Okay, thank you all so much for the reviews I truly write this for fun with all the craziness in the world. I find solace in the love Christian and Ana share. I apologize for breaking them up but in reality, even the strongest of loves can falter in a long distance relationship it's nearly impossible no matter how hard you try I did it personally for over a year and I was around 18,19. That does not mean its impossible for everyone. well with that being said I will promise some drama but a definite Happy ever after. their young and in their prime. I will also say Christian and Ana feel the same but Christian shows his emotions well Ana hides hers only Kate knows the truth.
Christian pov: "You good C?"
C: Yeah just ready to go home and enjoy the holidays with the families"
B: "same I will never admit this but I miss my little sister and Mia sometimes Kate lol"
C: "Yeah I talked to Mia last night she's excited we're going to be home tonight she is having a Welcome home party for us I swear that girl will do anything to just throw a party"
B: "why do you seem so down dude we are done with finals and were free for 3 weeks we need to have fun. stop being so bummed over Ana".
C: "I waited for her, for over 4 years maybe longer I have always loved her and then I get her and I have her for what 8 months and I fuck it all up because I was too busy to pick up my phone to call her."
B: "Well tough break now you know don't be too busy for your girl lol"
Ana Pov: "M: aren't you so excited the boys are coming home"
K: ehhh lol I am happy for Ana she gets to see Christian"
A: I am not excited to see Christian why would I be he loves me but he couldn't call me talk to me be there for me no he does not get to do that shit to me we could have made it work he ruined it not me I tried so I am done I am 17 I am a pretty girl senior in high school. I am going to enjoy it I have my schedule booked I will only see Christian When I am home and the holiday's because our families do it together"
M"damn Ana my brother was an ass but he does not deserve you to shut him out he is sorry"
A:"I understand I forgave him but I am not stressing him and I am not avoiding him I am busy that's all it is. Look I gotta go I have practice For the Winter break carnival I get to sing the lead and I have not even chosen a song yet and I need to start performing it like asap.
Please do not look at me like that I will see all of you for dinner tonight okay I promise I am okay with this."
Kate: I know my best friend she is not okay. she is going to pretend this doesn't bother her when I know she loved him I have to make them see this break or break up is not good for them or any of us if nothing else I need them to get their friendship back so we can have a great senior year. and because she is lost without him.
Christian pov: I am anxious to get off this plane and get my girl back I was stupid to think I couldn't do the distance what I cant do is be without her I sound like a girl but I love that woman and she is it for me I know we're young but when you know you found the one why fight it. I am so sorry I put her through so much I completely keep fucking shit up with her but I am so in love with her I need her.
Ana pov: "Have you picked a song yet?" My friend Jessie asks me no I have been to busy morning someone like they died ugh get over your self Steele.
A: "I narrowed it down to 3 pink what about us Whitney Houston, I will always love you and Last but not least Miley Cyrus the Climb."
J:"all great choices and you have the voice for all of them why don't you sing The climb it is more powerful and moving"
A "Okay thanks for the advice I will start rehearsing
J: Ana is everything okay? you don't seem like yourself these past few days.
A: "I know I'm getting there I just lost someone I really cared about and I am learning to Adapt to life for the first time in thirteen years without him and it isn't exactly easy but he didn't die so I'm just being dramatic. typical teenage girl drama trying to get over her first heartbreak."
J: "Girl, I know how you feel I was you a few years ago it get's easier I promise just keep your head up whoever the guy is really fucked up cause your gorgeous"
A: "Thanks, Jessie for listening to me. I can't really talk to my friends about this it is too hard because there close to both of us hell my brother is his best friend our families are pretty much forever this was always in our parents dream me and Christian and Brian and Mia weird right like who has kids and plans for that shit my parents are weird..." but I love him and I miss him and my friends think I don't care because I let them believe I don't but I just don't want them to tell him he is everything to me and then he will feel bad I don't want him to feel bad he made mistakes but he is so young and he is a freshman in college this should be the time of his life and enjoying parties and girls not be worried about his high school girlfriend."
"Wow babe I don't think avoiding this guy is going to help you talk to him see how he is feeling"
"I better go thanks for the advice and for letting me get this all of my chest"
"Hey Ana, Yeah? don't run away from real love okay"?
"Thanks"
I am so tired and emotional and now I have to go home and put on a brave face in front of my family and pretend that I am not completely shattered well I sit in front of the guy who shattered me this is going to be a long winter break. I just need to not see him today that is all I need to be alone today I can see him tomorrow. "Mom Dad, I'm home where are you guy's?"
C: "They went to dinner with my parents"
the shit universe you couldn't give me one day just one day no you just need to smack me in the face with him ughh...
A: "Hi what are you doing here? where is my brother?
C: "He is with Mia and I came here to talk to you"
A: "about what we said it all on the phone a few weeks ago what is left to discuss I am confused on why you need to talk to me you were right I was naive to think we would stay together I'm not mad at you but you don't have to feel bad you're young and in college you're single enjoy it I'm sure there are hot college girls waiting for there chance to hook up with you"
C: "Will you stop I don't want college girls I gave my heart away a long time ago and no matter what I do I can't get her Beautiful smile those piercing blue eyes that I hate to see so upset and those beautiful lips that I just want to kiss. Ana, I love you I don't want anyone else just you"
A:"We can't do this you're in Boston I'm in Seattle it doesn't work out I cant handle the distance. I love you so much and I want us too but it is too hard. I will be in Boston in the fall you will be home in May we can talk about getting back together then but what I really want until then I 'd really like my best friend back.
Christian Pov: "I 'M here Ana always here for you I want us I want you but I will wait just don't find anyone else from now until May promise me we will be together this summer when we' are no longer apart anymore. I can survive with being your friend but I need you in the long run.
A: "I love you and I will wait forever for you and you have my heart and I will always be your's but for now we will settle for what we have best friends who are more in love then is probably good for them but we know who we are and what we want. besides, I will be the hot new Freshman and You will be the Sophomore and we can be together and Be the Harvard Power couple so I can't deny the world that it just isn't fair to them I need to show these Harvard girls who's boss"
C: "I love you more than anything Anastasia Steele and one day I will Marry you and give you lots of babies"
A: "hmmm maybe 4 babies 2 boys 2 girls and they can all look like me because I don't want to push your big headed babies out haha"
'baby will you come to my winter concert I'm singing the lead and I am so excited.
"of course baby, I wouldn't miss it I love you"
"I love you too"
A/N I hope you liked this chapter I literally had something completely different in mind but then I realized I could stay true to my word and Keep everyone happy at the same time so this chapter made me excited I hope you all love it might end up updating again tomorrow.. right mow I Like writing but love reading I AM currently re-reading college neighbors by queen bee I love that story I read it so much haha and currently waiting for caramels fuck face aka lithium tides.. hope you enjoy .