Terrified

AU. After Sammy and Dylan are caught in a car crash, Kelly rushes to their side. Set up in 2018

Rest in peace the beautiful soul that was Luke Perry.

I just realized Dylan's brother was named Jack so I changed the name of their second son to Evan, and yeah I know Andrea's daughter's name is Hannah but there's a special reason for the name, so that one is staying the same :)

I own nothing

Kelly stared at Sammy for a moment, her little guy wasn't that little anymore but he had been the reason she and Dylan had found their way back to each other again, back when they dated, Kelly was so afraid of ending up pregnant and while she and Dylan were so careful, their on and off relationship was passionate and they shared that physical connection as much as the spiritual and emotional one.

For her, Dylan would always be the one, the one she had given her heart to, her soulmate, that boy who would push her on the swings because there was no one else to do so, he had shown her kindness, love and friendship, alongside with a whole lot of drama, and it didn't turn easier when they were older, granted they had gotten back together at Donna and David's wedding, and gone on to travel, for once, Kelly allowed herself to be wrapped in the world that Dylan loved so much and she ended up loving it too, but she had to go back to the real world, to the store and Donna, to her studies and masters, to a world Dylan had never really known.

And he lived in it for a while, but soon, normalcy turned out to be too much for Dylan and he went off writing again.

She remembered that last night they had been together and having found out she was pregnant a few weeks later. By this point, she was 30 so the prospect of a baby wasn't as scary, she had a good job, she owned a home, she had her own business, which happened to be profitable.

She was more stable than her mother had ever been and even though she had never considered herself mother material, she wanted this, a baby, a little person that was part her and Dylan.

The picture was almost perfect, the only thing missing was Dylan, she debated with Donna and David about telling him at first. But she knew he would find out eventually and it would hurt him even more than she hadn't told him about it herself.

He wasn't Jack Mckay, he would be responsible, she had watched him with Erica when she'd been younger, with Erin, he was a guy who could be a parent.

An amazing one.

Kelly took a deep breath as she wrapped her arms around Sam. "Listen to me, none of this is your fault, no matter what was going on when the accident happened, you didn't do this Sammy."

"Yeah, but if Dad doesn't wake up…"

"We're not going there, not yet, not until they tell me there's no reason to believe he'll come back to us, we're going to be here and be strong, for him, okay?"

Sam smiled, trying to fight the tears welling up in his eyes. "And you can cry if you want to, there's no shame in that."

And so he cried right there in her arms and Kelly held him just as she had done countless times before.

Sammy McKay walked to school the Monday after the accident. He needed it, he wanted to go back to school, to focus on something else that wasn't his father being in the hospital, so far he'd been the lucky one even though he didn't remember much of what had happened.

Bella McGuire found him at his locker with a relieved smile on her face. "Welcome back Sammy, how are you feeling?"

Sam looked at his arm, still in a cast and a sling and sigh just as Bella wrapped him in a hug as carefully as she could.

"I'm fine. It doesn't hurt as much anymore."

"I heard about your Dad, how's he doing? My parents are going to go see your Mom after work today, they just didn't want to intrude."

"I'm sure she'll appreciate it."

"He's still unconscious." Sam said. "The doctors pulled him out of the coma but…"

"He will be okay Sammy."

"Yeah, that's what everyone keeps telling me." He sighed.

"Mr. McKay, your mother told me you might be coming back to school today." Mrs. Lindell smiled at Sam. "We are all praying for your father."

"Thank you." Sam said weakly.

"Come on, we should get to class."

The day had passed in a blur to Sam, between the teachers looking at him funny and his Mom texting him, his friends trying their best to make him feel better but they couldn't. All he wanted was for his Mom to tell him his Dad was awake.

But the text hadn't come.

"Kel?" Dylan's voice pulled her out from her thoughts. "What. what happened? Where's Sammy?"

"You two were in an accident." Kelly explained, taking his hand in hers as he reincorporated himself the best he could. "Sam's okay."

"I can barely remember what happened." Dylan admitted and Kelly knew he'd blame himself even if hadn't been his fault.

"That doesn't matter Dylan." Kelly said softly, her defenses falling slowly as she sat on one side on the bed and her eyes prickled with tears. "What matters it's that you are both going to be okay."

But Dylan knew her and could read her like no one else could, he knew there was something else going on. He reached out so he could touch her face and Kelly melted against his touch. She lowered her face so he could reach for her lips and kissed her softly. "Talk to me Kelly."

"You are going to need a transplant." She said after a moment. "The doctors are waiting to see how you respond to the drugs but they say it's almost a sure thing, they don't want to take any chances."

"How bad?"

"Your liver."

Dylan wanted to laugh at the irony, if the drugs and alcohol hadn't killed him, his liver could eventually cost him his life. "Welcome back Dylan." The doctor appeared in that moment to check on him. "How are you feeling?"

"I've been better." He said.

The doctor nodded. "Listen, right now, the machines are doing what your liver is meant to and we have you controlled but the transplant is necessary in the long term."

"You haven't found a donor."

"No, but you are in good shape and the fact that you are responding well gives us hope that as soon as a liver becomes available, you'd be able to go home." Dr. Bean said.

"I'm going to hold you to that doc." Dylan said as the younger man excused himself and left the room. "How's Sammy, really?"

"He thinks the accident was his fault because you two argued." Kelly told him. Dylan sighed and ran his hand through his face in frustration. "It wasn't like that, not at first, we were running late but he was with a girl..." Dylan said. "They were talking about some project and I didn't want to rush him. I think he likes her."

Kelly couldn't help but smile. "He just turned fourteen, god help us." Dylan smiled too. "Let me guess? Bella Mcguire?"

"How did you know?"

"I've seen them talking a few times, finally being the school counselor has its perks."

"True." Dylan agreed. "So, you think he likes her, likes her?"

"What are you? 12?"

"No, but I once liked, liked a girl in my class." Dylan joked.

"And what happened to her?"

"I'm staring right at her." He smiled, even at 43, it was easy to see that he was still the same boy she had fallen for, but the picture of him having grown up and being their daughter's hero was something Kelly could live with too.

Kelly woke up from her slumber beside Dylan, it had all been a dream, he wasn't awake yet. She sighed, answering yet another text from Sam, no change yet and it broke her heart. Her son was in so much pain over what had happened but he wouldn't talk about it, at least not to her, the curse of being a psychologist at your kid's school.

"Oh, I'm sorry honey, did I wake you?" Donna asked beside her.

"No, I just, had some kind of weird dream. Has the doctor come by?"

"Not yet, here, I brought you some tea." Her friend said sweetly handing her a cup. "You should go home for a while and sleep Kel, it's not good for you to be in here all day."

"God, I wish I could drink coffee right now." Kelly said glancing at Dylan. "Sam keeps texting me and I don't have something different to tell him Donna, it's killing me."

"Does he still think it's his fault because they were arguing?" Kelly nodded. "What about even? I thought those two got along great."

"They do, most times, he's been asking us to stay alone with the little ones at home and we keep telling him no, my guess is that, that was what they were arguing about, from what Sam said."

"Well, he is fourteen Kelly, and he's the most responsible teenage boy I've met." Donna said. "Other than David back then, Sam would be the one I'd trust my kids with." Kelly smiled.

"Yes, but, first it's babysitting and then it's a car and then girlfriends and.."

"Then he won't be your little boy anymore."

"Exactly, I don't know, Dylan and I, we just want to keep him being a kid for a little longer, when we were his age, we'd already done so much growing up, or so we thought." Kelly laughed bitterly.

"I can't believe you are going to be a freshman in highschool next week." Kelly had said earlier that summer. "You are officially not my baby anymore."

"It's just highschool Mom."

"No, it's not, it's a rite of passage Sammy." Dylan pointed out. "I know that for me it was one of the most important times of my life and one of the hardest." He admitted after a moment as he and Kelly shared a look.

Kelly brushed yet another memory away as she got a call from Hannah's school. She drove over, leaving Dylan in Donna's care.

"Mrs. Mckay, I'm very sorry but Hannah wasn't feeling well and she never complains, we understand how delicate the situation is right now, so we thought we should call you."

Kelly glanced at her daughter as she sat on a chair. She still hadn't told her children about the new baby, but she knew she and Evan were dealing with this their own way, and specially with Dylan who was Hannah's hero, she was having the hardest time understanding why this was happening.

"Did Daddy stay by himself? I'm sorry, I thought they wouldn't call you."

"Han, it's okay, he's with aunt Donna, you didn't think I was going to leave him alone, did you?" Hannah waved her head. "Right, so you are not feeling well, what's up?"

"My tummy hurts." Kelly stared at her 8 year old as she crouched down to her level. and as her Mom, she understood instantly.

"I think I know what's up sweetheart, you are really, really worried about everyone, aren't you? Daddy and Sammy and me."

Hannah looked down as she nodded slowly. "You are one sweet special little girl, did you know that? And I'm so lucky to be your Mom." She said softly as she lifted her chin to make her look up. "I promise you, sweetie, we will be okay."

Kelly drove Hannah back with her to the hospital, hoping to ease her child's worries. "Sweetheart, is everything okay?" Donna asked.

"Yes fine…" Kelly sighed as she allowed the little girl to lay back on the couch in the room and turn on the TV. "What am I doing here Donna?" Her friend raised an eyebrow up. "My kids are struggling and I'm not seeing it."

"Kel, you are doing what you can, all mothers, we want to be Wonder Woman, but most times we don't have it all figured out."

"So Sammy, what Daddy and I mean is…" Kelly tried explaining her barely five year old as she sat beside him on the couch, Dylan on the other side. "Is that, there's a little baby inside Mommy's tummy."

"Like Ruby was?" Sammy asked.

"Yes, exactly like Ruby." Dylan smiled. "And he or she will come soon, so we have to be prepared."

"Okay." He said, holding his chin in deep thought. "Will it be a boy or girl?"

"We don't know yet bud." Dylan said. "What do you think about it? Do you like the idea?" Sammy looked at Kelly, a wave of weariness filled his eyes.

"What's wrong Sammy?"

"Is Daddy going to stay for good this time?" The question took them both by surprise, a flash of pain crossed Dylan's features but he was quick to recover, Kelly answered before he could. "Yes, of course he is."

"I promised, didn't I?" Dylan said softly. Sammy nodded. "And I make that promise to you again Sammy, you, Mommy and the new baby are the most important thing in my life, I'm not going anywhere."

"And if he goes anywhere.." Kelly said taking one of Dylan's hands in hers. "He's taking us with him, right?" Kelly said looking at Dylan who reaffirmed his silent promise yet again.

Sammy tried to remember the last time he had been left alone since this whole thing had happened, his mother and Aunt Donna had taken Hannah down to the cafeteria and he had offered to stay with his Dad. He had wanted that time alone with him. To think, for the longest time when he was little, he had this image of his father, the man he and his Mom visited almost every vacation, they would get on a plane and he couldn't wait to see him, sometimes Sam wished he couldn't remember a time where his father wasn't there, he wanted to have all his memories to be of his parents being together like his brother or sister had.

He remembered being at their wedding when he was about 5, a year or so after his Dad had come back for good to stay with them. He was browsing on his phone for a picture to send Bella when he came upon one taken on their latest trip to Hawaii, there they were, Dylan and Sam with their surfboards, Hannah holding hers as well and Evan and his Mom beside them, all beaming.

"I remember the day you came to the house, Mom and I had just gotten back from visiting you at the ranch and she'd been sad all week, I had tried the longest time to cheer her up but she just kept telling me, she'd be okay, that everything would be okay and then you showed up and you and Mom talked for the longest time, I didn't really understand much of what was been said but I somehow knew she wouldn't have to be upset anymore, because you had come back and we were finally a family. You kept your promise and now you have to come back again, okay?" He said holding his hand gently.

There was a loud beeping that forced Sam to look up at the machines. A nurse came running into the room as another pushed Sam away, he froze there looking at the team of doctors who rushed in. "Sam, come on, let's go outside and let the doctors work." Sandy had said as she pulled him outside the room.

"Sam?" a familiar voice spoke from behind him

"Brandon, he called Brandon?"

"And Brenda." Donna added in a whisper as she glanced at Hannah who was sleeping on her lap, Kelly tried to take a breath, she had somehow kept in touch with the Walsh twins over the years, she had flown to Brandon's wedding years ago and had gone to visit Brenda and her kids a few times, but she hadn't dared to ask for their help regarding Dylan, there was a lot of water under that bridge even though she knew that they wouldn't even hesitate to come and help if they were needed, but this was too much.

And it would be very ironic if either of them were a match to Dylan.

"Kelly Taylor." Brandon Walsh had spoke behind her as she came face to face with him in the first time in years.

She was now married to Dylan and had another baby. "I didn't actually think you were going to show." He said hugging her close.

"We agreed, we'd always be friends, right?" Kelly said. Brandon nodded.

"Of course. Where's Dylan?"

"Parking the car, getting the kids."

"Really? Dylan?"

"You'd be surprised what parenting does to you." Kelly said to him. And it was in fact quite a surprise when the rest of Kelly's family arrived just a few minutes later, kids in tow. Sammy was now taller and the curls in his head longer and Dylan held baby Hannah in his arms, it was quite the picture from the guy Brandon had first met as a teen. "Hey man."

"Long time no see bud. Purple suits you." Brandon said referring to the swimsuit Hannah was wearing. It was the day before the wedding and they had all gathered for one last hurrah at Jim and Cindy's new condo in Santa Barbara.

"Thanks, I think so too." Dylan said kissing the baby's forehead, meanwhile Sam was asking Kelly something.

"Here, I'll take her." She offered. "I have to change her anyway, come on Sammy, you still have to get some sunscreen on you and I'm sure these boys want to catch up." She said eyeing them carefully as she went. Both men stared at Kelly as she walked away. "So, how do you feel about getting married?" Dylan said as they both turned to face each other again.

"How did you feel?" Brandon asked with a shrug.

"Well, Kelly and I had done things backwards already, but man on the inside? I was freaking out."

"Really, you?"

"Yes, definitely." He said nostalgically. "Even though it was my second time at it." Brandon nodded at the sadness in Dylan's voice.

"Well, I guess, that's how it works then because I'm pretty nervous myself." Brandon said.

"You'll be fine, just don't say the wrong name or anything like that." Dylan joked. Brandon rolled his eyes playfully.

"You left those two alone?" Janet asked as she met Kelly in the bathroom with Stevie and Caroline.

"They'll survive." Kelly joked as she was changing the baby's diaper. "I know our formative years were full of drama but I'm hoping they've grown out of it, is it foolish?"

"Well, you are at your ex fiance's wedding with your husband who was also your highschool boyfriend." Janet said. "It's a little complicated."

"Yes, but I've always believe we were friends first above all." Kelly said.

"So, you still haven't seen Brenda?" Kelly rolled her eyes. "What? It's been quite the dance between you and the Walsh twins."

"Yes well, like I said, I hope we've all grown out of it." Kelly said as they made it back outside, Dylan and Brandon were still talking and now Steve had joined them. "Where's Maddie?"

"Oh, the pool, which is where you are heading too, huh Sammy?"

"Yep, go ahead and ask Daddy to go in with you sweetheart, I'm going to go sit for a second okay?"

"Okay." And with that Sammy was gone.

"Sam? Where's your Mom?" Dr. Bean asked as he came out of the room.

"Uh, the cafeteria I think. What's wrong?"

"Actually, it's good news." The man smiled softly. "I think she'd like to see for herself."

Kelly was actually nervous to step into the room as she was informed Dylan was awake, she had rushed up but was now actually taking a step back, fearing she might somehow still be in some kind of dream once again.

"Hi Kel." His hoarse voice was even deeper from the slumber and the raspiness of the tube he'd been submitted to for the last 3 days or so.

She had wanted to scream at him and tell him how scared she had been but she couldn't find the words.

Kelly was afraid this would turn out to be just a dream too.

Sooo... Dylan is awake... Yay! And there's more drama and flashbacks ahead.

Please tell me what you think about where the story is going and thanks to everyone supporting it.

Until next time guys!