This is the fourth chapter. I have been told that I have glorified Rachel too much. Well later on in this story, I will attempt to bring out Rachel's dark side because that is equally fun for me. She and Finn are my two favourite character after all as I feel I can relate to them more than any other character in the show. This is an AU story after all.
This is a shorter scene trying to show Quinn's emotions of that night. I tried to show the jealously, the vulnerability and the irrationally of Quinn due to her being pregnant. Hope you enjoy.
Chapter 4: The consequences of lying.
Quinn's POV (That same night.)
I can't believe it. Now I have lost everything, all because of that absolute dwarf backstabbing bitch. Now the one good thing in my life is ruined. Finn would never want me back now after this. Why did I have to be stupid and invite Puck over for that project? We did as much work as we would have done at school and then I drank those wine coolers and then we had sex and now I have this baby. I think back to that night and how could I have stopped it.
Flashback
Quinn: "(Drinking the wine coolers) These are good."
Puck: "Not as good as you. Here have another one."
Quinn: "Stop it. I have a boyfriend. A very stunning boyfriend for that matter. I can't do this. I'm President of the Celibacy Club and I took a vow."
Puck: "So did Santana and Brittany and I did them."
"What about Finn. Not only is he my boyfriend he is your best friend."
Puck: "Finn's my boy. He won't care what is going on. He is way too stupid to know how to make a woman feel good. Come on we are in high school."
Quinn: "(Drunk by this point.) You are very charming. I am a virgin Puck."
Puck: "What you going to do? Wait until you are married until you have sex? That is super 50's."
Quinn: "Puck, this feels wrong. Just stop it."
Puck: "Stop what? Make you feel good. You really think we are going to give a damm about Finn in 3 years. Come on. You don't get a medal for reaching the finishing line, you get a medal for being good."
Quinn: "What about protection? My reputation would be destroyed if they found out I was pregnant?"
Puck: "I got it."
End of Flashback.
That is it. At that point when I got drunk, I fell into his trap. He wanted to do it with me because he wanted to be cool. Now, I am pregnant and lost my boyfriend all because of my actions that night. Well they do say that actions have consequences.
I think back to what Rachel did today. Why didn't she tell me that she knew? Who told her is what I want to know? Because who did I will kill them because she has killed my relationship with Finn. She did it so that she can have him for herself. Yeah like that will happen. After all what would any guy see in her that would want her in particular Finn? She is short. She is awful. She is horrible. She isn't attractive in anyway. She is selfish and has a terrible fashion sense. Animal sweaters. Really? But above all she isn't trustworthy which is what you need in a relationship. How can anyone love somebody like that?
I don't know what to do now. After all my parents kicked me out after they found out that I was pregnant then I briefly stayed with Finn now I am bouncing around trying to get by. Finn made sure of that when he found out that I wasn't welcome at his house anymore. Mercedes has offered me a place to stay as did Puck. Mercedes would be someone to talk to about other things rather than just the baby. I do trust her as well. Maybe I should go to Puck, after all he does have his pool cleaning business and he did offer to look after me and care for the baby. Maybe I should have come clean with Finn right there and then. Maybe then he would have trusted me even if he taken a step away from being in a relationship with me because I went behind his back. But I might still be friends with him. But now I am struggling to find any help. Why did I make this massive mistake?
That's it. I am going to talk to Puck about possibly living with him whilst I am pregnant. I still want to give the baby up but I would want to have a relationship with it even if it is only when the baby is of age to know me. Not having a relationship with my child would just kill me after carrying it for 9 months. I could talk to Terri Schuester about making an agreement for me to come and see my child ever so often so the child knows that I'm its birth mother.
I know that I made these arrangements with Terri but I do wish that I have a relationship with this baby. I guess that carrying the baby means that you get emotionally attached with it. I want to give this baby the best life, I can and I can't do it right now but I want to be in this child's life in some capacity. But all these things can wait until tomorrow. Not much can change in a day can they?
I go and get some rest before heading off to school the next day when I am greeted by the sight that I was angered by. My thoughts about what can change in a day are completely and utterly wrong. Finn is holding hands with Rachel both with a smile on their lips. I do a double take and think I can see a bit of lipstick on Finn's mouth that is the same colour as Rachel's which would suggest that they have been kissing. I start to get mad inside but then realise that I had made the mistake and she's taken advantage of that. Don't blame her, Finn has the good reputation and has clearly picked up on his grades because he wants to make something of his life outside being stuck in this loser town. He is the school's Quarterback so might get signed by a team at 18 and potentially might make him a lot of money and sets himself up for a stable life. Unlike me now that I'm stuck with this baby. No-one is going to want me now.
I suppose that is what you get in my situation. The consequences of lying.
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