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Decision Gone Wrong

Chapter 3

Once, Allen hated Kanda —— Where was the raven-haired male when Allen needed a support back then? What happened to their promise? Perhaps it was all an misunderstanding, he argued with himself, yet deep down, he knew. He knew it was only a matter of time before Kanda Yuu left him alone, just like how the others children —— Appearing in his life without his consent, and later disappeared without a trace.

It was foolish for one to yearn for someone that had betrayed them, wasn't it?

Yet, he stubbornly clung onto the thoughts where Kanda Yuu will return to his side one day, telling him that everything's going to be alright, that it was just a temporary split between them back then.

He forced himself to learn the truth the hard way.

It was the right choice to leave me after all.

Who would have thought that Kanda had grew up so well and managed to get the love of his life? A well-mannered one at that too. Think about it, how many people won't mind a third wheel in their house? Sure, it was all Tiedoll's idea, but if they pushed a little harder, Allen would not be able to stay in the house as them.

"Allen, I depise lies."

"There is no lie."

"If you say so, Neah." Allen flinched at the sharp sound of Tyki slamming the phone down.

"... Geez, going as far as calling me Neah…" Allen mumbled softly under his breath.

There is no lie, Mikk.

He really thought they would kick him out.

Mikk of all people should know —— There's nothing between them to lie of.

They were both damaged, only manage to live so far in life by licking each other's wound from time to time. Tyki knew everything about him; he knew everything about Tyki's as well. Call it faith or anything, from the day Allen was forced to room with the redhead in the rent house, it was impossible for Allen to cut ties with Mikk.

"You!"

"Stop it, Tyki!"

"You were there! Why didn't you stop them!"

"He was a victim himself, he can't do much!"

"He could have- He could have—— "

He could have saved Lavi, Allen blinked.

Could he?

It was chaotic the first time him and Tyki met.

One blaming the other for the demise of his last roommate; one silently took the blame just to seal off the pain he felt inside.

They both took a while to open up.

Once was enough for everything to be spilled.

Mikk and that redhead roommate of his —— They were a pair.

Kidnapping happened one day right after their fights, and that was the last day Mikk sees the redhead. Even though police report were made right away, but the police couldn't do much to retrieve the redhead.

Instead, it was Allen that wore the headband his lover always wore on his neck when he was rescued.

The headband that was gifted by the redhead when he realized what was happening to Allen in the facility. It was mystery on how the redhead found out Allen was the main target. Allen never had the chance to converse with him as well, before the redhead was killed before his eyes.

All because the redhead showed him pity by giving the headband to Allen.

"Mana was right. You were a victim yourself. You can't do anything-"

"He went peacefully."

Tyki stopped in his tracks, "... Really?"

"... Yeah."

Oh yes, that.

That was the only lie he told Tyki so far.

Allen lied down on his bed, breathing out a sigh.

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"Yuu, he's here again." Alma whispered to Kanda, alerting Kanda of the man behind them.

It was not the first day the man stared at them during lunch hour. To make it worst, they would spot the same man appearing somewhere near their house every time they were on their way back home. He would lean against the trunk of a shady tree just in front of their house, smoking and staring into space for a while before leaving.

Kanda stole a glance towards the man from the corner of his eyes, panic building up from the inside as time passed. Why is he following us today?!

Alma, noticing the current situation, gulped nervously. His hand gripping at Kanda's sleeve tight unconsciously.

Ring!

The man stopped his track and looked down to his cellphone, eyebrows narrowing slightly. Kanda took the chance to pulled Alma into a dark alley with him, staying there until the man left. When Kanda make sure that the man had gone far enough to not catch their presence, he guided Alma out of the alley. Alma insisted on returning home immediately right after.

"Why hello."

Allen stared at the man before him with a raised brow.

"Not inviting me in? How could you, Allen?"

"So a phone call can make you come rushing to me like this. I'm impressed."

Tyki smiled, forcing his way in. "Shhh Neah, I'm just being a good family to see how you're doing so far."

"What exactly are you even mad about?"

Tyki sat himself down on the sofa, "I'm not mad."

"You called me Neah only when you're mad, Mikk." Allen sighed, closing the door before joining the other in the living hall.

"Hmm", Tyki hummed, "Care to explain this goddamn GPS tracker you installed on my phone?"

"You were too close to where he works, that made me anxious."

Tyki smiled more. "And this all could be prevented if you told me everything, dear Neah."

Allen sighed.

"This marriage, you said yes just because it's Kanda Yuu, didn't you?"

Allen stared at the other in shock.

"... You-"

"Yes or no. One word is enough."

The door went unlocked, shocking both occupants in the house. Tyki looked to the door a while, before signalling for Allen to go for it, mouthing this is not over as he did so.

Allen could only smiled apologetic to the other male.

"Welcome back, both of you are really early today." Allen greeted them at the door.

"Allen, you can't believe what just happen-" Alma noticed the other occupant in the house, "... A visitor?"

"Bean sprout, who's that?" Kanda gritted through his teeth, trying his best not to lace the question with anger.

Allen stared at Tyki with a questioning look, what did you do?

Tyki blinked back, what do you think I did?

"Allen, do you know him…?"

"He's a …… friend." In which, Tyki snickered. "I'm Tyki Mikk."

He stood up, going towards the group and reached his hand out.

"It's a pleasure to finally meet you both."

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"Oh, so you were staring at us just there to see if we are related to Allen?" Tyki had stayed for dinner, much to Kanda's dismay, and was busy answering every question Alma asked. Kanda sat beside Alma, drinking the freshly brewed coffee Allen made for him, his ears twitching slightly as he listen to Tyki's answer to all Alma's question.

For at least half an hour, Alma chatted with Tyki, well mostly asking him questions about Allen's past, hoping to gain more details on what happened in the past.

"Tyki, How long have you know Allen?"

"Since he started living in the same place I did."

"So you knew what happened to him in the past?"

"... Why do you ask?" He's already not liking the brunette by this point.

Their past was like a taboo for them both. Never once had they remind each other of the past, afraid that the other would be trapped in the past, unable to move on. The look on Allen's face as soon as he mentioned the name "Kanda Yuu" was enough to answer all of his questions.

He knew why Allen wanted to go back.

He was there when Allen broke down completely.

Kanda Yuu reappeared in the whitenett's life after so long, it was no wonder Allen wanted to stay. But will it be good for Allen mentally?

"Allen mentioned a friend that left him. And something about something precious to him was gone in the process."

"And?"

"What I meant was... Do you know what happened? In details."

Someone's curious, I see.

"Ask him that yourself."

"But he won't say a thing!"

Tyki shrugged his shoulders, "Too bad then." He placed the cup of coffee in his hand down, "Allen I'm going back."

"I'll send you out." Allen came after him.

"Nice meeting your family." We need to talk.

"Thanks for the visit." I know.

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"I don't like the brunette."

Allen smiled, "He's a good child. Him and Kanda both."

"How much do they know? Surely you weren't that idiotic to open up to a stranger?"

"... Alma is Kanda's lover."

"I know that much. My question is: how far of your past did they understand?"

Allen looked away.

"Just the surface I see," Tyki breathed in another dose of nicotine, "I take it you didn't tell Kanda that you were Neah either."

"... He don't remember me, Tyki."

"Do you want him to remember?"

Troubled, Allen looked down.

The answer was clear.

Some things were best to leave forgotten after all.

"How long are you going to stay with them?"

"I don't know…… Perhaps until they kick me out?"

"Leverrier is still on the loose, Neah."

It was silence between them.

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"I'm getting you out, child."

The bonds were freed, was it time for the next experiment?

Why was the scientist panicking?

"Stop him! He's releasing Allen Walker!"

Were they escaping?

He had long surrender his life to the facility, so why was there someone bringing him out of the facility? He should be scared of the scientist dragging him out against his will, not like he was actually struggling though... But he could not feel any fear when he saw the bright world outside beckoning him to join. He was feeling... excited to go to the outside world?

The scientist was panting hard after dragging Neah out of the facility, he rest against the wall of a building, regaining his breath before gesturing Neah to follow him.

What was happening?

He should go back to the lab —— There was where he truly belong. At least, that was what Leverrier told him.

Noticing the child's hesitation, Mana smiled to him.

"The bad guys are gone now, let's leave here together."

Something must have gone wrong inside of him.

Why are there salty water flowing out of his eye?

"You are free now,Neah Walker."

Neah Walker? Wasn't his name "Allen Walker"?Why was he feeling warm and relieved when the scientist called him "Neah"? It was almost as if... He missed being called "Neah Walker."

"They did something to your memory, but it's okay. You'll remember everything soon, Neah."

Are these... tears? He was... crying? He was sad?But these happy feelings —— What was happening to his emotions?

"Welcome back, Neah."

Why was he crying in happiness?

Why was it reminding him of some memories that he could no longer remember clearly?

Neah……. Who was that?

Why were there people longing for Neah…… How about Allen?

How about his poor Allen?

Did no one remembered his dear Allen?

Decision Gone Wrong

"Who's that?" He pointed to his own reflection.

"You."

"But I don't look like this... This is Allen's face, Allen's eyes, Allen's hair —— "

"This is how you look now, Neah."

"...Tyki? This is not funny. That's Allen in there."

"They made you believed that you are Allen; but you're not. You're Neah."

But he can't remember how Neah would react to things. His muscles were trained to only react how Allen would.

Was he still Neah Walker at this point?

"Tyki, how was Neah like…?"

Who was Neah Walker?

Why did everyone wants Neah back?

If that's the case, he wanted to be Neah Walker, he wanted to be longed ——But Allen deserved to be remember too.

Why was he conflicted to stay as Neah when he was allowed to?

He wanted to be both Neah and Allen.

Oh, how selfish he was.

"Neah?!"

"Call me Allen, please."

"Neah's dead and you're not."

"Your brother died because he was a bad child."

Neah was a bad child —— He deserved to be forgotten.

Allen did nothing wrong.

Allen was innocent.

"Call me Allen."

If there can only be one alive, the good child deserves to live.

"I'm…… Allen Walker."

TBC

A/N: I'm back and alive.Sorry for the wait.I'll probably update one of the other two tomorrow night.

Update: I'm sorry for the mulitple post. FF was having trouble with the formatings again ORZ

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