chapter 16 news
Six weeks after Charismas, I found out that I was pregnant again. I was so excited that I almost forgot to tell everyone about it. I told Usagi the morning I found out; he hugged me, honestly happy with the news. He told me that he would go to every doctor's appointment with me, no matter what the cost. I told him he didn't have to but he insisted so I let it be. The next people I told were my brother and sister-in-law. Apparently I wasn't the only one who had fun on Christmas, because Nanami had the same news I did. We both giggled over the phone, and talked nonsense for about an hour until Izuru woke up. I got off the phone with Nanami, turned on the TV and turned it to Izuru's favorite early morning cartoon. I went upstairs to greet my little bear, who was rubbing the sleep out of his eyes.
"Good morning izuru, how are you this morning?" Izuru looked up to me and nodded.
"Good morning daddy…is daddy happy today?" I smiled at his statement and picked him up.
"Is it that obvious?" Izuru nodded his head, as I started walking down stairs to the TV. I put Izuru down on the couch and went to the kitchen to make breakfast.
"Hey Izuru, what do you want for breakfast?" i called, making sure he could hear me.
"Cereal!" he answered back. I sighed.
"What kind of cereal?" Izuru put a finger to his chin and hummed.
"Hmmm… chick-ea pops!"
"Ok little bear."
"Thank you, daddy!"
I smiled as I reached into the cupboard and took out a yellow cereal box with little different colored chicks on them, and big letters on the front advertising the cereal name "chick-ea pops". I poured a small amount into a bowl, the drizzled some milk on top. I took the bowl to the living room were Izuru was sitting on the ground In front of the TV. I put the bowl in front of him, and watched as he picked up the spoon and ate unconsciously while staring at the dancing characters.
I wonder how Izuru would feel about being an older brother?
As that thought crossed my mind, Usagi sat next to me on the couch and kissed my cheek.
"Are you going to tell him?" I paused and looked at Izuru with concern.
"I don't know how he will take it…" Usagi looked at Izuru and spoke.
"I'm sure he will be fine with it."
"Fine…Izuru, come here for a second…" Izuru looked away from the TV that was now playing commercials, and to me. He got up from the floor and jogged to the couch, jumping on the couch next to me.
"What is it daddy?" I sighed to relax myself.
"Izuru…how would you like to be an older brother?" Izuru looked at me with a tilt of the head, then oddly looked over to Usagi.
"Papa…what does that mean?" Usagi huffed and leaned over to look at his son.
"Your daddy is asking whether you want a brother or sister or not…" I nodded my head in agreement then looked to Izuru for an answer. The little one tilted his head in thought, and then turned his head back to the TV that was playing his show again.
"Don't want one!" with that he went back to his spot on the floor, leaving me dumfounded. And here I thought that he was just going to pick whether he wanted a brother or sister, but instead I got his total disapproval. Having Izuru completely deny a sibling made me think twice about the child, but a gentle hand from Usagi made the thoughts disappear. I sighed, by my second trimester I'll know the child's sex, that's when I'm going to tell him. If by then he still doesn't want one, then I have no idea what I'm going to do. I thought with determination. I sighed again and got up off the couch. As soon as I did that, a disgusting feeling ran through my stomach and up to my throat. I through a hand up to my mouth and ran to the bathroom. I "prayed to the porcelain god" so to speak, for a few minutes until I no longer felt the need. My knees felt weak when I stood up to wash my face. I was trembling, but I no longer felt nauseated so I exited the bathroom. Usagi was standing right outside the door with his arms crossed and eyes closed waiting for me. When he realized I was coming out of the bathroom, he opened his eyes and faced me.
"Morning sickness already?"
"well it has been six weeks…it's to be expected…" I said out of breath. I wobbled, almost falling but Usagi was there to catch me.
"For now, rest. I'll take care of Izuru today."
"But today's your day off…"
"Never mind that, just take care of yourself." Not able to argue anymore, I nodded my head and reluctantly let Usagi carry me to my room. From there I stayed locked in the room with my head in a bucket, wishing that the ache in my back would fade. I wondered if Nanami was going through the same things I was, and when I thought of that…I felt like I had gained some strength to move forward. While I sat on the bed, I recalled memories of when I was expecting Izuru, of how much easier it was. I remembered how I didn't have morning sickness with the exception of one time with Izuru. It was almost like the child in me now didn't like me…and that thought scared me.
What if…
What if…
What if…!
My mind was bombarded with ill thoughts over and over again in the dark bedroom. Tears streamed down my eyes as I tightly gripped my hair. My mind was spinning…I was being pulled into my own thoughts of what ifs. I almost fell, I almost let the darkness consume me in that small bedroom, but by fate…the phone rang. Its loud noise snapped me out of my thoughts. I heard Usagi, I head Izuru…and I smiled. I took a deep breath and laughed at myself. What am I getting so worked up for? I laughed some more, then picked up the phone.
"Hello?"
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a/n: hello! speaking of news... I decided that i'm going to let you guys pick the child's name! but I would suggest waiting until you know the child's sex, witch I going to be revealed in the next chapter! and I would like to give a shout out to Yashira who gave me such a wonderful review that I literally cried... thank you...speaking of people who make me cry...guest-Chan i'm sorry that you cant express your feelings well...it makes me sad that I cant make you happy...eh but you cant please everyone! thank you for everyone's love and support! if you haven't already, please favorite, follow, and review!
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