at the town that has so much memory packed into it.

Derek just held me close as our chests touched as I stayed in this trance like state feeling everything Derek was feeling through the bond. We had the hummer with

us, it was parked a few feet from where we were standing, I just continued to breath in his scent, he was sad and what brought me out of my trance was another

emotion I scented on him, fear.

"Derek?" I asked as he looked at me with this look of uncertainty,

"Hmm?"He mumbled as he looked at me, those eyes so unsure of something,

"Your scent, it's different, fear laces it over that of sorrow" I said as he took my hand, beaconing me to follow him which I did. He opened the back, which had a

blanket laid out with two of our pillows, I knew he wanted us to heal, so I nodded as I crawled inside with him. We sat across from one another, criss crossing our legs

as if we needed to recollect our thoughts, I held his hand as I rubbed the knuckle,

"Derek the fear, what does it mean tell me please"I begged him, I didn't like it when he wouldn't tell me what was wrong.

"I am afraid Lexi"He said as he looked at me with his eyes filled with that emotion,

"Afraid of what my love?" I asked as he nodded at me,

"I am afraid of what killing Boyd will do to my wolf and me" He said as I looked at him, I can understand why he thought this, The Alpha Pack was ruthless and

dangerous, their wolf eyes weren't normal, the outer edges that were once white now were black as coal.

"It's all my fault" He said as his eyes just kept to mine, I frowned at his thought and shook my head,

"This isn't your fault Der, Kali forced this on you, she used me as a distraction, a way to worm herself to get you to do wrong" I said as I wiped the tears that ran

down his cheeks. His eyes closed as if he was in deep thought,

"My eyes they're different"He said as I smiled, I took his chin in my hands and lifted it from his chest,

"Different, but still beautiful... Just like the rest of you." I said before his eyes opened to reveal his wolf's eyes, they were brighter, showing the new power he had,

power that didn't belong. Derek looked at me as if he had seen a ghost,

"What's wrong my love?" I asked as he smiled then shook his head before looking back at me,

"That's something my mother told me a long time ago"He replied as I remember Talia,

"What made her tell you that?" I asked as he frowned, he inhaled deep then exhaled.

"I think it's time I told you about how my eyes changed the first time"He said as I looked a bit confused,

"When my eyes went from a once brilliant, golden yellow to a cold, steel blue" He said as I nodded. Derek took another deep breath in then exhaled,

"I was in high school, a sophomore, I was playing basketball near the music room when a girl told me that she was practicing, I teased her for a few minutes before

she went back"He started as I just watched his face,

"I went to the music room to apologize to her, I asked for her name, but she wouldn't tell me unless I could play one of the instruments, I picked up a triangle, she

said her name was Paige" He said as he looked at the sky outside, it's stars illuminating the dark.

"We basically were a couple, I took her to the distillery one day, we made out for a bit, but I had smelt blood, so I told her I caught a scent, she didn't understand

what I meant, I heard some footsteps coming from the woods so we ran" Derek said as he looked at me,I was listening to every word, I could feel everything he had

felt through the bond as he told the story.

"a couple of days went by, I stood to listen to her play her violin, she said I wasn't distracting, but she sarcastically said she hated me, I told her that she loved me,

we went back and forth before sharing a kiss" He continued as I rubbed his knuckles,

"Later that day during lunch, I sat alone till Peter showed up telling me that she was a perfect match, he basically told me to turn her, for day he told me that it was

the perfect idea, he wormed his way into my head, I asked Ennis to turn her"Derek said as I felt his emotions dig a bit deeper into the bond, but I nodded as he

continued,

"I basically told Paige to meet me at the school, I was in the locker room when I heard her whimper in pain. I ran to see he was above her, I regretted this decision, I

wanted to stop him, so I ran at him, he was an alpha, so I stood no chance, he pinned me as I watched Paige crawling up the stairs as she held her bleeding side I

was too late" Derek said as he had another tear go down his cheek, I wiped it away.

"I took her to a place that I could hide her, a root cellar, Paige was bleeding black blood, I scented Peter, the vial snake who basically threw our trust away, I asked

him what was happening to her as she continued to bleed that substance, but he never answered me. I kept taking her pain, she told me she thought she had know,

she basically told me that she saw things that couldn't be explained rationally, she said she still liked me, even loved me" Derek continued as I felt a tear going down

my cheeks,

"Paige cried as she had more pain flood her body, so I tried taking it, but it was too much, she asked if she was going to die, I didn't want to answer her, but I nodded

confirming what she was thinking. She told me that she wanted me to find someone who was strong, caring and someone that I could love for who I was, she made

me promise. Paige begged that she couldn't take the pain anymore, so she begged me to end it. I didn't want her to suffer anymore so I held her up as she had her

hands on my left arm to brace for the end, I felt my eyes glowing their precious golden color before I shut them as I crushed her spine, she let out a gasp as I just

held her tighter. I kept telling her I was sorry, I dare didn't open my eyes to see what I had done as I felt her hands drop from my arm, her body went limp and cold

in my arms as I just held her, but I scented Peter, he took her out of my arms as I kept my eyes shut the entire time" Derek said as he had tear streaks on his face, I

wiped them away.

" My head was in my hands when I scented my mother,she had found me still where I had killed Paige, I didn't want to move. She called my name, I said I did

something... Something terrible, her footsteps had gotten closer, she told me she knew, I felt her lift my chin but my eyes remained closed, I told her that my eyes...

they're different. She told me that they were Different, but still beautiful... Just like the rest of me. I then opened my eyes, I knew they were glowing, but no longer

the once brilliant, golden yellow, but a cold, steel blue" Derek said as I wiped the tears away or at least tried to. Derek saw this as he cupped my cheeks, using his

thumbs to wipe away the tears that stained my face,

"That promise I made to Paige in her dying moments lead me to find love. It lead me to find you" He said as he smiled,

"The story isn't over?" I asked as he smiled, his head shaking.

"Not yet my love, after Paige's death the moment my eyes changed to blue, it was symbolizing that I had taken the life of an innocent,. The changing of my eyes did

something else to me, a bit of my soul...it darken, I became more temperamental, violent, and rebellious, my control wavered more and more every passing full

moon." Derek said as I continued to listen,

"Till?" I asked as he smiled at me,

"Your 11th birthday, my mother had me go even though I didn't want to go, I had to because she wanted help me, she said that I might find the thing to keep me at

peace. I scoffed at her teaching, earlier that day my wolf told me that I should go, so I gave in. I asked my mom what I should make for you, she just smiled at me

as she handed me a box, I opened it and inside was materials, but also inside was my pack symbol. I thanked her as I went outside, I listened to nature as I made

what I wanted. I finished my work, making sure that it wouldn't break. My mom, Laura and I arrived at your house seeing your family there as the party commenced.

Your dad told my mom that it was also a special birthday because you would shift for the first time. I watched as your dad gave you your mother necklace. I

remember that he told you that it was time." Derek said as I smiled, I remembered Derek when he was at that party,

"We all watched as you fully shifted for the first time, I was in a trance when we made eye contact, my wolf was whining that you were my mate, when you changed

back I was in utter awe" Derek said as I smiled at the memory,

"Then you took me to my porch, telling me that your gift meant everything that ever happened between us, I remember opening the box to see the bracelet,

I remember thanking you, hugging you, then when we parted, I then imprinted on you, that bracelet has never left my wrist since" I said as he cupped my cheeks

and kissed me. We parted, but our foreheads remained in contact with one another,

"I do have a question my dear fox" Derek asked as I cocked my head,

"Ask away Love" I replied as he chuckled,

"Can you try to describe what imprinting is?" He asked as I nodded, I thought for a minute before looking at him,

" When our eyes connected after you gave me the bracelet that binds itself to my wrist, every thought, every emotion, every memory, every edge of my soul,

everything in my life unraveled as I stared into your beautiful green eyes. It was as if everything that kept my soul and body as one were disconnected, as if I cut the

very fabric of time with my claws. All the things that defined who I was at that moment vanished, my appreciation for nature, my ability to connect to emotions on a

deeper level, the love for my father, the curiosity of all I had ever wondered about, all of it vanish for that time, all those thing sliced away felt like I was drifting away

from Earth itself. Suddenly I was no longer floating, because something new held me, like the world's strongest thread was holding me here, to the center of life. The

gravity of Earth doesn't hold me to where I am. it's you Derek Hale, you keep me here." I explained to him, his tears once again fell, I kissed them away as he smiled.

We got out of the hummer trunk, he lead me to the distillery, there in the door was a spiral, a mark for vendetta, who's revenge did it stand for now, Kali's,

Duecalion's, The Darach's, or did it stand for our's.