Um so yes, I had trouble writing this chapter and it didn't felt as good as the last one. So I am sorry if it isn't any good. I tried my best to get where I wanted to go. And I also wanted to introduce Hel, and show that she doesn't like Thor, and why should she? It's not like Thor have ever been there for her, not that great of an uncle.

And then I wanted to have another moment with Cara and Loki, that was actually my favorite part of this chapter.

Then about Sleipnir, well you need to wait and see what will happen.

Anyway I hope that I can write more tomorrow, because then I will be very busy until Monday (most likely), but I can't promise anything.

So hope you survives until Monday if I don't speak to you before that, and also I hope you like the chapter :)

Thor was exhausted when he returned to earth. He had travelled around the realms searching for Sleipnir. His mother had soon located the first buyer. Thor didn't know how she had done it, and he wasn't sure he wanted to know either. He guessed that she had gone through some of Odin's paper, something his father wouldn't like. But Frigga had told Thor not to worry, and Thor trusted his mother. But he really hoped she would be okay, Thor didn't think that Odin would hurt her if he figured it out, but after what he had done to Loki he wasn't sure anymore. Thor wasn't sure who his father was anymore, at all.

After he had gotten the information he had left Asgard to find the buyer. Thor thought it would be easy to find Sleipnir, since finding the man was no problem at all, but he soon found out that the man had sold Sleipnir since he couldn't handle him, and after that a long journey started. Thor went from realm to realm, always two step behind. He learned that Sleipnir never stayed in one place very long, seeing that no one could control him. And for each story Thor got, his nephew seemed to become worse and worse. Thor wasn't sure if it was because how he was being treated or if the sellers just wanted to have a reason to get rid of the horse.

Thor actually lost hope, thinking he would never find his nephew, and that he would wonder the nine realms forever. On his fifth day, his search took him to Nilfheim. Thor didn't like being here, not at all. He was very close to Hel's realm, and he knew if he wondered in there, he would not be able to return, unless she said so. But he needed to do this for Loki, and at this moment it didn't seem like he needed to wonder too far into Nilfheim.

But just being in the realm was enough to make him shiver, it was cold, icy and everything was on the brink of dying. Why would someone want to live here? Thor guessed that the ones living there, near hell, did it so they could rob people on their way to their end. Thor wasn't to upset by this, knowing that those souls would also end up in Hel's realm. And he also was to much of hurry to find Sleipnir, so think about it.

Thor had walked for hours before he come across the place he was looking for, it wasn't much. And Thor had almost missed it, since the place almost disappeared against the dark sky. Thor walked over to the, he guessed he could call it a house and knocked, he stood there for a few minutes but no one opened, making him think that no one was home, and that meant that he would need to search for them somewhere in the area or wait until they returned. But a voice caught his attention and he walked around the house, and founded who the voice belonged too.

Behind the house stood a little girl who tried to get Sleipnir to stand up. Thor saw the horse laying on the ground, having a hard time to breath. The young girl tried to calm the horse and to get him moving.
"Hey," Thor said when he walked closer and the girl jumped "What's going on?"
The girl tried to find a place to hide when Thor walked closer.
"I do not wish to hurt you," he said to the girl who looked at him and when Thor smiled she smiled too.
"Can you help me save the horse?" The girl asked. "You look like a strong person. I need him to get up. Skúli who lives here isn't a nice man, and he will be back soon!"

Thor looked at her and nodded before he walked over to Sleipnir.
"Hi, Sleipnir. I have been looking for you," Thor said and the horse looked at him. "I actually come to get you back to your mother."
Thor choose not to mention Loki's name, not knowing how the girl would react. To Thor's knowledge, Loki had never been here, but he didn't want to risk it.
"You know him?" The girl asked and Thor nodded.
"He is my nephew," Thor explained.
"But you aren't a horse," the girl was confused and Thor laughed.
"No I am not. And it's a long story, but we don't have time for that, remember that Skúli can get home any minute."

"See Sleipnir your uncle is here to help you, so you should get up," the girl said to the horse but Sleipnir didn't move.
"Your mother misses you, and she wish to see you again," Thor said, it was a lie, or not only a completely lie. He knew that Loki missed Sleipnir and wanted to see him again, even if he hadn't said so.
Sleipnir gave Thor a look before he looked away. Thor understood that something was wrong. Sleipnir wanted to go with him, but he seemed to be unable.

"What's wrong? Why isn't he moving?" The girl said almost panicking.
"I don't know. He normally isn't like this, especially not when he can see his mother," Thor said and walked over to Sleipnir and he soon saw the problem. "He is hurt."
The girl walked over to him and gasped.

"I am sorry, I am so sorry, I didn't know," she said and Thor nodded.
"I don't think you did," he said and looked at Sleipnir with pain. Thor saw the big claw marks over his back that made it possible for him to see the bones, and all the blood.
"This is Skúlis work, I know it. He has weird powers," the girl said and Thor just nodded, thinking if he could do something for Sleipnir.
"I need to do something," Thor said.

"There is nothing you can do," a voice sounded from behind him and he turned around to find Hel standing there.
"Hel?" Thor said but she didn't look at him.
"Move, I have come to get my brother," she walked over to Sleipnir and kneeled beside him. Sleipnir looked at his younger sister and nodded. "I am sorry that we have to meet like this after all these years. But you will not be alone anymore, your brothers are already waiting for you."
"You can't take him Hel, your father is going to be devastated!" Thor said to her and Hel gave him and cold look.

"This isn't something I am doing with pleasure. This is something I need to do, I wish I didn't need to do it, but I refuse to let the Valkyries and Odin have him again!" Hel said and stroked Sleipnir over the muzzle and it seemed to make him relax.
"Hel I beg of you, don't take him," Thor said and Hel stood up.
"That's not how it work Thor. Someone will not live just because you beg me. For it to be possible you need to trade another's life for this, are you giving me yours?" She said with a cold smile.

"I can't do that, I can't do that towards your father, I can't leave him again," Thor said and Hel nodded.
"Thought so. So then don't say things like that again. If you aren't willing to sacrifice what's yours to help father," She turned from him. Thor knew that she most likely blamed him for what happened to her family, and Thor understood for the first time how hard it must been for Loki's children too. And it was no surprise that they hated him, Thor hadn't payed attention to what happened to any of them, he had been in his bubble, perfectly safe. "Tell father that I will take care of his oldest son, and that I love him very much. If you even can manage that."

With that, Hel took Sleipnir and the both disappeared.
"That…That was Hel," the girl said with a scared voice.
"It was," Thor just said and sighed, he knew that he just had lost one of Loki's children, or maybe two, not sure how he would be able to help Hel if she hated him that much. Then Thor realised that he would not be able to give this news to Loki, how could he he? But he need to, however, all he could think of was how he failed Loki again, that he was too late to save his oldest son. At that moment Thor screamed, scaring the little girl who ran away.

Thor didn't remember much of how he got back to earth, he just did somehow. Thor had tried to come up with a way to tell Loki about what happened, but he had came up blank. When Thor got down from Tony's roof he walked towards the kitchen, he needed something to drink and eat, maybe that would help him think of something. Not looking where he walked in the dark he soon walked into a table and felled down, breaking it.

Cara woke up when she heard a loud sound from someone breaking something, Loki screaming and jumping away from her, making her fall down from the couch and onto the floor. She felt the air leave her lungs for a second, from the shock of the impact. She had no idea what was going on as she lay there in the dark, when suddenly the lights went on.

"Thought you may needed some light," Jarvis said and she nodded and saw that Loki sat terrified next to her, on the sofa, and that someone moved around, but she didn't saw who it was. "It's only Mr. Odinsson."
Cara nodded and took a breath she didn't know that she had been holding.
"Loki it's okay, it's just your brother, your clumsy brother," Cara said and turned to face Loki who looked at her with worry. "I don't blame you for how you reacted. I only blame Thor."

"Did someone say my name?" Thor suddenly asked as he popped up behind the sofa looking at them.
"I did you clumsy oaf. Couldn't you have skipped, waking us up with a fright?" She asked and Thor didn't follow and she just rolled her eyes and tried to stand up when she felt pain coming from the back of her head.
"Great," she said and touched it to see that there was blood. Loki looked at her in horror as he got closer, not sure what he should do.

"I…I…I am so sorry Cara," he finally said and she almost screamed at him when he talked to her, but she manage to contain herself. But she gave him a big smile and he seemed to be very unsure what was going on.
"You…you talked to me," she said happily and Loki putted his hands over his month and looked horrified, and she guessed that they used to punish him whenever he talked. "It's okay Loki, I will not hurt you. I am just so happy to hear your voice again."

Loki didn't seem to know how to handle the situation and started to crying which made her cry too, she didn't mean to, but just seeing him like that made her heart break. That he even thought that she would hurt him because he said something to her. She hated how much they had hurt him, Loki was a brilliant man, and had a way with words few had, she loved it, but people had made him fear talking, once again she wished she could end Odin. However, she finally managed to calm down and she started to sing the song she had sung for Loki this past days, and it seemed to calm him down too.

"You don't ever need to worry about me hurting you Loki," he slowly nodded and she smiled. He had said his first words to her, but she knew that it would take a long time before he would start talking to her without a problem. Loki looked at her as she tried to sit up once more and this time it went fine.
"Looks like my wound is already healing. So nothing to worry about Loki," she said with a smile and slowly stood up with him doing the same. "Maybe we should go back to our own rooms."

"Cara can I talk to you?" Thor asked and Loki eyes were filled with horror at once.
"I promise that Thor don't want to punish you either for talking," she assured him.
"Oh, no I would never do that Loki," Thor said but Loki didn't seem to believe him, but he glanced at Cara and slowly nodded once more.
"Would you be okay going back by yourself?" She asked Loki who nodded. "Okay, then if you need anything just press the orb and I will be there."
Cara smiled at him as he walked off, she could not stop smiling, he had finally talked to her, but when she turned around to face Thor she stopped smiling, knowing that something was wrong.

When Thor had told her what he had founded and what had happened to Sleipnir she was crying again.
"I can't tell him that," she told Thor. "I can't tell him that he lost another child, I can't Thor. It will destroy him. Losing a child is the worst, it's like a part of you have died."
"We must tell him," Thor said and she stood up.
"I can't do it. I can't tell him. Even if we must tell him, I can't," she said, trying to control all the feelings she felt.
"You are the only one he isn't scared off."

"Don't ask me to do this Thor! I can handle the other things but I can't handle this. I know how he will feel, it's like you break inside. You will never be whole again, and it's true, a part of you will never be the same again, and no matter what happens nothing will be as good as it was. I have been there; I am still there. I miss my daughter every day. And I will do that for as long as I am alive."
"I…" Thor started, not knowing what to say. He didn't know how any of this things felt, and he didn't know how to deal with this situation. "Then what shall we do? Not tell him?"

Cara sighed.
"He must know, he has the right to know. I am just saying that I can't tell him," she said. "And god, I don't even know if Loki can handle this. I hope Odin dies for this!"
"Won't it be worse, not telling him? He will find out sooner or later," Thor said and Cara nodded.

"It will be if we, who knows something and don't say anything. If I had got the information that my daughter died earlier then she did, and other people already know, but didn't tell me, I wouldn't know what to do," Cara said as she started walking back and forth over the floor. She needed a plan how to handle this situation, but here she was without one, and she didn't know what to do at all. She had talked about her daughter with other partners when needed, not all of them knew about her, Loki hadn't in the past, because it hadn't been relevant, she almost wished she had spoken about it now. Because she knew all to well how Loki would feel, already felt, losing two of his children, yet she was unsure of how to talk to him about it, or rather focusing on Loki, not her own feelings.

"Thor?" Cara said after a few moments, she may have had a solution, if she could phrase her words right.
"Yes?"
"Hel said that it was possible to get a life back for a life," she started and Thor looked at her. "Does that any life count, or only a God's life?"
"I don't kno…" Thor started before he gave her a look. "No! Don't even think about taking Sleipnir's place!"
"If I can get one of Loki's children back, it's worth it!" Cara told him.
"Not if he loses you too!" Thor said. "He loves his children but he loves you too. Losing you isn't any better than losing one of them!"

"But it is. He can always find someone else that loves him, someone to replace me, but you can't find replace your children," Cara said with a smile. "So is there a way for me to contact Hel, like a ritual or something?"
"No," Thor only said, not liking what he heard at all. He needed a way to stop her, knowing that Loki would be devastated if Cara died, no matter if he got one of his children back.
"Then I guess I need to die, or almost die," she said.
"I forbid you!" Thor said and Cara actually laughed at him.
"That's really sweet of you Thor, really sweet but that will not work," she said and gave him an look.

"I will tell Loki then!" Thor said, feeling like a child, he had threaten Loki with telling their mom if he did something Thor didn't like.
"You will not do such a thing! Thor I understand what you are saying, I do. But you haven't lost one of your children, you don't know that pain, and I don't want anyone to feel that pain. Loki already lost two of his children, I don't want him to lose another one. He will be mad at me, but he will have his son with him."
"He will not be mad, he will be destroyed," Thor pointed out.
"I…I know," her voice was full of sorrow, knowing all to well the sorrow one felt after losing someone your partner or close friends as well. "But this is our only chance. And who knows, I may be able to get Hel here too."
"Cara please think about this," Thor said and she gave him a look.

"Okay I will give you one day to come up with another plan, a way to tell Loki about his son's death and how he will deal with it, without it destroying him. And to find another way for us to contact Hel and try to save her. If you figure it out, we do it your way," Cara said and Thor nodded.
"Thank you. I will find a way," Thor said and left Cara alone in the common room and she looked after him with a smile.

She knew what she just had done was very low. She needed Thor to tell Loki about his son, that was true, her memories of her daughter was painful, but she could have putted them aside for Loki's sake, it would have been a struggle, but she would have managed. But she hoped that Thor wouldn't be able to handle Loki's reaction, and do something stupid.

If he did, well then she should have her way to contact Hel. It was a dangerous plan, and not a nice one, but she didn't care, she had walked over bodies for someone she loved before, furthermore, Loki was more important to her then Thor. Thor would be so mad at her if he knew that she used him like this, good that he wouldn't know about her plan then, being as naive as he was. But she hadn't been lying, not completely, if the plan wouldn't work, she would try to contact Hel herself. Even if that meant she had to die, she would do that for Loki. She just wanted to try something else before she played with her own life.