So here is the new chapter, and I am very happy with it. I liked how it turned out. And I am sorry that you didn't get like any Fury, I had planed on doing it, but it just felt like it didn't fit in the chapter, so I will soon give it to you. And I am also sorry if you wanted more Fandral, but hope you are happy with what you got.

I am also sorry that Doctor Strange is way, way out of character, but I just needed to use him in the story, and have him in it. I am also sorry that I used his powers a bit different. But I hope your survive.

The world she goes to can be any of the other worlds she has been in, pick your choice, or just invent one on your own.

Besides that I am also sorry if Loki felt very strange in this chapter and if I couldn't describe how he feels. It's a bit like Stockholm Syndrome, but not totally, so I will not use that term in the chapter. And I am also sorry if it felt like he started to talk a lot all out of the sudden. I try not to make him do stuff to fast, but I also don't want them to stand still, since the story is moving forward and Loki is starting to feel a bit safer, at least some moments. And he starts to talk with everyone when he feels like he can and dare.

I think that was all the information you needed, and as always thank you to the new followers and reviews, and to my old followers, thank you for reading my story.

I hope you will enjoy the chapter! :)

"Lady Cara, I must inform you that Mr. Odinson is almost killing Fandral again," Jarvis said with what sounded like a tired voice. Cara who had been drawing looked up at the celling.
"He is what? How? Why?" Cara was confused, what had made Thor almost kill Fandral again.
"He went down to talk to Fandral about the wedding, and who he could invite. He wanted to know that none of the guests he invited had touched Loki. Fandral refused him that information and Thor took to violence," Jarvis told her and Cara sighed.
"We must stop him!" Loki uttered and she looked at him. "If you won't, I will! I can't let him die, not after all the help he gave me!"
Cara had barely time to react before Loki almost ran out of the room and she went after him.

She knew how he felt, you hated the person that did the things to you, but you also protect them for some reason. You feel like you owned them, or rather that they own you and you have to protect them, you are theirs, and they need you. And also, you know what will happen if you don't help them, things will be worse. Cara had been there before, she had defended the people hurting her, afterwards when she was free, she could not explain this to the others, she could not make since of her actions. It is just something you need to do in the moment. But she also knew that it could end so much worse. It had for her, more than one times. She had been stuck with the people who hurt her after that, and she would not let that happen to Loki.

Loki stepped into the elevator and Cara right after him. She could see his distressed look and how he wanted to get there faster.
"Jarvis can you stop the elevator?"
"Of course Lady Cara," Jarvis answered and the elevator stopped and Loki looked at her.
"Make it work again!" Loki demanded and she shook his head.
"I need to talk to you first, before we get there!"
"No you do not!" Loki told her in an angry voice.
"Yes I do!" she said "Loki I know why you are doing this, and how you feel…"
"Stop! Are those the only word you are capable of saying?" Loki suddenly asked her in a mocking voice. "I am tired of hearing them, you do not know how I feel!"

Cara know that Loki was upset, scared and worried, that's why he said those word, but it still hurt. He had come to a time in his freedom where everything may start to become frightening and going back to your capturer was easier than running away from them. Especially if you herd that they were in danger.

"Even if I didn't know how you feel, I can still tell you that this is a bad idea and that you have no reason to go back to Fandral!"
"You can tell me? You can, tell me? You can't tell me anything, because you don't know! He helped me! He was more gentle than the others! I can't let Thor kill him! Not when I was the one that asked Fandral for it. I flirted with him over the years, I lead him on. I asked for it!" Loki shouted at her.

"No you did not ask for this, Loki. You are allowed to flirt with people, that does not mean that they can rape you and do whatever they want to you! And Fandral may have been nicer than others, it does not mean he was nice to you. Loki I saw you, he was not gentle!" Cara tried to explain to him.
"He was! You weren't there! You left me and you weren't there so how would you know?" Loki said and Cara was about to apologise for it, even if there was no chance for her to know that what he went through, she still felt sorry for not being there. "And are you telling yourself that it's okay to flirt without anything happen every time they rape you? Maybe you shouldn't lead them on yourself!" Loki shouted at her and Cara stared at him in shook and tried not to cry.
"Jarvis make the elevator go again," she said in a low voice and Loki smiled, a smile of victory. Cara didn't say a word to him.

When they stopped Loki stepped outside and she was about to do the same.
"I don't want you here. I don't need you here!" Loki said and looked at her.
"Just be careful, and remember your son's upstairs," she told him but Loki didn't answer her as he left her standing there. Cara knew all too well why Loki had done it, she had done this herself. She had refused the help and walked back to the people hurting her. But she had never spoken such mean words to her savers. And she had never believed Loki would do that to her.
"Jarvis I am heading out," she told him.
"I understand Lady Cara. To where if I may ask?" Jarvis asked.
"Away," she just said and then vanished in thin air.

Thor turned around when he heard the door open, not surprised that someone would come, counting on Jarvis telling the others. But what did surprise him was that it was Loki who stood there.
"Brother?" Thor asked.
"Step away from him Thor," Loki said without looking at Thor. Thor was very puzzled over why Loki was there, especially alone. But he looked at Fandral and let go of him. At ones Loki walked over to him.

"Hi love, I knew you would come," Fandral said in a sweet voice that made Thor wanting to punch him in the face. Loki only nodded as he looked Fandral over.
"You are hurt," he said.
"Don't talk! I have told you not to talk!" Fandral said in an angry voice and Loki lowered his head. "I will forgive you for this time, you are just worried. But everything will be alright."
Loki nodded and Fandral smiled at Thor.

"I think you can leave now Thor," Fandral said in a mocking voice.
"I think not!" Thor said and looked at Loki who only looked at Fandral. "Loki why are you here? Where is Cara?"
Loki did look at Thor this time and saw confusion and sorrow in his eyes.

"That is a good question, love, where is Cara?" Fandral asked and looked at him but Loki didn't answer. "You can speak now."
"I…I sent her away," Loki said in a very low voice and Fandral laughed.
"That's perfect! You finally realised who you wanted to be with!" Fandral said and stroke Loki's cheek. "She was just in the way anyway. And didn't I tell you that she was worthless and that she didn't care about you. She would never have left you if she did care."
At those words Loki met Fandral's eyes and shook his head.

"You are wrong, she do care," Loki said in a low confused voice.
"Oh Love, how wrong you are. If she did care she would come and get you! Instead she sent you right to me without doing anything," Fandral said and kissed Loki. Thor saw how scared that kiss made Loki and pulled him away from Fandral, before he punched Fandral in the face.
"Don't you dare do that again!" Thor said in an angry voice.
"Thor!" Loki said and looked worried at Fandral.

"Loki don't listen to him! Cara cares, just like you said!" Thor told him and Loki glanced at him and then Fandral, not sure what to do. And Thor wasn't sure what to do either, he was not good at handling situations like this. He was sure of what he knew, Cara did care about Loki, over almost everything, so why had she just left, even if Loki asked her.
"He is wrong Loki! She isn't here, just like she wasn't the last time. She does just not care love, not like I do. I was the one that helped you, remember?" Fandral said as he stood up and walked over to Loki and grabbed his arm. "Don't do anything stupid now Loki!"
Loki looked between Fandral and Thor, and Thor saw how scared Loki was, and how unsure.

"Stop touching him Fandral!" Thor said and walked closer to them but Loki stopped Thor again.
"Thank you love," Fandral said and kissed Loki on the cheek. "So how about sending Thor away, and I will make you forget all about how Cara left you."
"She didn't leave me!" Loki finally said and looked at Fandral who took a step back, unwillingly.
"Don't talk Loki!" Fandral warned him.
"She didn't leave me!" Loki shouted.
"Yes she did! She isn't here! She left!" Fandral said when Loki punched him in the face making him fell backwards.

"Brother!" Thor said in joy and laughed, but Loki looked at Thor with horror.
"What did I do?" Loki said and Thor walked over to his little brother.
"The right thing!" Thor said but Loki shook his head.
"No, I need to help him, I need to…" he said while he was crying and Thor gently pulled him into a hug, hoping that Loki wouldn't mind. But Loki did nothing, he just stood there.
"Let's leave him and find Cara instead," Thor said and Loki looked at him.
"What have I done?" he said and pulled away from Thor. "She will never speak to me again, I treated her horrible."
Loki started walking back and forth, panicking.

"Brother, take a deep breath. Whatever did happen I am sure she will forgive you," Thor said, trying to comfort Loki.
"You are so naïve Thor," Loki only said and Thor walked over and stood in Loki's way.
"I may be naïve, but I know that Cara loves you very much, and she will never leave you! She will be back and you guys can fix this," Thor said and Loki stared at him.

"She…she loves me? Still after…after everything?" Loki didn't seem to believe it.
"I thought you knew brother?" Thor said and Loki shook his head. "Oh Loki, her love is so obvious. The way she looks at you, defends you, protects you, talk to you, talk about you. She does all those things because she loves you, no matter what happened after you let go all those years, she still loves you."
"Why?...She never said…anything," Loki stared down at the floor.
"She didn't? I thought she would have said something to make you think it at least. But maybe she thought that you wasn't ready to hear it," Thor said.
"I hurt her Thor, all she ever does is be kind to me, and I hurt her! I can't, I don't know what to do," Loki said and Thor just hugged him. He knew how much Cara meant for Loki, even if Loki didn't always know it himself. And he knew how much Loki meant for Cara, so he was sure that they could work this out.

"Let's find her," Thor said and Loki slowly nodded. "Um Jarvis?"
"Yes Mr. Odinson?" Jarvis answered.
"Do you know where Cara is?" Thor asked, not really sure what the magic not existing person could do.
"She said she would go away," Jarvis informed them.
"Away where?" Thor asked.
"She didn't say," Jarvis said and Thor looked at Loki who didn't seem to know what to do.
"Let's talk with Tony, he may know how to find her."

Steve stepped out from Fury's room after talking to him for a few hours and explaining the situation. A situation he wasn't sure if the director understood, he said he did, but for some reason Steve couldn't make himself to believe him. He felt like he would need to ask Natasha or Clint speak to him, knowing the man better, and possible collect some information. All Steve got was the information they already had. He didn't know how to get more, but then he was a soldier not an interrogator. But Fury would have important information, like how Odin covered up what happened to Loki.

When Steve turned around to walk to the elevators he saw Thor and Loki leaving Fandral's room.
"Hi," he said to the brothers who looked at him. Thor looked very determined about something and Loki looked worse than ever. Steve was confused. Loki had looked awful when he last saw him, that was true, but this was something else. "Is everything alright?"
"My friend, do you know where Tony is?" Thor asked.
"Last I heard he was in his lab with Bruce, trying to moderate Clint's bow," Steve said.

"Thank you," Thor said and then looked at Loki. "Let's go."
"Thor what is going on?" Steve asked.
"We need Tony's help to find Cara." Thor said.
"She is missing?" Steve asked, very surprised.
"She…she left, but we do not know where," Thor only said and Steve nodded.
"I am coming with you."

Tony was in his lab with Bruce, just like Steve had said. And both scientists gave them a strange look when they walked in.
"Friend we need your help," Thor said.
"I figured big guy, why else would you be down here?" Tony asked and then looked at an arrow. "So what can I do?"

"We need to find Cara," Thor said.
"Ask Jarvis, why come to me?" Tony asked.
"Because she has left to go home. And we needed your help to find where home is," Thor said.
"She left?" Tony said. "Why would she do that?"
At those words Loki looked down and Tony gave him a suspicious look.

"What happened?"
"I don't wish to speak about it," Loki said.
"Wow, something bad then."
"Tony!" Bruce warned him.
"Fine," Tony putted down the arrow. "Jarvis can you scan the world for Cara's image and spikes of her magic?"

"I have ever since she left," Jarvis said and Tony laughed.
"Of course you have."
"How long will it take to find her?" Steve asked.
"I can't say Mr. Rogers. Searching for her magic is easier then searching for her image. But I don't know if she can hide it, because if she can then we will wait for us to find her image," Jarvis said.

"What if she isn't on earth?" Thor asked and the looked at him.
"Then I can't find her," Jarvis said.
"Why wouldn't she be on earth?" Bruce asked.
"Because she can travel between different words. When I found her the last time she was in another world," Thor said.

"But she is from here, shouldn't she have a home here?" Steve asked.
"There is nothing left for her here," Loki said.
"Right, her family is dead, so is her friends. So yeah maybe this isn't home anymore," Tony said. "So how do we find her? How did you do it the last time?"
"I asked Heimdall, but I don't think we can take that risk again, not now when father is back," Thor said.
"Then how will we find her?" Steve asked and the others didn't say anything at first, until Tony smiled.
"We ask Doctor Strange of course!"

Strange had agreed to help them and had soon joined them in the lab. They had decided not to tell the others yet. The agents were training and they felt no need to interrupt them, and they thought that it was better not to tell the twins, and therefore not Jane either.

"Stephen," Tony said with a smile when the other man appeared out of thin air.
"Tony," Strange answered then looked around in the room and his eyes stopped at Loki. "My guess is that you have a good explanations for him to be here?"
"We do! But it's kind of a long story," Steve said.
"I would like to hear it before I help you," Strange said.
"Then sit down!" Tony told him before he started to explain.

"So you want me to find this Cara?" Strange asked and the others nodded when Tony was done, after an hour or so.
"I will see what I can do. Would be easier if I had something to recognise her magic with."
"Will this do?" Loki asked and showed him the orb, and Strange took it.
"This is fine magic, she is very skilled," he said and felt the magic before giving it back to Loki.
"She is," Thor said.
"Like you would know," Tony teased.
"I grow up with magicians around me, and I can tell when someone is skilled," Thor informed him.

"Let's get started" Strange said and the other stopped talking and looked at him instead. They saw different worlds pass by, like holograms. They all looked very different in both time, environment, people living there. Some was in war, others in peace. Some looked like happy places, others didn't.
"She been to all of those?" Bruce asked and Strange just nodded.
"She has seen a lot," Tony said and for a moment wished he could to, imagine all the knowledge he could get.
"Found her. You want to bring her here or you to her?" Strange asked, after an search of two hours.
"I think it's better if we go to her, not forcing her to return," Thor said and Strange nodded, grabbed them all and then they sat off.

When they arrived they were standing in an empty, on the brink to be a ruin, of a house.
"Where are we?" Tony turned towards Strange who shrugged his shoulders.
"I don't really know."
"So she is here somewhere?" Thor looked around, trying to find Cara, wondering if they would need to search the whole house to find her.
"Yes, and most likely in that direction, since that's where her footsteps goes," Tony pointed out, towards a door and they started following them.

They soon ended up outside, in an overgrown garden, and with a forest that seemed to be working it's way towards the house, and the wall protecting it.
"Well at least it's easy to find her, I think this is the first time I am glad that it's this messy," Tony commented.
"You are always living in a mess Tony," Bruce answered as they walked to the back of the house and soon found Cara, resting against a tree, next to a grave, talking to the person who was buried. They could see that she was crying, but she laughed in the middle of the conversation, and it felt wrong to listen to her, and Tony wondered which was the best way of interrupting her without being rude, however, Thor soon stomped over, and she looked up, as they all followed.

"Cara!" Thor sounded delightful that they had found her, as they had been searching for her forever.
"Hello," her voice was low as she stood up and Tony glanced at the grave, but she hadn't marked it, and he wondered why?
"What are you doing here?" Thor asked and she gave him a look, as she asked if he was stupid, and Tony had to agree, it was a stupid question.
"Who is it?" Steve asked and Cara turned to the blank grave stone.
"An old partner of mine," she simply answered, avoiding the question and to look at them.

"Cara can I talk to you?" Loki said when they all went silent and she looked at him not sure what to say, thinking it over, for a second looking as she had a conversation with the person buried, before turning towards Loki.
"Let's go inside before it's start raining," she walked past them all, inside and Tony wasn't sure if he preferred to take his chances with the rain, rather than the house almost in ruins. Cara walked towards the kitchen and Loki followed her, while the others started to look around the house.

Cara started preparing some tea for her and Loki, on the old stove, and when she was done, she leaned against the counter, looking at him.
"Cara…I," Loki started and she didn't know what to say so she just took a sip of her tea. "Cara I am sorry."
"Loki I know you are, I know you would be as soon as you calmed down," she started but then stopped, she didn't know what to say to him.
"I should never have said that to you," Loki told her and she looked at him.

"No you shouldn't, but I understand why you did it, I know what you felt at that moment and I…" Cara stopped herself. "Forget it, you don't want to hear it."
Loki just looked at her and she at him. She didn't know what to do. She had been hurt before, but none of her partners had ever said such words to her. Normally the people who hurt her were people who captured her, never her friends or people that she loved.

"I do want to hear it. I should never had told you that I don't. Even if it's awful that you know how I feel, it helps me, I know that I am not alone in this."
Cara slowly nodded, it was the only thing she could do at the moment.
"I don't want to be alone in this," Loki said and looked down at his hands.
"You aren't," she said and walked over to him and sat down.
"After what I said, you won't leave me?" Loki asked and Cara slowly shook her head.

"I won't. Like I said, I understand why you did it. I have done similar things, more in actions then words, what you did. But to hear you say those words hurt and I needed to get away. It was a cowards move, but I just couldn't stay there," Cara said in a low voice.
"I wouldn't blame you if you wouldn't return at all," Loki told her and Cara laughed at this and Loki looked at her in surprised.
"For being an old God with as much knowledge as you have, you can be really dumb," she told him. "I could never leave without coming back and try to talk to you and say goodbye, if you didn't want to see me."
"Why?" Loki asked "Is it because you love me?"
Those words caught her off guard an she almost choked on the tea.

"Thor told me," Loki said in a low voice and Cara only nodded. "Why didn't you tell me?"
"Because you weren't ready to hear that I never stopped loving you. It would have done the situation worse," she only told him and Loki looked at her.
"You know that I lo…" he started but she stopped him.
"Don't say it Loki! I don't want you to force it because we had a fight, or because Thor told you how I feel. Say it when you are ready," she told him and Loki looked at her.

"But I am ready," Loki started and Cara smiled.
"No you are not. Trust me I know that you aren't. I have done that too, said that I loved someone after things like this happened to me, and I was far from ready, but you can't take it back. So please don't force it, wait until you are ready, and you will know when you are ready," Cara said and Loki looked really unsure at her. "I can wait if that's what worries you. I don't do this because I expect you to love me. I am helping you because you are my friend, and I would have done that no matter what."
Loki looked at her and she saw that he cried and she pulled him into a hug.

"How can you be this nice to me? After everything…I'm…a…monster," Loki's world disappeared in the sobs and Cara just hugged him tighter.
"It's alright," she said to him "And you aren't a monster."
Loki didn't answer her and Cara didn't say anything either, they just sat there for a while until Loki calmed down.

"Cara I am so sorry that I blamed you for getting raped, I know that it wasn't your fault," Loki almost whispered and Cara nodded.
"I forgive you and I know that you didn't mean it. It did hurt to hear it, it still hurts, but I will get over it, in time. And I know that you was just upset, you should never had said that otherwise," She said and Loki nodded. "And just as it wasn't my fault, it wasn't your fault that anyone raped you either."
Loki looked chocked at those words and Cara just smiled, she knew that he still didn't believed those words, but she hoped that he would get there.
"Let's see if the others are alive."

When she returned towards the others they were smiling at her.
"Are you alright?" Tony wondered and she simply nodded, unwilling to talk to them about it, but they could see that she seemed to be a bit better.
"So how did you guys get here?"
"Oh, Strange brought us," Bruce pointed at the man in a cape and Cara turned towards him.
"I guess I should thank you."
"Should?"
"Depends if it means that you can continue tracking me?"
"Can't say, you were hard to find this time, so if you move to far away, possible not." Cara only nodded in response, unable to do anything about it now.

"We should head home."
"But we haven't seen anything of this world!" Tony protested and Cara sighed.
"You are not armed to take it on, leading to some of you dying, and I do not wish for that."
"Oh how bad can it be?" Tony wondered.
"War, killing, torture, rape, killing, more war, the world is lost and has been for a long time."
"And you used to live here?" Steve asked and she nodded.
"When it wasn't like this yes, so let's return before something happens." The others agreed and they soon returned to their world.

When they landed in the tower again they all looked very excited over what just happened, as a bit overwhelmed.
"I need to find Jane. Do you want us to have the kids another day?" Thor asked Loki who only nodded. "Then see you tomorrow."
"Would you like something to drink Stephen?" Bruce asked and Strange nodded. "Then let's go. Are you coming?"
Bruce looked at the others.
"I am," Steve said and Cara just shook her head, as did Loki.
"Then see you tomorrow" Steve said and dragged Tony with him, who hadn't answered clearly not interested in leaving.

"Cara I…" Loki started but didn't know what to say.
"I am glad to be back too," she only said as the started walk towards their rooms. "Loki did everything go well with Fandral?"
At those words Loki stopped and looked really worried.
"I punched him, I shouldn't have done that," he said in a very low voice. "He will be mad."
But Cara just smiled at him and Loki looked surprised at him.

"He will be mad Loki, but I am proud of you, whatever he did, you didn't let him win. And don't worry he can't touch you," Cara said and Loki nodded.
"But I need to sleep. I still haven't healed all together and moving between words takes a lot of energy."
"Will you stay in my room?" He asked her, but he didn't look at her. Cara thought about it, she was still hurt about the words, but she knew that Loki really did regret it, and she knew that sulking wouldn't help them. She needed to try to make it feel better. And punishing Loki for it would not make her feel better, not at all.
"I will stay at your room," she finally said and offered her hand and Loki took it and they walked towards his room.