So here is finally the next chapter. And I thought that I would move things along, at least for a bit. And I has been around a month since the last chapter. And sure it's a short time to plan a wedding, but if you know Tony Stark you can fix everything at ones.
And I am also sorry if Loki feels strange in this chapter, but yeah he is changing, he isn't going to go totally out of character, trust me. Even if he was very out of character in this chapter. I hope you survives it. I just wanted to have a nice moment with Loki and Thor! And also sorry if you didn't get to much Cara and Loki in the chapter.
Also sorry if you felt like the chapter was a bit chaotic, I wanted to give the feeling on how it may feel the short time before a weeding, and during a wedding. But I may also apologize that the wedding isn't super well written. I have never been married myself and the last wedding I was at, well I was 12. So hope you survives that too!
But even if I apologize a lot, I am happy with the chapter, really happy actually!
And Magni and Mothi are Thor's sons from the mythology. And well there is super little information about them. I think one or both of them exist in Marvels universe too, but I did not use those versions. I did actually not use any version, I just used them as I wanted for a bit fun. And Thor's daughter, well you will see why she isn't there.
Besides that I want as always thank the new followers and the ones giving reviews, and also my old followers. Thank you for hanging in there :)
Think that was all, so I hope you enjoy the chapter :)
"Thor I can't do this," Loki said and Thor gave him an irritated look, he tried not to, but he still did.
"You promised Loki," Thor uttered and Loki gave him a sorrowful look, but he didn't say anything. "Guess I should be used by now. You were never good at keeping promises."
Thor had just talked without thinking, he didn't mean those words, but he still said them. Thor saw how the words hurt his brother and Thor wanted to take them back but he couldn't.
"You have to do this without me," Loki whispered, a bit frighten to do so, and Thor who wanted to apologise for what he had said, but instead he become mad.
"I did all this extra work for you! All the planning the last month! And now you aren't coming!" Thor shouted, he was stressed out of the situation, all the planning they had done, and he was nervous that something would go wrong. He knew that all the extra work wasn't Loki's fault, yet he became angry. "If you don't want to be there, you could just have said so!"
Loki had jumped back when Thor shouted at him, but Thor didn't think of it at that moment.
"No, I will not have it! You are coming at the wedding, no matter what you say!" Thor grabbed Loki and started to drag him towards the door, not thinking of what he was doing, Loki had promised to be there, and Thor wanted to have his brother by his side, besides Loki was almost always reluctant to go to any gatherings in the past, and Thor had to drag him there every time. But Thor stopped when he heard Loki sobbing behind him, realising what he had done, he couldn't treat Loki as he had done int the past, this was different. As soon as Thor let go, Loki backed away from him, and Thor saw the fear in his brothers eyes.
"I am so sorry Loki," Thor said and took a step closer, however, it made Loki back away even further. Thor saw the tears fall down on Loki's cheeks as he tried to understand what just happened.
"I didn't mean it Loki! I just want you to be there, at my wedding! And I…" Thor said in a sorrowful voice trying to explain his actions.
"Leave the room Thor!" Thor suddenly heard Cara's voice from behind. He heard how angry she was at him and he actually swallowed, very nervously.
"I didn't mean it Cara! You have to believe me! I just want him to be there," Thor tried to explain as he faced her, but she didn't care of what he said.
"Go before Jane has to burry you instead or marring you," Cara only said and Thor understood that she meant it, and he left the room as fast as he could.
When Thor left the room, Cara closed the door behind him.
"Hi Loki," she said in a friendly voice and walked over to him. Loki looked down before he slowly sat down in a chair. He was rubbing his wrist and Cara saw how it was red, and that he would most likely get be bruised. Cara sat down on the armchair next to Loki, but she didn't say anything. She just wanted him to know that she was there if he needed her.
"Why? Loki asked without looking at her.
"My guess would be that he was upset over you not wanting to go. But there is no excuse for what he did," Cara softly said and Loki didn't answer, instead he rested his head on her lap and she stroked his hair, which made him cry again. Cara didn't say anything, she just tried to comfort him. She was furies at Thor, she knew that his reaction wasn't unusual. Sometimes the people around you got frustrated with you for not manage to do somethings. They don't mean it, but it still happen, but it was never okay. Cara felt like throwing Thor off the roof, but she contained herself, not wanting Loki to see how angry she was, afraid that would scare him.
"I am sorry," Loki said when he stopped crying.
"Why?" Cara asked, she did not follow this time.
"I ruined your dress," he said and Cara laughed a warm laugh.
"Don't worry about it Loki, it's just a dress, and it isn't something a little bit of magic can't solve," she said and Loki slowly nodded. "But are you feeling better?"
"No."
"Didn't think you would," she said in a understanding voice. "Would you prefer not to go to the wedding?"
Loki thought about it.
"What are you going to do?" He asked.
"If you go I go, if not, well then we can do something else if you want," she said and Loki was about to say something when she stopped him. "And don't feel bad. I have no other reason to go then to keep you company. Jane and I aren't close and well Thor, right now I am mad at him so I would not go just to please him."
"Do you think I should go?" Loki asked and looked at her.
"Can't tell you what to do here. It is all up to you."
"I am scared, or rather terrified," Loki admitted and she nodded.
"I understand why. But I can tell you that you are going to be safe at the wedding. Me and your mother have done everything we can to make the roof safe. And Thor has only invited people who we can trust. No one there is going to hurt you. That I can tell you."
"I know that," Loki said in a low voice. "But that isn't the problem. I don't think anyone is going to hurt me there…"
Loki stopped and Cara gave him the time he needed.
"It's just that Thor is expecting things of me, they all are. And they are going to look at me, I can't handle that," Loki told her and she took his hand and smiled.
"Don't worry about what they are expecting. Thor only wants you to be there, that's all. Nothing else, and the rest have no expectations on you. Trust me they are going to have their eyes on Thor and Jane," Cara said. "And then don't look at them, you can look at me and the twins if you want."
"I can do that," Loki said and smiled towards her. "But Thor want me to hold a speech"
"I can tell him that you aren't feeling like it, or that you don't know if you will speak. So then you can decide later on if you will or not."
Loki thought about what she had said.
"Do you think I can do it?" Loki asked her and she smiled towards him.
"I do, I believe you can do anything you set your heart on. But only do it, if you feel like it," Cara said. She did not want him to force himself to do anything, because it would most likely not end well.
"Can you tell Thor that I will do it?" Loki asked and she smiled.
"I will tell him, right after I change my dress," she said with and stood up. "Call for me if you need something."
"Father you need to calm down," Mothi said and Thor looked at his youngest.
"I can't," Thor only said. "How could I be so stupid?"
It was a rhetorical question so neither of his sons answered. They weren't sure what had happened to make their father so upset, and he hadn't told them. Thor's sons turned around when they heard footsteps, only to see a blond tall woman walking towards them in a long light blue, strapless dress with silver decorations on the top. The brothers looked at each other, then at her, neither of them knew who she was. But she was beautiful, and just the kind of girl they both liked.
"Hi I am Mothi," the youngest said and walked towards her.
"And I am Magni," the oldest said and pushed his younger brother away and smiled towards her. But the woman just walked past them and over to their father, which they both were a bit surprised with, normally they weren't ignored.
"Thor," she said in a cold voice and Thor stopped. "He will still come, he can't promise that he will hold his speech."
At those words Thor was about to hug her but stopped when she gave him a cold look.
"Do that again and I will teach you what pain is!" She said and the brothers looked at each other, and then at their father a bit surprised when Thor looked scared.
"I will not do anything like that again. Now I need to tell Pepper to tell Jane that Loki will come," Thor said and walked off.
"Hi," Mothi said again and looked at the woman.
"Hi," Magni did the same and smiled again.
"I must say that you look very lovely today!" Mothi said and stepped in front of his brother.
"Me too," Magni said and the woman just looked at them, like they both were stupid.
"May we help you with anything?" Mothi asked.
"Do you need anything? A drink? A date?" Magni asked.
"Hey," Mothi said and hit his brother on the arm.
"What? You didn't ask her!" Magni said before he turned towards the woman. "So what do you say?"
"I already have a date, and I am not interested in another," she said and was about to walk away, when the brothers walked around her and stopped her.
"I don't think he would mind! I mean look at us, he can't be better than us, especially me, the strong one!" Magni said.
"I am the brave one," Mothi told her with a smile.
"I will pass," the woman said and both brothers just stared at her and she tried to walk away again, but they stopped her ones more.
"Don't say that! I promise I take care of you," Magni said.
"I will take better care of you!" Mothi said and pushed away his brother.
"Give us a chance!" Mothi said.
"Yes! We are gods, and brave warriors. Who on Midgard can beat that?" Magni said and the woman sighed.
"Who said my date is someone from Midgard?" She smirked and neither of the brothers followed.
"Okay doesn't matter where he is from! We are loved in our kingdom! We are the best, better then any man can be!" Magni said.
"Yes, no one can be better than us!" Mothi said.
"Your words are such solid proof," the woman said in a bored voice.
"Trust us! Whoever you date is, he is nothing like us!" Mothi said.
"That is true," the woman answered and tried to walk away again when Magni took her hand.
"So come on, what do you say?" Magni asked.
"I say that you shouldn't do that," she said and gave him a schooling look.
"And why is that? Afraid of falling in love with me?" Magni asked and walked closer.
"No, but my date will not like it!" She said and looked behind Magni. "Isn't that right Loki?"
At those words both brothers turned around to see Loki standing behind them in a black suit, giving them a cold look.
"Uncle Loki," Magni said and stepped away.
"How lovely to see you," Mothi added, but Loki walked past them over to the woman.
"Are you alright?" he asked and she smiled.
"I am, no need to worry. They are just stupid boys," she said and gave the brothers a cold look.
"That they are," Loki said and the brothers tried to follow what was happening.
"You are Cara?" Magni finally asked, remembering how their father had told them about her.
"Don't hurt to ask for a name before you try to get someone to leave their date," Cara said and Loki looked at them and the brothers was sure that they would die at that moment.
"Leave," Loki only said and the brothers looked at each other and then Loki before they ran away, glad that they were alive.
"Thank you for stepping in. I preferred not to hurt them," Cara said and took Loki's hand as they walked towards the roof.
"Anytime," Loki told her and she smiled towards him.
"How are you holding up?"
"Nervous," he admitted and she stopped him.
"It is going to go well, but if you ever want to get away, just give me a sign and I will help you," she told him and he smiled at her and nodded before they started walking again.
"Cara," Loki said before they walked out on the roof and she looked at him with a smile. "I just wanted to tell you how beautiful you are."
"Thank you Loki," she said and carefully hugged him "And I must say that you don't look half bad yourself."
At those words Loki blushed and looked down but she just took his hand as they walked out. At this moment the roof was almost empty, except Thor who stood at the altar, the twins who sat with Frigga and the other Avengers. Before Cara sat down at the twins she hugged Loki once more, and gave him an encouraging smile and walked up to Thor, without looking at him.
"Mother," the twins said and she smiled at them and sat down.
"Hello," she said to them and to Frigga.
"Is he alright?" Frigga asked and looked at her youngest.
"He is better," Cara just said and looked at Loki who did look down as Thor tried to talk to him, and when Thor tried to touch him he backed away. Thor looked at Cara for support, but she only gave him a cold look.
"Did something happen?" Frigga asked as she watched her sons.
"Thor got a bit angry before," Cara only said and Frigga sighed.
"Oh Thor," Frigga sounded disappointed in a way only a mother could. "I will have a talk with him later."
"Uncle Thor is in trouble," Narfi said with a big smile and Váli laughed, and Cara could not help it, but she smiled too.
"Grandmother," Magni said as he and Mothi walked over to Frigga.
"Hello darlings," Frigga said and stood up and hugged them.
"Oh and hello Cara," the brothers said and looked down.
"Hello," she said and looked at Narfi and Váli who observed the two men with a wondering look. "They are your cousins."
"They are?" Váli asked and Cara nodded.
"You are Loki's youngest?" Mothi asked without looking up.
"What did you do to them Cara?" Frigga said with a laugh.
"Me? I am innocent here," Cara said and smiled and Frigga gave her a wondering look. "It's the truth. Loki may not be too happy with them. They tried to ask me out. I tried to tell them that I wasn't interested."
At those words Frigga looked at the brothers and sighed again.
"You really are your fathers sons when it comes to stupidity," she said and laughed again.
"She could have said who she was!" Magni protested.
"You didn't ask," Cara only said.
"Stay away from mother!" Narfi said in a determined voice.
"Yes, don't try to take her from father!" Váli said and Cara hugged the twins and smiled towards them.
"That will never happen," Cara assured them and they smiled back.
"I would sit down before Loki comes over," Frigga teased her older grandkids who looked terrified and almost run to their seats.
"Brave warriors?" Cara asked and Frigga smiled.
"Normally they are. But Loki have played enough tricks on them during the years, so now they are careful around him," Frigga explained and Cara smiled and looked up at Loki who still was looking down, avoiding to look at all the people who was starting to gather at the roof.
When all the people was gathered and the music started to play Thor got really nervous, in another way than before. He had spent all this time planning the weeding, and not preparing on actually getting married. He felt more nervous than he did on the battlefield. What if he did something wrong, what if Jane changed her mind? And suddenly Thor got all this images in his head, images of everything that could go wrong.
Was this really the smart thing to do? Was he even ready for this? He even missed Darcy, Pepper and Peggy walking up and standing opposite of him. His mind was racing and he felt like running away, until he saw Jane walk down the aisle, in a white flowing dress with a gold belt. When he saw her walking out next to Erik he felt calm again. She was the most beautiful woman in the world, and he loved her so much. He wanted to spend his life with her.
Thor turned to Loki to give him a smile, to see if he shared his happiness, but Loki did not look at him, and Thor cursed himself for that. He wanted this to be a happy day, a day he shared with Loki. Thor was glad that Loki was standing next to him, but he knew that it was all Cara's doing. Thor had handled the situation poorly and he felt terrible. He needed to talk to Loki later, hoping that his brother was willing. Thor turned from Loki, hoping that some space would make him feel better, and instead he looked at Jane as she walked the last step to soon stand in front of him. Thor smiled the biggest smile he had ever smile towards her, and she smiled back.
"We have all gathered here today to be a part of Thor's and Jane's special day," Tony said, smiling widely, glad that he was the one holding the ceremony. "Even if it meant that we got a few broken doors before we stood here."
"Hey! I was happy," Thor defended himself and the others laughed.
"Whatever you say big guy!" Tony said before he continued. "I have known Thor since the day he took Loki from us and then beat me up. And I have known Jane since the first party Thor dragged her to. Sorry for that."
Jane smiled towards Tony, thinking of how bad that party had ended, with half of the tower destroyed.
"And I must say that I never see them as happy separated as they are together. They are perfect for each other, manly because Jane is the only one that can stand Thor a longer time," Tony said and people laughed again. "So before she comes to her senses, let's move on."
Tony said and looked at Thor and Jane.
"Do you Thor Odinson, take this Jane Foster to be your lawfully wedded wife?"
"I do," Thor shouted and Jane laughed and Thor blushed.
"Great," Tony said and gave Thor a schooling look for shouting. "And do you Jane Foster take this Thor Odinson to be your lawfully wedded husband?"
"I do," Jane said with a smile.
"Rings," Tony said to Loki who carefully handled them over to Thor and Jane, without looking at them. They took them, before they placed them on each other's hands. "So with that done, I can now, by the authority vested in me, pronounce you husband and wife. You may kiss the bride."
At those words Thor kissed Jane and the others started to applaud when Thor lifted up Jane and spun around. And when he stopped and she was standing on the ground, both of them were smiling at each other.
"Let's party!" Tony suddenly said and everyone laughed before they started to empty the roof.
"Loki?" Thor said when the roof was almost empty, but Loki looked away and walked past him over to Cara and the twins.
"Jane what shall I do?" Thor turned towards Jane who kissed him.
"That I can't help you with." She said in a sorrow voice. "I would say give him time, maybe. I don't know, I don't really know what is the best thing to do here."
"Thor Odinson!" Frigga suddenly said and walked over to them and Thor knew that he was in trouble. Frigga stopped in front of them and first she looked at Jane. "You look lovely my dear."
Frigga hugged Jane who smiled.
"Thank you," she answered and then looked at Thor with a smile "Good luck."
Thor looked at her as she left the roof with her bridesmaids and he turned to face his mother.
"You look lovely too son, and congratulations," Frigga started and hugged her oldest and Thor smiled, thinking that it wasn't that bad until she stepped away. "So when I have said that. How could you be so stupid to do that to Loki?"
"I didn't mean to," Thor tried to explain to Frigga who just gave him a look.
"Oh Thor, you really need to think before you act," she said in a tired way. "So when he is ready, you should apologise."
"I want to do it now!" Thor said and Frigga looked over at where Loki was standing.
"Let's see what we can do about it. But behave Thor, or I may look the other way when Cara does something," Frigga said and Thor nodded.
Cara looked at Frigga when she walked over with Thor. Loki looked like he wanted to run away and Cara took his hand.
"Just say the words and I will throw him off the roof," she said with a smile and Loki smiled back.
"Loki?" Frigga asked and Loki turned towards his mother who smiled. "Look at you all dressed up and handsome."
Loki blushed at his mother's words and Cara laughed a warm laugh.
"Mother," Loki said but Frigga offered him a hug instead and he accepted it.
"We want to hug grandmother too," Narfi said and ran over with Váli to Frigga and hugged her legs, before they stepped away.
"Can we go down to the others?" Váli asked and looked at them.
"Yes you can, just be careful," Loki said and the twins nodded before they run away.
"Thor's wish to speak to you," Frigga said and looked at Loki who at ones looked away. "Do you not wish to?"
At that Loki didn't answer, not at first.
"Not really," he started and Thor got less hopeful then he had been just a moment ago.
"Loki I think you should hear him out," Cara said and Loki looked at her. "Just like I did after our fight."
Cara could tell how unsure Loki was about this, and she knew that he was scared of Thor right now, but slowly he nodded.
"I can stay if you want," She offered and Loki thought about it before he shook his head.
"Go down to the twins," he said and she smiled.
"I will wait for you," she said and left the roof with Frigga.
"Is he going to be alright?" Frigga asked as she walked next to Cara.
"I hope so, if not, well Jane is soon going to be a widow," Cara just said and Frigga didn't say anything. Thor was her son too and she did not wish for anything to happen to him, but she had always been a bit overprotective of Loki, feeling like he needed it. She never knew that Odin was the one behind people treating Loki like they did. But seeing how he was treated as a child and a grown up, she could do nothing else then be protective of him. She had just wish she could have done something about it earlier.
"Frigga is everything alright?" Cara asked and Frigga looked puzzled at her. "You almost walked into the wall."
Cara smiled at her and Frigga looked up at the wall and laughed.
"I got a bit destructed I am afraid."
"That can often happen when you think of your children," she said and Frigga nodded. Sometimes she forgot that Cara had been a mother too.
"I am afraid that you are right my dear," Frigga said as they walked into the ballroom where the guests was starting to gather.
"May I ask how you manage not to get Odin to come?" Cara asked and Frigga looked at her.
"I have some friends who helped me. They just said that they demanded All Fathers presence for something," she explained and Cara nodded.
"I am glad he isn't here. I prefer not to die," she said and Frigga gave her a wondering look. "I would most likely try to kill him if he was here, and that would get me killed."
"Oh I see. Well I am afraid you are right. We need help to bring him down and I am glad that have friends who are willing to help me. Everything is starting to come together, even if it goes slowly. We are arresting people in secret. Starting with the ones that Odin won't notice," Frigga told her and Cara nodded.
"That's great. And taking things slow is better than rushing it, even if it doesn't always feels like it," Cara said.
"Once again you are right," Frigga said as she saw Loki and Thor walking into the room. "If you excuse me, I will go and talk to Thor."
Cara looked at Loki when he walked over to her.
"Did everything go well?" She asked and he nodded and she gave him a wondering look, but didn't say anything. "Shall we get seated at the table?"
Loki just took her hand and walked over to their seats and sat down, just as the other guests started to, and soon the food was brought to their plates.
"…That's why I wish Thor and Jane the best of luck," Steve ended his speech and people clapped their hands. When people had finished their food and was waiting for dessert people started giving speeches, everyone wanted to wish the happy couple good luck, especially Jane. Cara could tell that Loki still wasn't sure of what he should do, so she held his hand, showing that she supported him whatever he wanted to do. When the last person finished talking, Loki slowly stood up and Cara smiled at him, so did Thor and he was about to say something when Cara gave him a look and he kept quiet.
Loki closed his eyes for a second before he turned to Thor and Jane.
"When Thor told me that he was getting married I could not understand why he told me. And when he asked me to be his best man I could understand less. First I thought he had lost his mind, which would have been less surprising to me," Loki started before he took a deep breath.
"To be honest I hated Thor when we grew up, always the golden prince, and can't say that feeling went away when I got older. Back then I tried to hide my hate, at first at least, trying to be a good little brother. Until the truth got reviled, we weren't brothers, and that meant I didn't have to hide my hate. I had no reason to care about him anymore, I had no reason to step away and be a good boy because he was my big brother. No that meant that I could act upon my feelings. When Thor got banished here, to earth, I couldn't have been happier, because that meant I could get my chance on ruling Asgard. Which at that time was more or less the only thing I wanted to do, to prove that I was equal or even better then Thor. To show that Thor wasn't the perfect golden prince! I thought it would go well, who would stop me? No one knew what I was doing, especially not Thor."
Loki paused looking down for a moment before he looked up again.
"Thor must be the most naïve person I have ever met, and I took advantage of that more than once. But it helped me fool him, and almost break him. Until Jane come along, she gave him something to fight for, something that surprised me at that moment. Why would he throw away everything for her, why would he risk everything for her, a simple mortal? She was just one person. And if Cara hadn't been there, I am sure I would never have understood it," Loki turned around towards her and she smiled.
"Meeting her made me understand how Thor felt. Not that it stopped me from trying to kill them, not at all. Even if I understood Thor's actions, it didn't stop me from hating him. Especially not when Odin couldn't see why I had acted like I did, and instead sided with Thor. Letting go and falling into the abyss was the easiest and hardest thing I have ever done. When I saw Thor's sorrow, it actually made me happy. Seeing Cara's sorrow when I let go was the hardest thing I have ever done."
Once again Loki looked down and Cara took his hand and he smiled at her. And he continued.
"So when I got the option to take over earth, I didn't need to think twice. Earth was something Thor cared about, not only because his beloved Jane lived here, no he cared about it before. Me, not so much. So I thought if I can't get Asgard, I can get earth, a planet to rule and one that would hurt Thor. I thought it would be easy, me being a God and all, well we all know how that went," Loki said and smiled a weak smile.
"Yeah we did Reindeer games!" Tony shouted and gave Loki a smile, who smiled back.
"Anyway, during my attempt, Thor tried to talk to me, like he was my brother, which I told him I wasn't. Something that didn't seem to bother him at all. Maybe because he is really thick-headed, or because he thought of me as his brother anyway. And it was something that almost drew me mad. I could not see what he saw. When he brought me back to Asgard, telling me that Odin would forgive me and everything would be back to normal, I could have laughed at him, once again being naïve. And even if it's no consolation, I was right…" Loki paused and no one said anything to rush him.
"Then more than a year passed when two people I was convinced hated me, saved me, Cara and Thor. Me not understanding why, especially not after all the pain I caused them. But I could understand Cara's action more than Thor's. I let her believe I was dead, and I did hurt her, but not as much as Thor. Who for some reason still accepted me, and thought of me as his brother, which clearly proves how thick-headed he is," Loki said and people laughed, something that surprised him and he stopped for a moment.
"But after getting here I started to see things differently, also because I had pieces of the puzzles I didn't have when we were children. I started to understand that it wasn't Thor I hated, it was everything that he represented, which wasn't his fault. The person behind everything was just Thor, not the first born, not the future king or the golden prince, just Thor. Someone I really didn't hate. I know that it took me awfully long to figure that out, and I am supposed to be the smart one."
Again people laughed and Loki smiled.
"What I wanted to say Thor was that I am sorry for how I have treated you over the years, you and Jane. Actually especially Jane, because all you did was falling in love with this big oaf, something he should be really grateful for. I think you are the first one of the woman he has met, that I like. You bring out the best in him," Loki said and smiled towards Jane, who smiled back, trying to hold back tears. "So even if we aren't related by blood Thor, and you have kept telling me for years that it doesn't matter, I can only say it now. I do wish you the best of luck brother, both of you, and I wish for you to be very happy."
When Loki was finished people started to applaud which made him jump, and actually back away a bit, not being prepared for it, and Cara took his hand once more, to show that she was there.
"Loki," Thor said and Loki turned towards him. Thor stood up and he cried, he thought that Loki wouldn't speak, not after what he did this morning. And even if he did speak, Thor didn't think Loki would be so honest. He wanted to hug him and he opened his arms for him, hoping Loki would accept the hug. Loki looked at Thor very unsure, but Cara pushed him, just like she had done with Frigga. Thor smiled towards his brother when he hugged him back. "Thank you Loki."
Loki didn't say anything, but Thor felt like he didn't need to. Thor felt how Loki was crying to, but he didn't say anything about it, he was just so happy that Loki thought of him as his brother again.
When Thor let go of Loki Jane stood next to him and looked at Loki.
"May I?" She asked and offered him a hug, and very carefully Loki accepted it, she was happy that he had accepted her and when she let go of him she smiled. "It was really beautiful Loki."
Loki only nodded and then sat down, not wanting everyone to look at him, feeling really uncomfortable. Thor felt that and turned to the guests.
"Let's cut the cake!" He said and took Jane's hand and walked over to the cake and the guests left Loki alone, most of them feeling that he needed it.
Loki put his head against the table, and Cara sat next to him, stroking his back. She guessed he felt exhausted, having everyone's eyes on you could be. And she knew that he was afraid that they judge him for his actions.
"I am proud of you Loki," Cara said and he looked at her but he didn't say anything. "How are you feeling?"
"Scared," he said and she smiled.
"You did great. It took a lot of courage to do what you just did! And it was a lovely speech."
"Feels like everyone is judging me," he told her as he leaned against her shoulder.
"They aren't. They may be a bit surprise," She said and he looked at her ."They all got to see a new side of you today. They got to see a side not many people have seen."
At those words Loki covered his face and took a deep breath.
"I don't hope they think I will be like that from now on!" He said and she laughed.
"I don't think they do. Don't be worry, you are still a scary evil villain," she said and he rolled his eyes at her.
"Oh Loki," Frigga said when she walked over trying not to cry and Loki looked at her. "Your speech made me so happy. You was so honest, gentle and funny… and… and calling Thor your brother again."
Cara smiled before she started to giggle before she started to laugh, which made Frigga look at her in surprise.
"I am sorry Frigga. Loki is just afraid that everyone will stop seeing him as an evil powerful villain now," she said and Frigga smiled towards Loki.
"Don't you worry about that. I think it will take more than a speech for people to think differently of you," Frigga assured him, but those words actually made Loki lowered his head in shame. "Oh I didn't mean…"
"It's alright mother," Loki said and stood up "Will you excuse me."
Cara and Frigga looked as he left the room and walked out on the balcony.
"I will talk to him," Cara said and walked after.
When she got out on the balcony she closed the door behind her. Loki was standing, leaning against the railing.
"Hi," she said and walked over to him. "I am sorry for laughing."
Loki didn't look at her, instead he looked out over the city.
"It's not that," he said.
"Then what is it?" Cara asked.
"I feel lost," he admitted and she gave him a puzzled look. "I don't know who I am anymore."
"Why not?" she asked.
"Because I do not feel like I did before. I do not hate Thor like I did, I don't hate the Avengers like I did. I do hate Odin, but I have always done that," Loki said and Cara didn't say anything about it, but Odin did deserve the hate, "But I am not a good person either. I don't want people to think that. I am not made out to be a nice guy, I was born a monster… I was…"
At those words Cara stopped him and hugged him.
"You aren't a monster! You wasn't born as a monster, and you will never be one," she told him and Loki hugged her back and she felt how he started to cry.
"Then who am I?" He almost shouted at her. Cara took a step back so she could look at him.
"You are Loki. You don't need to be either good or bad, you can be both or neither. You don't have to be anything you don't want to be," she told him, but he didn't answer her.
"When I was born people on the good side called me a monster too, assuming I was a bad person before they knew me, just because of my father. He was a monster though, and a bad person, and he expected me to follow in his footstep, to rule the world after him. When I started school, my headmaster thought he could change me, that he could make me into a good person. Someone that was been born to help people."
Loki looked at her as she spoke, and she smiled before looking out over the town.
"I learned that I wanted to be neither of those persons. I did not want to rule the world, I did not wish to be a lonely person who hated everyone and only caused pain. But I realised that I didn't want to be a good person that only helped people either. I didn't want to throw away my life for others. Both side got disappointed at me, and it didn't make my life easy, but I did survive it and I did become myself," Cara looked at Loki. "I become who ever I wanted to be. I choose to follow my own path, helping the ones I cared about, doing everything for them, but I also have darkness inside of me. The darkness helps me do things normal people wouldn't, it helps me do everything for the ones I care about, and then I mean everything. I would say I have more darkness inside me then goodness, if you can count. But that's how I choose to be."
"How did you figure it out?" Loki asked.
"Time, and a lot of people effecting me in different ways," Cara admitted. "But that doesn't matter, because you have to figure out who you want to be. Don't care about what others may think."
"Not even you?" Loki asked in a curious voice and she smiled.
"Not even me, because I will be here no matter what you do," she said and he smiled and pulled her into a hug. "But this is something you don't need to think about now. You can take your time."
Loki only nodded, and Cara didn't say anything. She knew that the things that Loki went through changes people, to what you may never knew. And she understood why Loki felt confused, she had the first time too. After her first time she was forced to changes her beliefs and who she was. She just hoped Loki would like who he become, she didn't always like who she was.
"Do you wish to dance?" Loki suddenly asked and Cara looked at him, it was only now she heard music coming from inside.
"I would love to," she said "But can we dance out here? I like being under the stars."
Loki looked up at the stars and then at Cara and nodded, before he took her hand and walked over to a bigger area of the balcony.
"What do you wish to dance?" Loki asked.
"Anything you want. I have been to enough galas to know a lot of dances," Cara told him and Loki smiled.
"Sometimes I forget how much you have travelled, and how much you have experienced," he admitted. "So how about some Minuet?"
At those words Cara laughed a warm laugh.
"You like to give me a challenge, don't you?" she asked and at those words Loki just gave her a sinister mischievous smile before he backed away from her and they started to dance.