Hi, I am so sorry for it taking so long before updating. It has been a long and tiresome week, with a lot of work, headache and depression. But anyway here is the next chapter. And I will also apologize for this chapter. I had so much problem writing it, no inspiration and I am sorry if it's boring. I think it is, actually one of the worst one. Haha because now you really want to read it, don't you. Anyway. I had to get some information out in this chapter, but I felt like it wasn't enough to make it interesting. And I had to write this chapter to get the story going.
But I will let you decide what you think, and hope that you can at least get through it.
I promise that you will meet Fandral and Fury in the next chapter. So hopefully you will like that. And I promise to try to write the next chapter as soon as I can!
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When Cara woke up the next morning she turned around and saw that Loki was awake.
"Have you slept at all?" She asked him and he looked at her, then shook his head. "I know that it's hard, but you need to sleep."
"I…I can't. When I close my eyes, I see everything so clear," Loki said in a low voice and Cara offered her hand to him, and he took it.
"I understand, and I know how you feel. But not sleeping isn't the answer, it may actually make the situation worse, since you may fall asleep at the wrong time," she said.
"I know," Loki just answered her and she smiled at him.
"I can make a potion to help you sleep if you want?" She offered him and he shook his head and she smiled again. "Will it help if I stay awake?"
"You need to rest," he said and looked at her. Cara know that she most likely looked awful due to what happened yesterday, but she didn't care.
"I can rest later, and I have already refueled a lot of my energy. So don't you worry," she told him but Loki didn't look convinced. "You can at least try to sleep. If you can't, well then I will sleep instead, okay?"
At that Loki nodded, Cara was sure he thought that he couldn't sleep so that she soon would. Loki closed his eyes and Cara started to sing on the sung as she stroked his hair, and he had soon fallen asleep and she smiled.
When Loki woke up a few hours later he looked surprised at her but she just smiled at him.
"Did you use magic?" He asked almost scared.
"I wouldn't do that without your knowledge. No I guess you just was more tired than you thought," Cara said and Loki slowly nodded, not sure if he believed her or not. Cara understood that he wanted, but some fear was hard to ignore.
"Thank you," he said after a few minutes.
"No need to thank me," she told him and sat up. Loki looked at her with careful eyes. "Don't worry, I am feeling much better. The wound has almost healed."
"That's a lie."
"Fine, it's a lie. But it's healing so don't you worry," she told him as she stood up, feeling how weak she was, she had to lean against the wall and she laughed again. "I always forget how weak I get after things like this. Guess I need to take it easy today."
"You should not stand," Loki said and gave her a worried look.
"It will not be worse if I am standing, and I need to make some food for us, and then take a shower, I am still covered in blood."
"I can manage without food," Loki whispered and Cara turned around.
"So can I, don't mean we should! And don't worry Loki, I will not make you go without food. What kind of friend would I be then?" She asked but Loki didn't answer her and she and sat down again.
"I know that they most likely told you that you weren't worthy of food, that it was too much of a trouble to give you some. Or that you would get food if you behaved. Using food against you is a way of having power over you. They know that you need it to survive, or in your case not be a walking skeleton, and they know the they are only ones that can give it to you. You try to make it without it, and for a while you can. I told you when we met the first time that I was feeling pleased if I felt hunger and not starved, so I know how it feel, and you get used to not eating, trying not to give them the power but it's not the way, but what else can you do," she started and Loki met her glance, almost shocked over how well she know. "But you never need to worry about that with me. I will never deny you food. It is no trouble at all to get food for you. Or okay that was a lie, I may need to fight Clint to get the food if I only make it for you."
Cara was pleased when Loki gave her a small smile, and she stood up once more.
"So please don't say things like that again. I am helping you because I want, and it is no trouble for me, and trust me you are worth it!" Cara said and Loki nodded.
"Sorry," he said in a low voice without looking at her.
"No need to apologise, I understand how you feel. I just want you to realise that it is not a problem," she said in a very kind voice and started walking towards the door.
She had just reached it when it knocked.
"Loki? Cara? It's me, Frigga, may I come in?" Frigga asked and Cara looked at Loki who slowly nodded and Cara opened the door.
"Hi," she said to the queen who smiled and walked in with a tray in her hands.
"Good after noon, I thought you may be hungry," Frigga said and Cara smiled.
"I know that I am," she admitted and walked over to the table and sat down. Loki looked very unsure when Frigga sat down too. "Do you want to join us Loki, or do you want to eat later?"
Loki looked at Cara then at Frigga and then back to Cara, thinking it over and Cara gave him the time he needed.
"Can I?" He finally asked and it made Frigga drop her cup, which scared Loki who looked down thinking he had done something wrong.
"Oh dear, you don't need to ask if you can eat with us," Frigga gave him the smile she only had for him.
"You just shocked her Loki, she isn't mad at you, don't worry," Cara explained and Loki looked up and slowly stood and walked over to them.
"I can't be mad at you," Frigga said and looked at her youngest when he sat down. Seeing him like this broke her heart. He had always been so full of life, questioning and challenging everything. He had been so sure about himself, and to see what Odin had done to him made her so mad and sad. It was her baby boy, she hated to see him like that.
"How are the twins?" Loki asked her when he felt more comfortable and Frigga smiled, knowing that Loki cared so much for his children.
"They are fine, they are worried about you, but they are having a fun time with your brother and Jane," Frigga told him and Loki nodded.
"I am glad to hear that."
"Thank you for taking care of them," Cara said to Frigga who smiled.
"There was no problem, I am glad to meet my grandkids again. They are so sweet, and so lively. Or I am old," she said and laughed.
"You aren't old mother."
"That's sweet of you to say that," Frigga answered him and Cara smiled at them both, knowing how much they meant to each other.
"But it must be a big change for you Cara," Frigga said and Cara looked at her a bit puzzled. "I mean having children."
At those words Cara looked out of the window and shook her head.
"Not really. I have had children before."
"Oh?" Frigga started.
"Mother," Loki stopped her and Frigga looked at Cara who seemed upset.
"I am sorry, I spook out of turn," Frigga said and Cara turned and smiled to her, not a happy smile as always, rather a forced one.
"You didn't know. So there is no reason to blame you for it," Cara said and Frigga took her hand.
"I am still sorry," Cara nodded and they sat silent for a while, eating without having anything to say.
"Your brother told me he is getting married again," Frigga said a few minutes later and Loki nodded. "He also said he asked you to be his best man. I think it's wonderful."
Loki didn't answer at first, not sure what to say.
"I don't think I can," he finally answered.
"Why not? Thor would love for you to be," Frigga said and Loki couldn't answer and Cara took his hand.
"I would guess that Loki feels like he is not worthy of it, that and he do not wish to be in the same room as the friends Thor has from Asgard, not feeling safe around them," Cara told Frigga, and Loki nodded.
"Oh? I hadn't thought of it, and I am sure you brother hasn't either," and Cara wasn't surprised, people around you often forgot about things like that, how the smallest things could be to much for one to overcome. "Do you want me to talk with Thor to see if he can solve the problem?"
Loki shrugged his shoulders.
"I just don't want Thor to get his hopes up."
"It's almost like you don't know your brother," Frigga laughed and Loki actually smiled a small smile. "But I will try to talk to him about it."
"Thank you," Loki said and Frigga nodded and then stood up.
"I should go and talk with your brother," she said and walked towards the door when Loki spook again.
"Mother?" Frigga stopped and turned to face Loki. "Can he find me here?"
Those words made Frigga almost cry, to hear how scared and worried Loki was.
"I don't know dear," she admitted. "I don't think he will look here at once, not believing you would be on Midgard and living with the Avengers and your brother."
"But he can find me?" Loki asked and Cara walked up next to Loki and took his hands.
"We will protect you Loki," she said and he just shook his head.
"I don't want you to get hurt or die," he whispered.
"I will not stand back and watch him take you again, I told you that yesterday!" Cara said in a way that told him that she meant it, and wasn't willing to discuss the matter.
"I will do my best to protect you from Asgard," Frigga said and walked over to them again. "But I may help you from here too. I may be able to put a spell on you that makes it harder for Odin and Heimdall to find you."
Loki looked at her and nodded.
"Cara would you help me? I think the magic will be stronger if we are two," Frigga said and Cara nodded.
"Just tell me what to do," Cara said and Frigga started to explain how the spell worked and how you used it.
When they had used the spell at Loki, Frigga had left the room and walked back to the others. She was hoping that the spell would work. Her magic was strong, but not as strong as Odin's, they had different magic so she hoped that her magic would stop his. She didn't want to see Loki get hurt ever again! He did not deserve that. Her boy had been through so much already, and she hoped that he would get better. She didn't want to think about what would have happened if Thor hadn't found him, or if Loki didn't have Cara. Frigga was sure that no matter how much she loved her son, she could never help him through this.
When she got back to the kitchen she saw how the twins was playing cards with Thor, Jane and Steve who seemed to have joined them and she smiled. She was happy that her grandkids were back with their father. But she was wondering what had happened to their mother. She had never been against Sigyn, the woman had been difficult to handle at sometimes, but compared to Angrboda she was a saint.
"Grandmother," Váli said and she smiled at him and walked over.
"How is father?" Narfi asked and Frigga was glad that they cared so much about Loki.
"He seemed to be doing a little bit better, but it's hard for me to tell," she informed them as she sat down.
"Will he be alright?" Váli asked.
"Let's hope so. But I know that Cara will do her best to help him," Frigga told them.
"I know she will. Mother is a very nice person, and she cares about father," Narfi said.
"Mother?"
"Father told us to call her mother when we was here, to protect us. It was so people wouldn't know who our father was," Váli explained.
"It didn't go so well," Narfi said and thought about yesterday.
"You are not to blame for that! That was all Fury's fault!" Thor said to them and the twins slowly nodded.
"So why call her mother now?" Frigga asked and the twins smiled.
"Because she looks after us, just like father does. And she is someone special to father and there for a part of our family," Narfi said and Thor laughed and the twins didn't understand why.
"I am sorry kids, but you are onto something, and you may not know what yet," Thor said. "But you may be able to see it before your father will."
"Thor, Loki has showed that Cara is special for him," Steve said and played a card.
"He has, but he has not said it yet," Thor said and smiled.
"Don't put pressure on him to do so either Thor!" Frigga said and Thor nodded.
"I won't do that mother, doing so will just make him stop. He will get so embarrassed. I remember when I caught him play hide and seek with her years ago, he felt so ashamed of it," Thor said with a laugh.
"Father did that?" Váli asked with big eyes and Thor nodded.
"He sure did. I have said it before, but she brings out the best in him."
"I want to play hide and seek with father too," Narfi said.
"You can ask him when he feels better," Frigga said and the twins nodded with big smiles on their faces.
"He is never going to find us!" Váli said, very sure of himself.
"And why is that?" Jane asked.
"Because we have magic that will help us," Narfi said.
"He has magic too, you know?" Thor said and the twins thought about it.
"Not as great as ours," Váli said with a laugh.
"Oh we will see about that," Thor told them with a laugh, very sure that Loki would have no problem finding them.
"Thor I need to talk to you about the wedding," Frigga said when they started a new game of cards.
"What about it mother?"
"Loki told me not to get your hope up that he may be your best man," she said and played a card.
"Why not?" Thor asked a bit disappointed.
"Cara said that he may not feel worthy…" Frigga started.
"That is stupid, he is my brother! He is without a doubt worthy to be my best man!" Thor said and Frigga smiled.
"I think that it has to do what he has been through, he is very ashamed of it. So don't pressure him about it, because I don't think you can do anything to help him here," Frigga explained. "Just let the time has it course. But there is something else Cara said."
"What?"
"She told me that Loki may not dare to be your best man because of the people you may invite from Asgard. I had not thought about it, and my guess is that you haven't either. So before you invite everyone, think about who you invite and how they will react to Loki," Frigga told him.
"I hadn't thought about that. I just thought that I would invite all my friends and everything would be perfect if they, and Loki were there. I never thought on how they would react to Loki, or he to them," Thor said.
"Then let's think it over," Jane said and smiled towards Thor who nodded.
"I think the biggest problem would be father. I do not wish him to be there, not after what he have done! But I am not sure how I can make that happen," Thor said and Frigga nodded.
"Neither am I, but we will think of something."
"Why can't grandfather be there?" Narfi asked and the others looked at the twins, forgetting that they didn't know what he had done. Frigga wasn't even sure that they knew that it was Odin who made them leave Asgard.
"That is up to your father to tell you," Frigga said and the twins slowly nodded.
"I need to get back to Asgard now. Odin thinks I only visited Thor to tell him that Loki has escaped," Frigga said after they were done with the game.
"You are leaving already?" Váli said in a sad voice.
"I am afraid. I will get back and visit as soon as I can," she said and hugged the twins.
"Can we go back with you? To say hello to grandfather?" Narfi asked and the others looked very unsure at each other.
"Not at this moment. And I think your father needs you more," Frigga told the twins and they nodded.
"You are right," Váli admitted and Frigga smiled, proud over how clever the kids were.
"Then I bid all of you farewell," she hugged them all.
"Aren't you going to say goodbye to Loki?" Thor asked.
"I did that already," she told him. "So take care, all of you!"
"You too," They answered her as Frigga walked towards the roof.
"So what are we going to do now?" Jane asked.
"I am going to talk to Fandral," Thor said and she looked puzzled at him. "I want to know who else… um don't like Loki, so I don't invite them to the wedding."
Thor looked at the twins who looked at him, he had almost told them something they shouldn't know.
"I see," Jane said and nodded before she turned toward the twins. "How about me and Steve show you some of Tony's video games, while uncle Thor does boring wedding things?"
"What is video games?" Narfi asked.
"Come, let me show you," Jane took the twins hands and walked towards the TV with Steve next to her. Thor smiled before he started walking to the elevator, hoping that Fandral would give him some information.